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2023-02-02 21:09:58 -07:00
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THE WRITER MUST EAT -> patreon.com/trn1ty <-
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<A HREF="..">..</A>
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blah!
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ideas with no tangibility;
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ideas with irrelevant supports;
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ideas without value;
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ideas' witlessness;
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ideas' witnesses;
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ideas-
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2023-01-23 08:49:18 -07:00
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HOW TO READ THIS BLAH
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The newest posts are dropped at the top, so just read the newest post and then
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read older posts if somehow you actually enjoyed reading the newest post. Posts
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rarely make sense, which is a product of myself not making any sense but also
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that they're not ordered in any sort of chronology except that when I find
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something I drop it on the top.
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2023-02-03 20:56:11 -07:00
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2023-02-03
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2022-04-26
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Miss You Already
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Hey Trin!! I'm gonna miss you so much! I hope you excel at everything
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you do!!
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- Love Drew
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Bye!
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- Miranda
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We'll miss you!!!
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- Kaylah
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Bye.
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Rita
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We'll miss you trin! Good luck with your new job!
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- Kim
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Best of luck
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- [unintelligible]
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Good-Bye From All of Us
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Good Luck :)
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- Lee
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Gonna miss you + the [...]
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- Peter
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That job gave me such bad stomach issues I ate like only yogurt for a
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week to adjust. Three of those seven signateurs left that job in the next six
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months. I had been there eighteen months, long enough to go from severe
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incompetence to actually knowing what I was doing. At my current job I again
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consider myself incompetent. But I work with what I'm given.
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"More money more problems" is total bullshit. More money is only more
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problems if you're too afraid to slice and dice a little. If you wanna take the
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edge off you're gonna have to fuck around with an angle grinder a little.
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Just looked up what an angle grinder is. I didn't actually know, the
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name is just metal and the words are sort of iambic.
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Sarin is so OP. I'd name a kid Sarin.
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2022年02月22日
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ウサギ-
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[picture of a dog/cat thing on a windowsill]
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tomorrow we're watching American Psycho (2000)
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Today I work 1130-1700. Tonight I'll pick up some snacks and clean my
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room a bit. It's messy but I don't think it's beyond saving.
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[picture of the burger king]
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Just trying to cover up the bleed-thru.
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Sitcom
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["Pilot"] S1E1
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The fellas throw Trinity a surprise 9/11 celebration.
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["Trauma Wars"] S1E2
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During a Phineas and Ferb reenactment, Trinity throws a game
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show where the player with the most childhood trauma wins.
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["The Long Shot"] S1E3
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Trinity and [...] come up with a plan to get raises.
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["Codebreakers"] S1E4
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The fellas break the Hayes code.
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["Wings"] S1E6
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Trinity tries to convince her friends to star in a television
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pilot about celebrating 9/11.
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"Prove to me that you're human."
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"Excuse me?"
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SUBJECT:
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PHIL MANEKINO
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AGE:
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35
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"Prove to me that you're a human."
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"I don't have to prove anything to-"
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DISINCENTIVE APPLIED.
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"Prove to me that you're a human."
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Phil shifted in its chair.
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"I- I have a wife-"
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"She too is in questioning."
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"-a family-"
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"So are they."
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"-so what's in question? My whole life?"
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"Prove to me you're not a robot."
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"How? Why?"
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I sat back and emitted a sigh. "Your latest medical examination revealed no
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hypertension, pre-hypertension, cavieities, abnormalities. You have no criminal
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background of any kind. No unusual lookup patterns on the Intranet. Thus, you
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must be a robot."
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"I'm a robot because I'm clean?"
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"Nobody's clean in such a dirty world. Your dirt must be deeper than skin."
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I selected the dremel from my toolkit.
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"Oh god, no, please."
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The usual pleas.
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"Prove to me you're not a robot."
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"Why are you doing this?"
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DISSECTED FINGER: HUMAN.
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"You're a cuborg?"
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DISSECTED ARM: HUMAN.
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I dismantled the robot made only of human components and from these and my
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experience compiled my report. Family must be, too.
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Operator congratulated me before turning me off.
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on my usual stupid bullshit
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2022年02月22日
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ウサギ-
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It's today again. Perhaps it was today yesterday, or it's yesterday
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today. It doesn't really matter.
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[picture of a stick figure sitting at a table, saying "where am I?"]
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I remembed in elementary school I was in the "Gifted[...]" program -
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[...]. Apparently they formally I.Q. tested me but I don't know that anyone
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outside the program (or myself) saw the results.
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We read advanced reading books, did more complicated maths, etc. I
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preffered [sic] the middle school [...] teacher, [...], to the elementary
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teacher. Less strict. Anyway, I got the feeling it was a doomed program. Lack
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of funding, lack of interest. Of course the public controversy around such
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things. But hey, it got me reading Shakespeare in like fifth grade. A Midsummer
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Night's Dream. Not my favorite of his.
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I didn't really enjoy my childhood. [...]
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Life was simpler. Better? No. Much worse. But I like simplicity.
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[...]
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[...]
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trinity@laika:~ $ curl wttr.in/?m
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Weather report: [...], Maine, United States
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Overcast
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.--. -26(-38) °C
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.-( ). ↘ 22 km/h
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(___.__)__) 16 km
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0.0 mm
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Hell's dress code is this:
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- shirt, pants, intimates, et cetera; base layer
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- jumper
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- jacket liner
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- jacket
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- bandanna to cover face
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- hat
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- jacket hood, pulled tight
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- chunky ugly really warm gloves
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- leg warmers
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good enough to go to the gas station. any farther and you will die.
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One fortune cookie, two fortunes:
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Don't stop dreaming, otherwise your dreams will get awfully
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boring.
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Be smart but don't show it.
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2023-02-02 21:09:58 -07:00
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2023-02-02
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Jesus it's cold... I gotta move someplace warmer... like Hell...
