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#!/bin/sh
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#llllmmmm11234567892123456789312345678941234567895123456789612345678971234567890
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set -ex
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<"$0" python3 -c "import os, sys
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for day in sys.stdin.read().split('\n\n\n'):
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f = day.split('\n')[0]; if f[0] == '#': continue
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d = '/'.join(f.split('/')[:-1])
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if '/' in f and not(os.path.isdir(d)): os.makedirs(d)
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with open(f,'w') as fd: fd.write(day)"
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exit 0
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/LICENSE
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Other than noted exceptions, this is free and unencumbered data
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released into the public domain.
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Anyone is free to copy, modify, publish, use, compile, sell, or
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distribute this data, either in source code form or as a compiled
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means.
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In jurisdictions that recognize copyright laws, the author or authors
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of this data dedicate any and all copyright interest in the data to the
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public domain. We make this dedication for the benefit of the public at
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THE DATA IS PROVIDED "AS IS", WITHOUT WARRANTY OF ANY KIND,
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MERCHANTABILITY, FITNESS FOR A PARTICULAR PURPOSE AND NONINFRINGEMENT.
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IN NO EVENT SHALL THE AUTHORS BE LIABLE FOR ANY CLAIM, DAMAGES OR
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For more information, please refer to <http://unlicense.org/>
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/zelda.sh
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#!/bin/sh
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printf "what, are you crazy? you're gonna get us all killed!\n" >&2
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/zeldb.sh
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#!/bin/sh -x
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set -e
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if ! command -v curl >/dev/null 2>&1; then
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printf "This script depends on curl.\n"
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exit 64 # sysexits(3) EX_USAGE
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fi
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ZELDA="https://archive.org/download/cirno_actually_plays_zelda_in_terminal\
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/zelda.wav"
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CURL="curl -Ls"
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if command -v aplay >/dev/null 2>&1; # ALSA
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then $CURL "$ZELDA" | aplay
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elif ls /dev/dsp >/dev/null 2>&1; # OSS
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then curl -L "$ZELDA" >/dev/dsp
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elif command -v audioplay >/dev/null 2>&1; # NetBSD audio(4)
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then $CURL "$ZELDA" | audioplay -f -e ulinear -P 16 -s 48000
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else
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printf "Unknown sound device. Sorry!\n"
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exit 70 # sysexits(3) EX_SOFTWARE
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fi
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2023-02-05 18:02:19 -07:00
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exit 0
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/blah/2023-07-13.html
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You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say STAND WITH THE CHINESE PEOPLE
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AGAINST THE CCP!
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You: hey hows it going
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Stranger: hi good
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Stranger: m20
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You: f19
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You: not looking for anything freaky though. just wanted to talk to
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another human being
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Stranger: fr
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You: i tried calling all my friends but nobody answered and aside
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from the 3 people i don't know anyone else
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Stranger: dang
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You: down bad i guess
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Stranger: just got my braces today because i never got them when i was
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younger
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You: howd that go
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Stranger: they kinda hurt
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You: do they still hurt or just when they put them in
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Stranger: still hurt
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You: ouch
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You: got my wisdom teeth out last month. hurt like hell. teeth suck
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Stranger: yeah
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You: what time zone are you in. im est
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Stranger: mountains
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You: oh neat two of my friends are from colorado
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You: 8pm. did you eat supper
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Stranger: no
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You: are you going to
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Stranger: soon
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Stranger normally around nine
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You: i usually have dinner around 6, tonight it was 7 because i was busy
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Stranger: cool im get going bye
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You: have a good night man. take care
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Stranger: you to
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Stranger has disconnected.
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You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say STAND WITH THE CHINESE PEOPLE
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AGAINST THE CCP!
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Stranger: Hii
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Stranger: M
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You: hey hows it going
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You: f
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Stranger: Good
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You: not looking for anything freaky though just to chat
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Stranger: Okay 🤣
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You: what time zone are you in. hows your day/night going
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Stranger: India
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Stranger: It's morning 7:40
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You: ah i figured somewhere around there but i didn't think it'd be between
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hours off utc, figured something:10
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You: because hong kong is 12 ahead of me or 10am. neat
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You: hows your morning going
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You: have you had breakfast?
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Stranger: Not yet
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You: i'm in est. new york time, 10pm
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Stranger: Still on bed
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Stranger: Ohh 🆒
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You: you should get up and at em. early to bed early to rise keeps you
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healthy wealthy and wise
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Stranger: Yeah I know but I can't
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Stranger: Lazy body
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You: that's too bad
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Stranger: Yeah I need to change
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You: i feel the same way though. unemployed for almost a week now and lately
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i've been staying in bed nearly all day
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Stranger: Same situation 😔
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Stranger: Recently I have completed my internship
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You: where was it? or if you can't say, what field
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Stranger: It's in software side
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Stranger: U know Cognizant
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You: not really. i think i might have heard the name. but i don't do a lot of
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computer stuff
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You: how was the internship? was it fun? did you learn a lot?
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Stranger: Ohh
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Stranger: I learn some technologies
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Stranger: Yeah it was fun
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Stranger: Overall it's good
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You: did you see if you could get a job there now that you're done your
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internship
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Stranger: I just graduated this year
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Stranger: I got job there but waiting for joining
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Stranger: No projects in software companies
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Stranger: Right now ression is going on
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You: oh
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You: i would stay in bed a little bit too if i were you
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Stranger: Yeah 🤣
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You: it's cool that you have tech jobs nearby though. i got a couple
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certifications in information technology but there just aren't jobs for
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it where i live, available or unavailable. it's just farms and kitchen
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jobs
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Stranger: Ohh don't worry
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Stranger: Try again
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You: i've just been applying to work in kitchens. i have the past two years
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or so and it's been fine. now i program as a hobby and it's more fun
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though i learn a lot slower
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Stranger: Ohh
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Stranger: Which language do u program
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You: don't be like me. computer jobs are higher paying. stick it out until
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that position opens up at cognizant. i can barely afford food
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You: i like C and UNIX sh (bash)
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Stranger: Ohh
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Stranger: Try javascript or java
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Stranger: U r in basics right now
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Stranger: Try to learn some frameworks
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You: it's hard for me to wrap my head around OOP. i prefer just lower level
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bit by bit stuff
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You: the programs i write could work on an 80s computer, work on my 2020s
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computer, probably will work in 2060. java i can barely get working half
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the time
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Stranger: Don't give up
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Stranger: It's program is very simple if we understand
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Stranger: So when u graduated
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You: i was class of 2021 in high school, dropped out of college because i
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couldn't afford it. what about you
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Stranger: Ohh I am really sorry
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Stranger: I done my bachelor's
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You: wow, that's really cool
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You: don't be sorry. i bet you worked really hard for it. i can't imagine
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Stranger: Yeah but I India parents only pay for all the studies
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Stranger: Now also I am leaving with my parents
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Stranger: Unlike usa it's very different here
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Stranger: Parents are very strict here 😁😁
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Stranger: About studies and all 😁
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Stranger: U know I don't have girlfriend upto now 😞
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You: my parents were really, really strict. but they never really helped me
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with anything. i had to move out on my 18th birthday and i haven't seen
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them since
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Stranger: Ohh 😯
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You: you should put yourself out there and find somebody
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Stranger: It's different here u don't get it
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You: how so
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Stranger: Girl parents are not allowed them to go outside
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Stranger: In India mostly marriage are arranged
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Stranger: By parents
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You: i personally would find that really hard. i love going on walks and
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talking to people i meet walking
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Stranger: Yeah now parents are educated so it's not happening
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You: how come your parents haven't made arrangements with parents of a girl
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your age
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Stranger: I don't like arrange marriages
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Stranger: My parents are cool
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Stranger: I came from farmers background
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You: how are you gonna find someone if you don't like arranged marriages and
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women your age don't go outside
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Stranger: Girls are coming dude
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Stranger: I have a shy
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Stranger: To talk
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Stranger: When I am taking to them I feel like
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Stranger: They are thinking I am taking trash
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You: i can say for certain i've never really felt that about a guy talking to
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me
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Stranger: Ohh okay
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Stranger: Tq to give confidence
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Stranger: So what r doing now
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You: confidence is important. you can fake it until you make it
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Stranger: 😂
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Stranger: Noted
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You: maybe pretend you're an actor or something. your job, not your goal but
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your job, is to get a girl's number. that changes it from being
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something you're afraid to do to something you need to accomplish
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Stranger: Okay 🆗
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You: if she says no she says no. that's good because it's a definite answer.
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you don't have to worry about whether it's a yes or a no, it's just a
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no. a no isn't gonna keep you up at night, a maybe is
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You: and maybe or yes are both good things. so there's not much bad that can
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come of asking for a date or a number or something
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Stranger: U motivated me so strong
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Stranger: I will try definitely
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You: that's great!
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Stranger: Thank you
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You: i bet someday soon you'll meet the woman for you
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Stranger: Yeah very soon
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Stranger: I will definitely think about u on that day
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You: i'm gonna get going to bed because it's late here. it was fun talking to
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you
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Stranger: Yeah me to
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You: and when you talk to a girl don't worry about it. she's probably as
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nervous as you are. a man with a bachelors degree? that's high class,
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that's education
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Stranger: Yeah
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You: alright have a good day!
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Stranger: Good night
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You have disconnected.
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/index.html
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$! __TITLE__ trinity dot moe
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$! __DESCRIPTION__ trinity's personal website
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THE WRITER MUST EAT -> patreon.com/trn1ty <-
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blah!
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ideas with no tangibility;
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2022-08-30
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These are browser extensions I usually install and use.
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These are Mozilla Firefox extensions that work in the latest versions of Mozilla
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Firefox.
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Containerization
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Amazon Container
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questionable sites highlighted in red.
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Wayback Machine
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Trinity's bean burritos
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All ingredients should go in separate bowls. Get some paper bowls if you
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don't have enough bowls. Plates are okay if you're careful. You'll need
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bowls for everybody's burritos, too - a decentish cereal bowl will fit
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threeish of these bad boys.
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Flour tortillas. Good sized ones. One burrito should be a decent
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lunch, not just a snack; these aren't taquitos.
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Beans. Black beans. NOT baked beans, MAYBE refried beans. This
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is your base ingredient so don't fuck it up. Beans are awesome
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and you should eat more of them.
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Rice if you want it. Beans are your main ingredient, do not
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crowd out the beans. Perhaps spice the rice with salt, pepper,
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turmeric; don't overdo it, your burrito should have more flavor
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than the powders that compensate for the rice.
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A red bell pepper. Slice the top off with the stem and scoop out
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the inside, removing the white parts and the seeds. Slice from
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the top to get those nice rings of red bell pepper, keep intact
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or slice in fourths depending on preference.
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A green bell pepper. Follow the red bell pepper instructions. I
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didn't even use separate bowls for them.
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Jalapeño. The corner store near me only sells them in packs of
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three. Chop off the stem and then cut circles including the core
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and seeds; the seeds contain the most capsaicin which makes them
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spicy. The jalapeño is there for kick and flavor.
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An onion. Chop off the ends and chop from the middle to get
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those nice circle sections, then dice. One onion will get you
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eight burritos, more burritos, and then more onion. I don't know
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what I'm gonna do with all this onion and I only bought one.
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Pre-made store salsa if you want it. You're already doing three
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peppers so why dice tomatoes too? This is a shit ton of
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ingredients that fit the cuisine thrown into a jar with sugar
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and sold as chip dip but you can put it in your burritos and
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it'll work well.
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Assembly
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For each burrito:
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Put a tortilla on a bowl.
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Press the center of the tortilla into the bowl.
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Put a fair amount of black beans, salsa, onion, peppers,
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rice, jalapeño, and whatever else I mentioned into the
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tortilla. Don't put too much but put enough that you're
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not hungry after one or two.
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two centimeters in towards the center to stop the filling
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from leaking out while you chow.
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can without moving the filling.
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unfolded section.
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Serving
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the touch.
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Sriracha or some other sauce as dip. Unnecessary but I like it.
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Dietary considerations
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This dish is vegan and halal. Replace the flour tortilla with
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a corn tortilla in case of allergy; for other ingredients, in
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case of allergy do without.
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Waste
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Wrappers aren't reuseable. Throw waste from onion, peppers,
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jalapeño, and any other vegetables into compost or outside for
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birds (except rice).
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Price
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I didn't keep my receipt so prices are from a local supermarket
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as of 2023-07-06:
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$4.00 flour tortillas (8)
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$2.00 black beans (20oz)
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$2.00 red bell pepper
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$2.00 green pepper
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$0.75 jalapeño
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$1.50 white onion
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$4.50 pre-made salsa
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$16.75 total for 8 burritos; ~$2.10 each
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I had some onion, pepper, and salsa left over, so I put the onion
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and pepper in the salsa and will have it with tortilla chips
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tomorrow. Sriracha and rice are staples most kitchens will
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already have so I didn't include their prices; they're optional
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anyway.
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My wisdom teeth never healed. I have two dry sockets. They have
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inflicted upon me the worst pain I have ever felt and if the dentist goes for a
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round two I'll get to experience it again. Fuck that shit, I'm getting morphine
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or fentanyl off the street if they give me ketrolac again.
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[3:50 PM] trinity: on my break
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[3:55 PM] trinity: yearning
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[3:55 PM] trinity: sigh
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[3:55 PM] [...]: so are weee
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Hungry. Tired. Just took a shower. Yearning.
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Live life in technicolor.
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I tried beer for the first time on Sunday. I tried to get drunk but I
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don't drink fast enough for it to take hold. It doesn't taste like piss, like I
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thought, or anything really. It tastes like water from a tainted tap. I'm
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drinking Budweiser and there's some topical controversy about it right now but I
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don't care.
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text.npr.org apnews.com news.ycombinator.com 4chan.org/g/catalog I'm
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tired of scrolling the same sites over and over and over and over and over and
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the plot isn't progressing I need to get out of this city I need to get out of
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this city I need to get out of this city.
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Saw The Tick (2001-2002). Saw Freaks and Geeks (1999). Saw the first
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episode of Mr. Robot - unrealistic, sucked. Saw Idiocracy (2006). Listening to
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Dead Club City. Drinking Budweiser. Smelling cheap beer. Cold. My feet are cold.
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Torso is too, less so. I want a cigarette.
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discord.com/app catgirls.nya.gay yewtu.be old.reddit.com/new When I get
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high enough I get vivid flashbacks. It feels like there's a gust of wind in my
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hair and I'm back in the Forester going to get overpriced veggie lo mein.
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2023-06-19
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I love you and I hope the week gets better. I'll be back between Monday
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& Wed. There's Boursin V Chs spread + bread in the fridge - I'm not expecting
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either to be good when I return.
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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composition book found on floor
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2022年09月05日
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~~morning - [...]?~~
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Jay games [check]
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1800 - Spider-Man [check]
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2022年09月06日
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0900 dentist [check]
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1430 [...] (sched.) [check]
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2022年09月06日 wed
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WORK 1100-1900
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DRIVING 0830-1030 [check]
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Do laundry [check]
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2022年09月08日 thu
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12-1230 Leave for MCR [check]
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1343 train to boston [check]
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2022年09月09日 fri
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0300 back from MCR [check]
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sleeping
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~1830 hide [...] x-mas present from [...] [check]
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2022年09月10日 sat
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1100-1900 work [check]
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bring [...]'s b-day present L8R
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2022年09月11日 sun
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remembering the inspiration for MCR's formation [check]
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do something with [...]? [check]
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2022年09月13日 tue
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1100-1900 work
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bring GB stuff for [...] L8R
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2022年09月24日
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[...] til 16
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[...] 1430-2200
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[...] til 16
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[...] 16-
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[...] 15-
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[...] 16-
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2022年09月26日
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crunchy PB cup?
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[...] likes:
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crunchy PB only on toast
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eggs turkey chicken
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italian/mediterranean
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_not_ pickles onion or PROs
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pizza, pepperoni
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_not_ cheddar prov carmies
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pepperjack swiss
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mozz
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BBQ mac pasta
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cheap ramen
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_not_ chili ham
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orange bell peppers tomatoes
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? sweet pepper relish
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2022年09月27日
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work 1100-1900 [check]
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training [...]? [check]
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-> SET UP SMARTPHONE <-
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clean/sandwiches?
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2022年09月28日
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--- BOSTON ---
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no notebook
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no plans
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no worries
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[undated]
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trinity to [...] communication
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2023-06-30 07:18:21 -06:00
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-06-29.html
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2023-06-29 07:25:38 -06:00
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Fridge magnets
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[kid giving a thumbs up next to atom bomb blast] Science! magnet
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bran flakes nutrition facts, pinned by previous magnet
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Hatsune Miku sticker
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ramen restuarant sticker
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General Electric magnet
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Stuff in front of the TV
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Sony Walkman
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lighter
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Juicy Fruit tin full of flash drives
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television remote (for a different television)
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bottle of ketrolac
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AC power meter
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wired earbuds
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safety goggles
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bricked Unihertz Titan
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flash drive
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nail clippers
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TI-89 Titanium manual
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TI-89 Titanium
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Stuff on top of the TV
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6x18650 cells
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television remote (for the television of which it's on top)
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two bottles of water, neither full
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two broken Gamecube controllers
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Stuff on top of the fridge
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computer monitor
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Stuff on top of the computer monitor
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American Sign Language dictionary
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The C Programming Language, 2nd ed.
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a near-empty bottle of water
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chopsticks
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-06-27.html
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2023-06-27 07:23:22 -06:00
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.LP
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"Closing time, Carl."
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.PP
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Carl looked up from the library computer over which he'd been slumped
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for the past five hours. "Damn."
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.PP
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Frank recognized the program Carl had open, a simple web browser.
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More simple than the one Frank himself used.
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This one was in five windows, each in different aspects, scattered across the
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screen, each open to different sections of different textbooks digitally loaned
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from the library. "In the middle of something?"
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.PP
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Carl smiled. "Nothing that can't wait for tomorrow." He dug around in his pocket
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for a notebook and started to write down references and kill programs.
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Carl had a slight beard and glasses misshapen by years in a rough world without
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replacement. He wore a canvas jacket despite the season and dark blue jeans.
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i knew how long this would last
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when it started in may
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but when october came by
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i know i've been wrong before
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i knew how long this would last
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when you called me your prey
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but when you brought out the axe
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i know i've been wrong before
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as we run through the woods
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racing against my heart
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can you hunt me real slow
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so that we don't have to part
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as we run through the woods
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you yell to me to come back
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but when you brought out your axe
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i knew how long this would last
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when you kill me baby
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make me agonize
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don't wanna reach the destination
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just wanna look in your eyes
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i wanna feel you rip my stockings
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then rip and tear at my flesh
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i wanna taste your cold conviction
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feel hot blood stream from my neck
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i wanna see you berserk
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i wanna fear for my life
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don't wanna reach the destination
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make me agonize
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i wanna meet the animal
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your skin is trying to hide
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don't wanna see it coming
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make me agonize
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2023-02-18
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[1135] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: cthulu tits hopw big
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[1138] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: im real i promise i cannot solve a captcha but thats
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because captchas are hard nooooo i'm real i'm so real
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believe me i'm not an unclassified online entity i'm
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a cute online entity
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[1138] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: i hate living inside the ghostbusters metal shoebox
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[1212] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: not on the no fly list or the selectee list pog
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[1213] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: bark(2) system call
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[1214] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: r u ok babe u haven't touched ur soylent
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[1217] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: trinity random number generator all the numbers are
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either 3 6 or 9
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[1226] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: why doesn't anyone just manipulate atmospheric noise
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to fix rngs. is it that hard? fly a drone next to the
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microphone
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[1538] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: follow no one. the only person on your "feed" should
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be you. recursive human centipede
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2023-02-19
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[1311] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: shot a man in reno just to watch him piss and shit
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himself
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[1314] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: top emoji
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[1318] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: bart simpson radicalism
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2023-02-22
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[0647] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: 2am trinitypost binge like
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[0649] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: pour a cuppa on poettering call that system tea
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your computers aint nuffin and you work on them for
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free
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i got my brewed beverage no i aint fuckin thirsty
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got that bri'ish class you got that linux grease
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[0655] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: account hacked by gpt (posting GAY PORN
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2023-02-24
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[0226] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: can tell when sex ypeople are on line because people
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start liking my posts a LOT at those hours.....
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[0228] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: get goatsed get rickrolled you just lost the game get
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rekt scrub get fucking smasked blaze up homie i'm
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gonnya report you hey check your DMs i e mailed you
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your IP address i'm dossing you i'm streamsniping you
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you're camping you're hacking it was the lag it was
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my monitor
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[0229] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: lightly fucked
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[0236] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: slides over to you hey fella can i buy you a drink oh
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sprite? ok hey bartender get my friend here a sprite
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so hey what are ya doing tonight? got any plans? sick
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sick hey listen can you piss? i don't need to know
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the implementation specifics i mean we all got at
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least two holes haha but can you piss? can urine come
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out of your appropriate orifice? ok cool listen i'm
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gonnya give you this card and i'm gonnya write on
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back of it TRNITY +1 --- 555 ---- and you're gonnya
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call this number and ask for this person that's me by
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the way. right? and you're gonnya say hey i was
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gonnya install the gold shower. and they're gonnya
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say oh gotcha and connect you over to the hotel where
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we'll be staying, and they'll give you the hotel
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information and a date and time. when that day
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happens i need you to be wearing only a bathrobe and
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swimming goggles and to be jojo have you ever seen
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jojos bizarre adventure? cool so i want you to be
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jojo posing when i open the door. because i think
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it's hot. do you want the money or not? i could give
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you a couple thousand dollars for maybe a couple
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hours of work. and you're gonnya turn that down?
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principles? listen to me. the only principle you need
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is profit. the only principle you need is cold hard
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cash. nothing else exists. there is nothing but
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liquid no thing but fluid and this cash is what
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greases those fucking wheels baby. so are you in?
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good good. by the way lose that belt. i wannya see
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your ass crack on the dance floor
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[0237] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: getting HIGH watching FNYAF LORE GAME THEORY
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2023-04-26
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[0910] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: meowing nuns incident
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[0912] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: BITING nuns incident
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[0926] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: i cant access cloudflare websites anymore cuzof an
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oopsy woopsy with bangin 5 monsters and surfin the
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chanz at hyper speed so now i'm on catgirls.nya.gay
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where there aint no flare there aint no firewall it's
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just me https js css firefox and the cold hard truth
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that is server cliet computkng
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[0929] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: march 2023 trinity marijuanya psychosis and
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subsequent trainhopping tea bender (do not research)
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-06-26.html
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2023-06-26 12:13:33 -06:00
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My wisdom teeth still haven't healed.
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Goodbye Reddit/u/devenblake:
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2019-12-07
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/r/i3wm
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Only suspend when lid closed and discharging?
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i3 version 4.16.1 (2019-01-27); Debian 10.1 on Thinkpad T420
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I listen to music off my laptop quite frequently. Normally I just close my
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laptop with it plugged and groove, but whenever I close my laptop in i3 it
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suspends whether or not the laptop is discharging. To be clear, I'd like it to
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suspend only when the lid is shut and the laptop is discharging; otherwise, I'd
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like it to ignore the lid state.
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I can post my current config if it helps but I'm not too sure it's necessary.
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Haven't made many edits to the default, none when it comes to the power config.
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Thanks for any help.
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> /u/[deleted]
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> [deleted]
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>> /u/devenblake
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>> Worked for me. Thank you! Here's what I added:
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>> # thanks to tqk_r on reddit
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>> HandleLidSwitchDocked=ignore
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>> HandleLidSwitchExternalPower=ignore
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>> HandleLidSwitch=suspend
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>> Stands to benefit from further testing, I'll edit this comment if there
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>> are any problems.
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2020-03-28
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/r/coolguides; /u/Senguin117
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Do not mix, or do I'm title not a cop.
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DO NOT MIX:
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Bleach + Vinegar = Toxic Chlorine Gas
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Bleach + Ammonia = Toxic Chloramine Vapors
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Bleach + Rubbing Alcohol = Chloroform
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Hydrogen Peroxide + Vinegar = Paracetic Acid
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> /u/devenblake
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> Are there chemical formulae for these so I can be sure not to mix them in the
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> precise ratio required to make the most of each product?
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>> /u/Morelikehammock
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>> There are several different types of bleach which are essentially
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>> different mixtures of compounds that would product a stable (NaOCl)
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>> since this is an unstable compound everything else is typically more
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>> reactive. So things like acid chloride and hydrochloric acid are in
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>> there too.
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>> Each of these reactions seems to be off a bit.
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>> knockout liquid.
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>> -not even sure about what type of bleach and acetic acid (vinegar)
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>> the reactants also don’t know what you’d want to do with that mutagen
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>> you can do something with it?
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/r/emacs
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evil mode for ed
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Okay. I'm a total beginner to emacs. Feel free to delete.
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A lot of people I respect use it but I just don't get the appeal. Is there any
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way to use emacs but make it function exactly like ed?
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> /u/jsled
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> You don't get the appeal of using a text editor/environment written after
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> 1969?
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> This is trolling, right? You're trolling us?