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Applied for my passport today. I called the cab company at 0730 and
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they said they'd sent a cab as soon as possible. Then at 0755 the cab arrived
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and, knowing the trip would take like 15 minutes, I told the cabbie if they got
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me to the post office to apply for the passport by 0800 I'd tip them $20. Four
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minutes of extremely haphazard driving later I was down $33 and on time for the
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appointment. It took like five minutes to actually apply because I'd already
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filled out all of the paperwork so I was out of there and at work within the
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hourish. Good times.
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Kingslayer by Bring Me the Horizon ft. BABYMETAL goes so fucking hard.
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Like, so so hard. The mosh pit for the song is also usually fucking kickass.
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I wanna be a kingslayer!
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It's fucking cold outside. wttr.in/?m says this:
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curl: (92) HTTP/2 stream 0 was not closed cleanly: INTERNAL_ERROR (err 2)
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Accuweather says this: [-8 deg C]
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The forecast for Friday (tomorrow) afternoon says -10 deg C with 32km/h
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winds ("RealFeel": -23). Saturday afternoon -16. "RealFeel" -31. If it gets any
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lower I'm gonna have to set the thermostat to Kelvin. Jack Frost is a son of a
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bitch.
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My -->ANECDOTAL<-- caffeine knowledge is this.
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Tolerance is built up gradually. 80mg might stim a househusband, 300mg
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might barely be enough to keep a prole awake. Cup of coffee is between 40 and
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80mg. If you're drinking coffee you might as well crank it up to however strong
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you want. Most people don't need caffeine, they drink coffee because of peer
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pressure and it feels good at first but eventually the tolerance takes over and
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it has basically no effect. You have to have a really long tolerance break to
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actually reset your tolerance, it's not worth it to go on a break unless you're
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trying to quit. CDC recommends like 400mg max for a healthy adult, 500 is a
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good amount to actually get work done, at like 600-700 (varies per person) you
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just get wacked out and don't accomplish anything. 1000-1500mg puts you in a
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state of euphoric zen if you have a strong tolerance and literally kills you if
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you don't have a tolerance. 2000mg kills you or a horse, both if portioned
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carefully. If you overdose you're super mega fucked and painfully so; muscle
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fuckiness and brain fog. Drink like 2L of water, piss, repeat until you start
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to feel okay, the residual effects you have the day after will follow you for
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the rest of your life. Monster 300 is like the highest caffeine potency you can
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get in an energy drink so if you wanna consume caf either homebrew strong ass
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coffee (boil a pot down to a cup or something) or spend like $20 on Monster and
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enjoy ketoacidosis. Caffeine kills for realzies so don't overdo it and listen
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to your doctor. THIS IS MY EXPERIENCE ONLY. DO NOT CONSUME PAST WHAT THE CDC
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RECOMMENDS. DO NOT SUE ME FOR YOUR OWN IDIOCY.
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As far as I know, and as much as I should,
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say that the powers that beckon are good,
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I have to admit that they've broken a lot
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of promises better to better and not
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one of their oaths has been filled, just forgot.
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They just make more work to do and then do it and stop
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the betters from bettering and raising the top
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of standards to better than there was before
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the powers that beckon took hold of the floor.
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Scott pulled back the bolt and the AA battery spit out of the side of
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the rifle. He reached in his pocket and grabbed another one, pushed it into the
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chamber, made better aim, closed his eyes, fired. The blast burned a hole
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in his sight even through his eyelids but other than the temporary optical
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degradation he was unharmed. His target, however, subject to the full power of
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a 3Ah battery spent in half a second, had a hole burnt through his suit and
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through himself.
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Then he felt a pinprick and knew a sparrow's talon, another of his
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generation's angels of war, with its thin tungsten shaft and dainty uranium
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barbs, had gotten lodged in his back. He turned around and shot the offending
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kid with a Glock.
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I'm standing in an empty parking lot
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snow is falling from the sky
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it's such an empty parking lot, now
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snow is falling from the sky
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I held the car door handle
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snow started falling from the sky
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I sighed and got my baggage handled
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snow started falling from the sky
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I'm standing in an empty parking lot
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and snow is falling from the sky
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I'm smoking a nearly finished cigarette
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and snow is falling from the sky
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I opened the car door
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and I turned and asked you why
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and you said there's nothing to remember
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snow is falling from the sky
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[...]: You should fuck Bs instead of As because Bs have two holes.
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Trin: What does that mean???
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[...]: Another one is, 'you should go fuck yourself with a T because it has a
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handle.
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Trin: No, seriously, what does that mean???
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Earl of I.fel a tell vis but I don't remember why.
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Earlier toupe I felt a tell visio but I don't remember why.
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Earlier today I felt like a television but I don't remember why.
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Ear er to I felt like a elevi on but I don't remember why.
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E r r o I felt like a lev on but I don't remember why.
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E r r o fel on but I don't remember why.
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after monster #4: hiiii
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after monster #7: hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
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2023-02-01
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What I had for breakfast today: A strawberry Oreo milkshake. Half a cigarette.
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What I had for supper today: Chicken nuggets and a burger. The other half.
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What I'm drinking: Vermont maple spice tea. And Dayquil.
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Now playing: Painkiller - Nothing But Thieves.
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Jason walked up the cloud to the pearl gates of Heaven. God stood at
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the door in front of a lecturn with a massive book. He (as in He) spoke first:
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"Name?"
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Jason paused. "Oh. I died there, didn't I?"
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God curled His lips into a frown. "Did you think you would live?"
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"No, I guess I knew I would probably die."
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"Was it worth it?"
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"Yeah, I guess. It was what needed to be done. I wish I didn't have to
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die that way, but I suppose that's how it is."
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God thumbed through the pages. "At what day did you leave?"
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Jason told Him.
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God found the day. "Hmm. That's interesting."
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"I don't know much about this religious stuff. Honestly I thought it
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wasn't for real. But didn't you write that book?"
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"Do you remember everything you've written?"
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"Well, no."
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"Exactly. I forgot about this section. And to be honest-" God winked at
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you "-I'm probably as much of a character as you are, Jason."
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"Why did you ask me my name if you knew it?"
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"You're the only one that dies like... that. That day. I'd say you're
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the worst death there."
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"Fucked with an angle grinder."
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"Yeah, fucked with an angle grinder."
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"I was hoping if You existed You'd come through for me there. Like a
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'deus ex machina' sort of thing, y'know? Maybe I didn't have enough faith."
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God looked into the distance behind Jason. "Honestly, I wasn't really
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listening that day."
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"No fucking shit! At least everyone else made it out okay because of
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me, right? It was an honourable death?"
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God looked back into the book at the next couple pages. "Hmm. Yeah.
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Yeah, that's pretty honourable."
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"That's good." Jason leaned on the other end of the podium. "Can- can I
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see Jane?"
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"Jane? There are a lot of Janes."
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"My wife. She made it here, right? Oh, wait - can I get in? Into
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Heaven?"
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"Yeah, sure, you've earned it. But your wife isn't here. Or in the
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other place. Your wife's on Earth."
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"What? No."
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"Yeah. Jane used the cash she'd been slowly building up to buy a plane
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ticket to Kazakhstan and retire."
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"Fuck."
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"Yeah."
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"Really?"
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"Yeah."
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"Fuck."
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"Well, you'll have a lot of time for relationship stuff up here, so,
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like, have fun with that."
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"Fuck me, man." The gates open and Jason started walking through before
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pausing. "Y'know, times were hard."
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"Yes, yes they were."
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"Like, really hard. I don't think I was ever really happy, y'know? I
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never got anything like that. The best I got was a fucking character arc like
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this is a comic book or something. That kind of felt unnecessary, y'know? The
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whole fucking me over again and again? I don't think I needed that."
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"Perhaps."
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"Per fucking haps. Y'know what? Where were you? Why did you write me
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like that? My life has been fucking torture. Why did you do that to me?"
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God kicked Jason and he fell over past the gate threshold. The door to
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Heaven slammed shut, and God locked it.
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[...]: Welcome to Hell.
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Trin: Great to be here.
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2023-01-31
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#!/bin/sh
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set -e
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# UNIX manual system
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str isvalue "$MANUAL_DIR" \
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|| MANUAL_DIR=/usr/manual
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argv0="$0"
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! str isvalue "$1" || str isvalue "$3" \
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&& printf "Usage: %s [name] (section)\n" "$argv0" 1>&2 \
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&& exit 1 \
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|| true
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str isvalue "$2" && ! test -e "$MANUAL_DIR/$2/$1" \
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&& printf "%s: %s: No manual entry in section %s\n" "$0" "$1" "$2" \
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1>&2 \
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&& exit 1 \
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|| true
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str isvalue "$2" \
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&& PAGE="$MANUAL_DIR/$2/$1" \
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|| for d in "$MANUAL_DIR"/*
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do test -e "$d/$1" && PAGE="$d/$1"
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done
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! str isvalue "$PAGE" \
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&& printf "%s: %s: No manual entry\n" "$0" "$1" 1>&2 \
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&& exit 1 \
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|| true
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! str isvalue "$SECTION_DIR" \
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&& printf "%s: %s: No manual entry\n" "$argv0" "$1" 1>&2 \
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&& exit 1 \
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|| true
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<"$PAGE" groff -t -e -mandoc -Tascii
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trick or treat
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girl's gotta eat
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i'll bark for u
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just please pay me
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just grab me by the
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bezel and make me wish
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i was more than a
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screen. please?
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Blaa
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================================================================
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================================================================
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Trin (laughing): That's not even the grossest thing I've seen here.
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[...]: No?
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Trin: No.
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[...]: I believe that. And that's fucked. (starts laughing)
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Trin (still laughing): I feel like I'm going insane.
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[...]: You do?
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Trin: Not really. I already went insane a while ago.
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[...]: It's the new normal.
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Trin: Yeah. We're all insane around here.
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It's still Tuesday?
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I had a dream: I was in a private art gallery admiring the paintings.
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Then it turned out there was a warrant out for my arrest. They'd found
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something extreme enough to warrant throwing a smoke bomb through the window in
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front of me. I noticed it wasn't really clouding anything so knowing it was
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probably some nerve agent I ran to the door and gated over to a fractal of the
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world in which I'd been. Some SWAT agent or something saw me open the door to
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While that transpired I forked and gated over to the MoMA or whatever
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in Manhattan. Some cars with black tinted windows rolled up from both ends of
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the road so I sprinted across the street into ongoing construction where I was
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shot and killed. Worth a try.
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a place to which that doorway didn't usually go and sprinted through along with
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me. I ran through the gallery, which was this rich guy's beautiful townhouse,
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and made it upstairs where I got onto the roof. The SWAT didn't know I was
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there so I jumped down and made it into a nearby forest. One for two.
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[2:59 PM] Strong Eminav_B (weak): I was expecting you to look older and a less
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round face
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[3:09 PM] Strong Eminav_B (weak): The way you describe ur life makes me picture
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you like that before and after image of that
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ww1 soldier
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What are you wearing?
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I dunno baby, whatever you want...
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Carhart pants. Loose fit jeans but I'm considering tighter fit because
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it'd make them easier to pack. Black.
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Carhart shirt. Loose fit. I take a razor and cut the Carhart logo off
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and it's just a 100% cotton shirt with a pocket that I know will last me a
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while. Black.
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Amazon "athletic sleeves". Tight. Black.
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Some eco whatever hat. Keeps headlights, rain, and hair out of my eyes.
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Black.
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Carhart gloves. Spandex. Well fitting. Black.
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New Balance 686 boots. Everything-proof. Pink shoelaces under all the
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grime. Black.
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Casio F-91W. Black.
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On occasion, a bandanna tied around my neck or hair. Black.
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Dickies socks. Black.