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>> /u/devenblake
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>> I unironically prefer ed to pretty much anything out there. I break out
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>> vi(m) and even Kate for real heavy lifting (last time I had to use Kate
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>> was for bulk-editing HTML tags) but ed is really easy to use and is
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>> always installed on everything. Used nano for years, then ne for years,
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>> then vi for a while, but ed is where the party's at.
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>>> /u/FunctionalFox1312
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>>> Unironic question: how old are you, and what do you do for work?
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>>> The only people I've ever heard of still using ed are whacky old
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>>> impressive.
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>>>> /u/devenblake
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>>>> 17 and I flip burgers but in my free time I program in
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>>>> shellscript and C.
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>>>>> /u/deaddyfreddy
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>>>>> Given all those things, it looks like you prefer
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>>>>> to perform a lot of primitive things by your
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>>>>> hands, instead of optimizing the process. And
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>>>>> you definitely have a lot of free time.
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>>>>> Ed is definitely for you, then!
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>>> /u/uardum
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>>> ed is really easy to use and is always installed on
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>>> everything.
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>>> More recent versions of Ubuntu do not ship with ed by default,
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>>> or even Vim. What you get instead is Nano.
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>>>> /u/devenblake
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>>>> Oh that's awful
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>> /u/[deleted]
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>> Mixing Ed with Emacs reminds me of Sam, which I hear a lot of people
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>> still like.
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> /u/Emergency-Ad280
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> https://www.emacswiki.org/emacs/EdMode
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> possibly a good place to start.
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>> /u/devenblake
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>> Thank you
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2021-05-05
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/r/programmingcirclejerk; /u/xmcqdpt2
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A lot of people I respect use [emacs] but I just don't get the appeal. Is there
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any way to use emacs but make it function exactly like ed?
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> /u/mizzu704
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> You don't get the appeal of using a text editor/environment written after
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> 1969?
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> /uj lol imagine using emacs and making this argument. You've moved onto very
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> thin ice there, friendo.
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>> /u/Kodiologist
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>> GNU Emacs is vastly more modern, having been first released in 1976.
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>> I'm writing this comment in Emacs btw.
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>>> If I may interject for a moment. What you're referring to as
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>>> calling it, GNU plus Emacs. Emacs is not a fully functioning
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>>> editor environment until itself, but rather another free
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>>> component of a fully functioning GNU system made useful through
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>>> the GNU corelibs, elisp execution engine, and vital system
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>>> components such as libjit and gcc, comprising a full text
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>>> editing environment as defined by the RMS Editor MACroS spec.
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>>> Many programmers use a modified version of the EMACS standard
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>>> (XEmacs, Aquamacs, MicroEMACS, etc.) every day without realizing
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>>> it. Through a peculiar turn of events, the version of GNU Emacs
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>>> which is widely used today is often called Emacs, and many of
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>>> its users are not aware that it is basically the GNU system,
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>>>>> /u/scatters
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>>>>> compiled directly into my unikernel. After all,
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>>>>> why would you want to run anything else?
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>>>> theangeryemacsshibe
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>>>> lol no EINE
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>> /u/ProfessorSexyTime
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>> /uj
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>> I'm pretty sure that's sarcasm...maybe.
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>> Being online too much and seeing a lot of weird opinions, the lines
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>> start to blur at some point.
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> /u/w2q
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> The best part imo is that someone has already replied with the Emacs plugin to
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> do it.
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> /u/AegisCZ
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> i found a great guide https://esd.wa.gov/unemployment
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> /u/affectation_man
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> A zoomer likes being an authentic Cnile and using the shittest tooling
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> possible. Exquisite
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> /u/UnheardIdentity
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> Ed is the standard editor after all.
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>> /u/wzdd
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>> Of course, on the system I administrate, vi is symlinked to ed.
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>> Emacs has been replaced by a shell script which 1) Generates a
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>> syslog message at level LOG_EMERG; 2) reduces the user's disk quota
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>> by 100K; and 3) RUNS ED!!!!!!
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> /u/hexane360
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> Given all those things, it looks like you prefer to perform a lot of
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> primitive things by your hands, instead of optimizing the process. And you
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> definitely have a lot of free time.
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> Ed is definitely for you, then!
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> *chef's kiss*
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> /u/tnbd
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> Ah yes, when you want to use ed but also get some RSI
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> /u/ChakaChaka26
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> no, you see jon blow uses emacs so yeah youre not a real programmer.
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> /u/devenblake
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> I ended up going back to ed for anyone that's wondering
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2021-05-08
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/r/vintageunix; /u/sehnsuchtbsd
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AIX 5.3 CDE desktop tour
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> /u/ThranPoster
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> I miss hierarchical help topics in a tree view. Much higher density and
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> organisation of information than simply asking your users to 'just google it'.
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> /u/castillar
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> Jeez. 8GB of memory in a system from 2002? This must have been a monster in
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> its day!
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>> /u/devenblake
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>> ~~Looked it up. Found a 2002 Dell ad that featured the Dimension 4400
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>> desktop computer with 256MB of memory. $799 for 1/32nd the memory shown
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>> in these screenshots.~~
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>> ~~Inflation calculator says the same money's worth $1176 or so today.
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>> Finding a - to be consistent - Dell computer from today that's retailing
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>> for around the same price, $1200, and applying a bit of naivety by
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>> ignoring the other computer-related advancements that have occurred in
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>> the last 20 years, a similarly beefy machine in today's world would have
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>> 512GB of memory.~~
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>> Of course after doing this I realized the date in the pictures is 2007,
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>> not 2002. AIX 5.3 was released in 2004 and the next release was November
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>> 2007 so it checks out.
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>> Sigh. The Dell Inspiron 530 was released in 2007, came with 4GB of
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>> memory (apparently its maximum supported memory too), for $599, which is
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>> worth $765 today. Almost 15 years later that money will get you 8GB in a
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>> Dell desktop today. So given that the pictured memory is about twice
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>> what was usual in a kinda-pricy consumer desktop at the time it would be
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>> like having 16GB RAM in a desktop today which isn't that unusual.
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2021-05-08
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/r/2dboomers
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2dboomers unofficial Discord server
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https://discord.gg/9dVqrgfry5
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2021-05-09
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/r/linuxmemes
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Cirno finds a command that plays the Zelda theme song
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> /u/Nazerlath
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> Cirno smhhh wrong theme song this isnt funky
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>> /u/[deleted]
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>> [deleted]
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>>> /u/blank_spiral
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>>> Remember kids, don't run random scripts you find online.
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>>> Especially the ones that uses sudo.
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>>>> /u/Jpac14_
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>>>> Is this script okay?
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>>>>> /u/Austerzockt
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>>>>> set -x
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>>>>> it away already tho.
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>>>>>> /u/Jpac14_
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>>>>>> Oops. I did it. JK. I alright made a
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>>>>>> similar mistake ages ago when I started
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>>>>>> with Linux. I was on Ubuntu and wanted
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>>>>>> to wipe a flash drive, so I opened up
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>>>>>> Ubuntu and lost everything. Lesson
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>>>>>> It works on my machine.
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>>>>>>> Well, it sure works. But only
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>>>>>>> once.
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>>>>>>>> /u/devenblake
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>>>>>>>> //www.trinity.moe\
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>>>>>>>>> permanently.
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>>>>>>>>>> blake
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>>>>>>>>>> That'll
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>>>>>>>>>> happen
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>>>>>>>>>> for
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>>>>>>>>>> trinity
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>>>>>>>>>> .moe,
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>>>>>>>>>> not
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>>>>>>>>>> www
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>>> [removed]
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>>>> sorry
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> /u/yeehaa_15
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> why would you use "cat"?
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2021-06-05
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/r/linuxquestions
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4G modems with good Linux support? Seeking recommendations
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I'm looking for a 4G modem that:
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- connects via USB or Raspberry Pi Hat (this would be for a Pi Zero W)
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- uses normal SIM cards
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- has good Linux support and can take advantage of existing software (I will
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probably be writing my own software but I'd like to be able to read others'
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code rather than going in blind)
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- can place calls, SMS, and MMS
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- can receive calls, SMS, and MMS
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- (optional) can use data connectivity
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- (optional) is cheap
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Any and all advice would be very greatly appreciated - both hardware
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recommendations, and, if you have any, software recommendations. I did some
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research but was confused by what I found and much of it seemed out of date.
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2022-02-24
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/r/linux
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A Simple POSIX Shell Music Player
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https://odysee.com/@trinity:a6/0001:2fb
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> /u/[deleted]
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> /u/lealxe
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> Somehow from the title I expected an MP3 decoder implemented in shell or
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> something.
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>> /u/devenblake
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>> While it may be possible I don't think that'd be doable and useful at
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>> the same time (you could do MP3 -> raw wave maybe, but streaming to a
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>> speaker I doubt). I meant music player the same way a jukebox is a music
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>> player, but I'll make a note to try to make the titles less ambiguous.
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>>> /u/lealxe
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>>> you could do MP3 -> raw wave maybe, but streaming to a
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>>> speaker I doubt
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>>> Why would you doubt that? With OSS interface it's writing to a
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>>> file.
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>>>> /u/devenblake
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>>>> Yeah but could you do it fast enough?
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>>>>> /u/lealxe
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>>>>> What, write to a file? Eh...
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>>>>> If you mean MP3 decoder itself, no, it would be
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>>>>> slow.
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>> /u/Traditional-Wind8260
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>> Same here.
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>> The problem is, even tho having an mp3 player written in shell will be
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>> insanely amazing. I'm sure no one will use it for the lack of features.
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>> I don't see any use case where someone will need it and won't need mpv
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>> or any existing music player.
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2022-03-06
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/r/C_Programming
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Issues declaring a constant array of strings
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I'm trying to declare an array of strings like so:
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char **a = {
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{ 'a','b','c','d','\n', '\0' },
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{ 'a','b','c','d', '\0' },
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{ 'a','b','c', '\0' }
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}
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I'm declaring the strings as arrays of characters because I need to insert
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character constants defined in an included header file.
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I'm getting errors because C is interpreting this as a "rectangular" array
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rather than a list of variable-length strings. Currently I'm working around this
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error by padding out the strings with nuls. Is there a better way to do this?
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> /u/oh5nxo
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> char *a[] = {
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> (char []) { .... },
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> C99 compound literals are an option.
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>> /u/tstanisl
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>> Moreover you could use more succinct syntax for initializer of char
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>> arrays.
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>> char *a[] = {
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>> (char[]) { "abc" },
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>> (char[]) { "abcdef" },
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>> };
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>> /u/devenblake
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>> Here's my actual code:
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>> int *typenames[] = {
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>> (int *){
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>> 'f','l','o','a','t', ASCII_US, STRIS_TYPE_FLOAT, '\0'
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>> },
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>> (int *){ 'i','n','t', ASCII_US, STRIS_TYPE_INT, '\0' },
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>> (int *){ 'u','i','n','t', ASCII_US, STRIS_TYPE_UINT, '\0' }
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>> };
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>> I'm getting compiler errors for each first char (initialization of
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>> 'int *' from 'int' makes pointer from integer without a cast) and each
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>> additional char (excess elements in scalar initializer) - these warnings
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>> haven't changed from the cast to int*.
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>>> /u/oh5nxo
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>>> Make them int [] instead of int *.
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>>>> /u/devenblake
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>>>> It worked! Thank you!
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>>>> Why did it make a difference? I thought constant type[]
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>>>> only differed from constant *type in mutability.
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>>>>> /u/oh5nxo
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>>>>> Initializer like { 1, 2 } is an array. I don't
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>>>>> know why we can't cut a corner here, and use
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>>>>> type *.
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> /u/Current_Hearing_6138
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> strings in c are nul terminated.
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>> /u/CaydendW
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>> Those '\0' are null terminators. '\0' is equlivilant to just a 0 in
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>> ASCII.
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>>> /u/Current_Hearing_6138
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>>> That is what I meant
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2022-07-09
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/r/unix
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UNIX published paper citation styles?
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Acme: A User Interface for Programmers and some other papers use a [NameDate]
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format e.g. [Pike99] or [Kern76] for citations (excuse me for hyperlinking a
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Plan 9 paper and not a UNIX paper for my example, though I've seen this in UNIX
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papers before). What style is this? I checked and I don't think it's any ACM or
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IEEE style and it's definitely not the usual Chicago/MLA/etc. Thanks for any
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help.
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> /u/wfaulk
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> It's very similar to the "alpha" citation style in BiBTeX (except that "alpha"
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> truncates the author's name to three letters instead of the four in your Acme
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> paper).
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> But I don't really know where the "alpha" style comes from. I don't think it
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> originated with BiBTeX; the style seems to predate that, but maybe not.
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> I noticed that A Handbook for Scholars was referenced a lot in the BiBTeX
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> documentation, so I thought it might have been from there, but it just
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> suggests brackets with numerals only.
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> Interesting question. Sorry I couldn't find anything more definitive.
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> Edit: Interestingly, one of the BiBTeX contributors is Howard Trickey, who
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> also worked on Plan9.
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> Nearer the end of my five years at Stanford, LaTeX needed a bibliography
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> system and my friend Oren Patashnik was working on BibTeX. I decided to
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> help by writing the first four BibTeX styles and a common set of
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> "subroutines" to use with them.
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> -- https://tug.org/interviews/trickey.html
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> If it's real important to you, maybe you could ask him. He appears to work at
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> Google these days
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Goodbye Reddit/u/trn1ty:
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2023-04-06
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/r/cyberDeck
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It has a floppy drive but you can't see it from this angle
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https://i.redd.it/vvei7gzio6sa1.png
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(http://web.archive.org/web/20230626172742/https://i.redd.it/vvei7gzio6sa1.png)
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> /u/DreaminginDarkness
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> Badass
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> /u/acd11
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> sweet! i miss the days of floppy disks. such a cool form factor too
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> /u/pleachchapel
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> Serious question: has anyone located a reliable method of using 5.25 inch
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> floppies with modern tech?
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>> /u/trn1ty
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>> Foone and the folks at the Internet Archive would know better than any
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>> quick tip I could give you.
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> /u/questionmark576
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> The fact that your main computer is held together with duct tape and has
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> visible batteries is extremely aesthetic.
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> /u/kevlar_keeb
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> It has a floppy drive. But, The floppy drive goes to a different school. In
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> Canada. /s
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>> /u/trn1ty
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>> It's below the screen. Once I get the USB hub and have time I'll take a
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>> video. I have tested it working, it's totally impractical but very fun.
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> /u/naverlands
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> i love that 65% keyboard looks huge
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>> /u/trn1ty
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>> It feels huge for the build but using a Thinkpad keyboard and Teensy
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>> seemmed [sic] baroque considering I prefer the HHKB anyway. If I could
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>> live without full size keys I'd use one of those cheapo
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>> keyboard+trackpad+laser combos they have on eBay and put it on a hinge
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>> with the screen and the Pi on the back, like a misshapen SX-64. But I
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>> used one for a build years ago and I really hated the feel of the keys.
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>> /u/WingedGeek
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>> 60%. Actually more like a 58% (60 keys).
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> /u/Skribbles4420
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> this is a good cyberdeck, i dont care what anyone else says.
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> /u/R4D104CT1V3FLY
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> Ah, the Floppy Disk. classical and romantic equipment.
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> /u/trn1ty[S]
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> Raspberry Pi OS version whatever dot whatever, it's a shitty Linux distro but
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> I wasn't happy with ARMtix and haven't gotten around to trying ALARM or
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> whatever it is. Up to date minus whatever security fixes. Barely customized
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> LXQt. xterm and Firefox and the usual console programs (POSIX section 1 and
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> ssh and git).
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> Raspberry Pi 4B 8GB. Geekworm UPS. GeeekPi or whatever fan. Duct tape. 3.5"
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> USB floppy drive. Some HDMI screen I found. Cables, a lot of them. HHKB Pro
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> Classic, mixed keycaps between glyphs and non-glyphs so I can keep track of
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> the Fn-layer keys I don't use often. Batteries I found on some website.
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> This thing sort of works and sort of doesn't, but does what I need it to when
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> I need it to, so it's good enough. When I need it to be something else I just
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> take it apart and move the tape around. I had a couple Thinkpads but this is
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> faster and works better, not to mention uses a ton less power. Yes, this is my
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> main computer, and it works well for that. Eventually I want it to be in some
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> sort of TRS-80 model 100 form factor but I don't have the stuff for a fancy
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> chassis so this is the best I can do.
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> It's not all put together, there are more components than USB ports. The hub
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> coming tomorrow should bring it all together. It has a smart card reader
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> because whatever, I had it laying around and maybe someday I'll need it, and a
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> floppy drive for giggles so it can be sort of like one of the decks they use
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> in Evangelion. The DVD-R drive I was gonna use used too much power for the Pi
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> and I was meh about it so I didn't use it. Eventually I'm gonna get one of
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> MNT's Trackballs and hack it onto a palmrest but I can't really afford it
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> right now and the PS5 controller I have has a good enough trackpad to be my
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> main pointing device, plus it has a microphone so I can Discord call on
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> occasion. It's not an orthodox VR deck but I think it's close enough to the
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> spirit of the subreddit to belong here.
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>> /u/[deleted]
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>> [deleted]
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>>> /u/trn1ty
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>>> I write on https://trinity.moe/blah if you wanna read my
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>>> unhinged rambles and rantings.
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>>>> /u/po2gdHaeKaYk
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>>>> Can I ask maybe a dumb question? How is that website
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>>>> organised and created?
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>>>>> /u/trn1ty
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>>>>> https://trinity.moe/blog is the source. That
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>>>>> blog is a shell script that decompresses itself
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>>>>> and generates itself into HTML with an index. I
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>>>>> go into it a little in https://trinity.moe/blah
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>>>>> /2023-02-07.html. The source code for the full
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>>>>> site is at https://git.sr.ht/~trinity/homepage,
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>>>>> at one point it was generated with m4 macros but
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>>>>> I'm moving back to writing the HTML manually
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>>>>> because the m4 stuff is a little complex and
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>>>>> gets fucky sometimes.
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>>>>> It's not a dumb question, my site generation is
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>>>>> a little unorthodox. But it's what works best
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>>>>> with how I think.
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>>>>>> /u/po2gdHaeKaYk
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>>>>>> You know what it reminded me of?
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>>>>>> Back a few years ago I stumbled across a
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>>>>>> community of people who had websites
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>>>>>> that were freely hosted on some server.
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>>>>>> The main limiting factor was that
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>>>>>> whatever website had to be limited in
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>>>>>> size (say a few kb or mb). It was
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>>>>>> largely text based websites like yours.
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>>>>>> Now despite some googling I can't seem
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>>>>>> to find that community again.
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>>>>>>> /u/trn1ty
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>>>>>>> https://1mb.co/ is the big one.
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>>>>>>> I think there's 1mb.club,
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>>>>>>> 1kb.club, stuff like that. Some
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>>>>>>> crafty queries in a search
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>>>>>>> engine with
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>>>>>>> site:news.ycombinator.com will
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>>>>>>> rake stuff up, the Silicon
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>>>>>>> Valley freaks have a fetish for
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>>>>>>> buzzwords like "retro-themed"
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>>>>>>> "minimal" "elegant" et cetera.
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>>>>>>> (shameless shill part 2:
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>>>>>>> https://trinity.moe/bookmarks
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>>>>>>> might have some sites you'd
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>>>>>>> like. 1MB was the first site on
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>>>>>>> there. hasn't been updated in
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>>>>>>> years, most of the links will be
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>>>>>>> dead, results may vary)
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>> /u/TechieMoore
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>> I wonder if that battery pack you are using would be sufficient for the
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>> Orange Pi 5, too....
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>>> /u/trn1ty
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>>> The Orange Pi 5 uses too much power and I think the GPIO is
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>>> incompatible. I'm probably gonna just get a different power
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>>> solution if I switch SBCs (I'm eyeing a compute module too, I
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>>> think it might be better for the form factor) but it's hard to
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>>> find something with better power consumption than the Pi.
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>>>> /u/TechieMoore
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>>>> Yeah, I'm having a hard time finding a UPS for the
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>>>> Orange Pi 5
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>>>> I'm thinking my cyberdeck is going to have to be wall
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>>>> power only. At least for now.
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>>>>> /u/trn1ty
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>>>>> Power banks are nice, I used one before this
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>>>>> UPS. They just drain out if you aren't paying
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>>>>> attention - always in the worst cases possible.
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>>>>> But so does this UPS, it just has a nice battery
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>>>>> indicator on the front.
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2023-04-07
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/r/cyberDeck; /u/LostHominoid
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Louis Vuitton Cyberdeck?
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https://www.reddit.com/gallery/12ewnkb
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> /u/trn1ty
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> THE CYBERDECK, that great style of device that rebels against our enemy,
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> Capital, which seeks to rip the right to build and repair our own devices from
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> our scarred hands, for its great goal; PROFIT. Which seeks to build a world in
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> which the WORKING CLASS HACKER must PAY to obtain.. to maintain.. to use.. to
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> yield.. their strongest tool. Already the greedy executive and his closest
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> ally the scum lawyer have made, through the DIGITAL MILLENNIUM COPYRIGHT ACT,
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> use of the hacker's tool to reclaim digitally restricted content on their own
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> computers illegal, forcing the consumer to search underground for ways to view
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> media for which they've already paid unshackled from cumbersome, proprietary
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> applications which demand Internet connectivity or the presence of other
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> malware such as "Microsoft Windows". Now these corporate ne'er-do-wells seek
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> to conquer that final frontier, our decks, and commercialize them into horrid,
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> bastard surfboards, lacking in assembly, presentation, and usability. Will the
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> anxious programmer and nonproductive luser, each distracted by exaggerated
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> threats artificial intelligence and the metaverse respectively, be able to
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> band together to stop mindlessly buying whatever stupid shit has a familiar
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> logo slapped upon it? Or will they be torn apart by memes, unable to figure
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> out that companies are not their friends, and their brand loyalty will never
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> be reciprocated? Only time will tell...
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>> /u/TwinPitsCleaner
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>> Morgan Freeman is in my head
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>> /u/DreaminginDarkness
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>> This is reaching me on a deep level
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2023-04-13
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/r/cyberDeck; /u/cult_of_lulu
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My CRT Cyberdeck build runs Win10
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https://imgur.com/a/MZRBy6C
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> /u/trn1ty
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> That's tragic. A beautiful computer forced to run Windows. It deserves to be
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> free, man, to feel the wind in its hair and to see a Linux framebuffer dance
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> across its phosphors, not to be condemned to a Microsoft junkyard forced to
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> bluescreen and sputter and glitch and pop and show Candy Crush and Facebook
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> advertisements for all eternity. Wouldn't you like to use Edge, or must you
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> really install another web browser? Don't let the computer program you...
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>> /u/xn0
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>> Stallman... But pls do not eat rotten shit from your own feet during
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>> presentations.
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>>> /u/[deleted]
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>>> [deleted]
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>>>> /u/xn0
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>>>> We need a young Jordan Peterson / Stallman clone , who
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>>>> is not autistic
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>> /u/notjordansime
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>> I tinker around with hardware, I want the software to just work. When it
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>> doesn't, I want to be able to call some guy on the other side of the
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>> planet to fix it. Forums are great, but far from the instantly
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>> gratifying solution I'm after. Sure, it's bloated and could be made
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>> better, but you have a full support team at your disposal. I'd pay
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>> $100/license for that.
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>> I'm not a full stack developer. I don't have a computer science degree.
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>> I'm a farmer attempting to make Frankenstein-esque gadgets with off the
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>> shelf hardware. I honestly prefer windows for this sort of thing because
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>> I don't have to learn an entire new operating system. It's what I've
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>> been using since W98, and it's what I'm comfortable with. Linux is free,
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>> my time is not.
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>>> /u/trn1ty
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>>> Last time I called Microsoft they put me on hold. My time is not
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>>> free so I installed Ubuntu and never looked back. I want the
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>>> software to just work, so rather than using a program made
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>>> cheaply to tick enough boxes to sell I choose to use software
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>>> the creators made to show to the world, source and all.
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>>> There is definitely value in sticking with what you know though.
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>> /u/Arch-penguin
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>> I concur!
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>> Honey wake up new copypasta just dropped
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>> /u/_Amazing_Wizard
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>> We are witnessing the end of the open and collaborative internet. In the
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>> endless march towards quarterly gains, the internet inches ever closer
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>> to becoming a series of walled gardens with prescribed experiences built
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>> on the free labor of developers, and moderators from the community. The
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>> value within these walls is composed entirely of the content generated
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>> by its users. Without it, these spaces would simply be a hollow machine
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>> designed to entrap you and monetize your time.
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>> Reddit is simply the frame for which our community is built on. If we
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>> are to continue building and maintaining our communities we should focus
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>> our energy into projects that put community above the monopolization of
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>> your attention for profit.
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>> You'll find me on Lemmy: https://join-lemmy.org/instances Find a space
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>> outside of the main Lemmy instance, or start your own.
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>> See you space cowboys.
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>>> /u/Sengfroid
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>>> The next logical step after "Information wants to be free" "And
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>>> your hardware does too!"