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Intimates. Take me out to dinner first. Even then you'll probably never
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see them.
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A Hello Kitty scrunchie. Silk, maybe? Satin? Shiny. Kawaii. Not black.
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Glasses. Rose colored.
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[3:32 PM] trn1ty: yeah it sorta be like that
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[3:32 PM] trn1ty: blackpink
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[3:32 PM] trn1ty: cutepunk
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trn1ty started a thread: trinity fits thread. See all threads.
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Yesterday at 9:24 PM
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[9:18 PM] trinity: they're gonna study my work after i'm gone but idk in cs or
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in psychology
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[9:19 PM] sasha: in cryptozoology
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treat me like your computer
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i wanna do all your math
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take me apart for techno school
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show all the pieces to your class
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grab me by the bezel
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make me glitch the fuck out
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tie me up in wires
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call me a bitch and make out
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treat me like your computer
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like i'm a video game
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play me with your friends from school
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but don't tell me their names
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unplug me from the ether
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so i can't surf any sites
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take your hard drive out from me
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leave me on a shelf and go outside
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Rothco M-65 mansfield jacket. Sturdy. Black.
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Aside from my weird thing recently it's been months since I've felt
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much emotion. My emotions and I are apart, for the better I think. They didn't
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do a lot of good for me and I didn't do a lot of good for them. Good riddance.
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Most of the people I know don't feel emotion. The rest of the people I
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know with which I've brought this up think this is horrifying. I don't think
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so. The people I know with emotion left are either priviledged or at one point
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had it in a way that is to me unimaginable. The rest of us had to grow up.
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I remember being scared the first time I saw Night of the Living Dead.
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I haven't felt fear in years. High school, the earlier years probably. Maybe my
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caf OD did something. Maybe there's only so much fear you can, and I did.
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Maybe...
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There is no pausing, there is no remembering, there is no recoiling.
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When things go bump in the night you get a rifle, when people die you walk past
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them, when everybody is dead you step over the bodies and on them if necessary.
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And I'm tired but not tired enough.
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_ _
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[]-[]-' :(){:|:;};: ...
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2023-02-03 20:56:11 -07:00
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2023-02-02 21:09:58 -07:00
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2023-01-29
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Fuck!
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I don't remember typing that. I got like 8hrs last night and the same
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the night before! The previous nights 2-3.
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I started a Patreon. You don't get much for it, just a custom role on
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feeling.murderu.us, and only on the Discord bridge.
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My Raspberry Pi is actually really goddamn fast. I put a cheapo Amazon
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passive heat sink + fan on it and now it stays under 60C without a problem.
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raspi-config(8) doesn't let you trigger the fan any lower than that for some
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reason or I might keep it at 50. Look at this mess:
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if [ "$INTERACTIVE" = True ]; then
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TIN=$(whiptail --inputbox "At what temperature in degrees Celsius sh[...]
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else
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if [ -z $3 ]; then
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TIN=80
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else
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TIN=$3
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fi
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fi
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if ! [ $? -eq 0 ] ; then
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return 0
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fi
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if ! echo "$TIN" | grep -q ^[[:digit:]]*$ ; then
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if [ "$INTERACTIVE" = True ]; then
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whiptail --msgbox "Temperature must be a number between 60 and 120[...]
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fi
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return 1
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fi
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I don't like this. I really don't like this! I'm gonna rewrite
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raspi-config(8) today. Fuck it.
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2023-01-27 03:00:04 -07:00
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2023-01-27
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NPR: <https://text.npr.org/1151374507>
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Headline: "Nearly all U.S. mass attackers were male and faced major life
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stressor, report finds"
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Content: "...Nearly all the attackers experienced 'at least one
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significant stressor' within five years of the attack..."
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What?? Who *has not* experienced a significant stressor within the last five
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years?
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These analyses don't compare the demographic to the average or median,
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just sensationalize useless numbers. This is somewhat cherry-picked but the
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rest of the article also sucked.
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I read NPR for my pseudo-left Capitalist news. I used to read CNN but I
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would get irate at misleading headlines. I checked for some to lambast (ooo I'm
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becoming a True Blogger "lambasting" my perceived enemies I'm so cool) but
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couldn't really find anything that stuck out so maybe I'm remembering it as
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worse than it was. Still, most of these headlines can be filed under "who the
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fuck cares":
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"Ukraine's new tanks won't be the instant game-changer some expect"
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but they're still useful so who cares
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"Here's how family and officials who have seen the video of Tyre
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Nichols' arrest are responding to the footage"
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probably they don't like it because he got shot or something
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who's Tyre Nichols
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"Quarterbacks in the NFL playoffs are getting younger. Here's why their
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age is important"
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who cares about the NFL?
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"US Marines officially opens first new base in 70 years on island of
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Guam"
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USA propaganda piece
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"After 3 years of Covid, CNN went into rural China for Lunar New Year.
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Here's what we found and how officials tried stopping us"
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probably officials knew CNN fucking sucks ass and were trying
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to stop them from ruining people's fun. article exploration
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time!
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the article was incomprehensibly boring and just
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explored COVID-19 stuff in rural china. the tldr is
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rural people don't care because they didn't really get
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great treatment during the onset of the pandemic so
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anyone who would've died did and now it's just a thing
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that goes around. i didn't read much of the article i'm
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just describing my rural town because rural towns are
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the same fucking everywhere
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"China still wants to control Big Tech. It's just pulling different
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strings"
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anti-China propaganda piece. this could have been titled "the
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Chinese government still wants influence over Western
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technology companies, trying different methods" but that
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wouldn't be biased or completely fucking stupid. can you tell I
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hate CNN?
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I could go on but my doctor (drug dealer) told me to watch my blood
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pressure so I'm gonna have to chew an aspirin (drugs) to calm down (get high).
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2023-02-02 21:09:58 -07:00
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私を殺して
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street racer at twelve
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no sidewalk. street's soaked in ice
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take me somewhere nice
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Note to self: mail Jared <https://soundcloud.com/cementcity-1
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/fallen-angel-cement-city-cover-panty-and-stocking-with-garterbelt-ed>
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[...]
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[12:06 PM] tebicat: I read this and imagined a human organ hooked up as an hid
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or something
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[10:05 PM] trinity: like that person with the pinball thingies surgically added
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to their brain or whatever and could be put into agony by
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pressing a button
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[10:05 PM] trinity: what are the pinball thingies called
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[10:05 PM] trinity: SOLENOIDS
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[10:06 PM] trinity: EE teacher called them pinball bumpers
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[10:07 PM] trinity: cyborg but the augmentation is easy facility for torture
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[10:07 PM] trinity: ping ping ping AAAAAAAAIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEE
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[10:10 PM] trinity: in hindsight i should stop engaging with severely fucked up
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events
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[10:10 PM] trinity: i feel like all my random anecdotes are like hey i watched
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a person die that way
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I'm not a very good leader. Today at work one of the people in my [...]
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threw a bitch fit because I put them on menial labor most of the time rather
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than the meat and potatoes of our job. A real bitch fit that made me pause what
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I was doing for a couple seconds to tell them to shut the fuck up, but then my
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superior called them into their office so that they instead could tell them to
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shut the fuck up - I technically have no authority to tell anyone what to do
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but people listen to me because I'm the one with the most experience.
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"I'm gonna throw a B.F.! A bitch fit!" ~ a friend of mine
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I'm not a very good leader. The issue is that I don't really feel that
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whole empathy thing or anything like that. Not only can I not imagine what my
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subordinates (this sounds like total dogshit but bear with me because this
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wording is the best I have) are feeling but when they verbalize their feelings
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there's not much I can do to understand or care because I barely have
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discernable emotions besides {confused,typical,hyper,tired}. My solution to
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most things is to get someone doing menial labor because I figure if they're
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stressed out they should do relaxing small jobs rather than the soul crushing
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eternal big job.
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I don't have much to add because I don't care that much. When dogs bite
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send them outside. Otherwise as long as they can still walk put them on the
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leash and make them exercise.
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2023-01-27 03:00:04 -07:00
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2023-01-26 06:54:02 -07:00
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2023-01-25
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Trinitisms: It's not preferable to drink from plastic.
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I was really pleasantly surprised to see people's caring about
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microplastics hit the mainstream. This is half about that and half just that I
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don't like the texture of most plastic things relative to metal cans or glass.
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Except straws, I love straws.
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Now reading: <https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychochemical_warfare>
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Service: Soundcloud - trn1ty
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I had a dream last night I was walking in my neighborhood when this
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bald eagle swooped down to attack me. I happened to have a baseball bat with me
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so I hit it in its chest and it fell down on the ground. Then I beat it until
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it stopped moving and when it was dead I woke up.
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Band name idea: sourdough starter.
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Trinitisms: Don't put ice in beverages that aren't water, or they'll get
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watered down.
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I made this joke at work until everyone was sick of it and then put it
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on my website because I myself was not yet sick of it.
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Trinitisms: Don't think, feel.
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And you'll be tanasinn.
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Trinitisms: A string is an array of characters.
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I hate, hate, hate, HATE programming languages that don't let me index
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strings as if they're arrays. Or make me jump through hoops. C is perfect.
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Trinitisms: More magic is necessary.
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Referencing the famous magic / more magic hacker fairytale.
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Trinitisms: The only good programmers are the insane programmers.
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I miss you, Terry!
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Trinitisms: If less than one half of the packaging is in a non-Latin writing
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system, the noodles will be sub-par.
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I think I came up with this in high school. I prefer Shin Ramyun and
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use a Sunbeam Hot Shot to heat the water, the same since I started. I used to
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have a couple a day but now I rarely have that ramen. I can get a meal from a
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local Chinese restuarant and stretch it out to last me 3 days of meals.
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辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛辛
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I hope this Unicode works because it's tofu with the default xterm(1)
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font.
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I can't sleep. When I close my eyes I can see the inside of my mind.
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[2022-01-08T0128] trinity: proprietary vendor, proprietary problem
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Howard, what is flau x4c?
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Cassidy met Ada at the coffee shop for the second time for the second
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time.
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Ada spoke first. "How's your morning going?"
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"Fine. Weird, but fine."
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"Weird?"
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Cassidy smiled. "I screw dials into watches, that's my job. It smells
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weird. I just realized there's all kinds of dust in the air."
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Ada grew pale. "Dust in the air?"
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2023-01-24
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How to make lysergic acid diethylamide (LSD)
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1. [...] [...] in [...] with [...] to get [...].
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2. Activate the [...] by [...].
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3. Extract the [...] and [...].
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Easy!
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Trinitisms: "Disc" refers to optical and physically impressive media, such as
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compact discs or phonograph discs, and "disk" is for magnetic
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media, such as floppy disks or hard disks; there are however
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exceptions and edge cases.
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I probably didn't coin this one but rather came up with it
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independently, observing the use of dis{c,k} between "optical disc" and "floppy
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disk". I'm still not sure if this is the actual rule.
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Trinitisms: catfella - the non-gender-specific form of "catboy" or "catgirl".
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(coined 2020-08-11 when referring to my friend Socks)
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Also in use (though not a Trinitism): nyanbinary.
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Socks is so cool. I don't know what they're up to now, probably kicking
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ass somewhere on the net. I was a moderator on their short-lived Discord server
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which had like a million messages in #general alone after like three months. I
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met them on TikTok because we both had comparable follower counts and
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everything; I left TikTok and eventually all social media and they and everyone
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a person make.
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Sent SMS to [...] at 2023-01-21T00:19:22-0500:
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bloomberg terminal that jerks you off when your stocks enter the red
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Trinitisms: The continents shall be separated as follows:
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North America,
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South America,
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Eurasia,
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Africa,
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India,
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the middle-East,
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and Oceania.