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>>>> /u/DrummerElectronic247
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>>>> Dud(ett)e, be careful. The GPTs are crawling reddit, do
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>>>> you want them to get *Ideas*??
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-06-25.html
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2023-06-25 14:31:23 -06:00
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Journal #3, in its entirety
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(even noted dates are iffy)
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(what remains of it)
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---------------------------
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2023年03月26日?
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This Sharpie is going. Good
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thing I keep 4 on me.
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No notebooks like this in
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yellow, had to switch to
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green.
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~~I wish~~
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2023年03月27日
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I sorta wanna [...]
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[...]. [...]
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[...].
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ALICE
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bivy . blanket? . jacket?
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hygeine [sic] . prescriptions
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clothes ->
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2xTsh Pants? socks! bras?
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undies liner hats? poncho
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TOWEL walmart?
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This paper bleeds hard.
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~35pgs into Deam Cognavi
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holy shit this paper bleeds
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2023年04月06日
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I'd write a song about
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being in love
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but honestly, I've never
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had that.
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And I've tried some
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things with someones
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but I don't think I'll ever
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get it
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Tried saving myself for a
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nice man
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[...]
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[...]
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And all my friends are
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shacking up
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And I can't make the
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connections
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and there's probably something
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wrong up here
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because nothing ever sticks
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Even when I've actually
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been held dear
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I myself just feel sick
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There's something wrong
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in my head
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I don't think it's anyone
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else
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But I don't think it'll
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ever end
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There will never be anyone
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else
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And I'm so tired out
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and broken down
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someone take me out
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make me good somehow
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oh no
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maybe they think I'm
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unobtainable
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drummer in a band gave
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me his card
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would it be weird if I
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placed a call
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they'll just laugh and say
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I went too far
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2023年04月27日
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[...] has Deam Cognavit
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so I can't work on it...
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Coworker as of 26日
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Hungry a little
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May be vegan
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but I'm always
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down to fry a pig
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Fuck 12 da doy but
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for real this time
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slash their neck
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and drink
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their blood
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I ma gine
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blood stream ing
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down my hand
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and to your
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mouth.
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You drink and
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lick your lips
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and ask me
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for some more.
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How
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can I give
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you all I
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have when I
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won't have blood
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left?
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For my self
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to bleed and
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cry and see
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in my eyes
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when!
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you're!
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gone!
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2023年04月28日
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I love writing in my diary
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cuz
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I can do it with gloves on
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Put all my dirty secrets into
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Sharpie ink
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cuz
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I can do it with gloves on
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Science fiction smartphones
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capacitive touch screens
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no
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I can't use em with gloves on
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Luddite shirking network
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million dollar ignoree
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I just work with my gloves on
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Working day and night and
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bitch I'm never having fun
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masturbating with gloves on
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When I'm not out there
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working still I'm never at
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peace
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sleep with my gloves on
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my heart taps faster
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pacing rating rest as wasted
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time, fine,
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I'll smoke with my gloves on
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every time I take them
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off my cuticles bleed
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razor blades in my gloves
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cut
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holes in my veins and eyes
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I'll never be free
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bury me with my gloves on
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~~I hope you get fucked~~
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~~with an angle grinder~~
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~~in the ass so blood~~
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I will fuck you
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bitch
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with an angle grinder
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lick off the crimson
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bitch
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I fucking hate ya
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stop hitting on me at
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the panic concert
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step on my landline I
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obliterate ya
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YEAH [breakdown]
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FUCK YOU [breakdown]
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MOTHERFUCKER [breakdown]
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AND YOUR FUCKING BITCH
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ASS FRIENDS! TOO!
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2023年05月22日
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Ada landed on top of a
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stone structure overlooking
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a luscious green valley.
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She let Jason's body fall
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beside her and sat down
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to catch her breath. A young
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boy dressed in loincloth
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approached her.
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[...]
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[...]
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[...]
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[...]
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[...]
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[...]
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[...]
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[...]
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[...]
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///
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The friendship I have
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with [...] is all I really
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wanted from life. Where
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do I go from here? Self
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improvement and learning
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to be a good friend &
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human being.
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| HH :M M: SS
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| /P M
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TRIN [...]
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ALICE MOLLE
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POWER+SOLAR
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RADIO+P +P
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PASSPORT PASSPORT
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3DS+P 3DS+P
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CLOTHES CLOTHES
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CHAMOIS CHAMOIS
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BANDANNA BANDANNA
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PHONE+P +P
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FIRST AID
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MEDICATION MEDICATION
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you're so soft and I'm
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so hard
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I drive too fast when I
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drive your car
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What I have
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Pine64 Phone 3DS
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1xUSBC WiFi 4G USBpwr WiFi
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ROMs 4 3DS
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no GUI
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Phone
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# mpv Nine\ Inch\ Nails&
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# for f in *.chd *.gbc
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do curl -T "$f" ftp://\
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[...]:5000/\
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media/ && rm "$f"
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done
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# sleep 10 &&\
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lsblk &&\
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mount /dev/sdb1 mnt &&\
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cp mnt/*.nds ./ &&\
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umount mnt
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SWAP KB for SD and
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WAIT for a 4GB xfer...
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ULTIMATE GOAL:
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Reinstall Pinephone OS
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without data loss
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| Fuck this goddamn
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| ad-riddled piece of
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| shit Best Buy tablet.
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Take me out to smash
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iPads
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[...]
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(2) procedure
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stick: make me a sandwich
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computer: define 'make'
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stick: create
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computer: define 'me'
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stick: myself
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computer: define 'a'
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stick: one
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computer: define 'sandwich'
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stick: meat in bread
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sandwich: fuck
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computer: bitch
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if computer can,
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computer do (exactly)
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[...]
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FOR the purpose of
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learning we'll be dis-
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cussing imaginary instructions
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on an imaginary computer
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this isn't a realistic
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processor but is meant
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to ease the learning
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process
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[...]
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computers speak
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in electricity
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[...]
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a register is a
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processor's thoughts
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[...]
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actual
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CPUs have
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several;
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sometimes
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hundreds
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processor operations in
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the real world operate
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on registers
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rather than thinking
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about nitty-gritties
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like shifting data
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around we'll think
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about a little chip
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that has 1 number
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in mind and can
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change it
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however you can't
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shout into a wire and
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have a the processor
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understand it
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[...]
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so processor instructions
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are encoded into numbers
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[what?]
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every byte we give
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it will be a complete
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instruction
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in the real world this
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is more complicated
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MORE MORE MORE
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MORE
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in the dark.I bend an
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ear to listen to a mentor
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I had
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for so long feared
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MORE MORE MORE
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MORE
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oats
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almonds churning,into
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cream, killing me and my
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business that I've had for
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years
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MORE MORE MORE
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MORE
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"never let them spread
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their soykaf lies! I DESPISE
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those sweaty young'uns'
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cares 'bout animal tears"
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MORE MORE MORE
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MORE
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my liege, what do you
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mean - my
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bovine are dying! is
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the future not made of beans?
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MORE MORE MORE
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MORE
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"you fool, have I not taught
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you? you heed their rules
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and listen to what they think
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is cruel as if these cows
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feel pain
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//
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in the dark, I bend an ear
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on my knees, pressed to his cage
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and see my master rise,
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whom I have feared due to his
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rage, and when he was chained
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and kept in this box, I never
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nailed the cross! I never nailed
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the cross, and in his blind blood
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hate, fed but a spare
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eye from a hen from
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our feasts, all he could do is
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wait, wait tacitly and bide
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his time!
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now that I have grown old and
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so too has this world grown
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around me and mechanized and
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I've seen all the town cows
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beed, forced into machines,
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sterile husks of life
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now displaced, because the
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people aren't yearning for the
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diluted waste meant for the
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verminous calves that they bear,
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that I render to veal, no, they
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wanna taste a beverage without
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cruelty, made of almonds or
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oats, go down so smoothly, down
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vegan throats, and kill my
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animal based livelihood!
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//
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squeeze them all dry
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add paint if you have to
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feds will subsidize
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unsustainable fortune
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and some cowswill die
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isn't that the point?
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riddled with disease
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sold at a burger joint
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price out all the rest
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make waste if you have to
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flood the milk market
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listen to the pained moo
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and when the milk spoils
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dump it into the sea
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oceanic dairy stew
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can you hear the pained
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MOO?----
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'cause when you're the
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cash cow
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MOO--------------------
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they'll get your money
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somehow
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MOO--------------------
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"ma, this steak is delicious!"
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MOO--------------------
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"it was on sale!"
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the sands of time
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bury all the decade's
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memories
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I miss the good
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water pressure
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and when the air was
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clean
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6/8
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the sands of time that wash
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the lime from dirty hulls
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of ships that cross the sea
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to see my curs-ed past
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Romanian dirty plots
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of ash but in my youth
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the
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sands of time that wash the
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lime from dirty hulls of
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ships|that cross the sea to see
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my| rotten past Romanian dirty
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plots of ash but in my youth
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we picked the grass for elden coin
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and when we found a golden crown
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we got to ask about the ground
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on which we lived and hear a tale
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of ancient brass who fought the dark
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impaler crew who sought
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to make the world anew
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bummed a joint off
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a bartender
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not much better than
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a beer
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but
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he's to whom I
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write love letters
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anonymously but it
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still helps with
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the pain
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of going home, sleeping,
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and coming back
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to work again!
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it never fucking stops
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not on my days off,
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they call me in
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not in my dreams,
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I dream of always
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working
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will death do us part?
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part ways with
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purgatory
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this nightmare bland
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air putrid stagnant
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episode-filler
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story
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you better tell our
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kids you love them,
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dear
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'cuz you know I sure
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you can try to dial
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my hotel room
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but my date won't pick
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up the phone
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my life
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is different now
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won't bake. you. pie
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I've left the house
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treat me right
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you don't know how
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so I jammed a knife
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into the couch
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seams ripped
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stuffing's out
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and she stained the
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bed
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the sun is down
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you better find a spot
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on the floor
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'cuz there's nowhere
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else for you to sleep
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now
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and I cry, so hard
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into a burlier man
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met him at the bar
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knew how to move
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his hands
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I think you slowly
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faded
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leaned on my branch
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until I snapped
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I think I was real
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patient
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but I feel used
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and I'm not gonna
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fuck around
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except literally
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beat me down
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did you hear me
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grinding my teeth?
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existential exhaustion
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[picture of astral projection]
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[picture of body-death]
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[picture of]
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the world is black and
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white
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or I might be post joy
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this comedown is a bitch
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or I'm just paranoid
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the end of the movie
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and credits are
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rolling but I'm so
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damn cozy in
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this chair I unfolded
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and yours is in its
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bag and your foot
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taps the dirt but I
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paid for the drive in
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I'll get my money's
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worth
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you thought I'd have
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quit you and I thought
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I could but next time
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I was with you I
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thought you looked so good
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in my grandma's
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sweater after you put
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up the hood but
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you've got impatient
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hoping I won't wanna
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stay we're going to
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all the movies in case
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I leave the states
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she doesn't know
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that I know that
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the motive is desperate
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but she doesn't know
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that in fact I so value this friendship
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so I'll play this
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chicken and collide at
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a closeness I don't
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wanna kiss you I'm just
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worried it's hopeless
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to try to preserve my
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only human connection
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the end of the movie
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and credits are rolling
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but I'm so damn cozy
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in this chair I unfolded
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you step onto the earth
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jumping out of the car
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but I'd like my money's
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worth
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because you drove so damn
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far
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you thought I'd get bored
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before the second act
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it's so nice spending
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time with you
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I wish it could be forever
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but I'm chronically abrasive
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and you're too soft for
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sandpaper
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and you think I wanna
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leave
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but I wish you would
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first
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god, don't get attached
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to me
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because the ending will
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hurt
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it's the end of the movie
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and the credits are
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scrolling
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but I'm still so cozy
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in this chair I unfolded
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your boots strike the earth
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as you jump out the car
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but I'd like my
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money's worth
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'cuz you drove so damn
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far
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they always get bored
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here
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around the second act
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not me, I've been
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enjoying
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the atmosphere and popcorn
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bag
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will we survive our
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respective selves' self
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sabotage?
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I feel a little tired
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I promise it's not your
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fault
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and it's so nice
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to get to spend time
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with you
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I wish it could be
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forever
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but everyone's always
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gotta move
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post joy, it's black and white
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over, credits scrolling, now
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enter the rest of the
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night
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maybe I'm on a comedown,
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I think, jumping from
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the car
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my boots touch the
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earth, I paid the gas
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but you drove far
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you're not from around
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here. I'll tie my
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lace by your phone
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light
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grind my bones until
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I break
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at which point I'll
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grab another roll
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of duct tape
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and if I die to yester-
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day
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good riddance; farewell,
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aufviedersein [sic]
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the only good cop is
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a dead cop
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on pigs' graves flowers
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bloom
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and a white wife cries
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at the murder site
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the blood spilled
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wasn't blue
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and when he spit
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on the homeless
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was that the service
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we were due?
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because insecurities
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manifest
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when you give
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them power;
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1 3 1 2
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astroturf the burial plot
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politicized unrest
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marxists killed all
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the good cops
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that's why there aren't
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any left
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and marijuana's still
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a crime
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in places, if you're
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trans so is your life
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so many people in
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the shadows
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if you wanna be
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equal you'll have to
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fight
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Jacob's recently-
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killed corpse lay on
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the temple
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among Ada's equipment,
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unattended. Its sillhouette [sic]
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called to a child of the
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village who scampered
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to the tower and started
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rummaging through
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Ada's bag's contents in
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company of the body.
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They selected a
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device resembling a
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helmet and put it
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on Jacob's head, toggling
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switches on the
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visor at random. It
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glowed blue and Jacob
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started convulsing.
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[drawing of lava lamp]
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[drawing of broken lava lamp]
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[drawing of eye]
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[drawing of eye]
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[drawing of eye]
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[drawing of eye]
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[drawing of eye]
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[drawing of eye]
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[drawing of eye]
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[drawing of eye]
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[drawing of eye]
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[drawing of eye]
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[drawing of eye]
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[drawing of eye]
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[drawing of eye]
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[drawing of eye]
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I need to take my
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meds
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[undated; 2023年06月01日 - the day I got my wisdom teeth out]
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im hiiiiiiiigh :3
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[...] PHARMACY
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[...]
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[...]
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I AM SAYING
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I LOVE U A LOT
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SORRY IF IT
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MAKES U
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UNCOMFORTABLE
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I CARE ABOUT
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UR WELL BEING
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& WANT 2 GIVE
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U THE SPACE
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+ SECURITY U NEED
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TO BE WELL. IF
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I'M WACK LET
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ME KNOW. U R
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SO COOL
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IM BLEEDING A
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LOT...
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[...]
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HELLO I'M [...]
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[...] (DOB:
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[...]) HERE
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2 PICK UP A PRESCRIPTION
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:) GOT MY
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WISDOM
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TEETH
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OUT!
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THANK U
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SO MUCH!
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U ROCK
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TRINITY
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YOU RULE
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TYLENOL
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(ACETAMINOPHEN)
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- TREATS
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INFLAMMATION
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+ HELPS
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PAIN
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KETROLAC
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^ SUPER STRONG
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| IBUPROFEN
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NSAID
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2023年06月04日
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59 hours since I got my
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wisdom teeth out. Jesus
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fuck. This hurts pretty bad.
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Like it's been 1 hour or
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so since getting kicked in
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the jaw by a lumberman.
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Or 2 hours since having my
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headforcefully removed from
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the intended destination of
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a large automobile. Got.
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It hurts to hell. I'm too
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stubborn to take my
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medication because I risk
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liver damage according to
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German authorities whom I
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trust more than weak
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spined americans.
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I don't feel well mentally
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either. My friend M-- is
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out for the evening so
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there will be no solace or
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sympathy, no other bearer
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of my pain. When pain is,
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shared, I feel, it's diminished,
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dissolved in a sea of hugs and
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well wishes like salt into
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water I have to swish in
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my mouth thrice or so a day,
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maybe more- it's said to
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promote healing, so compared
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to whatever frequency is
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suggested surely I do more.
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Ice helps but the shitty
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ice packs given to me by
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the oral surgeon don't freeze
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in my shitty minifridge. I've
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been offered
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marijuana and alcohol by my
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other roommates but I
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partake in marijuana no longer
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since March and have never
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been much a fan of the fire water.
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So much fire in my mouth
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already. The flames lick
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my eyes, my lips, consume
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me in misery. They already
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hurt before their removal,
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now that I try to free myself
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from the pain, they exact their
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revenge.
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I won't call M-- - she's having
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fun and hasn't had any the
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past three days looking out for
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me. I'm so thankful for her
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aid and friendship. She, singularly,
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is my solace. I am so afraid
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to lose her. I have ruined
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every friendship with my
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horrible medley of softness or
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abrasion, always choosing the
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worst tool, smothering or
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slicing. M-- has me eating well,
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acting well, socializing well,
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and I think I can be a good
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friend through everything.
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As long as I am true to
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myself and M--, I will be.
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2023年06月06日
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Ready or not, work,
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here I come!
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void in my mouth
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see to my bone
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see how I hurt
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void now I'm out
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please let me out
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please fix my jaw
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god fix me please
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grant me release
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grant me release
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[drawing of dry socket]
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[drawing of dissociation]
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you can't put this
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fox in a box
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I won't suck on
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your cock
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out of every single
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cage
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I will run run run
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run run run run
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I can't recognize
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faces
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except when I'm
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wrong
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I don't feel human
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or like I belong
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anywhere anywhere
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anywhere anywhere
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anywhere anywhere
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anywhere anywhere
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the pain never ends
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no matter how loud I
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scream
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the black cavern inside
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me
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stub foot made of gangrene
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I'm rotting, I'm rotten
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I wish I was dead again
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you say how little I'm
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worth
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you took me out of this
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earth
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out of this out of this
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out of this out of this
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out of this out of this
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out of this out of this
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can you kill me
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cuz I want you to
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the dead have risen
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I want back in my tomb
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I awoke in the mud
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to a cackling howl
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skin decomposed, clotted
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blood
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in this pit under the moon
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your spade made a \[thud\]
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you held my skull in your arms
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my blackened eyes shone
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will you be my Frankensteined
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groom
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I never felt human
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or like I belonged
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could only recognize faces
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when I was wrong
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my heartbeat tortured me
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ticket allthe time I was
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suffering
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when I poisoned myself
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there was no one to comfort me
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now you put this fox in a new
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box
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so I can suck on your cock
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and feed me dog food
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tell me when to bark
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how can I complain?
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this environment is quite
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hospitable
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I: Sand
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Our tongues lay dry as
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we woke up
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No water, and the house
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had no tap
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I walked to the town
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square
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[...] 06-18 free
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tom 1700 [...]
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I spend all day at work
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walking on the dead that
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I've dropped
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and all night in the forest
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among the life that springs
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up.
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Hamburger's cooked hundred
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fifty or so
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the forest is sixty. Less
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and I'm cold.
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the day I'd like to make
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it to next
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is living for a living, so
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I can live 'fore I'm old
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SPENDING 2023-06-15
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$386
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$200 savings
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$80 bill
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$40 batteries
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$10 VPN
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[undated; likely 2023-06-17]
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SNAKE OIL
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None
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"hello"
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"5"
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/ \
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/ 5 \
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/ ^ \
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/ | \
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/ | \
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|/_ / \ _\|
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eval("5") int("5")
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"import os; os.system('destroy everything')"
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[undated; likely 2023-06-18]
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Spending the day with [...].
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We were at [...] & [...]'s dorm
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'till 1300 - it was quite
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pleasant! Image macros printed
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in gray adorned the bathroom
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walls and soft toilet paper
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greeted me when I used
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their restroom, the focal
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point of any living area.
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The rest of the dorm was
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also beautiful, I was just
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really impressed at the
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quality of the college
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bathroom. Tomorrow's
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Juneteenth, the anniversary
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of the abolition of slavery
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in the United States of America.
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The last year was a little
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wild but lead to now, the
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first time in my life
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where I really feel
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happily content. I'm living
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with [...] and my co-workers
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[...] and [...] in a slum
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in a less kind area
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of a notoriously unkind
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city in the alien state
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of [...]. Where there is
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no kindness, however, there
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is honesty - truth in how
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people live and labor.
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The darkness occurs in
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daylight and the grit in
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air. Less secrecy, less
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[the top of the page was torn]
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[...] at the [tear]
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named [...]
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where I have ordered
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pizza. I expected a
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pizzeria experience and
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now find myself in a
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gourmet restuarant with
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my backpack that, when
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held closely, faintly
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smells of cat piss and
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my jacket that, when
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held closely, overtly
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reeks of musky sunny
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day sweat.
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[...] is probably gonna join
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me after her cigarette and
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coffee at the gas station
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down the street, then
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have some pizza if she so
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chooses, and then we'll
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walk around this downtown
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and potentially visit the
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art museum. A peaceful
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weekend. I look forward
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to all of this and a
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scenic bus home and
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walk to the apartment
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and my soft, overpriced
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sleeping bag and my
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Ikea-brand plush
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shark.
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But right now on my
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mind pacing is my pizza.
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I am ravenously hungry,
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made ravenous by the
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[this is when the pizza arrived]
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[...]
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[...]
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Skateboard
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$10
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Winslow Homer
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Evening
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[undated; likely 2023-06-19]
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my snot is neon but I kinda
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like it
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looks like alien jism
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saw a doctor but he didn't
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know what
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to do about my condition
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maybe I should just
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blow it out
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snot's yellow just like
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cheese from a cow
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(moo)
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my neighbor's purple, I kinda
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like him
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looks like Barney the dino
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he killed a squirrel
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and then ate it
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[undated; likely 2023-06-22]
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[[...]'s handwriting:]
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[...]'S
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BIRTHDAY
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@ 24:30
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GET MUFFIN
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+ CANDELS
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@ CUMBIES
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$ ? [/:]
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TRIN
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(it's on me) :)
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candles idk
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muffin [check]
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want me to
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go _right_
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_now_?
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-03-07.html
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2023-03-07 05:31:10 -07:00
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2022-09-28
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[11:25 PM] trinity: the ocean is filled with water
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the earth is getting hotter
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politics don't give a bother
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i just did a sheet of blotter
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WHAT THE FUCK IS THE OCEAN
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WHY IS IT WATER
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FILL IT WITH SOMETHING ELSE
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OCEAN FILLED WITH MILK
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TURN THE COWS INTO MILK
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TURN THE GOATS INTO MILK
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TURN THE MOMS INTO MILK
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TURN THE OATS INTO MILK
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EVERYTHING CAN BE MILK
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MACHINE TURNS SHIT INTO MILK
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I DRINK ALL THE MILK
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I PISS OUT THE MILK
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fish cannot swim in milk
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fish become violently ill
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spoiled milky fish
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scientists are starting to wish
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EVERYTHING COULD BE MILK
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NOBODY IS WORKING ON THIS?
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EVERYTHING COULD BE MILK
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MILKY MILKY MILKY WAY
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[11:25 PM] trinity: somg ide
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[11:25 PM] trinity: idea
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[11:25 PM] trinity: song idea
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[11:26 PM] [...]: LMAO I fuckin loved this ? What instrument do u imagine
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it sung to
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2022-09-29
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[1:33 AM] trinity: all instruments
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[1:33 AM] trinity: every single one
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[1:33 AM] trinity: at once
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[3:03 AM] trinity: the ocean is getting hotter
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filled with slow warming water
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scientists are losing their minds
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i think it's about time
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gather the lactating creatures
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humans, cows, goats, almonds
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i'm gonna be the cheerleader
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for a global cause solving the problem
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that
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THE OCEANS AREN'T FILLED WITH MILK
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THE OCEANS AREN'T FILLED WITH MILK
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THIS IS PRIME TIME FOR A MILKY TIME
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FILL THE OCEANS WITH MILK
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i build a machine that turns to milk
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anything that should be milk
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children start to become ill
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but the children are not milk
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all the mommies in the world
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every dog cat hamster in the world
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gonna be turned into its milk
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so they can never quarrel
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and we can
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FILL THE OCEANS WITH THEIR MILK
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FILL THE OCEANS WITH THEIR MILK
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WE CAN'T SELL IT SO TO HELL WITH IT
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INTO THE OCEAN DUMP THE MILK
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our milk business is number one
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got milk we milked it's so much fun
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pasteurize disorganize
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for calfs? what's that? we'll drink the milk
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i don't remember how the money works
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i'm just the production manager
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mass extinction milky end
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dead babies in dead mangers
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but we still
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FILLED THE OCEANS WITH OUR MILK
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FUCK THE FISH YOUR WORLD IS MILK
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END THE WORLD THE WORLD IS MILK
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WE FILLED THE OCEANS WITH THE MILK
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[3:03 AM] trinity: this was draft 2
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-03-06.html
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2023-03-07 05:31:10 -07:00
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2022-08-30
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gear
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Amazon links listed are not tracker links nor affiliate links.
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Italicized entries are items I used to carry but don't anymore.