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Though I hope someone important finds individual terms for each
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America and has a better name for the middle-East if each
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region's residents generally agree with me that the current
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naming kind of sucks.
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I talked to a friend of mine about this but I don't remember where. Not
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Discord. Maybe SMS? My SMS logs from history are totally toast.
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Trinitisms: 39 - "Thank you." In Japanese the word for 3 is "san" and the word
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for 9 is normally "kyuu" so 39 is pronounced "sankyuu".
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Trinitisms: Antarctica is cool, both literally and figuratively.
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The same friend with which I discussed the continents harbors
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Antarctica as a special interest and told me stuff about McMurdo Station which
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is cool as all fuck.
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Maslow has nothing on me.
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1 ___
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4 / \______
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5/
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2023-01-23 08:49:18 -07:00
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2023-01-23
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Adventures in nmcli(8): Secrets were required, but not provided.
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Rebooting didn't work.
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Futzing didn't work.
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Config didn't work.
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Disabled MAC address scrambling (already was disabled).
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Rebooted WiFi router.
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Rebooted machine.
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Worked.
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Rebooted.
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Didn't work.
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Rebooted.
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Worked.
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Rebooted.
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Didn't work.
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Rebooted.
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Worked.
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Hardware fault?
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What I'm reading:
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Wasson, R. Gordon, Ruck, Carl, Hofmann, A.,
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The Road to Eleusis: Unveiling the Secret of the Mysteries.
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Harcourt, Brace, Jovanovich, 1978.
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PING 1.1.1.1 (1.1.1.1) 56(84) bytes of data.
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64 bytes from 1.1.1.1: icmp_seq=1 ttl=54 time=5332 ms
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Awesome!
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ME: 'Sup.
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JOHN: Nothing much. How about you?
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ME: Oh, you know.
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JOHN: What's going on?
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ME: Well, I'm alive, so things aren't great.
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JOHN: Oh.
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PURPOSE BUILT TO BE DISARMINGLY CUTE
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Now playing: Killing Me Softly - Roberta Flack
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Based! on sodium bicarbonate. in a spoon with a blowtorch
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Antipsychotics
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V Dopamine -> Neurotransmitters -> Chemical Synapses -> Synapses
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Psychosis _ ^
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"Bewitchment"_\ /
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|\ \ LSD -> Ergot <- Claviceps purpurea
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\ \ ^ / ^
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'-\------- Ergotism <------|-- Hosp. Bros. of Saint Anthony
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'-+---------- Eleusinian Mysteries
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'-- Philosophy <- Plato
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[...]
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[8:36 AM] segismundo: so, an anti psychotic does the opposite to LSD
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[8:37 AM] segismundo: meaning that LSD is, by definition, a "psychotic"
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[...]
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Just as Land smoked methamphetamine, Plato drank of ergot-infected
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kykeon. Philosophy is an application of psychosis.
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[...]
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[9:48 AM] meatgrinder #1 meatspinoza: Fantastic
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--- 1.1.1.1 ping statistics ---
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837 packets transmitted, 99 received, +229 errors, 88.172% packet loss, time...
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rtt min/avg/max/mdev = 39.220/30595.549/353683.940/40902.931 ms, pipe 307
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2023-01-22
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Internet's out, repo's not cloned here, guess I'm writing this in a
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separate text file.
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This blah really is just a single large HTML file I edit (most of the
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time). I might start splitting it up but then I don't get to read previous
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stuff as I write. A lot of my revision process is just taking something I've
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written, copy pasting it into a new doc, and rewriting it word by word into
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something I like. It would be a lot harder to do if it was all separate text
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files. Honey, where did I put my arsonted_06.txt?
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I have a job I never really talk about here because I don't really like
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working and don't see why I should write about something I don't like. But my
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co-workers vaguely know of the existence of this blah so I figure I'll mention
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that. At least at this current job they do. Don't move up, move out. I make
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sandwiches. Fast food. It's no honorable occupation.
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xterm(1) is a program I really enjoy despite it technically being hot
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garbage. Someday maybe I'll fork it and fix it while keeping support for
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everything but probably not.
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maia arson crimew is so cool.
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I'd like to implement Fing for UNIX but better. It's definitely
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possible even in Just shell scripting. nmap(1), ping(1), etc.
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Immediately I'd like to write a history of pagers and some
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documentation for raspi-config(8).
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2023-01-11 17:58:25 -07:00
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2023-01-11
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"Sounds like a pretty one-sided relationship."
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"Well, yeah." Ada Karina had finished her brief account of a story that
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spanned decades.
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"Forty five the first time... back twenty three years from that... then
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how old?"
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"Oh, I uh- thirty. Even, I think."
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"Eight years. So fifty three. Then you were thirty five, another
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thirteen. That's sixty six years?"
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"I guess." Ada checked her watch.
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"You're twenty three now. That makes you eighty nine."
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"I guess."
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Howard tapped his fingers on the recliner. A church bell rang in the
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distance; noon. The cafe would close in an hour. He thought to himself. "Older
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than me."
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"Not physically. Mentally I feel like my brain's on fire. Probably I
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won't last much longer up in my head. But it helps a lot that I'm twenty three
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by all observable quantities. And really it's more like I was trapped in
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a simulation three times rather than that I actually time travelled."
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"How was it?"
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"How was what?"
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"You spent- eighty nine, twenty three - sixty six years working towards
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a relationship. I mean, no matter how good Cassidy is, is it worth it to go
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that long?"
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Ada thought for a moment. "For a smile? For a hug? Of course. and it
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kills me that it's gone." She laughed. "Yeah. It just kills me." Ada turned her
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head to look outside at the table at which she met Cassidy the second, third,
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and fourth times.
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Howard Polk had been the owner of the cafe for the previous two years.