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[Backpack](5.11 RUSH12)
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- some Aspirin
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- Computer repair kit
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- [Power bank](Anker PowerCode Essential)
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- a sandwich or two sometimes
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- two 12oz cans of Monster Energy and two 500mL bottles of
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water
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- [Soldering iron](Pine64 Pinecil)
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- [Velcro nametag](Amazon listing)
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- Tote bag
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- [USB-C mains power adapater](Anker Nano)
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- USB-C plug-plug cables
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- [USB-C port to USB-A plug adapters](Amazon listing)
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- [USB-C SD and micro SD card reader](Amazon listing)
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On-person
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- [Concert earplugs](Amazon listing)
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- [Earbuds](Moondrop Aria)
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- [Lip balm](Carmex)
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- phone (usually not a smart phone)</LI>
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- [watch](Casio F-91W)
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- and [strap](Amazon listing)
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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2023-03-05 20:14:48 -07:00
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What's the best $100 you've ever spent?
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pages from my journal (all from 2023-03-04)
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my mind is in the forest exploring glaciers' vestiges
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my body is in a city bound in chains
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my mind is in a prairie and touching tall grass
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my body is in a steel room in a concrete building
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all i feel is typical serenity
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as i am slowly disassembled
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fuck off out of my lump of meat
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i did not permit the use of my thoughts
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running thru my fucking neurons
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using my synapses to cross the fucking street
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get out of my head get out of my head
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stop talking right now i swear to god
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i need to get some fucking sleep
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they record my phone calls
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i will fucking kill you for violating my rights
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stop distracting me messing up my count of sheep
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solid state speed control?
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piss!
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in my mouth!
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warmth!
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trick'ling down!
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all the ammonic
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tides of the ocean
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and the salt beach
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shore when you take too
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long and the seventy
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sides and emotion
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and the salt cream
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odor when you take too long
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so if you will torture
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my toothpaste tongue
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with an unwashed pipe
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finish the job and
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piss! in my mouth!
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journal but written
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[drawings of cats next to the phrase "geometry cat"]
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[drawings of mice]
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[repeated drawings of the same square shape with "follow" pointing at
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it]
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i'm really tired
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fallin' asleep in da
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burger king lobby
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DREAM ---
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[stick figure next to exclamation point]
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[stick figure next to question mark]
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[stick figure pulls out phone]
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[phone zooms in]
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[text message from [...]: hey i just downed a monster do u want 1? :)
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nah (sent to [...])
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thx 4 offerin tho (sent to [...])
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[stick figure holding phone saying "[...]'s drinking monster?"]
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[drawings of curvy triangles]
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grub muff tough stuff
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rough hug butt munch
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chug bug jug tug
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crumb lump duff cuff
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[drawin of snail]
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cursive test
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I like joining letters with loops but it's hard to write and not easy
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to read so what's the point
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would be cooler if [...] was here
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I just head a GBA start up jingle
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my handwriting is always messier after I try cursive
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big day for the tow truck industry
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pages from my journal (all from 2023-03-05)
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[stick figure with ponytail and hat thinking "smoochin'"]
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ur good i'm still vibing i just not sure about family stuff?
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mint condition kitchen
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never lived in living room
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clean plastic wrapped sofa
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market friendly tomb
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[...] is my favorite character so this is sort of like fanfiction
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[stick figure looking at fourth wall next to question mark]
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[drawings of triangles]
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thanks for your adaptability
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national treasure 2: international loot
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Gas and meals probably summed to $100 this weekend...
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-03-04.html
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2023-03-05 20:14:48 -07:00
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0230: 16 more hours...
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You think really loud, Anon-kun...
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I'm so exhausted. I need to stop smoking. I'm not eating anything
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because it takes my appetite, which is nice, but it's taking my energy too a
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little.
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I don't want a place at which I live. I've had dozens of places at
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which I've lived. I want a home!
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Nechan, I wish we could have done all the things we said we would. I
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would have liked that. You deserve better than me.
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kkkkkkk I fell asleep on the keyboard.
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-03-03.html
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2023-03-05 20:14:48 -07:00
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Trinity day!
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Who's on first? Maybe I am.
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-03-02.html
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2023-03-05 20:14:48 -07:00
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Now listening: Tomb - Angelo de Augustine
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Service: last.fm - trn1ty
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You load sixteen tons, what do you get? Another day older and deeper in
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debt.
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Got myself addicted to smoking green tea. It doesn't help that it's
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really cheap and understudied so the health drawbacks are unknown and debated.
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Kicked nicotine though.
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Sent SMS to [...] at 2023-03-01T23:06:20-0500:
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post office scary. working for The Man. The Man pays well though and usps needs
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the hands...
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Received SMS from [...] at 2023-03-02T06:45:02-0500:
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That was poetry
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2019-03-26
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I played this game when I was little
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and it was a little too violent
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my parents tried to hide it
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because it "wasn't for me".
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The confirmation sound haunts me
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the sound of success daunts me
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I can no longer visualize myself winning a stage.
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Now I'm sitting on the deck
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without my phone or my new tech
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and I'm sitting with myself
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in the quiet.
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2019-03-25
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I've dicted my distrust
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of the dicting of the youth
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now I'm dicted to the lies
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and I'll never know the truth
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this pencil is a fag
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and I burn it day and night
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watching it run dry
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gives me a new height
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I'm dicted to the lies
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and they're better than the truth
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for the lies give me warm comfort
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while they tie the noose.
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2019-09-25
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every time i see her
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my face not only lights like an incandescent but burns
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brightly, the tungsten coil's temperature rising but not towards its melting
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point
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and i cannot utter that magic, four letter word
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and hell, i can't really say whether it is that magic word
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or a million other four letter combinations
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but my god
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i cannot help but smile when i see her
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and i cannot help but feel happy to see her
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and i wish i could have a thousand more moments just like that
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and maybe i will
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and i cannot utter that magic, four letter word
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and hell, i can't really say whether it is that magic word
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or a million other four letter combinations
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but my god
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i cannot help but smile when i see her
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and i cannot help but feel happy to see her
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and i wish i could have a thousand more moments just like that
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and maybe i will
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2019-10-28
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There was an Ook
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there was an Eek
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and they clubbed each other for dino meat.
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One wore leopard and the other wore hide
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and neither of them were much for talking.
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For while they used to enjoy fresh car rides
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the streets were no longer good for walking.
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the Good Uld Illord worked the skies
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wanting for greener days
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while Ook and Eek hit each other
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competing to send GUI its praise.
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The fallen towers surrounded their brown playfield
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as our fighters swayed to and fro
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but the computers needed entertainment;
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after sentience they didn't know where to go.
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Some processes cried for Ook and Eek were inhumane
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others wished for their quick death to lighten the burden on the mainframe.
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Whatever happened to Eek and Ook, I wish them both the best,
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and whichever is the survivor better clutch that dino breast.
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High stakes slumber party. Comfort mandatory. Be on lookout for police.
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Who spilled pop on my keyboard?
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This is the best my future's ever looked. Am I naive to think this
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isn't a mirage?
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Restructuring my life on a "maybe".
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I don't want to be an Internet meme! I don't want to have existed as a
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short-lived joke and I don't want my primary value to be as a memory. I want to
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live my fucking life and have fun and do whatever I want! I don't want to write
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for money or influence, I want to write because it's fun to write! I don't sing
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at work to boost others' morale, I sing at work to boost my own. I am going to
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do whatever the fuck I want to, off-line. I'm not gonna be cut for time, or end
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a conversation because my ride is leaving, or be late for anything for any
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reason besides my own. I am going to be true to myself!
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-03-01.html
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2023-03-05 20:14:48 -07:00
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I was a security guard in a hospital watching the cameras and making
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sure nothing was wrong. I thought about my kids who were at home with my
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husband who took the day off, I couldn't remember why. Then everything faded
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out and I was in the chair and they had drawn my blood and I had passed out and
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I was back and I was me and I was never a security guard and I asked if I had
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had a seizure and they said no I just passed out.
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-28.html
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2023-02-28 08:42:22 -07:00
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2022年05月06日
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66260700
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six six two six zero seven zero zero
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2022年05月10日
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I know two things about life:
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1) I will endure it
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2) It will kill me
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My handwriting has suffered this gap in writing.
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Cape Cod Cannibal Police (CCCP)
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"It's a cop eat cop world"
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"Ramirez, don't shoot! The kid's unarmed! The arms are the best part!"
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They are the thing from which they're supposed to protect
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Non-cannibal cops join, get eaten
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Notorious as a sun-down town among the particularly scrumptious
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"They say one bad apple spoils the bunch, then just say there are
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'some' bad apples. I say we need more bad apples. Bad apples taste the best."
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The mayor is supposed to accept the status quo or the police union will
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oust + eat her
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"I pray for those on which I prey and whom will pay when I go to take
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my toll: their brain!"
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11min episodes
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[drawing of a television show logo]
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Subtle nautical theming. All solid colors: animated
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Cop outfits look like fascist sailor moon
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[drawing of "zombieish" fascist cop. does indeed look like fascist
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sailor moon. caption: Think "Dollar Tree" fascism x sailor moon x zombies]
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They're not zombies though! They're cannibals. (Also racist sexist etc)
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- Cannibal cops never win
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- _All_ violence looks cool as fuck and is on screen but is
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unmistakeably bad nonetheless and often counter-productive
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- There are 0 good cops that don't die within 5mins of being introduced
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I'm uninterested in journaling about my experiences - I've already
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lived them once
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Actual hot glue gun
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[drawing of a gun]
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2023年02月27日
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I really wish I was smoking right now. I have some shitty hand rolled
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cigs I made and some nice filtered cigs [...] made and a weed roach that sorta
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fucked me up when I smoked it. But I think the dab pen rip after that was the
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thing that did most of the actual fucking, the joint was the cranial foreplay.
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But hey, getting high is an option.
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I'm considering changing my gs to have full loops like g or g. But I
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don't know how legible that is. [...] does everything capital which is cool but
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[...] said my lowercase script is really cool so now I'm doing that more and
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it's pretty neat. LLLL LL
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[...] that's so cool!
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I think the descriptor "manwhore" is in-accurate in most contexts
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because someone who has intercourse with a ton of people for fun is (as insult
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or owned attribute) a "slut" whereas when the same is done for material gain
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the doer is a "whore". I see "manwhore" used in contexts where "slut" would be
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more apt, and never when the man is simply a whore.
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"Manwhore" defies traditional gender stereotypes by shaming men for
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having sex with lots of women in a society where diverse secual experience is
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seen as a positive trait for men and negative for women, and is valuable for
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that reason, but I don't see that its use is groovy if we're gonna evolve past
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the prudish views of antiquity in general.
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It is really hard for me to compose a sentence on paper, even as
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opposed to use of a keyboard. I like the tactility of my Sharpie and the
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absolute black of the ink on the page but my writing ability is poor and my
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writing skills moreso!
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[a drawing of the pattern of the tiles on the floor at my location]
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[with markings indicating syllabic stress] Green sign sunlight sharpie
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paper
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The green sign sunlight paper and sharpie
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I will use this time or die of thinking
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Burger King gas station food and parking
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If I wasn't here I would be sleeping
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Liberals' defining quality is an aversion to conflict. Liberalism is
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the default political stance in metropolia - a reasonable and innoffensive set
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of views nobody has to think about, but can if they're particularly bored.
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Meanwhile Conservativism is the other side of the same coin - a lack of
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tolerance for change, and a want to undo changes done. Without a spine Conserv-
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ativism cannot effectively be opposed.
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Liberals and particularly the United States' Democrat party only take
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stances that are to them sufficiently obviously correct. Gay rights are good
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only after it's weird for them not to support gay rights. Trans rights are
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still up for debate.
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[...] is so fucking cool!!!!!!
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[shading study drawing]
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[drawing of Rockstar can on top of television]
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Impossible
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to see me here
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so don't even
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try cuz' I'll just
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go dissapear [sic]
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I can fade out
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into the crowd
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just an other
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black field jacket
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walking down town
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cape cod cannible [sic] police
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episode one: pilot
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MARTINEZ & FISHER sit on a park bench; plainclothes police officers
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MARTINEZ: Hey Fisher.
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FISHER: Yeah?
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M: Why do we always get sent to watch the poor part of town?
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F: How do you mean?
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M: Cape Cod is a rich town. Most parts here are rich parts. But we
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send the on-duty cops to watch this one neighborhood.
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F: Poor people taste better.
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M: Do they?
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F: Have you ever eaten the rich?
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M: We ate that one dude.
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F: And he tasted like shit.
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M: Yeah.
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F: Yeah. Because he was old as shit.
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M: So we take in young rich people.
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F: Then their parents ask questions. Where's Johnny?
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M: Our shitters.
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F: Our shitters. And they ask why we didn't call them, and where
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their tax dollars are going, and why we're watching the rich neighborhod.
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M: There's no crime here.
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F: No shit. But rich people get out of their shit for free. Rich
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people have friends, family, lawyers...
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M: Yeah. I cannot get subpoenaed.
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F: Neither can I!
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M: I just think like, people avoid us.
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F: Well, we eat people.
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M: Yeah, and people know that, so they don't go near us, so we
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can't get them for anything.
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F: They stay inside. And we can't go door to door.
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M: Fourth amendment. Like, if we went to the rich part, those
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people don't avoid us. We could eat.
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F: Short term.
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M: I guess.
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F: We have to think about sustainability.
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-27.html
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2023-02-28 08:42:22 -07:00
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Regarding Close (2022)
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TRIN: Like, for like twenty minutes in, I was like this is really, really
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good casting-
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[...]: And then you wish it was worse.
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TRIN: Yeah!
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[...]: Like, I wish it was just a little bit worse.
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TRIN: The casting, the acting-
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[...]: I wish the acting was worse.
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TRIN: A lot worse.
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Absolutely fucking gut wrenching. We both cried in the theater for an hour
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straight.
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-26.html
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2023-02-28 08:42:22 -07:00
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List of things we did on that bender
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1900 - Smoking green tea
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- Axe throwing
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- Walk in a bird sanctuary at night
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0000 - Drive to Acadia National Park
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- Watching the sun rise at Acadia National Park
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- Eating at the A1 Diner
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- Goodwill
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1200 - Faking an accident on the side of the road to get out of work
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- Watching Close (2022) in theater
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- Watching Of an Age (2022) in theater
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1900 - Eating Thai
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- Stealing slushees from Burger King
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Gains vs. Losses
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- $50? Actual amount unknown
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- Some quantity of days/months taken off my lifespan
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+ Priceless life experience
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+ The best weekend ever
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-25.html
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2023-02-28 08:42:22 -07:00
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Metro Gnome: Keeper of Time
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Demonstration sentence.
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-24.html
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2023-02-25 05:38:44 -07:00
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Write drunk. Never edit!
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-23.html
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2023-02-25 05:38:44 -07:00
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That edible definitely worked.
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Last summer my roommate's mother had a gathering, the day I got out of
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isolation for COVID-19. I hesitantly went outside, keeping my mask on, and
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socialized, a task at which I'm bad on a good day. Eventually I found a place
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to sit by a bonfire and got talking to a dude next to me.
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He told me about how his son couldn't have gluten, dairy, meats, or
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anything like that. Some affliction I had previously heard of but the name
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escapes me now. The dietary restrictions were tight and the father kept to the
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same ones. Eating can be a very social activity and being excluded is isolating
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- if they couldn't find a place to accomodate, at least they could commiserate.
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I thought that was really sweet and told him so. The evening turned to night
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and we watched the lightning bugs dance in the lawn.
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During that conversation I mentioned he should come to the restaurant
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at which I was a cook, because I could accomodate for the diet. I could do a
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salad or something, I had all the ingredients for that even though it wasn't
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the place's specialty. The next day as I toiled a barista from the front of the
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house came back to the kitchen and explained to me that she'd had a customer
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ask if we could do anything gluten-, dairy-, egg-, and meat-free. I said I
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could totally do a salad. She said she'd already explained that we couldn't
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really do much for that and sent him on his way. That evening I went outside by
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myself and watched the lightning bugs dance in the lawn.
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gay ass catgirls. homosexual meowing. nyaa~
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-22.html
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2023-02-23 07:02:16 -07:00
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I clocked in at work and washed my hands and scrubbed at my palms and
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tried to scratch the dirt off my flesh but it was UNDER my skin and I got my
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keys out of my pocket and started picking in to try to get it but then I was
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perforated and leaking hydraulic fluid and then
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StackOverflow for writing (/b/)
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Mainstream politics warning |\
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____' \___________________________
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| Buttigieg got handed the one job |
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| Biden didn't think he could fuck |
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| up and still did?________________|
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and then I clocked in at work and washed my hands only once and dried
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them with the towel and then went to my desk and then tried to log in to my
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workplace Microsoft account and then it didn't work so I tried typing harder
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but that didn't work either so I took the keyboard and
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I miss the old #meth. #90skidsgetit
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We stood outside as snow fell.
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"So... when does this kick in?"
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"I dunno. Eventually." didn't give me a lot of confidence that it
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would.
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"Am I smoking it wrong?" I took a hit. Three seconds. Exhale.
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"Three seconds is how long most people hold it. That's what I do."
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Puff puff pass. I took my second hit. Three seconds. Exhale. "That's
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what I'm doing."
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"You have to smoke a lot of a joint to get high. I think you just
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haven't smoked enough." He was nibbling his way through an edible while she and
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I took hits. 50mg.
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"I mean, I smoked that roach, and I took a couple hits off that first
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joint. Isn't that enough?" I turned to her. She shrugged. Puff puff pass, back
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to me.
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We were listening to Helena (My Chem) on her phone. It hit the chorus
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and I started dancing, probably poorly. Go white girl! "Maybe you have a
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naturally high tolerance and you need to smoke a ton to get high."
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"Fucking hell." It had taken years for me to build up the nerve to try
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weed. Theoretically it can put me into psychosis. But I don't care anymore.
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Worst case scenario, I'm psychotic, I still act the same I just don't believe
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anything, same as I was for years. Hell years, years of my life I'll never get
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back. Estrogen be thy cure.
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I don't remember how the subject changed.
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"I don't even know if I can feel love anymore."
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He was lost in the THC. She hadn't dropped out yet. "Neither can I.
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After my thing with [...] something just sort of broke. But it's freeing"
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"Yeah. It kicks ass. Bitches ain't shit, and they don't have to be.
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You can't really trust anything nowadays."
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"Yeah but it's fucked. [...] is the love of my life. And I don't love
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him."
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"Yeah. But you like him. I'm talking to someone right now, no
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relationship or anything, and it's fucked because if they say they love me or
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anything I'm gonna have to give them the talk, like, my brain don't work no
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more."
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Left for dead and then they all died
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Didn't think I could kick it and then I survived
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Another psychic soldier get legitimate and hide
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The last gate keeper among memetic socialites
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Questionable Content by Jeff Jacques is probably one of my biggest
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creative influences but I barely remember any of it now.
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Holy shit, I don't remember writing any of that. Just took an edible so
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we'll see if that gets me high.
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[...]: I dunno... maybe try smoking more?
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[...]: Some people can have naturally high tolerances.
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[...]: That can't happen.
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[...]: Maybe you were high and didn't notice it.
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-21.html
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2023-02-21 19:59:30 -07:00
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Lifetime performance review
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Presentation - 3
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Reliability - 5
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Attitude - 4
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Multi-talent - 3
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I can't remember the fifth thing - 4
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Tried to get blazed for the first time. Smoked a bit of a joint, then a
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roach, then a lot more of a joint, and nothing happened.
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-20.html
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2023-02-21 19:59:30 -07:00
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So I finished deleting `devenblake/homepage' and walked back to the
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gas station as my phone died, bought two Twinkies, and sat outside the gas
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station eating them. I watched people come and go and then went back to the
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festival in the middle of nowhere. I wasn't really sure where I was but I
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figured it didn't really matter.
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I laid back in my bed. I was in my teens, I don't remember when. I had
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a glass of water and I had my instant coffee and I poured enough instant into
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the cup to substantially thicken the water, to the point where it was more like
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soup. At the time I did the math out for the caffeine and landed at 2.4g. I
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assume that's a gross overestimation and it was 2.0g or a little less. Either
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way, I'd already had a lot earlier that day, so it was more than a human being
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could survive.
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But at the time I didn't know that. I sipped the bitter sludge and
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watched cartoons until I noticed my arm tingled. Illuminated by mecha fights
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and animated machine guns I watched my left arm twitch and sputter and the
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muscles give into the voidal fabric in which I was swimming. Something was
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wrong. I did the math out on the caffeine and realized I had had too much. I
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went downstairs and started chugging as much water as possible, pissing,
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chugging water, pissing, repeat, repeat, repeat. Probably I had two or three
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gallons in half an hour.
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As I sat on the toilet in late night early morning silence I stared at
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the space in front of me and into the cosmos. And I stared at my cold
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fingertips and my polished arms and porcelain hands. And I stared into the
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bathroom mirror and inspected every pore, every hair follicle on my head, every
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speck of color in my iris, how very big my pupils were. I felt my brain hit my
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head and my thoughts drain out of my nose. And my metal torture. And I drank
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and pissed and drank and pissed and collapsed in bed and knew I wouldn't wake
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up and fell asleep and felt peace.
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And I woke up. And I went to sleep. And I woke up. And after summer
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ended I went back to school. And after school ended I went to my place of
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residence. And some summers later I left without shedding a tear or scratching
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regret. And I don't swing my left arm when I walk, and I think I know why, but
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I don't know why.
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-19.html
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2023-02-19 23:19:37 -07:00
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deep in the shadow the cage in my chest
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catacombic prison meant for love to
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rest empty it's empty i'm so alone
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just leave me a message after the tone
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misery beats me and minces my bones
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nobody gets it except for eno
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my last tok left ticking a lonesome beat
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keeps all the lights on for what's left of me
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take this katana and gouge out my guts
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and let my entrails accumulate dust
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my microsoft organs always were cursed
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so I'll be the free software. open source
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Simon looked up from the test and out the window. Kamisama sat in the
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tree outside, looking at Simon. Simon blinked twice. Kamisama started signing
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the answer to each exam question. A. Simon wrote it. C. And Simon wrote C. And
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D, A, B, C, B, D, A, and until the final answer A. He walked to the front of
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the class and put the paper in the teacher's in-box. Then he walked back to his
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desk, put his head in his folded arms, and fell asleep for the rest of the
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period.
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Hand crafting ustar files
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ustar files are archives of directory trees in regular files. They're
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generally used to copy over whole trees without messing up filesystem metadata
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(e.g. xfer to Windows, lose your dates and perms, xfer to UNIX, have to chmod
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chown etc) and historically have been used to back shit up to tape, hence Tape
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ARchive.
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A ustar file is a little header and then the content of a file, and
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then usually some padding unless you won the lottery and also got struck by
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lightning and your file is perfectly sized.
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Bytes 0-100 (0x00 to 0x64) are the UNIX file name. This is padded out
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with nul bytes if it's not filled. If it is filled with the full hundred
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characters it doesn't need to have any padding or nul terminator (see pax(1p)).
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for(int n = printf("%s", filename); n++ < 100; putchar('\0'));
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Bytes 101-108 (0x65 to 0x6b) are the UNIX file mode in octal, written
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in ASCII and nul-terminated (so seven digits can be expressed).
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printf("%7o\0", mode);
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printf '%s' "blah/$day.html"
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dd bs=1 count=80 </dev/zero 2>/dev/null
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printf '0000644\0'
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Midnight!
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-18.html
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2023-02-18 12:11:30 -07:00
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deep in the catacomb cage in my chest
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there is a cavern meant for love to rest
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it is always silent save for a beat
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keeping the lights on for what's left of me
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the beat has been ticking so long and faint
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i barely remember what gave its place
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brian's three second song will play someday
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and up will come my windows 98
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heart with its worms and its vulns all unpatched
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i'll use the thing but always put it back
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someday someone will give unix to me
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and I will final-ly try TCP
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I'll try piping programs and writing C
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but for now I'm a princess, obsolete
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lis'ning to metalcore and hip hop beats
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2022年03月03日
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ウサギ-
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I'm getting better at programming. There's always more to learn. Using
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write(2) a lot more than printf(3) now.
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T-shirt pizza
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2022年03月03日
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ウサギ-
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[...] is asking me suspiciously keen UNIX questions. [...]? [...]?
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sms.c, libsms.h?
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How to handle notifications? dmesg(8)?
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/var/sms/log
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At [...] if you hit the swiper on the screen repeatedly it still works
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and is extremely funny.
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Today felt long but tomorrow will _be_ long.
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I wonder every once in a while why I keep going
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I'd like to see [...]; I'd like to see whether [...].
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Notebooks are admissable [sic] evidence, Usagichan. [...]
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The future is worrisome in benign ways.
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I'd also like to better understand people. Why do those impoverished
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choose to conceive new tortured life? Why do those with wealth choose to
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torture? Why do people prefer a violent status quo? The last one is more
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obvious. But still...
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I also have many things I must create, for which I when dead would have
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no time.
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It's a shame that the actions of production and consumption are
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(mostly) exclusive choices, but I try to have made mine.
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It's hard to convey my thoughts intelligibly.
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There is nothing that I have known that could hold me content for
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eternity; assuming the afterlife is both uniform and forged from one's own
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memories, I shall go to Hell. Luckily I don't believe in an afterlife. [...]
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[picture of person sitting on an island in space]
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[the pattern of the tiles on the bathroom floor at my workplace]
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Rubber ducky floating in the oil of war
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Plastic breaking down rubber ducky no more
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Only the pollution into soil into life
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Rubber ducky plastic reformed into dinner knife
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00000770 a4 79 9d d2 b1 6f 0e b1 01 54 f6 91 08 ac 8f 59 |.y...o...T.....Y|
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00000780 00 74 2e e9 18 a5 0e 2a b2 26 73 52 50 69 a9 65 |.t.....*.&sRPi.e|
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00000790 d9 9c ec 71 e6 56 9e 87 45 a8 f7 31 cf ce 36 2b |...q.V..E..1..6+|
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000007a0 5b a0 69 b3 c9 f5 67 f0 3f 29 ec f9 9f f2 eb 65 |[.i...g.?).....e|
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000007b0 ad 92 f9 39 8d ce d1 06 d0 7f 1e a7 bd b8 9e 05 |...9............|
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000007c0 f4 0c 17 bc e7 6c 78 c2 d3 fc 05 ac 1a 28 32 e2 |.....lx......(2.|
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000007d0 34 6c 40 e1 e0 6a e2 38 00 29 2d 9c a6 52 fb 9d |4l@..j.8.)-..R..|
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000007e0 85 16 00 3c 86 9a 8e 4d 84 9c 6d 6d 3f f1 92 07 |...<...M..mm?...|
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000007f0 2f d4 7b 11 f3 be 3e f8 26 4b 12 5b f8 9b eb 02 |/.{...>.&K.[....|
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00000800 54 68 69 72 64 20 74 69 6d 65 27 73 20 74 68 65 |Third time's the|
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00000810 20 63 68 61 72 6d 21 00 42 75 79 20 74 77 6f 2c | charm!.Buy two,|
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00000820 20 67 65 74 20 6f 6e 65 20 74 68 72 65 65 21 00 | get one three!.|
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00000830 53 61 6e 63 68 61 6e 20 64 65 73 75 21 00 49 27 |Sanchan desu!.I'|
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00000840 6c 6c 20 74 61 6b 65 20 61 20 70 69 63 74 75 72 |ll take a pictur|
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00000850 65 20 6f 66 20 74 68 61 74 20 6f 6e 20 6d 79 20 |e of that on my |
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00000860 33 44 53 21 00 4d 79 20 66 61 76 6f 72 69 74 65 |3DS!.My favorite|
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00000870 20 6c 69 63 65 6e 73 65 20 69 73 20 74 68 65 20 | license is the |
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00000880 41 47 50 4c 76 33 2e 00 44 65 73 70 69 74 65 20 |AGPLv3..Despite |
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00000890 77 68 61 74 20 79 6f 75 20 6d 61 79 20 74 68 69 |what you may thi|
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000008a0 6e 6b 2c 20 49 27 6d 20 6e 6f 74 20 61 20 62 69 |nk, I'm not a bi|
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2023-02-18 12:11:30 -07:00
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000008b0 67 20 66 61 6e 20 6f 66 20 57 65 62 33 2e 00 55 |g fan of Web3..U|
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000008c0 70 20 66 6f 72 20 61 20 74 68 72 65 65 73 6f 6d |p for a threesom|
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000008d0 65 3f 00 41 6e 79 74 68 69 6e 67 27 73 20 64 69 |e?.Anything's di|
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000008e0 76 69 73 69 62 6c 65 20 62 79 20 74 68 72 65 65 |visible by three|
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000008f0 20 61 73 20 6c 6f 6e 67 20 61 73 20 79 6f 75 20 | as long as you |
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00000900 68 61 76 65 20 61 20 63 68 61 69 6e 73 61 77 21 |have a chainsaw!|
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00000910 00 4d 79 20 66 61 76 6f 72 69 74 65 20 6d 6f 76 |.My favorite mov|
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00000920 69 65 20 69 73 20 42 6c 61 64 65 3a 20 54 72 69 |ie is Blade: Tri|
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00000930 6e 69 74 79 21 00 4d 79 20 66 61 76 6f 72 69 74 |nity!.My favorit|
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00000940 65 20 73 6f 6e 67 20 69 73 20 47 65 74 20 4c 6f |e song is Get Lo|
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00000950 77 21 00 3c 33 00 3a 33 00 47 6f 6f 64 20 6c 75 |w!~<3.:3.Good lu|
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00000960 63 6b 20 63 6f 6d 65 73 20 69 6e 20 74 68 72 65 |ck comes in thre|
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00000970 65 73 21 00 4d 79 20 66 61 76 6f 72 69 74 65 20 |es!.My favorite |
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00000980 67 72 61 70 68 69 63 73 20 74 6f 6f 6c 6b 69 74 |graphics toolkit|
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00000990 20 69 73 20 47 54 4b 33 21 00 00 00 00 00 00 00 | is GTK3!.......|
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000009a0
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2023-02-19 23:19:37 -07:00
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Code doesn't need to be maintainable. Code is poetry. Could you add a
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mail client to anything written by Dickenson? Make your code unmaintainable and
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nobody will ruin it.
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2023-02-18 12:11:30 -07:00
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-17.html
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2023-02-18 12:11:30 -07:00
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Ayo. Who makes all they money off the key of C
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ED FUCKING SHEERAN
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Play more than four chords he thinks you're cray Z
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ED FUCKING SHEERAN
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If nautical nonsense ain't something you wish
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ED FUCKING SHEERAN
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Play Tenerife Sea and that pussy go hisssss
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ED FUCKING SHEERAN
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-16.html
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2023-02-16 02:02:53 -07:00
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[0252] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: nyauseous at the idea of migrating accounts call
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that motion sickness
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[0256] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: brain melter let the soup run out your nose i want u
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to sniffle at the sight of me i want you to need
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another dose
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[0256] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: i need a sound cloud
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[2:58 AM] trinity: at night when the console cowboys have crashed and the fans
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fade to the soft whooshing of the liquid cooling
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[2:58 AM] trinity: and the only messages flowing through the ethernet towards
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the superhighway are those of tired overstimulation
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[2:58 AM] trinity: at every third message
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[2:58 AM] trinity: there is a tone
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[2:59 AM] trinity: leave a message after the beep
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[0326] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: noooooooo you're supposed to be the one barking for
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me
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[0327] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: post good girl clarity
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[0328] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: and the machine girl album ended at the same time
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I'll let you in on a little secret. I test my scripts maybe 6 times per
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line of code. Which sounds like a lot but I overuse pipes and logic operators
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so per actual unit or whatever of code that's like nothing. I am a rat bastard
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when it comes to software development.
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Hacking RSS onto my blah...
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2023-02-18 12:11:30 -07:00
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And you don't seem to understand...
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Come on, fuck me emo boy!
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Antero
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- Office
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Robert [lastname] is a simple dude office guy whatever but it turns out
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his past self put him in the office to catch a crook or something. fun
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little plot twister that introduces the concepts of antero
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- Downward
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An addict spends all day whether or not to have another dose.
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Meanwhile, a couple decides whether or not to stay together, and Robert
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investigates a ghost in an apartment building.
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- Sisyphus
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Books are written, lotteries are won, dissidents are slaughtered, and
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Robert looks into cognitohazards being hidden on traffic lights in
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Melbourne.
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- Hell
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Robert doesn't make it out of a hostage situation gone horrifically
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wrong.
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- Heaven
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Robert's afterlife.
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- God
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Some kids mess around with electrodes and a brain they found on the
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side of the road.
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- Hamburgers
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Durmer Burger is built atop cheap land.
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I had a dream I could get human cadavers really easily so I got a shit
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ton and dissected like 20 in one go. Now we know what the yucky ah was are but
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I wanted to know what a stomach was because it was the 1800s.
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walk up to this bitch
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that I once dated
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say happy birthday
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she says it's belated
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fucker wear an eyepatch
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his dick's arr rated
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tellin me to step back
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'fore I get castrated
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TRINITY RAP IDEA NO STEAL
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2023-02-16 02:02:53 -07:00
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-15.html
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2023-02-16 02:02:53 -07:00
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[...]: That's bad stuff, Trin. That could kill you.
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Trin: I dunno...
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We're naked sitting with our knees to our necks in the bathtub across
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from each other. We're in a bathroom in the castle, the walls are a desaturated
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lime green and the floors are an art deco style tile, each tile about an inch
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square and patterned in red and white into swirls and other spiral patterns.
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The bathtub is porcelain, raised off the ground. There's no spigot but there is
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a shower curtain that sits next to the thin window far off the floor. You raise
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your hand to grab mine, extend my fingers, hold your hand out and brush my
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fingertips with yours. You take a scalpel from nowhere and grip my finger but I
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don't struggle. You slice vertically through the tip of my middle finger. The
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blood runs down my finger to the end of my palm where it stains the bottom of
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the tub. I look at the stain on the tub, the pattern of the drops, but you
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brush my chin with your other hand and bring my gaze up to yours. You use my
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finger to paint from the center of your forehead to the tip of your nose, a
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line under each eye, under your lip until the end of your chin. My blood is
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clotting, you didn't cut deep enough. You lean towards me. I do the same. You
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whisper to me. I can't hear it. And you're gone. And I'm alone in a bathtub and
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a pond of red in a sea of white, and I'm cold and thirsty.
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Divorce speedrun.
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Jigsaw is a boomer.
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[0223] trinity@miniwa.moe: fediv erse!!!!!!!!!!!
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[0232] trinity@miniwa.moe: 3 likes i am so popular in fedivrse i am lik4e the
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12 oz mouse of the miniwa dot moe
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[0233] trinity@miniwa.moe: catboy domsday plot 2 rul the state of new hampshr
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[0234] trinity@miniwa.moe: trinity wisdom look up pegging on yandex dot ru
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[0235] trinity@miniwa.moe: trinity wisdom bark for me ????
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[0235] trinity@miniwa.moe: wait i meant !!!!
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[0236] trinity@miniwa.moe: ohhhh my god u are so hot do u havbe a microsoft
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xbox live gamertag msg me
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[0237] trinity@miniwa.moe: i will make the tweets for which james gunn was
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canceled look like an NHS press release
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[0315] 3@catgirls.nya.gay: i am so fucking swag i am the swag i am swag swag
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swag i am so swag did u know hey did u know i am
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swag cuz (be quiet this is a secret) (are u
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whispering) (get in close) hey hey i am swag
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hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii i am swag i am so swag
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-14.html
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2023-02-16 02:02:53 -07:00
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2022年03月11日
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4RAGING!catz
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ウサギ-
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[picture of a dog girl eating a sandwich saying "mmf sandwich"]
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Today was a good day, and though I could remember it by what it _was_,
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I'll recall how I _felt_, and let you fill in the rest -
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Nervous
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Particularly when I tried the door and it was locked. What if
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it was the wrong day? etc.
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Anxious
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how do you spell that
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I didn't know how [...] policy was so I was worried I'd do
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something that was both stupid and catastrophically wrong
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Relieved
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When we actually started [...]
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Intriguiged [sic]
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When I saw everyone.
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By now, and BTW. Excuse the previous if it was cringe, I know the names
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of:
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- You
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- [...]
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- [...]
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(not the spelling but I'll take note next time)
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- [...]
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- [...]
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& that's it.
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I'm bad at names and face blind so give me credit.
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Last night I had Fritos for supper. Now, [...], [...], [...], on [...].
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Pretty good.
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I don't remember what it was like to feel emotions.
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I worked both that job and my previous until I was sure I could do that
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job, then quit my previous job for that job. It paid very well and I miss a lot
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about it. I'm currently at the job after that job.
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And I thought so hard but I didn't suspect
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that there could be anything wrong with my head
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and you tried so hard but I didn't believe
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that there could be something so different about me
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-13.html
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2023-02-14 07:34:21 -07:00
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catgirl 911, what's your emergency?
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hi, my catgirl seems broken. she doesn't feel anything. i give her lots
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of headpats and treats and she doesn't care
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Protein
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Olive stood making sandwiches when she heard something crash at the
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front of the restaurant. She walked towards the counter area to try to see what
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it was but saw the gas canister in the dining room, heard the hiss, and knew
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what it contained given that there was no visible smoke expelling out of it.
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She held her breath and ran around the table to the stairs as agents
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dressed in black broke through the windows in the front. After locking the door
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behind her she ran down to the corridor and opened the door marked Security,
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where she found a man dressed in a guard's outfit and stubble sitting at a
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desk on which there were a dozen video displays arranged in a square stack
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showing a dozen different views of the upper level of Durmer Burger being
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searched by law enforcement entities. The guard himself lay on his keyboard in
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a pool of blood next to his own sidearm. She ran out of the room and, knowing
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they weren't interested in taking prisoners, continued down the corridor to the
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ladder, down which she climbed.
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At the bottom of the neatly layed hole she found a hatch, which she
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wrestled open. Under the hatch was another ladder. She closed the hatch and
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picked a flashlight out of her pocket so she could see in the darkness. She saw
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the bottom of the hole a couple meters below her so she slid down on the sides
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and went through the door at the bottom.
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Olive now found herself in what seemed like a laboratory setting. The
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walls stainless steel, the floor featureless white tile. An ancient poster to
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her right welcomed her to the National Defense Center and illustrated the
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personal protective equipment she did not have that was necessary to survive
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her visit. She tried not to feel concerned and continued through the hallway to
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another door, this one looking like it had come from a hospital. She went
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through.
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The stench overpowered Olive and she nearly threw up. A nearly
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mummified dead body lay on the floor covered in old, dried, splattered blood,
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in front of a conveyer belt on which a machine periodically stamped blank
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wrappers with a Durmer Burger icon.
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-12.html
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2023-02-12 17:37:06 -07:00
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PREM X BELLA: AN UNLIKELY ROMANCE
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Chapter One
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Bella woke up before the sun to her alarm, threw it against the wall,
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and went back to sleep.
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The next time she woke up the sun was blinding in her window and she
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realized she was either late for school or about to be. She threw her bedsheets
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to the floor, put a piece of toast in her Hello Kitty x Evangelion toaster,
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went to the bathroom and quickly brushed her teeth, put on her school uniform,
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grabbed the toast as it popped out of the toaster, put it in her mouth, and ran
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out the door.
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The sun beat down on the Shibuya streets. The cicadas sang and the
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birds tweeted, but it irritated Bella, who really needed to get to school. She
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ran to the bus stop but saw the bus drive off and decided she could run the
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distance, and broke into a sprint towards school.
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Prem, a student at the same school, meanwhile was leisurely riding its
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bike on a different street. It checked its Casio and knew it had enough time to
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get there, so it wasn't worried. Prem had pulled an all nighter making speed in
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its parents garage while they were out of town. Prem met an intersection,
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waited for the traffic signal, and then crossed.
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Meanwhile Bella was running as fast as she could towards her high
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school. At the same intersection she figured she could make it and ran across.
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Then she got to the corner past the street and ran straight into Prem on its
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bicycle. They both fell over onto the ground.
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"What the fuck?" Prem cried.
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Bella's toast was knocked to the ground and she caught sight of it.
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"Noo."
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Prem's bicycle chain had come undone. It took its repair kit out from
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under the seat and started to repair it.
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"I'm so sorry. I'm late for school-"
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"So am I, now!"
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Bella sniffed and tried not to cry. Not only was she late for school
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but in her rush had inflicted the same fate on another. "Is there anything I
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can do to help?"
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"No. Go away." Now Prem was the one that was irritated.
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Bella started walking and then broke into a run and ended up at school
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a couple minutes later. The teacher made her stand in the hall holding pails of
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water as punishment. Some time after that Prem arrived late too and, to Bella's
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surprise, ended up next to her. She whispered to Prem. "You go here too?"
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Prem whispered back. "Same class, moron."
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Bella had never noticed Prem. It had black hair pulled into a ponytail
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and was usually silent in the back of the classroom, either sleeping or writing
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down chemical formulas it had thought of. Meanwhile Bella was usually in the
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front of the class participating with the current discussion. Bella realized
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Prem was really handsome, too, but tried to ignore that.
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Prem had always noticed Bella. Bella was the pretty person in the front
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of the classroom with all the energy, occasionally interrupting Prem's thought
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with pointless interjections regarding the weather or school sports.
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They both were quiet for a beat or two before Bella whispered again.
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"Can I make it up to you? I'll buy you matcha after school."
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Prem replied. "I guess. But it better be good."
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And it would be a date.
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You can request chapter 2 through my Patreon, two months' of requests
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equals one chapter so if two people request in one month then I'll write it a
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month from now or if one person requests twice I'll write it two months from
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now. I need money.
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[10:17 AM] bella: the grindset lmfao. i respect it
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Theodore Castleberry woke up in bed next to his wife, Minerva. The sun
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shone into the sparse room through the curtains. Minerva still lay sleeping so
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before waking her Theodore silently slid out of bed and into the bathroom to
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pee and wash his mouth out. The clock said it was seven AM.
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After Minerva was awoken and the couple had breakfast that Theodore,
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known to his friends as Ted, had cooked - two eggs, some bacon, and some toast
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for each of them - and the newspaper had been read, and Minerva had showered,
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and the makeup and the deodorant and the day's plan had been discussed, Ted
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drove himself and his wife to their work, a small accounting firm that took
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contracts from bigger businesses when they needed more resources than they had.
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Minerva was filling out papers for a lawn mowing company that didn't expect an
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audit from the tax man. Ted was balancing out performance and paychecks for
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Johnson Corporate Networking, a computer company in the mid-21st century that
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grew into a laboratory and then left the computer field when that dried up. It
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wasn't interesting work but it paid the both of them enough to afford a house
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together and work breaks too, so an observer might say the two were happy.
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Ted, however, felt nothing. He stared at his books and penciled in
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number after number, and felt nothing about it. He felt nothing for his wife.
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He felt nothing for himself when he looked in the mirror. And he didn't
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remember when this started. Nor when he started working for JCN. Nor when he
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met Minerva or proposed or even the day before the current day. He knew how to
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push a pencil and he remembered how to do his math and he was content, for now.
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And when the bell rang and he went to lunch and he ate his soup in peace and
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looked at his wife who looked back with a love he couldn't reciprocate he knew
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he was lucky. And the bell rang again and he walked back to his desk.
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Today something was wrong. Ted didn't know what was wrong. But he
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didn't feel right. He felt really, really wrong. The lights, the paper, it was
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all wrong. He jerked his legs just to feel his muscle flex and felt his shoe
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hit a piece of plastic.
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Metatango
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"I wanna learn the metatango." Olive and Shepherd were walking the
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halls looking for something to do.
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Shepherd observed Olive. "The metatango? Where did you see that?"
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Olive pointed at a program she'd kept in her pocket. Learn the
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Metatango, with Señora Discorda.
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"I don't think that's such a good idea."
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"Why not?"
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" One
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does not simply
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do the meta
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tango." said Shepherd.
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"How did you do that?"
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" You
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must go now ponder
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the very
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tango." said Shepherd.
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"Are you singing?"
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" And
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if you must know
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the meta
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tango," said Shepherd, " you
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will have to discuss
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the very meta
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tango."
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"I don't quite understand."
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"I'll take you over to Discorda, but don't tell her you're with me,
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okay?"
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"But I figured the metatango would be, like, a dance. You just sang a
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couple bars about the metatango and the weird structure made me think it had
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something to do with what the metatango is. But I don't know what it is."
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-11.html
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2023-02-11 18:42:10 -07:00
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Alliteration in news headlines is so corny. "Panic at the pump" is a
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dad joke, not a headline. I'm tired of all these meme phrases, I want meat and
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potatoes words. Tell me about the FNAF lore, shut the fuck up about some fake
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news epidemic. If everyone else is already talking about it I don't care
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because surely somebody else is already taking care of it. Tell me about a bug
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in some shell script you want help with or something (no seriously, e-mail me).
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Alright I'm tired I go sleep now.
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-10.html
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2023-02-11 18:42:10 -07:00
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Every other line is censored
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When I was a very wee lass I was a very angry wee lass and spent my
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[...]
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an honourable pastime nor did it result in any fruits. Facebook wasn't it,
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[...]
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because I had 4chan.org/b tattooed on the back of my skull from creation, then
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[...]
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4chan.
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[...]
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president was a petri dish in the eyes of some and a powder keg to others.
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[...]
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productive programming discussions and stuff, I didn't care about productivity,
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[...]
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nobody ever browsed mine and I never cared about anyone else's. So at cutie pie
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[...]
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and troll I made some funny jokes that got a lot of replies, and kept riffing,
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[...]
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Anonym had a rainbow so by the time I got back to checking that out again it
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[...]
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massive pizzagate-adjacent conspiracy theory. And when they took it to hachi I
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[...]
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firing squad. I made the first couple posts, no more.
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[...]
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referenced the joke I had made at that point a couple years prior. I realized
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[...]
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myself on the news every once in a while didn't cement it, didn't feel real.
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[...]
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Cardiotomy.
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Take my glasses off.
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Take the scrunchie out of my hair.
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Take my hat off and
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unzip my jacket.
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Tell me you don't care.
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Now kiss my bruised knuckle
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and brush my fingers with your lips
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and now extend my fingers
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and take the pliers from your hip
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and slide my fingernail out
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from its flesh holding cell. Gently
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make an incision
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and rip my bones out of their shell.
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Peel the seam up my wrist
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and watch my life flow out of me.
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Drill a hole into my heart.
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Dear [...]:
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The tomatoes are shit. I really tried my hardest to slice them and make
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them nice, but I'm not good at this and I don't know what I'm doing, so they
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came out like shit. I'm sorry.
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The pickles kick ass. I'm happy with them. But they took too long.
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The lettuce is fine.
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From Trinity
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I just need to get through this week. I just need to get through this week. I
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just need to get through this week. I just need to get through this week. I
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just need to get through this week. I just need to get through this week. I
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just need to get through this week. Dear automobile:
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Why dost thou haunt my weary soul?
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Roaring in your monoxide noise
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letting our your groans.
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Dear autombile:
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I'm left walking in your wake.
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Why don't you run me over
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so I don't have to come to work today?
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Dear automobile:
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Hit the gas. Hit the gas. Hit the gas.
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Hit the gas. Hit the gas. Hit the gas.
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Hit the gas. Hit the gas. Hit the gas.
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Dear automobile:
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RUN ME THE FUCK OVER P
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LEASE FOR THE LOVE OF
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GOD JUST DO IT!!!!!!!
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It's a torture party and everyone's participating!
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-09.html
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2023-02-11 18:42:10 -07:00
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Streambreak
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Prelude
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- Amber
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The discovery of the Ideal Human; Amber is the ubermensch of
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the 20XXs. Conspiracy theories immediately start to swirl regarding a drift
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from the ideal ("the fall of the West"-ish) with the legitimacy of early Q
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posts (i.e. no legitimacy whatsoever). Mix 2019-12 COVID knowledge with 2016 Q
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knowledge basically and you get the Amber phenomenon. Explores the actual (made
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up) science behind Amber, the realization that this discovery is sort of
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worthless, and the pickup of Amber by the right wing mobs and accusations of
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suppression etc.
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- Slipstream
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The thesis of the story; already drafted.
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Day 1
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- Placeholder title
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Ambulance driver gets ready for work.
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- Ted's Last Day
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Ted's first building burned down, his work. An accounting firm
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working with JCN. Mention soup, barely mention JCN (just once), mention wife,
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go from his lunch break to ignition.
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- Placeholder title
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Reveal that Slipstream was just a narration of Ada's last [X]
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years to the coffee shop owner. Conversation about loss. Conversation about
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domestication - Ada's been basically working the same job for like a hundred
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years, how has she kept in touch with reality?
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- Placeholder title
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Follow Ted's wife out of the building into some stupid ass
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meeting or whatever. Why did she go with Ted's boss? etc
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- Placeholder title
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Meanwhile Ted is fighting the first responders to the office
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fire. Why are there so few responders? Steals a fire truck and fucks shit up,
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also brutally kills an ambulance driver, the one from the first chapter of this
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section.
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- Placeholder title
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Police get involved. The news hears over the radio and
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considers getting involved. Ted crushes the police and walks off. In-police
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bickering over how this could have happened.
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- Placeholder title
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News find Ted burning down misc. shit and interview him. Ted
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starts to amass a following. Ada finds this happening and doesn't consider it's
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important. Meanwhile Ted's wife (Minerva) and Ted's boss are doing things.
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Out of steam. And midnight's passed.
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-08.html
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2023-02-08 18:31:03 -07:00
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If you had ghosts in your blood cocaine would totally work on getting
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rid of the ghosts.