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He wondered if he'd be alive for the holocaust, if Ada couldn't prevent it. He
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looked at his knuckles resting on the worn cotton armrest. The burns he got as
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a cook at someone else's establishment decades past never healed, not on his
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knuckles and not on his neck. "I lost someone too, once. The last person I
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cared about. Actually cared about."
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"May I ask who?"
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Howard snorted. "Yes you may. The co-owner. Margeret."
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"Margeret."
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"Best damn cook I knew. Taught me everything I know. Everything."
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"What happened?"
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Howard scratched the recliner fabric and felt the texture. "We went our
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separate ways, or rather, she went her separate way, getting bored of the
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business or the routine or something. I texted, called, messaged back when
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instant messaging was still new. And she sent me a message saying it wasn't my
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fault that she didn't answer and that she was going through a rough patch."
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Ada turned back to Howard. "What happened?"
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"She washed up on the shore of the Nile."
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"Fuck."
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"I still prefer it to what you said. Even if I don't quite believe it."
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A timer went off in the kitchen area behind the counter in front of
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which Howard's recliner sat. Ada watched the cook bend down out of sight and
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return to view with a pan of bacon. "I wouldn't believe it either."
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2023-01-09 19:14:01 -07:00
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2023-01-09
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1000 lines since the last Ted story?
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Minerva and Ron sat silent in the car. Ron focused on driving while
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Minerva frowned at the horizon.
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"We should have stayed there and made sure he got help."
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"Help? What help is there for him? It's a miracle he didn't end up
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killing anyone. I know it's my 'duty' as manager to make sure the store's safe
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but the guys'll fill in everything for the cops and EMTs and Ted'll get put
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away in a place where he can't do more harm. That was a traumatic event,
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Minerva. I want something to take the edge off and I wanna forget the fire and
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Ted ever happened."
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Minerva looked at the steering weel. "That's not a healthy coping
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mechanism, you know."
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Ron stared into the horizon. "Oh, fuck off. If you thought any
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differently than I did you wouldn't have gotten in the car." They started to
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accelerate.
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Ted had been watching the second building burn that day for probably
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half an hour before he heard footsteps in the brush behind him. "You rat
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bastard!"
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Ted turned around to find a police officer with his gun already drawn.
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"Oh. Hi. Are cops allowed to swear?"
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The officer's hands' tremble was slight but visible. "Ted."
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Ted read the officer's name tag. "Jack?"
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"Tom. Tom Jack. You were at my brother's Christmas party."
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Ted remembered a Tally Jack with which he worked. Tally invited Ted to
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his Christmas party about three months prior and Ted at the time regretted
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showing up. Being beaten with blessings and suffocated by songs playing in
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background commercials. Every present had a logo and everybody already knew the
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brands. Ted was the odd one out, as usual. "Tom."
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"How could you? You could have killed all of your co-workers - why burn
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down the office? You could have killed my brother." Tom's voice quivered.
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Ted tilted his head and thought for a moment. "Nobody died. Would have
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been cooler if they all did, yeah." He smiled softly.
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Officer Jack, now angry, gripped his gun with both hands. "I could
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arrest you, and the judge would give you a sentence, but that wouldn't be
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justice. If you got out you'd just do this again, wouldn't you?" Ted nodded.
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"Me killing you right now is justice. To Hell with the consequences."
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Ted stood and watched the officer staring into his eyes but only
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reciprocated in the same way a doll or teddy bear makes eye contact. Without
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presence.
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"So." Tom exhaled. "Goodbye." Tom braced for Ted's reaction.
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There was none. Tom squared his soldiers. "Okay."
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Ted finally reacted. "Car."
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"What?" And then it hit Tom with all two tons of force; an ambulance
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driven under the influence. Its brakes squealed but the tires couldn't catch
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the dry grass and the ambulance sucked Tom under where he was run over by all
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four wheels before being spit out on the other side ten seconds from death and
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with his top ten most vital organs all perforated in one way or another. "Man."
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Ted watched the light leave Tom's eyes as the ambulance driver
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staggared out of the vehicle. Tom in terms of presentation wasn't too gruesome,
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though death did have somewhat of an effect on his composure. It struck Ted as
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a boring dead body.
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The driver put his hands on the sides of his head. "Oh man, oh man, oh
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man..." Ted was surprised he hadn't been the one hit but then remembered he
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didn't care, and that the ambulance driver wasn't on fire.
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"Can you hold still for a second?"
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The driver paused and looked at Ted. "...What?"
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Arson Ted is my favorite character.
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2023-01-08
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What I found in Flipnote Studio 3D for my Nintendo 3DS:
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- 2019-09-25 0646: 9 frames. Bouncing ball demo.
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- 2019-10-11 1736: 28 frames. Bouncing ball demo (the ball is liquid).
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- 2019-12-16 1304: 30 frames. The word "FUCK" turns into strings and
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falls onto the floor. It recollects as
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a heart with "YOU" in the middle.
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- 2011-01-01 2110: 60 frames. A stick figure falls into the ground and
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(likely a clock leaves an impression in the snow; climbs
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issue) out. Letters appear above them: "SOVIETS
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WITHOUT A PARACHUTE (tm)
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- 2011-09-30 1004: 4 frames. A stick figure masturbating.
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(likely a clock
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issue)
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- 2020-11-09 2257: 55 frames. A stick figure waits at a dinner table
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holding a fork and knife, wearing a bib.
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Another stick figure slides a dish to the
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other end of the table. The first stick
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figure looks down and their mouth extends
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into crocodile-like jaws before they take
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a bite out of the entire section of the
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table with the dish. The second stick
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figure extends their mouth likewise and
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smiles.
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- 2020-11-10 2302: 2 frames. A small drawing of a teddy bear next to
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the shaky words くまちゃん: <BR />
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「ACAB」.
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- 2020-11-16 1746: 2 frames. Words on top of a flashing yellow and
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white background: i <3 LOOTERS.