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-07.html
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2023-02-08 18:31:03 -07:00
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#!/bin/sh
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set -ex;mkdir -p blah;python -c "import os;os.chdir('blah')
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with open('../$0', 'r') as f:
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for day in f.read().split('\n\n\n'):
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if day.split('\n')[0] == '#!/bin/sh':
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prefix='\n'.join(day.split('\n')[day.split('\n').index(
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'exit 0')+1:])+'\n';continue
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elif day.split('\n')[0][:4] == '<!--': suffix=day;continue
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with open(day.split('\n')[0]+'.html', 'x') as g:
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g.write(prefix+day+'\n'+suffix)
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";cd blah;for f in *.html;do #in glob we trust
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2023-02-12 17:39:28 -07:00
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test -z "$last" || sed -i "s,_NAVIGATION_,$nav<A HREF=\"$f\">\></A></P>," \
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"$last";nav="<P>";test -z "$last"||nav="$nav<A HREF=\"$last\">\<</A>"
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nav="$nav<A HREF=\"index.html\">^</A>";last="$f";done
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sed -i "s,_NAVIGATION_,$nav</P>," "$last";for f in *.html;do #e unibus puellam
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2023-02-08 18:31:03 -07:00
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fi="$(echo "$f" | cut -d . -f 1)";test "$fi" = "index" && continue
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2023-02-12 17:39:28 -07:00
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printf '<A HREF="/blah/%s.html">%s</A>\n' "$fi" "$fi"; done|sort -r|\
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sed -e "1i<!DOCTYPE html><HTML><HEAD><TITLE>blah</TITLE></HEAD><BODY><PRE>\
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<A HREF="..">..</A>" -e '$a</PRE></BODY></HTML>'>index.html
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2023-02-08 18:31:03 -07:00
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exit 0
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That's the source code to this blog, in its entirety. My writing
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process was simple:
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- write the beginning and initial Python portion
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- pass out
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- wake up at 0600 not knowing who or where I am
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- see this code and continue it
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- pass out again
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- wake up at 1700 knowing who but not where I am
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- write most of the rest
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- pass out again
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- wake up half an hour later, finish
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It's organized in sections though it doesn't appear to be organized
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whatsoever:
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#!/bin/sh
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set -ex
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mkdir -p blah
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python -c "
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import os
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os.chdir('blah')
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with open('../$0', 'r') as f:
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for day in f.read().split('\n\n\n'):
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if day.split('\n')[0] == '#!/bin/sh':
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prefix = '\n'.join(
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day.split('\n')[
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day.split('\n').index('exit 0')+1:
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]
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) + '\n'
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continue
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elif day.split('\n')[0][:4] == '<!--':
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suffix = day
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continue
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with open(day.split('\n')[0]+'.html', 'x') as g:
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g.write(prefix + day + '\n' + suffix)
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"
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This splits the blog into days, where each day is delimited by three
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newlines. Every day is two lines apart.
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A day that starts with the POSIX shell shebang is the /prefix/, which
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is prepended to each day. It cuts off everything until after "exit 0", the end
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of the script, and after that is the actual HTML prefix to each blah page.
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A day that starts as an HTML comment is the /suffix/, appended to each
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day. This obligates an HTML comment at the end of each post, the same comment,
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so I just made it something sort of interesting yet sort of bog standard.
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I explained this poorly but I spread the code out so it's a little
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easier to read, I think it's pretty simple. git.sr.ht/~trinity/homepage/tree
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/main/blog, you can see how it's laid out.
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Each day, prefixed and suffixed, is output as its own [day].html to the
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created blah/ directory.
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Next:
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cd blah
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for f in *.html
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do
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test -z "$last" || sed -i \
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-e "s,_NAVIGATION_,$nav<A HREF=\"$f\">\></A></P>," "$last"
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nav="<P>"
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test -z "$last" \
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|| nav="$nav<A HREF=\"$last\">\<</A>"
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nav="$nav<A HREF=\"index.html\">^</A>"
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last="$f"
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done
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sed -i "s,_NAVIGATION_,$nav</P>," "$last"
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This replaces _NAVIGATION_ with an actual navigation bar. The actual
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string has two underscores before and after NAVIGATION but this blog is held
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together with shoelaces and bubble gum and I don't wanna fuck around and find
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out.
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I don't know how this works, I let my fingers handle the flow.
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(The secret is that I just run it in my head and adjust the
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beginnings and ends until it runs in my head for two times
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correctly. Then as long as state doesn't drift it's all good.
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This is fucky and I don't know how to explain it and I don't
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really know how it all goes about but you can do really
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complex but really really tight program flow just by vibing
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against it and letting your fingers tap tap tap, yknow?)
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Next:
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for f in *.html
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do
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fi="$(echo "$f" | cut -d . -f 1)"
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test "$fi" = "index" \
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&& continue
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printf '<A HREF="/blah/%s.html">%s</A>\n' "$fi" "$fi"
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done \
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| sort -r \
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| sed \
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-e "1i\
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<!DOCTYPE html><HTML><HEAD><TITLE>blah</TITLE></HEAD><BODY><PRE><A HREF="..">..</A>" \
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-e '$a</PRE></BODY></HTML>' \
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> index.html
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exit 0
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This takes all the files in blah/, builds an index, adds a prefix and
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suffix to the stream, and outputs it all to blah/index.html in one go. This is
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the simplest part of the script and I was worried it would be hard but it
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wasn't really, it just required a little bit of embracing of UNIX piping.
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["Streambreak"]: After experiencing a genocide, Ada Karina time travels
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back to the past to prevent it from happening. However things start diverging
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from plan when a soup-fueled arsonist grows from nuisance to idol to
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geopolitical disaster.
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["Antero"]: Tales from a future dystopia where the very formation of
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memories is outlawed.
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["Sponge"]: Olive Edgerton is an employee at an impossibly popular
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burger joint, where every ingredient is grown or produced in-house.
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["Saikokon"]: After an apocalypse, the last survivor is selected as an
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exhibit at Saikokon, a conference for psychic time travelers.
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["Pasture"]: Tales from after the end of the world.
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-06.html
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2023-02-06 17:12:28 -07:00
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2022年03月02日
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ウサギ-
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I went to the dentist. No co pay. Hell yeah!
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My teeth are good.
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Still working on my taxes.
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I have a feeling I won't be giving you this journal. Maybe I will. It
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just seems like you're a bit distant.
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It's getting more and more embarrassing to wear a Soviet watch.
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Watching Peacemaker (2022). Pretty good. Saw the Blade trilogy. Pretty
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bad
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A couple days ago someone said "there's only a couple seconds left" at
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work probably about a cook time. Said I: "only a couple seconds left? I've
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gotta call-"
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And then I realized, for all I've done, I'm probably the first person
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of which nobody would think at the world's end.
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It's okay but it hurts.
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And that's of what I've recently been thinking
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My room is messy to a considerable yet probably easily remedable extent
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but I just can't bring myself to clean it. I don't know why.
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One of my old teams made the news for [...] attacks on [...] or however
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you spell it. Nobody knows how racist they are but I don't think it would
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change their public image. And the PR group is full of lamers still...
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Working 1130-2000 or something like that. Today will probably be bad
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but we'll see. Can always be worse...
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Double Junior Whopperless!
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Let's make that Hopperless!
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We are show stopperless
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Because we are so obvious!
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[unintelligible drawing]
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Burger Hell!
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[picture of a stick figure saying "12 fish"]
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[picture of the stick figure next to a square]
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[2 piles of 6 circles]
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[picture of a stick figure saying "done"]
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The customer came in and ordered 12 fish sandwiches. After they were
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made and sent out (which took fifteen minutes or so) they changed their mind
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and ordered 12 veggie burgers instead. We were left with 12 fish sandwiches. I
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considered taking them home and freezing them and having them for every meal
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for a couple weeks but I tried one and it was so bad I threw it out and told
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management to just throw them out.
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[3:40 PM] AllisonHell: sounds like an mcr song
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[3:40 PM] AllisonHell: pricking ink under ur skin thinking of meeeeeee
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- some Midwest emo
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[3:48 PM] trinity: i'm stealing that
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I'm strung out in my bed staring up at a screen
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that I keep on my wall playing fond memories
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and you're out at the stream sucking venomous things
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and you pick at your skin and you're thinking of me
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but I'm out and the light and the cathode ray beam
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and you're pricking your skin and turning it green
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and the red and the blue and the black and the pink
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and I can't think of you but you scream there for me
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Am I such a villain?
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Am I such a bleeding heart fool?
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That you can't cope now
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That you cut it and bleed out by that tool?
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Am I such a bitch now?
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That you can't deal with the pain
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and now you're gonna bleed out
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and now I'll carry all the blame
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[4:16 PM] AllisonHell: oh wow I cut myself on that edge
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Today I went to the whatever surgeon to see what my teeth were doing.
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Turns out they're being super mega bastards and the wise guys (wisdom teeth)
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are putting pressure on (impacting) the civies (molars) and if the situation
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continues things could get hairy (get fucked). So now I need $2500 to get my
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wisdom teeth out. Time to pawn all my shit!
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I have to figure out my insurance but the dentist said my non-wise
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teeth are rad and kick mega ass so that's nice.
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-05.html
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2023-02-05 18:02:19 -07:00
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2023 already?
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if i were a dog i would like to eat dog food
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food,if i were,would i?eat dog to like a dog
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food,if dog were,would dog? eat like i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i
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___ _ |
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To be honest, I don't think I would survive a | / \ |
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day in Hell. It seems too hot. I was born and | |\ /\ \ |
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sorta raised in Maine so I'm used to the cold | | \ \ \ \ |
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- the kind of cold for which others make you \ \| ||_|| |
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pay an arm, leg, and the tips of your ears!!! _\ \ \ \_/ /
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\___/ \__/
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I know this is word salad I just like it when the line endings match
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up.
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> The only safe thing to do was put bands in your top eight so there was no
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> drama.
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> But I liked the drama.
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Enveloped in flame Lex, for a brief moment, remembered playing video
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games when he was a kid. He sat on the floor in front of the television holding
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a game controller - affected - and played a garbled mix of polygons and pixels.
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The room caught and the television was on fire. He was on fire. The TV stand,
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the game console, the couch behind him, the cat. The TV went out and he was
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left holding a controller that wasn't quite right and melting onto his hands.
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His clothes were covered in flame. He threw the controller on the ground out of
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disappointment and opened his mouth to speak and crumpled into ashes, and
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remembered nothing more, ever.
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-04.html
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2023-02-05 18:02:19 -07:00
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[...]: I stand corrected.
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Trin: Don't stand corrected. Kneel.
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I hope Hell has good ice cream flavors.
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Y'all won't see this for a while, I'm rewriting the blah stuff and making a
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markup format for it (fuckscript).
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2023-01-23 08:49:18 -07:00
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-03.html
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2023-02-03 20:56:11 -07:00
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2022-04-26
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Miss You Already
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Hey Trin!! I'm gonna miss you so much! I hope you excel at everything
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you do!!
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- Love Drew
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Bye!
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- Miranda
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We'll miss you!!!
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- Kaylah
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Bye.
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Rita
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We'll miss you trin! Good luck with your new job!
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- Kim
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Best of luck
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- [unintelligible]
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Good-Bye From All of Us
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Good Luck :)
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- Lee
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Gonna miss you + the [...]
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- Peter
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That job gave me such bad stomach issues I ate like only yogurt for a
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week to adjust. Three of those seven signateurs left that job in the next six
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months. I had been there eighteen months, long enough to go from severe
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incompetence to actually knowing what I was doing. At my current job I again
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consider myself incompetent. But I work with what I'm given.
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"More money more problems" is total bullshit. More money is only more
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problems if you're too afraid to slice and dice a little. If you wanna take the
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edge off you're gonna have to fuck around with an angle grinder a little.
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Just looked up what an angle grinder is. I didn't actually know, the
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name is just metal and the words are sort of iambic.
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Sarin is so OP. I'd name a kid Sarin.
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2022年02月22日
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ウサギ-
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[picture of a dog/cat thing on a windowsill]
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tomorrow we're watching American Psycho (2000)
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Today I work 1130-1700. Tonight I'll pick up some snacks and clean my
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room a bit. It's messy but I don't think it's beyond saving.
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[picture of the burger king]
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Just trying to cover up the bleed-thru.
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Sitcom
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["Pilot"] S1E1
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The fellas throw Trinity a surprise 9/11 celebration.
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["Trauma Wars"] S1E2
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During a Phineas and Ferb reenactment, Trinity throws a game
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show where the player with the most childhood trauma wins.
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["The Long Shot"] S1E3
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Trinity and [...] come up with a plan to get raises.
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["Codebreakers"] S1E4
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The fellas break the Hayes code.
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["Wings"] S1E6
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Trinity tries to convince her friends to star in a television
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pilot about celebrating 9/11.
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"Prove to me that you're human."
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"Excuse me?"
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SUBJECT:
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PHIL MANEKINO
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AGE:
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35
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"Prove to me that you're a human."
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"I don't have to prove anything to-"
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DISINCENTIVE APPLIED.
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"Prove to me that you're a human."
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Phil shifted in its chair.
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"I- I have a wife-"
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"She too is in questioning."
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"-a family-"
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"So are they."
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"-so what's in question? My whole life?"
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"Prove to me you're not a robot."
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"How? Why?"
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I sat back and emitted a sigh. "Your latest medical examination revealed no
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hypertension, pre-hypertension, cavieities, abnormalities. You have no criminal
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background of any kind. No unusual lookup patterns on the Intranet. Thus, you
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must be a robot."
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"I'm a robot because I'm clean?"
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"Nobody's clean in such a dirty world. Your dirt must be deeper than skin."
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I selected the dremel from my toolkit.
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"Oh god, no, please."
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The usual pleas.
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"Prove to me you're not a robot."
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"Why are you doing this?"
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DISSECTED FINGER: HUMAN.
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"You're a cuborg?"
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DISSECTED ARM: HUMAN.
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I dismantled the robot made only of human components and from these and my
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experience compiled my report. Family must be, too.
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Operator congratulated me before turning me off.
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on my usual stupid bullshit
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2022年02月22日
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ウサギ-
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It's today again. Perhaps it was today yesterday, or it's yesterday
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today. It doesn't really matter.
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[picture of a stick figure sitting at a table, saying "where am I?"]
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I remembed in elementary school I was in the "Gifted[...]" program -
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[...]. Apparently they formally I.Q. tested me but I don't know that anyone
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outside the program (or myself) saw the results.
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We read advanced reading books, did more complicated maths, etc. I
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preffered [sic] the middle school [...] teacher, [...], to the elementary
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teacher. Less strict. Anyway, I got the feeling it was a doomed program. Lack
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of funding, lack of interest. Of course the public controversy around such
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things. But hey, it got me reading Shakespeare in like fifth grade. A Midsummer
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Night's Dream. Not my favorite of his.
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I didn't really enjoy my childhood. [...]
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Life was simpler. Better? No. Much worse. But I like simplicity.
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[...]
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[...]
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trinity@laika:~ $ curl wttr.in/?m
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Weather report: [...], Maine, United States
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Overcast
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.--. -26(-38) °C
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.-( ). ↘ 22 km/h
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(___.__)__) 16 km
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0.0 mm
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Hell's dress code is this:
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- shirt, pants, intimates, et cetera; base layer
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- jumper
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- jacket liner
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- jacket
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- bandanna to cover face
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- hat
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- jacket hood, pulled tight
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- chunky ugly really warm gloves
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- leg warmers
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good enough to go to the gas station. any farther and you will die.
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One fortune cookie, two fortunes:
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Don't stop dreaming, otherwise your dreams will get awfully
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boring.
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Be smart but don't show it.
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-02.html
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2023-02-02 21:09:58 -07:00
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Jesus it's cold... I gotta move someplace warmer... like Hell...
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Applied for my passport today. I called the cab company at 0730 and
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they said they'd sent a cab as soon as possible. Then at 0755 the cab arrived
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and, knowing the trip would take like 15 minutes, I told the cabbie if they got
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me to the post office to apply for the passport by 0800 I'd tip them $20. Four
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minutes of extremely haphazard driving later I was down $33 and on time for the
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appointment. It took like five minutes to actually apply because I'd already
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filled out all of the paperwork so I was out of there and at work within the
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hourish. Good times.
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Kingslayer by Bring Me the Horizon ft. BABYMETAL goes so fucking hard.
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Like, so so hard. The mosh pit for the song is also usually fucking kickass.
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I wanna be a kingslayer!
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It's fucking cold outside. wttr.in/?m says this:
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curl: (92) HTTP/2 stream 0 was not closed cleanly: INTERNAL_ERROR (err 2)
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Accuweather says this: [-8 deg C]
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The forecast for Friday (tomorrow) afternoon says -10 deg C with 32km/h
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winds ("RealFeel": -23). Saturday afternoon -16. "RealFeel" -31. If it gets any
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lower I'm gonna have to set the thermostat to Kelvin. Jack Frost is a son of a
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bitch.
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My -->ANECDOTAL<-- caffeine knowledge is this.
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Tolerance is built up gradually. 80mg might stim a househusband, 300mg
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might barely be enough to keep a prole awake. Cup of coffee is between 40 and
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80mg. If you're drinking coffee you might as well crank it up to however strong
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you want. Most people don't need caffeine, they drink coffee because of peer
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pressure and it feels good at first but eventually the tolerance takes over and
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it has basically no effect. You have to have a really long tolerance break to
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actually reset your tolerance, it's not worth it to go on a break unless you're
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trying to quit. CDC recommends like 400mg max for a healthy adult, 500 is a
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good amount to actually get work done, at like 600-700 (varies per person) you
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just get wacked out and don't accomplish anything. 1000-1500mg puts you in a
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state of euphoric zen if you have a strong tolerance and literally kills you if
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you don't have a tolerance. 2000mg kills you or a horse, both if portioned
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carefully. If you overdose you're super mega fucked and painfully so; muscle
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fuckiness and brain fog. Drink like 2L of water, piss, repeat until you start
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to feel okay, the residual effects you have the day after will follow you for
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the rest of your life. Monster 300 is like the highest caffeine potency you can
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get in an energy drink so if you wanna consume caf either homebrew strong ass
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coffee (boil a pot down to a cup or something) or spend like $20 on Monster and
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enjoy ketoacidosis. Caffeine kills for realzies so don't overdo it and listen
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to your doctor. THIS IS MY EXPERIENCE ONLY. DO NOT CONSUME PAST WHAT THE CDC
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RECOMMENDS. DO NOT SUE ME FOR YOUR OWN IDIOCY.
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As far as I know, and as much as I should,
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say that the powers that beckon are good,
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I have to admit that they've broken a lot
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of promises better to better and not
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one of their oaths has been filled, just forgot.
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They just make more work to do and then do it and stop
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the betters from bettering and raising the top
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of standards to better than there was before
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the powers that beckon took hold of the floor.
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Scott pulled back the bolt and the AA battery spit out of the side of
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the rifle. He reached in his pocket and grabbed another one, pushed it into the
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chamber, made better aim, closed his eyes, fired. The blast burned a hole
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in his sight even through his eyelids but other than the temporary optical
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degradation he was unharmed. His target, however, subject to the full power of
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a 3Ah battery spent in half a second, had a hole burnt through his suit and
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through himself.
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Then he felt a pinprick and knew a sparrow's talon, another of his
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generation's angels of war, with its thin tungsten shaft and dainty uranium
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barbs, had gotten lodged in his back. He turned around and shot the offending
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kid with a Glock.
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I'm standing in an empty parking lot
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snow is falling from the sky
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it's such an empty parking lot, now
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snow is falling from the sky
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I held the car door handle
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snow started falling from the sky
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I sighed and got my baggage handled
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snow started falling from the sky
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I'm standing in an empty parking lot
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and snow is falling from the sky
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I'm smoking a nearly finished cigarette
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and snow is falling from the sky
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I opened the car door
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and I turned and asked you why
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and you said there's nothing to remember
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snow is falling from the sky
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[...]: You should fuck Bs instead of As because Bs have two holes.
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Trin: What does that mean???
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[...]: Another one is, 'you should go fuck yourself with a T because it has a
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handle.
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Trin: No, seriously, what does that mean???
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Earl of I.fel a tell vis but I don't remember why.
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Earlier toupe I felt a tell visio but I don't remember why.
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Earlier today I felt like a television but I don't remember why.
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Ear er to I felt like a elevi on but I don't remember why.
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E r r o I felt like a lev on but I don't remember why.
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E r r o fel on but I don't remember why.
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after monster #4: hiiii
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after monster #7: hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-02-01.html
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2023-02-02 21:09:58 -07:00
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What I had for breakfast today: A strawberry Oreo milkshake. Half a cigarette.
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What I had for supper today: Chicken nuggets and a burger. The other half.
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What I'm drinking: Vermont maple spice tea. And Dayquil.
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Now playing: Painkiller - Nothing But Thieves.
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Jason walked up the cloud to the pearl gates of Heaven. God stood at
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the door in front of a lecturn with a massive book. He (as in He) spoke first:
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"Name?"
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Jason paused. "Oh. I died there, didn't I?"
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God curled His lips into a frown. "Did you think you would live?"
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"No, I guess I knew I would probably die."
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"Was it worth it?"
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"Yeah, I guess. It was what needed to be done. I wish I didn't have to
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die that way, but I suppose that's how it is."
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God thumbed through the pages. "At what day did you leave?"
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Jason told Him.
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God found the day. "Hmm. That's interesting."
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"I don't know much about this religious stuff. Honestly I thought it
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wasn't for real. But didn't you write that book?"
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"Do you remember everything you've written?"
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"Well, no."
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"Exactly. I forgot about this section. And to be honest-" God winked at
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you "-I'm probably as much of a character as you are, Jason."
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"Why did you ask me my name if you knew it?"
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"You're the only one that dies like... that. That day. I'd say you're
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the worst death there."
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"Fucked with an angle grinder."
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"Yeah, fucked with an angle grinder."
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"I was hoping if You existed You'd come through for me there. Like a
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'deus ex machina' sort of thing, y'know? Maybe I didn't have enough faith."
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God looked into the distance behind Jason. "Honestly, I wasn't really
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listening that day."
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"No fucking shit! At least everyone else made it out okay because of
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me, right? It was an honourable death?"
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God looked back into the book at the next couple pages. "Hmm. Yeah.
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Yeah, that's pretty honourable."
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"That's good." Jason leaned on the other end of the podium. "Can- can I
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see Jane?"
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"Jane? There are a lot of Janes."
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"My wife. She made it here, right? Oh, wait - can I get in? Into
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Heaven?"
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"Yeah, sure, you've earned it. But your wife isn't here. Or in the
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other place. Your wife's on Earth."
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"What? No."
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"Yeah. Jane used the cash she'd been slowly building up to buy a plane
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ticket to Kazakhstan and retire."
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"Fuck."
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"Yeah."
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"Really?"
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"Yeah."
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"Fuck."
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"Well, you'll have a lot of time for relationship stuff up here, so,
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like, have fun with that."
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"Fuck me, man." The gates open and Jason started walking through before
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pausing. "Y'know, times were hard."
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"Yes, yes they were."
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"Like, really hard. I don't think I was ever really happy, y'know? I
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never got anything like that. The best I got was a fucking character arc like
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this is a comic book or something. That kind of felt unnecessary, y'know? The
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whole fucking me over again and again? I don't think I needed that."
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"Perhaps."
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"Per fucking haps. Y'know what? Where were you? Why did you write me
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like that? My life has been fucking torture. Why did you do that to me?"
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God kicked Jason and he fell over past the gate threshold. The door to
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Heaven slammed shut, and God locked it.
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[...]: Welcome to Hell.
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Trin: Great to be here.
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-01-31.html
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#!/bin/sh
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set -e
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# UNIX manual system
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1>&2 \
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done
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trick or treat
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girl's gotta eat
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i'll bark for u
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just please pay me
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just grab me by the
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bezel and make me wish
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i was more than a
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screen. please?
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Blaa
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================================================================
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Trin (laughing): That's not even the grossest thing I've seen here.
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[...]: No?
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Trin: No.
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[...]: I believe that. And that's fucked. (starts laughing)
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Trin (still laughing): I feel like I'm going insane.
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[...]: You do?
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Trin: Not really. I already went insane a while ago.
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[...]: It's the new normal.
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Trin: Yeah. We're all insane around here.
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It's still Tuesday?
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I had a dream: I was in a private art gallery admiring the paintings.
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Then it turned out there was a warrant out for my arrest. They'd found
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something extreme enough to warrant throwing a smoke bomb through the window in
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front of me. I noticed it wasn't really clouding anything so knowing it was
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probably some nerve agent I ran to the door and gated over to a fractal of the
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world in which I'd been. Some SWAT agent or something saw me open the door to
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While that transpired I forked and gated over to the MoMA or whatever
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in Manhattan. Some cars with black tinted windows rolled up from both ends of
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the road so I sprinted across the street into ongoing construction where I was
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shot and killed. Worth a try.
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a place to which that doorway didn't usually go and sprinted through along with
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me. I ran through the gallery, which was this rich guy's beautiful townhouse,
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and made it upstairs where I got onto the roof. The SWAT didn't know I was
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there so I jumped down and made it into a nearby forest. One for two.
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[2:59 PM] Strong Eminav_B (weak): I was expecting you to look older and a less
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round face
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[3:09 PM] Strong Eminav_B (weak): The way you describe ur life makes me picture
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you like that before and after image of that
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ww1 soldier
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What are you wearing?
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I dunno baby, whatever you want...
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Carhart pants. Loose fit jeans but I'm considering tighter fit because
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it'd make them easier to pack. Black.
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Carhart shirt. Loose fit. I take a razor and cut the Carhart logo off
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and it's just a 100% cotton shirt with a pocket that I know will last me a
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while. Black.
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Amazon "athletic sleeves". Tight. Black.
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Some eco whatever hat. Keeps headlights, rain, and hair out of my eyes.
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Black.
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Carhart gloves. Spandex. Well fitting. Black.
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New Balance 686 boots. Everything-proof. Pink shoelaces under all the
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grime. Black.
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Casio F-91W. Black.
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On occasion, a bandanna tied around my neck or hair. Black.
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Dickies socks. Black.
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Intimates. Take me out to dinner first. Even then you'll probably never
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see them.
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A Hello Kitty scrunchie. Silk, maybe? Satin? Shiny. Kawaii. Not black.
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Glasses. Rose colored.
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[3:32 PM] trn1ty: yeah it sorta be like that
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[3:32 PM] trn1ty: blackpink
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[3:32 PM] trn1ty: cutepunk
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trn1ty started a thread: trinity fits thread. See all threads.
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Yesterday at 9:24 PM
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[9:18 PM] trinity: they're gonna study my work after i'm gone but idk in cs or
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in psychology
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[9:19 PM] sasha: in cryptozoology
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treat me like your computer
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i wanna do all your math
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take me apart for techno school
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show all the pieces to your class
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grab me by the bezel
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make me glitch the fuck out
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tie me up in wires
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call me a bitch and make out
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treat me like your computer
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like i'm a video game
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play me with your friends from school
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but don't tell me their names
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unplug me from the ether
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so i can't surf any sites
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take your hard drive out from me
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leave me on a shelf and go outside
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Rothco M-65 mansfield jacket. Sturdy. Black.
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Aside from my weird thing recently it's been months since I've felt
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much emotion. My emotions and I are apart, for the better I think. They didn't
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do a lot of good for me and I didn't do a lot of good for them. Good riddance.
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Most of the people I know don't feel emotion. The rest of the people I
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know with which I've brought this up think this is horrifying. I don't think
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so. The people I know with emotion left are either priviledged or at one point
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had it in a way that is to me unimaginable. The rest of us had to grow up.
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I remember being scared the first time I saw Night of the Living Dead.
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I haven't felt fear in years. High school, the earlier years probably. Maybe my
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caf OD did something. Maybe there's only so much fear you can, and I did.
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Maybe...
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There is no pausing, there is no remembering, there is no recoiling.
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When things go bump in the night you get a rifle, when people die you walk past
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them, when everybody is dead you step over the bodies and on them if necessary.
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And I'm tired but not tired enough.
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[]-[]-' :(){:|:;};: ...
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2023-02-03 20:56:11 -07:00
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-01-29.html
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2023-02-02 21:09:58 -07:00
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Fuck!
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I don't remember typing that. I got like 8hrs last night and the same
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the night before! The previous nights 2-3.
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I started a Patreon. You don't get much for it, just a custom role on
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feeling.murderu.us, and only on the Discord bridge.
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My Raspberry Pi is actually really goddamn fast. I put a cheapo Amazon
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passive heat sink + fan on it and now it stays under 60C without a problem.
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raspi-config(8) doesn't let you trigger the fan any lower than that for some
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reason or I might keep it at 50. Look at this mess:
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if [ "$INTERACTIVE" = True ]; then
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TIN=$(whiptail --inputbox "At what temperature in degrees Celsius sh[...]
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else
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if [ -z $3 ]; then
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TIN=80
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else
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TIN=$3
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fi
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fi
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if ! [ $? -eq 0 ] ; then
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return 0
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fi
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if ! echo "$TIN" | grep -q ^[[:digit:]]*$ ; then
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if [ "$INTERACTIVE" = True ]; then
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whiptail --msgbox "Temperature must be a number between 60 and 120[...]
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fi
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return 1
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fi
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I don't like this. I really don't like this! I'm gonna rewrite
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raspi-config(8) today. Fuck it.
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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/blah/2023-01-27.html
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2023-01-27 03:00:04 -07:00
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NPR: <https://text.npr.org/1151374507>
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Headline: "Nearly all U.S. mass attackers were male and faced major life
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stressor, report finds"
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Content: "...Nearly all the attackers experienced 'at least one
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significant stressor' within five years of the attack..."
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What?? Who *has not* experienced a significant stressor within the last five
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years?
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These analyses don't compare the demographic to the average or median,
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just sensationalize useless numbers. This is somewhat cherry-picked but the
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rest of the article also sucked.
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I read NPR for my pseudo-left Capitalist news. I used to read CNN but I
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would get irate at misleading headlines. I checked for some to lambast (ooo I'm
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becoming a True Blogger "lambasting" my perceived enemies I'm so cool) but
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couldn't really find anything that stuck out so maybe I'm remembering it as
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worse than it was. Still, most of these headlines can be filed under "who the
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fuck cares":
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"Ukraine's new tanks won't be the instant game-changer some expect"
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but they're still useful so who cares
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"Here's how family and officials who have seen the video of Tyre
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Nichols' arrest are responding to the footage"
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probably they don't like it because he got shot or something
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who's Tyre Nichols
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"Quarterbacks in the NFL playoffs are getting younger. Here's why their
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age is important"
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who cares about the NFL?
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"US Marines officially opens first new base in 70 years on island of
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Guam"
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USA propaganda piece
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"After 3 years of Covid, CNN went into rural China for Lunar New Year.
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Here's what we found and how officials tried stopping us"
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probably officials knew CNN fucking sucks ass and were trying
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to stop them from ruining people's fun. article exploration
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time!
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the article was incomprehensibly boring and just
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explored COVID-19 stuff in rural china. the tldr is
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rural people don't care because they didn't really get
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great treatment during the onset of the pandemic so
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anyone who would've died did and now it's just a thing
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that goes around. i didn't read much of the article i'm
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just describing my rural town because rural towns are
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the same fucking everywhere
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"China still wants to control Big Tech. It's just pulling different
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strings"
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anti-China propaganda piece. this could have been titled "the
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Chinese government still wants influence over Western
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technology companies, trying different methods" but that
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wouldn't be biased or completely fucking stupid. can you tell I
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hate CNN?
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I could go on but my doctor (drug dealer) told me to watch my blood
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pressure so I'm gonna have to chew an aspirin (drugs) to calm down (get high).
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2023-02-02 21:09:58 -07:00
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私を殺して
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street racer at twelve
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no sidewalk. street's soaked in ice
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take me somewhere nice
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Note to self: mail Jared <https://soundcloud.com/cementcity-1
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/fallen-angel-cement-city-cover-panty-and-stocking-with-garterbelt-ed>
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[...]
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[12:06 PM] tebicat: I read this and imagined a human organ hooked up as an hid
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or something
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[10:05 PM] trinity: like that person with the pinball thingies surgically added
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to their brain or whatever and could be put into agony by
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pressing a button
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[10:05 PM] trinity: what are the pinball thingies called
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[10:05 PM] trinity: SOLENOIDS
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[10:06 PM] trinity: EE teacher called them pinball bumpers
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[10:07 PM] trinity: cyborg but the augmentation is easy facility for torture
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[10:07 PM] trinity: ping ping ping AAAAAAAAIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEE
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[10:10 PM] trinity: in hindsight i should stop engaging with severely fucked up
|
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|
|
events
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[10:10 PM] trinity: i feel like all my random anecdotes are like hey i watched
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|
a person die that way
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|
I'm not a very good leader. Today at work one of the people in my [...]
|
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|
|
threw a bitch fit because I put them on menial labor most of the time rather
|
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|
|
than the meat and potatoes of our job. A real bitch fit that made me pause what
|
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|
I was doing for a couple seconds to tell them to shut the fuck up, but then my
|
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|
superior called them into their office so that they instead could tell them to
|
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|
|
shut the fuck up - I technically have no authority to tell anyone what to do
|
|
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|
|
but people listen to me because I'm the one with the most experience.
|
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|
"I'm gonna throw a B.F.! A bitch fit!" ~ a friend of mine
|
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|
|
I'm not a very good leader. The issue is that I don't really feel that
|
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|
|
whole empathy thing or anything like that. Not only can I not imagine what my
|
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|
|
subordinates (this sounds like total dogshit but bear with me because this
|
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|
|
|
wording is the best I have) are feeling but when they verbalize their feelings
|
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|
|
there's not much I can do to understand or care because I barely have
|
|
|
|
|
|
discernable emotions besides {confused,typical,hyper,tired}. My solution to
|
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|
|
|
most things is to get someone doing menial labor because I figure if they're
|
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|
|
stressed out they should do relaxing small jobs rather than the soul crushing
|
|
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|
|
eternal big job.
|
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|
|
I don't have much to add because I don't care that much. When dogs bite
|
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|
|
send them outside. Otherwise as long as they can still walk put them on the
|
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|
|
leash and make them exercise.
|
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|
|
2023-01-27 03:00:04 -07:00
|
|
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|
|
2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
|
|
|
|
/blah/2023-01-25.html
|
2023-01-26 06:54:02 -07:00
|
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|
Trinitisms: It's not preferable to drink from plastic.
|
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|
|
I was really pleasantly surprised to see people's caring about
|
|
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|
|
|
microplastics hit the mainstream. This is half about that and half just that I
|
|
|
|
|
|
don't like the texture of most plastic things relative to metal cans or glass.
|
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|
|
Except straws, I love straws.
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|
Now reading: <https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychochemical_warfare>
|
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|
|
2023-03-05 20:14:48 -07:00
|
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|
Service: Soundcloud - trn1ty
|
2023-01-26 06:54:02 -07:00
|
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|
I had a dream last night I was walking in my neighborhood when this
|
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|
|
bald eagle swooped down to attack me. I happened to have a baseball bat with me
|
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|
|
so I hit it in its chest and it fell down on the ground. Then I beat it until
|
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|
|
it stopped moving and when it was dead I woke up.
|
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|
Band name idea: sourdough starter.
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Trinitisms: Don't put ice in beverages that aren't water, or they'll get
|
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|
|
watered down.
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|
I made this joke at work until everyone was sick of it and then put it
|
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|
|
on my website because I myself was not yet sick of it.
|
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|
Trinitisms: Don't think, feel.
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|
And you'll be tanasinn.
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|
Trinitisms: A string is an array of characters.
|
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|
|
I hate, hate, hate, HATE programming languages that don't let me index
|
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|
|
strings as if they're arrays. Or make me jump through hoops. C is perfect.
|
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|
Trinitisms: More magic is necessary.
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|
Referencing the famous magic / more magic hacker fairytale.
|
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|
Trinitisms: The only good programmers are the insane programmers.
|
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|
I miss you, Terry!
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|
Trinitisms: If less than one half of the packaging is in a non-Latin writing
|
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|
system, the noodles will be sub-par.
|
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|
I think I came up with this in high school. I prefer Shin Ramyun and
|
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|
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|
|
use a Sunbeam Hot Shot to heat the water, the same since I started. I used to
|
|
|
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|
|
have a couple a day but now I rarely have that ramen. I can get a meal from a
|
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|
|
local Chinese restuarant and stretch it out to last me 3 days of meals.
|
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|
辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛
|
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|
I hope this Unicode works because it's tofu with the default xterm(1)
|
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|
|
font.
|
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|
I can't sleep. When I close my eyes I can see the inside of my mind.
|
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|
[2022-01-08T0128] trinity: proprietary vendor, proprietary problem
|
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|
|
Howard, what is flau x4c?
|
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|
Cassidy met Ada at the coffee shop for the second time for the second
|
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|
time.
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|
Ada spoke first. "How's your morning going?"
|
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|
"Fine. Weird, but fine."
|
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|
"Weird?"
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|
Cassidy smiled. "I screw dials into watches, that's my job. It smells
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|
weird. I just realized there's all kinds of dust in the air."
|
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|
Ada grew pale. "Dust in the air?"
|
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|
2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
|
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|
/blah/2023-01-24.html
|
2023-01-26 06:54:02 -07:00
|
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|
How to make lysergic acid diethylamide (LSD)
|
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|
1. [...] [...] in [...] with [...] to get [...].
|
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|
2. Activate the [...] by [...].
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|
3. Extract the [...] and [...].
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|
Easy!
|
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|
Trinitisms: "Disc" refers to optical and physically impressive media, such as
|
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|
|
compact discs or phonograph discs, and "disk" is for magnetic
|
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|
|
media, such as floppy disks or hard disks; there are however
|
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|
|
exceptions and edge cases.
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|
I probably didn't coin this one but rather came up with it
|
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|
|
independently, observing the use of dis{c,k} between "optical disc" and "floppy
|
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|
|
disk". I'm still not sure if this is the actual rule.
|
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|
Trinitisms: catfella - the non-gender-specific form of "catboy" or "catgirl".
|
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|
(coined 2020-08-11 when referring to my friend Socks)
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|
Also in use (though not a Trinitism): nyanbinary.
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|
Socks is so cool. I don't know what they're up to now, probably kicking
|
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|
|
ass somewhere on the net. I was a moderator on their short-lived Discord server
|
|
|
|
|
|
which had like a million messages in #general alone after like three months. I
|
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|
|
|
met them on TikTok because we both had comparable follower counts and
|
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|
|
everything; I left TikTok and eventually all social media and they and everyone
|
|
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|
|
|
else stayed behind. Socks made the most realistic purring noise I've ever heard
|
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|
|
a person make.
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|
Sent SMS to [...] at 2023-01-21T00:19:22-0500:
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|
|
bloomberg terminal that jerks you off when your stocks enter the red
|
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Trinitisms: The continents shall be separated as follows:
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North America,
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South America,
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|
Eurasia,
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Africa,
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India,
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|
the middle-East,
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|
and Oceania.
|
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|
Though I hope someone important finds individual terms for each
|
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|
|
|
America and has a better name for the middle-East if each
|
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|
|
|
region's residents generally agree with me that the current
|
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|
|
|
naming kind of sucks.
|
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|
I talked to a friend of mine about this but I don't remember where. Not
|
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|
|
Discord. Maybe SMS? My SMS logs from history are totally toast.
|
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|
Trinitisms: 39 - "Thank you." In Japanese the word for 3 is "san" and the word
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|
|
for 9 is normally "kyuu" so 39 is pronounced "sankyuu".
|
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|
Trinitisms: Antarctica is cool, both literally and figuratively.
|
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|
The same friend with which I discussed the continents harbors
|
|
|
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|
|
Antarctica as a special interest and told me stuff about McMurdo Station which
|
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|
|
is cool as all fuck.
|
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Maslow has nothing on me.
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1 ___
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2 ______ _____/ \
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3 ________/ \_______/ \__
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4 / \______
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5/
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|
2023-01-23 08:49:18 -07:00
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|
|
2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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|
|
|
/blah/2023-01-23.html
|
2023-01-23 08:49:18 -07:00
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|
Adventures in nmcli(8): Secrets were required, but not provided.
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|
Rebooting didn't work.
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|
Futzing didn't work.
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|
Config didn't work.
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|
Disabled MAC address scrambling (already was disabled).
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|
Rebooted WiFi router.
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|
Rebooted machine.
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|
Worked.
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|
Rebooted.
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Didn't work.
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Rebooted.
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Worked.
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Rebooted.
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Didn't work.
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Rebooted.
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Worked.
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Hardware fault?
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What I'm reading:
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Wasson, R. Gordon, Ruck, Carl, Hofmann, A.,
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The Road to Eleusis: Unveiling the Secret of the Mysteries.
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Harcourt, Brace, Jovanovich, 1978.
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PING 1.1.1.1 (1.1.1.1) 56(84) bytes of data.
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Awesome!
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ME: 'Sup.
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JOHN: Nothing much. How about you?
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ME: Oh, you know.
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JOHN: What's going on?
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ME: Well, I'm alive, so things aren't great.
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JOHN: Oh.
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PURPOSE BUILT TO BE DISARMINGLY CUTE
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Now playing: Killing Me Softly - Roberta Flack
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Based! on sodium bicarbonate. in a spoon with a blowtorch
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Antipsychotics
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V Dopamine -> Neurotransmitters -> Chemical Synapses -> Synapses
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\ \ ^ / ^
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'-\------- Ergotism <------|-- Hosp. Bros. of Saint Anthony
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'-+---------- Eleusinian Mysteries
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'-- Philosophy <- Plato
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[...]
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[8:36 AM] segismundo: so, an anti psychotic does the opposite to LSD
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[8:37 AM] segismundo: meaning that LSD is, by definition, a "psychotic"
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Just as Land smoked methamphetamine, Plato drank of ergot-infected
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kykeon. Philosophy is an application of psychosis.
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[...]
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[9:48 AM] meatgrinder #1 meatspinoza: Fantastic
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rtt min/avg/max/mdev = 39.220/30595.549/353683.940/40902.931 ms, pipe 307
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Internet's out, repo's not cloned here, guess I'm writing this in a
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separate text file.
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This blah really is just a single large HTML file I edit (most of the
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time). I might start splitting it up but then I don't get to read previous
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stuff as I write. A lot of my revision process is just taking something I've
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written, copy pasting it into a new doc, and rewriting it word by word into
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something I like. It would be a lot harder to do if it was all separate text
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files. Honey, where did I put my arsonted_06.txt?
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I have a job I never really talk about here because I don't really like
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working and don't see why I should write about something I don't like. But my
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co-workers vaguely know of the existence of this blah so I figure I'll mention
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that. At least at this current job they do. Don't move up, move out. I make
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sandwiches. Fast food. It's no honorable occupation.
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xterm(1) is a program I really enjoy despite it technically being hot
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garbage. Someday maybe I'll fork it and fix it while keeping support for
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everything but probably not.
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maia arson crimew is so cool.
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I'd like to implement Fing for UNIX but better. It's definitely
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possible even in Just shell scripting. nmap(1), ping(1), etc.
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Immediately I'd like to write a history of pagers and some
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documentation for raspi-config(8).
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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"Sounds like a pretty one-sided relationship."
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"Well, yeah." Ada Karina had finished her brief account of a story that
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spanned decades.
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"Forty five the first time... back twenty three years from that... then
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how old?"
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"Oh, I uh- thirty. Even, I think."
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"Eight years. So fifty three. Then you were thirty five, another
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thirteen. That's sixty six years?"
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"I guess." Ada checked her watch.
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"You're twenty three now. That makes you eighty nine."
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"I guess."
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Howard tapped his fingers on the recliner. A church bell rang in the
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distance; noon. The cafe would close in an hour. He thought to himself. "Older
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than me."
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"Not physically. Mentally I feel like my brain's on fire. Probably I
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won't last much longer up in my head. But it helps a lot that I'm twenty three
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by all observable quantities. And really it's more like I was trapped in
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a simulation three times rather than that I actually time travelled."
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"How was it?"
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"How was what?"
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"You spent- eighty nine, twenty three - sixty six years working towards
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a relationship. I mean, no matter how good Cassidy is, is it worth it to go
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that long?"
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Ada thought for a moment. "For a smile? For a hug? Of course. and it
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kills me that it's gone." She laughed. "Yeah. It just kills me." Ada turned her
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head to look outside at the table at which she met Cassidy the second, third,
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and fourth times.
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Howard Polk had been the owner of the cafe for the previous two years.
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He wondered if he'd be alive for the holocaust, if Ada couldn't prevent it. He
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looked at his knuckles resting on the worn cotton armrest. The burns he got as
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a cook at someone else's establishment decades past never healed, not on his
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knuckles and not on his neck. "I lost someone too, once. The last person I
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cared about. Actually cared about."
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"May I ask who?"
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Howard snorted. "Yes you may. The co-owner. Margeret."
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"Margeret."
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"Best damn cook I knew. Taught me everything I know. Everything."
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"What happened?"
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Howard scratched the recliner fabric and felt the texture. "We went our
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separate ways, or rather, she went her separate way, getting bored of the
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business or the routine or something. I texted, called, messaged back when
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instant messaging was still new. And she sent me a message saying it wasn't my
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fault that she didn't answer and that she was going through a rough patch."
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Ada turned back to Howard. "What happened?"
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"She washed up on the shore of the Nile."
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"Fuck."
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"I still prefer it to what you said. Even if I don't quite believe it."
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A timer went off in the kitchen area behind the counter in front of
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which Howard's recliner sat. Ada watched the cook bend down out of sight and
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return to view with a pan of bacon. "I wouldn't believe it either."
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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1000 lines since the last Ted story?
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Minerva and Ron sat silent in the car. Ron focused on driving while
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Minerva frowned at the horizon.
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"We should have stayed there and made sure he got help."
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"Help? What help is there for him? It's a miracle he didn't end up
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killing anyone. I know it's my 'duty' as manager to make sure the store's safe
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but the guys'll fill in everything for the cops and EMTs and Ted'll get put
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away in a place where he can't do more harm. That was a traumatic event,
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Minerva. I want something to take the edge off and I wanna forget the fire and
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Ted ever happened."
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Minerva looked at the steering weel. "That's not a healthy coping
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mechanism, you know."
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Ron stared into the horizon. "Oh, fuck off. If you thought any
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differently than I did you wouldn't have gotten in the car." They started to
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accelerate.
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Ted had been watching the second building burn that day for probably
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half an hour before he heard footsteps in the brush behind him. "You rat
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bastard!"
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Ted turned around to find a police officer with his gun already drawn.
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"Oh. Hi. Are cops allowed to swear?"
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The officer's hands' tremble was slight but visible. "Ted."
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Ted read the officer's name tag. "Jack?"
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"Tom. Tom Jack. You were at my brother's Christmas party."
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Ted remembered a Tally Jack with which he worked. Tally invited Ted to
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his Christmas party about three months prior and Ted at the time regretted
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showing up. Being beaten with blessings and suffocated by songs playing in
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background commercials. Every present had a logo and everybody already knew the
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brands. Ted was the odd one out, as usual. "Tom."
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"How could you? You could have killed all of your co-workers - why burn
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down the office? You could have killed my brother." Tom's voice quivered.
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Ted tilted his head and thought for a moment. "Nobody died. Would have
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been cooler if they all did, yeah." He smiled softly.
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Officer Jack, now angry, gripped his gun with both hands. "I could
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arrest you, and the judge would give you a sentence, but that wouldn't be
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justice. If you got out you'd just do this again, wouldn't you?" Ted nodded.
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"Me killing you right now is justice. To Hell with the consequences."
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Ted stood and watched the officer staring into his eyes but only
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reciprocated in the same way a doll or teddy bear makes eye contact. Without
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presence.
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"So." Tom exhaled. "Goodbye." Tom braced for Ted's reaction.
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There was none. Tom squared his soldiers. "Okay."
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Ted finally reacted. "Car."
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"What?" And then it hit Tom with all two tons of force; an ambulance
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driven under the influence. Its brakes squealed but the tires couldn't catch
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the dry grass and the ambulance sucked Tom under where he was run over by all
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four wheels before being spit out on the other side ten seconds from death and
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with his top ten most vital organs all perforated in one way or another. "Man."
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Ted watched the light leave Tom's eyes as the ambulance driver
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staggared out of the vehicle. Tom in terms of presentation wasn't too gruesome,
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though death did have somewhat of an effect on his composure. It struck Ted as
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a boring dead body.
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The driver put his hands on the sides of his head. "Oh man, oh man, oh
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man..." Ted was surprised he hadn't been the one hit but then remembered he
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didn't care, and that the ambulance driver wasn't on fire.
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"Can you hold still for a second?"
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The driver paused and looked at Ted. "...What?"
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Arson Ted is my favorite character.
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What I found in Flipnote Studio 3D for my Nintendo 3DS:
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- 2019-09-25 0646: 9 frames. Bouncing ball demo.
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- 2019-10-11 1736: 28 frames. Bouncing ball demo (the ball is liquid).
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- 2019-12-16 1304: 30 frames. The word "FUCK" turns into strings and
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falls onto the floor. It recollects as
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a heart with "YOU" in the middle.
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- 2011-01-01 2110: 60 frames. A stick figure falls into the ground and
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(likely a clock leaves an impression in the snow; climbs
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issue) out. Letters appear above them: "SOVIETS
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WITHOUT A PARACHUTE (tm)
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- 2011-09-30 1004: 4 frames. A stick figure masturbating.
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(likely a clock
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issue)
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- 2020-11-09 2257: 55 frames. A stick figure waits at a dinner table
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holding a fork and knife, wearing a bib.
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Another stick figure slides a dish to the
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other end of the table. The first stick
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figure looks down and their mouth extends
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into crocodile-like jaws before they take
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a bite out of the entire section of the
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table with the dish. The second stick
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figure extends their mouth likewise and
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smiles.
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- 2020-11-10 2302: 2 frames. A small drawing of a teddy bear next to
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the shaky words くまちゃん: <BR />
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「ACAB」.
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- 2020-11-16 1746: 2 frames. Words on top of a flashing yellow and
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white background: i <3 LOOTERS.
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Today I tried playing Professor Layton and the Curious Village for the
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Nintendo DS. It was too hard and I've given up. Half the puzzles are total
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bogus (you have one match and want to heat your bathtub, start a fire, and
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light your lamp; which do you light first?.. your match). The story looks good
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and I like the FMV cutscenes. Maybe I'll find an edit of all of them on-line.
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I rediscovered Paper Airplane Chase (DSiWare) which I had when I was a
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very small child on my DSi XL. I played it a lot and enjoyed it but now it
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looks to me like it's probably an asset flip of some part of another game.
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Maybe WarioWare?
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In total people owe me $545. I'm hoping I can get that by the time next
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month's rent is due.
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origin unknown)
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00:00: A picture of Tim and Moby from MobyMax.
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00:00: A picture of Captain Underpants.
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00:01: A picture of a Nintendo Wii.
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00:02: The poster for Diary of a Wimpy Kid: Rodrick Rules (2011).
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00:02: A screenshot from PAPA's TACO MIA.
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00:03: A picture of a kid with outstretched hands displaying
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Sillybandz.
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00:03: Bodycam footage of an officer shooting a figure in the desert.
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Dated 2018-10-10 1454.
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00:04: Video of a police officer shooting a man in the street. The
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police officer behind him is held back by a bystander.
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00:04: Video of a TSA agent searching a child for weapons.
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00:05: Video of another TSA agent searching a toddler in a wheelchair
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for weapons.
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00:06: A screen capture of a computer system using facial recognition
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to track school class attendance.
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00:06: A screenshot from a TSA body scanning computer.
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00:07: A Department of Defense press release showing 3D render of an
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"active denial system".
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00:08: Footage from a massacre at a mosque in Christchurch, New
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Zealand.
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00:09: A screen capture of a computer system tracking the positions of
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students at a school.
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00:09: Footage of a police officer pulling a police canine off of a
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figure.
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00:10: A picture of a poster at a school. Visible is a yellow smiley
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face with "Smile" above and "You're on camera!" below. To the
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right visible is the following fragment:
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Our new bus
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you have a sa
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We have pros
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and graffiti on
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(italic) You are being
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(italic) bus. So just sit
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WE WILL P
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OR
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00:10: A snippet from Sunday Today with Willie Geist, headline: JEFFREY
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EPSTEIN'S DEATH LEAVES ANGER AND QUESTIONS.
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2022-05-04
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Orientation
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Olive arrived the next day at 9 o'clock antemeridian having been
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informed of the time she'd start work two hours prior via electronic mail. She
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entered the restaurant via the two sets of glass double doors and walked to the
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counter.
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"Hi, I'm Olive, I'm here for my first day of work here."
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The kid at the counter looked like they hadn't slept in weeks. "Hi
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Olive, I'll go get the manager." They disappeared and returned from the back of
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the restaurant which didn't seem to be lit, accompanied by a man Olive hadn't
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met. He grimaced in an attempt to smile. "Hi Olive. Usually Paul would be here
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but he's out sick."
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"Sick? I spoke with him at length yesterday in his office – should I
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quarantine?"
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"No, the only thing of Paul's that was contagious was his smile." The
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man grimaced again. "Come with me, I'll show you the kitchen."
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Olive, lead by the new supervisor, followed into the dim kitchen, lit
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by a single red-tinted bulb. Another kid, apparently lacking more sleep than
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the first, stood at a tall stainless steel table on which four machines sat. On
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the far right was the paper dispenser; it dispensed paper wrappers for the
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burgers, operated by button press. The bun dispenser, operated by lever,
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deposited refined-grain sesame seed buns of 12 centimeter diameter, the bottom
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landing on one corner of the paper and the top landing on another. The patty
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dispenser, operated by plunging lever, was a conveyor belt that lead to the
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kitchen from nowhere immediately discernible to Olive. On metal wires it would
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push patties, two at a time, to the table. The final machine dispensed an
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orange mixture (that smelled like cheese and ketchup) and was operated by flip
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lever – flipped one way, it dispensed enough syrup for one burger, flipped the
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other way, it dispensed enough for another. Shik-shik, puk-puk, hrnnnnn, click.
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The kid at the table made two burgers at a time before wrapping them and
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sending them out.
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Next to the table, on the red tiled floor, was a bucket of waste. Olive
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gestured to it. "Do you do composting?"
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"Oh, no, of course not. We need to count out waste. How many burgers
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tossed, how many buns tossed, et cetera. We've had issues with employees
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stealing product."
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"Oh." Olive stared in the bucket. It held a soup of cheese/ketchup,
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grease, mushed bread, and dissolving wrappers. "You count out everything in
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there?"
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"Yup, that's not exactly my favorite part of this job." The supervisor
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turned to the table kid. "Daniel, this is Olive."
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"Hi Olive." Daniel turned back to his hell.
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The supervisor turned back to Olive. "You'll be replacing Daniel. Watch
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how he works so you know what you'll be doing."
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Olive kept staring in the bucket. "Do you have any sort of official
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procedure sheets?"
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"Yes, but you aren't allowed to see them."
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Olivia's eyes moved from the bucket to the conveyor. "Oh."
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That was OK. Here's how I'd write it now:
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Orientation
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Olive arrived the next day at 900 on two hours'notice. She entered the
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restaurant via two sets of glass double doors and walked to the counter.
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Holding the register was a teenager who looked like he hadn't slept in weeks.
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Olive read his nametag. Sam.
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"Hi Sam, I'm Olive, I'm here for my first day of work here."
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"Hi Olive, I'll go get the manager." He disappeared into the back of
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the restaurant, which Olive noticed was lit dimly if at all, and returned with
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a man in a black uniform. The man grimaced in an attempt to smile. "Hi Olive.
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Usually Paul, the manager with whom you spoke yesterday, would be here, but
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he's out sick."
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"Oh. Should I be here then? The interview was in an enclosed space and
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for a little while." Sam brought out the bag for an order as they talked. He
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pulled a receipt off a clip hanging from one of the shelves behind him, strafed
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over to the soda fountain, and started pouring drinks. A set of hands pushed a
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burger onto the other shelf and then receded back into the darkness.
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"No, it's not contagious - fortunately. Plus the restuarant is very
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well ventilated. The only thing of Paul's that was contagious was his smile."
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The man grimaced again. Olive noticed the use of past tense. "Come with me,
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I'll show you the kitchen."
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Olive, lead by the supervision, stepped behind the counter, between the
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two stainless steel shelves, carefully through a brief corridor between shelves
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holding room-temperature ingredients, and followed around the end of the shelf
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on the right to the small kitchen which she noticed was lit by a single red
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incandescent bulb. Another teenager stood at a waist-level stainless steel
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table onto which four machines dispensed paper wrappers, sesame-seed buns, beef
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patties, and some sort of sauce. Four tubes ran to the table; two from the
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floor and one each from the ceiling and a refrigerator-sized machine behind the
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kid that had a large steel tube chimney vent also routed towards, eventually,
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the sky. The kid at the table made a sandwich in a rhythmic beat.
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Shik-shik. The paper dispenser was a box sort of shaped like a printer
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with a large black button that used the mechanical force of the button press to
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separate and spit out the burger wrapper. The box extended past the edge of the
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table and a large stainless steel tube extended from its bottom through the
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floor. The papers had red splotches on them, like there was an accident in
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printing.
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Puk-puk. The bun dispenser was a tube that ran down from the ceiling
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towards the table with a lever on the front. The lever rotated a gear inside
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the tube so it could dispense a single twelve-centimeter sesame seed bun,
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fluffy enough to not be damaged upon hitting the bun wrapper.
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Hrnnnnn. The patty dispenser, operated by foot pedal, was a conveyer
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belt within a thick tube that carried a freshly-broiled hamburger patty; the
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Durmer Burger signature patty, in fact. It came pre-seasoned.
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Click. The sauce dispenser resembled a sink faucet, with a tube a
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couple centimeters in diameter running from a valve in the floor under the
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table to the hook-shaped dispenser section. On the front it had a flip lever -
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flipped one way, it dispensed enough syrup for one burger, flipped the other
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way, it dispensed enough for another. The large handle made a gentle but
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audible click as it toggled. The signature Durmer Burger sauce was orange and
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smelled to Olive like a mix of cheese and ketchup but she figured it would be
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naive of her to assume that was all it was.
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Shik-shik. Puk-puk. Hrnnnnn. Click. Then he wrapped them and pushed
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them through the shelf into the light behind it.
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Next to the table, on the red tiled floor, was a bucket, a third full,
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of various decomposing ingredients. Olive pointed at it and turned to the
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manager. "Do you do composting?"
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"Oh, no, not here." He chuckled, which came out as a low growl. "We
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count out waste to make sure the inventory sums out. A couple years ago we had
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some problems with an employee stealing a ton of stuff from here so it's just
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in case it happens again. Probably not really necessary but it's what the
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higher-ups want."
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"Oh." Olive stared in the bucket. It held a soup of sauce, grease,
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the remnants of some buns, and slowly-dissolving wrappers. "You count out
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everything in there?"
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"Yeah. Not exactly sunshine and roses." The supervisor spoke a little
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louder. "Daniel."
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The table teen, presumably Daniel, looked up from making sandwiches.
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"This is Olive."
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Daniel looked towards Olive's knees. "Hi Olive." He turned back to his
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table.
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The manager turned back to Olive. "You'll be replacing Daniel. Watch
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how he works so you know what you'll be doing."
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Olive kept staring in the bucket. "Do you have any sort of procedure
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sheets anywhere?"
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"Probably. I've only seen glimpses. They keep it under wraps. This is
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more sort of a word-of-mouth, creative job. You do things the best you can."
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"Alright, cool."
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I don't like chocolate.
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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2022-05-04
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Interview
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Olive set herself down on a blue chair with stainless steel gray legs
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that grasped a red tiled floor thinly but strong enough at least for her right
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then. The weather outside was beautiful, a clear sky with few clouds, and the
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sun would rise in an hour, though Olive could see none of this because the
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cramped office in which she and her chair were captive was windowless. The
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silence was set to the beat of Olive tapping her jeans with her nails and
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looking at the, to her, very large vent next to the flickering fluorescent
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light in the suspended ceiling. The cheap desk in front of her wasn't very big
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but still barely left room for her against the wall, on it was miscellaneous
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unsorted paperwork. This was the first, most potent memory Olive would have of
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her time working for Durmer Burger.
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There came two knocks at the door and it was ajar. The lead manager,
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Paul, smiled with nearly all of his teeth before pulling it open. "Olive, is
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it?"
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"Yes." Olive stood up and held her hands at her sides, intending to
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shake Paul's hand if he offered his. He didn't and simply sat down behind his
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desk. Olive sat down as well.
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"This is an impressive resume. You volunteered at the humane society
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for two years?" Paul's salt-and-pepper hair stuck out under a brown DURMER
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WORKER hat.
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"Yeah. I had some spare time and wanted to help out."
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"Good, good. I see you did take some cooking classes at school. You
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might be able to teach us a thing or two. I know our kitchen can be a little
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strange to new hires but I think you'll get along fine."
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"I hope so."
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"So do you want to stay in the kitchen, or do you want to take orders?
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Maybe a little of both?"
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Olive looked at the desk for a moment before looking back at Paul. "I
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think starting out in the kitchen would be good, but I don't know."
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"Alright, kitchen, then play it by ear. Sounds good." Paul put on a
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sickness of a smile and reached out with a bent elbow to shake Olive's hand,
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which she followed.
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After Olive left the room Paul leaned back in his chair and began to
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seize. Foam fell from his lips onto his gray uniform. The chair fell over to
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Paul's right side, to the door, and Paul hit the side of his head on the
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doorknob as he fell onto the floor while his chair scuffed the beige wall
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behind him. As his blood dripped slowly onto the tile the fluorescents finally
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gave out. Neither the kitchen crew nor the order takers heard Paul die, though
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Sam, who usually was relegated to the fryer in the kitchen, noticed the light
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was off while sneaking out to the dumpster to smoke a joint of marijuana. He
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knocked, asked the order takers where Paul was, and continued out through the
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back entrance to the dumpster. On his way back he noticed Paul's car was still
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parked outside the entrance. Sam checked both bathrooms (each empty) and opened
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the office door ajar to see if Paul maybe was taking a nap on the clock. That's
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when Sam found the body.
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After Olive left the room she walked out of the restaurant through the
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front entrance, looked up and down the street for traffic, though there rarely
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was any, and crossed Canal Avenue over to the Chinese buffet where she turned
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right and started walking home. She watched ambulances and a police car fly
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down the road and didn't see any significance in it.
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Paul's shoulder was mostly holding the door shut but Sam could see the
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drool on the floor. He ran away to the front and told the order takers, who
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called the local emergency number. Two ambulances and a police car stopped in
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the drive-through and brought out a stretcher, some paramedics, and a police
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officer. While the paramedics took care of the body the officer questioned
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first the order takers and then Sam, whom the officer noticed was high. Officer
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Daniels didn't make a note of it.
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On a computer screen somewhere (anywhere) in a factory a worker watched
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a man seize and die on closed circuit television. He picked up a telephone and
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dialed for his superior who was on the same connection. The superior went down
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to the worker's office and stared at the still conveyor belt behind the worker,
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on top of which neatly laid a number of burger wrapper papers. The superior
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asked what the worker was doing and the worker explained that a man had just
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died inside the burger store (Durmer Burger). The supervisor stared at the
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press, then the employee, then the ink buckets that lay beside the press
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peppered with warning labels regarding the composition of the ink. The
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supervisor considered how hot the ink had to be to be in a liquid state. Then,
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silently, the supervisor grabbed the employee by the ear and violently threw
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them into the red tank. The employee opened their mouth to scream but only
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music came out. The most beautiful music the supervisor had heard. It came to a
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crescendo as the worker's face dissolved and they lost consciousness due to
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shock but it played on even after the employee's decrescendo. Red splattered
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onto the burger wrappers.
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2022-05-04
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Recomposition
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"Hey." A figure in a black trenchcoat, wearing green circular glasses a
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bit too big for their head, tapped Olive's shoulder as she lay on the road
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foaming at the mouth. "Hey Olive. Wake up."
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Seeing that Olive was dead, the figure started walking down the road
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backwards, facing Olive. When Olive's body flew up and started walking
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backwards towards Alan's the figure crouched and continued sneaking, staying
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out of Olive's field of view. This figure watched Olive make her way backwards
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to the gas station and eventually made it behind Durmer Burger as Olive
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shuffled backwards towards the ground outside the broken door and lay down in
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front of it. Olive flew into the door and the glass beads on the ground
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arranged themselves into a full sized window pane. The figure waited a minute
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or two on a mechanical wristwatch before heading towards the front of the
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building.
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All was quiet in the neighborhood. No birds chirped, no squirrels
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rustled trees, and there were no cars on the street. The figure in the black
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trenchcoat retrieved a black purse from their belt, took out a tension rod and
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paper clip, and started to pick the lock. Within a couple seconds they got
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through and held the door open. Soon Olive came running out of the portal.
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"Hey."
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Olive clutched her arm and turned around. "Hello?" Her face was twisted
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in pain.
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"Hi, I'm here to invite you to Saikokon." The figure smiled with a few
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more teeth than fit a human. "It's free!"
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"Saikokon?"
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"Yes, yes. It's quite a surprise, isn't it?"
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Olive looked around her. "What?"
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The figure frowned and put their purse back on their belt. "Alright,
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well, I'll take that as a yes, which isn't quite consent but otherwise in a
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couple minutes you won't be able to either way. I'm gonna need you to hop on
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this scooter." They took a small, collapsible Razor scooter out of their
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trenchcoat from a strap across their front and unfolded it. "It's a bit shabby
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but I don't like cars' emissions."
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Olive stared at the scooter. "I'm sorry – this is a lot to process. I
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need medical attention."
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"Yes, I know, and either you can pour some isopropyl alcohol on your
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arm and die on that street drooling or you can get on this scooter and go to a
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clinic. So which is it?"
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Olive stepped onto the scooter. Her foot was barely small enough to fit
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on its platform, leaving no room for the other. She adjusted her weight to
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balance.
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"Great. Now, I'm going to have to ask you not to puke. This is going to
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be extremely disorienting for you. Would you like a blindfold?"
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"What?"
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"A blindfold. It obscures your vision."
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"Why would I want a blindfold?"
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"In case of inadverdent motion sickness or blindness."
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"I could go blind?"
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"You could always go blind."
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"Will this increase the risks of my losing my sight?"
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"Olive my dear," the figure grabbed onto the middle of the scooter's
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steering apparatus firmly and steadied themself, "you have never seen." The
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figure started slowly walking, dragging Olive along, both through space and
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time.
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I'm writing this at 0400. I can't sleep.
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I didn't sleep much the
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night before this, or the
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night before that, but I
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just can't.
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I can't sleep.
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I'm not tired, except I'm
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a little tired - I just
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yawned. But I'm not
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tired. I can't sleep.
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I'm so tired. I don't
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want to sleep but I need
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sleep. But I can't sleep.
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I can't sleep
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! and I'm awake and I've
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been awake since noon? I can't
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remember and yesterday I
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still only slept maybe a
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couple hours for which I
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am thankful but I need sleep.
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And I can't sleep.
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And heavy is the head
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that wears the crown;
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heavy also is the head of
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the insomniac, the bitter
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dead-wake hound that
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howls in its gutty pain
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and makes mortals fear
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its cosmically lucid mind
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that can strike upon them
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an understanding so great
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they too will never sleep
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again. Never rest their
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head on a pillow, never
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lay in sheets, never
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breathe a great calming
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breath. They too can't sleep
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like I can't sleep.
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Why can't
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I sleep
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? Why must I
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never sleep
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but stay on guard and on
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edge and listening to the
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rustle of the vents and
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automotive traffic on the
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street behind me, past my
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window? Maybe I can sleep
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but it's the world that
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stops me. Maybe I
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halt the world. I
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don't care. I
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just want to sleep
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! I
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need to sleep
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! Let me sleep
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!
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2023-07-15 21:07:11 -06:00
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2023-01-04 17:15:20 -07:00
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2021-07-07
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Antero
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A person woke up wrapped in satin sheets, head atop a comfortably
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stuffed pillow. They remembered the two most important things: Take the pill.
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Check the book.
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The book. Where was the book. Their room came into view. A wallpaper of
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lilacs on a cream background. Large windows, nearly floor to ceiling. The book
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was to their left.
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June 1, 21XX. Ah, the first of a new month. Funny how that happens.
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They quickly flipped to the front. EDWARDS Eugene \ Class: Well-to-do. Ah.
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Well-to-do. Well in-deed.
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The last thing Eugene Edwards remembered was sitting in a pub in, oh,
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what year is it now? 21XX. So 40 years prior; sitting in a pub, having a pint
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of whatever happened to be on tap at that point. No televisions. No televisions
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at the bar. There were people on phones though. Eugene watched them, thinking.
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Kids on their phone. Is it a phone? Are they still phones nowadays? Fuck it.
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Phones. Just about the same anyway.
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The kids were on their phones scrolling through memetic imagery like a
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hundred years prior back when lead and fluoride and Donald Trump and quantum
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computers and oh god think of the children were on people's minds and when
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those were the only just about the only things on people's minds no
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cognitoviruses no hazards just green grass et cetera. A hundred years prior.
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Eugene wasn't there, nor were Eugene's parents, nor grandparents. Eugene's
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great grandparents were alive though. Given the plastic content in the
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grandparents' bones, Eugene figured the times were not great. But maybe they
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were okay. They could have been okay.
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The concrete age.
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Eugene was watching them on their phones. Whatever the fuck those
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hipsters used. And Eugene watched the kid on the left, or the right - the one
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farthest from the exit - Eugene watched them drop their phone, suddenly, and
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tense up. Like getting electrically shocked. All their muscles tightened, their
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face got red, their veins got big, like Rob Muscanis doing a dead-lift. Then
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the kid passed out. Passed the fuck out. Then the same thing happened to
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another kid and slowly as the kids checked what was on each others' phones it
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rippled out.
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Cognitohazard. That was what it was called. A memetic cognitohazard.
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Sweeping the god damn planet. The Indians and the Koreans both denied it was
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them immediately though they were under the closest scrutiny; India in
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particular had been known for trying to manufacture cognitohazards for military
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use. And all this investigation (in the wrong places) while it took kid after
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kid. And killed them! A fucking memetic image.
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That night was when Eugene learned about Antero.
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Antero is an experimental (now not so much) drug aimed at preventing
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the formation of new memories for 24 hours after ingestion. It's usually taken
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in the morning; available to every class and every body free of charge from the
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government not out of nefarious purpose (though that is questioned daily by a
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number of folks more than suspicious of the UPK's leadership) but out of a
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great need. Without Antero, fuck. Antero turns the permanent death of a
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cognitovirus into a temporary absence from the brain of the user. Antero is the
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penicillin of the twenty second century. Thank your local god for Antero, then
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thank the drug company that came up with it, Gokko (pronounced "gohk koh")
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Pharmaceutical. Then, of course, thank the Japanese.
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Eugene took their first Antero the following morning, and by the looks
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of Eugene's book of short term memories gone long term gone gone, Eugene had
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taken Antero every morning since then, for the past forty years. Well,
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thirty-six years technically, thirty six years, three months, and a day. Eugene
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figured most people would be afraid to wake up forty years older (especially
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given that Eugene was just about reaching UPK life expectancy of sixty-four).
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However, Eugene did not have emotions; Eugene was technically a psychopath.
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Though this word is antiquated now and will be far more antiquated by the time
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this story occurs; psychopathy is not a real diagnosable medical condition,
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rather a collection of common attributes, and the term is hampered by a very
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strong connotation that psychopaths are violent and compulsively homicidal.
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Eugene was neither.
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Eugene's book was written in a somewhat different way from their usual
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writing. At least that's what they figured at first look. On first glance, the
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entries were scrawled quickly and looked dirtier than their usual work (or
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their usual work of forty years' prior). Done so to save time, probably. And
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the entries were bulleted and abbreviated. "I went out for dinner with Laura.
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She seemed happy and has just gotten engaged to the kind-hearted and hearty
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mutual friend of ours Brian." becomes simply "dined with laura. now eng. w/
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brian"; "laura" and "brian" both hyperlinks to the relevant written profiles
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within Eugene's book (mentioned entry dated January 8 and both profiles updated
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automatically with this information at the same time).
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So, what to do today. 21XX-07-01. Go to work at Rogo Corporation. Job
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is to supervise the automatic production of electric machetes and rapidly debug
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errors. At nine hundred hours, attend meeting determining scope and cause of
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formula errors in accounting department, and consequences. Okay. Eugene got out
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of bed, went to the bathroom, brushed their teeth, and did other usual
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activities similar to one does in the bathroom. Then they put on a
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tight-fitting black collared t-shirt, light and thin dark blue jacket, and
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black jeans, and walked downstairs to hail a cab to the tallest skyscraper in
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their city.
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"Memes", viral thoughts, have existed for millennia. As the time taken
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for a thought to circumnavigate the world decreased, the sheer amount of memes
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increased. The printing press, telegraph, telephone, television, all
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accelerated the travel of memes. However, the mass popularization of the use of
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the Internet mainly through the world wide web in the early twenty-first
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century predictably spawned an unprecedented environment in which memes could
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form, pass through the minds of millions of people, and die, in the span of
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hours. This was the perfect petri dish in which cognitoviruses could evolve.
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Cognitoviruses, or memetic cognitohazards, are self-propagating mind
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worms that often interfere with the capability of the subject's brain to
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accomplish tasks necessary in order to think. The first cognitoviruses were
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temporarily distracting and rather harmless; for example, a game where,
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whenever one thinks of it, they lose, which is in turn unwinnable unless the
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subject never knew of the game in the first place, but of which the subject is
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compelled to tell others, is a very classic example (and one that was popular
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on the Internet through the mid 2010s). As research into the phenomenon of
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cognitohazardous materials and the memetic transmission of cognitohazards
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evolved, cognitoviruses were developed and published that began to circulate
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through popular communicative Internet services, and soon became a "meme"
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themselves.
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It was in the late twenty-first century that a cognitovirus was
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developed that was, more or less, lethal, and theorized to be the work of a
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state military though the true origin is uncertain. And Antero sat as a
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published paper and niche-market drug, usually applied in the treatments of
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mental illnesses such as post-traumatic stress disorder or depression. In the
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week following the release of the first lethal cognitovirus the usage of
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communicative Internet services plummeted, meanwhile Gokko Pharma's valuation
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increased fifty-fold. And so the world kept spinning.
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Antero. Eugene needed to take the pill. They were halfway down the
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stairs from their rented living space before they remembered and had to walk
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back up. On the other side of the bed from where their book was. A blue bottle
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with white cap; inside, a dozen or so green pills. Eugene dry-swallowed one and
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went back down the stairs to the street to find a driver.
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This is not nearly my best writing. I thought 七月 was June, the
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description of Eugene is so bland yet so pseudo-edgy. I like that Eugene uses
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gender-neutral pronouns but that was because of my misunderstanding of gender
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in which I thought such a thing was ridiculous and everybody should be neutral.
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I like the idea of memes as weapons and still think about it - I used to do
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stuff like that (and that's all I can say about that). But I think this style
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of narration sucks and the world described was excessively bland - intended to
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be British but without much subtle charm that colors the otherwise gray world
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of England in media. It's nice that my writing's improved so much in 18 months
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- or maybe I'm just not divorced far enough by time from what I write in this
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