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Today I tried playing Professor Layton and the Curious Village for the
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Nintendo DS. It was too hard and I've given up. Half the puzzles are total
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bogus (you have one match and want to heat your bathtub, start a fire, and
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light your lamp; which do you light first?.. your match). The story looks good
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and I like the FMV cutscenes. Maybe I'll find an edit of all of them on-line.
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I rediscovered Paper Airplane Chase (DSiWare) which I had when I was a
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very small child on my DSi XL. I played it a lot and enjoyed it but now it
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looks to me like it's probably an asset flip of some part of another game.
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Maybe WarioWare?
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In total people owe me $545. I'm hoping I can get that by the time next
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month's rent is due.
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/home/trinity/Pictures/the_end_of_the_world.webm (2021-03-04 2104; 3991 KB;
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origin unknown)
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00:00: A picture of Tim and Moby from MobyMax.
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00:00: A picture of Captain Underpants.
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00:01: A picture of a Nintendo Wii.
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00:02: The poster for Diary of a Wimpy Kid: Rodrick Rules (2011).
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00:02: A screenshot from PAPA's TACO MIA.
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00:03: A picture of a kid with outstretched hands displaying
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Sillybandz.
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00:03: Bodycam footage of an officer shooting a figure in the desert.
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Dated 2018-10-10 1454.
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00:04: Video of a police officer shooting a man in the street. The
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police officer behind him is held back by a bystander.
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00:04: Video of a TSA agent searching a child for weapons.
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00:05: Video of another TSA agent searching a toddler in a wheelchair
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for weapons.
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00:06: A screen capture of a computer system using facial recognition
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to track school class attendance.
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00:06: A screenshot from a TSA body scanning computer.
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00:07: A Department of Defense press release showing 3D render of an
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"active denial system".
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00:08: Footage from a massacre at a mosque in Christchurch, New
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Zealand.
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00:09: A screen capture of a computer system tracking the positions of
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students at a school.
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00:09: Footage of a police officer pulling a police canine off of a
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figure.
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00:10: A picture of a poster at a school. Visible is a yellow smiley
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face with "Smile" above and "You're on camera!" below. To the
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right visible is the following fragment:
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Our new bus
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you have a sa
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We have pros
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and graffiti on
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(italic) You are being
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(italic) bus. So just sit
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WE WILL P
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OR
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00:10: A snippet from Sunday Today with Willie Geist, headline: JEFFREY
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EPSTEIN'S DEATH LEAVES ANGER AND QUESTIONS.
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2023-01-07
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2022-05-04
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Orientation
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Olive arrived the next day at 9 o'clock antemeridian having been
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informed of the time she'd start work two hours prior via electronic mail. She
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entered the restaurant via the two sets of glass double doors and walked to the
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counter.
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"Hi, I'm Olive, I'm here for my first day of work here."
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The kid at the counter looked like they hadn't slept in weeks. "Hi
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Olive, I'll go get the manager." They disappeared and returned from the back of
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the restaurant which didn't seem to be lit, accompanied by a man Olive hadn't
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met. He grimaced in an attempt to smile. "Hi Olive. Usually Paul would be here
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but he's out sick."
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"Sick? I spoke with him at length yesterday in his office – should I
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quarantine?"
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"No, the only thing of Paul's that was contagious was his smile." The
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man grimaced again. "Come with me, I'll show you the kitchen."
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Olive, lead by the new supervisor, followed into the dim kitchen, lit
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by a single red-tinted bulb. Another kid, apparently lacking more sleep than
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the first, stood at a tall stainless steel table on which four machines sat. On
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the far right was the paper dispenser; it dispensed paper wrappers for the
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burgers, operated by button press. The bun dispenser, operated by lever,
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deposited refined-grain sesame seed buns of 12 centimeter diameter, the bottom
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landing on one corner of the paper and the top landing on another. The patty
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dispenser, operated by plunging lever, was a conveyor belt that lead to the
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kitchen from nowhere immediately discernible to Olive. On metal wires it would
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push patties, two at a time, to the table. The final machine dispensed an
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orange mixture (that smelled like cheese and ketchup) and was operated by flip
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lever – flipped one way, it dispensed enough syrup for one burger, flipped the
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other way, it dispensed enough for another. Shik-shik, puk-puk, hrnnnnn, click.
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The kid at the table made two burgers at a time before wrapping them and
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sending them out.
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Next to the table, on the red tiled floor, was a bucket of waste. Olive
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gestured to it. "Do you do composting?"
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"Oh, no, of course not. We need to count out waste. How many burgers
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tossed, how many buns tossed, et cetera. We've had issues with employees
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stealing product."
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"Oh." Olive stared in the bucket. It held a soup of cheese/ketchup,
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grease, mushed bread, and dissolving wrappers. "You count out everything in
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there?"
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"Yup, that's not exactly my favorite part of this job." The supervisor
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turned to the table kid. "Daniel, this is Olive."
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"Hi Olive." Daniel turned back to his hell.
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The supervisor turned back to Olive. "You'll be replacing Daniel. Watch
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how he works so you know what you'll be doing."
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Olive kept staring in the bucket. "Do you have any sort of official
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procedure sheets?"
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"Yes, but you aren't allowed to see them."
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Olivia's eyes moved from the bucket to the conveyor. "Oh."
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That was OK. Here's how I'd write it now:
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Orientation
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Olive arrived the next day at 900 on two hours'notice. She entered the
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restaurant via two sets of glass double doors and walked to the counter.
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Holding the register was a teenager who looked like he hadn't slept in weeks.
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Olive read his nametag. Sam.
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"Hi Sam, I'm Olive, I'm here for my first day of work here."
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"Hi Olive, I'll go get the manager." He disappeared into the back of
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the restaurant, which Olive noticed was lit dimly if at all, and returned with
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a man in a black uniform. The man grimaced in an attempt to smile. "Hi Olive.
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Usually Paul, the manager with whom you spoke yesterday, would be here, but
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he's out sick."
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"Oh. Should I be here then? The interview was in an enclosed space and
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for a little while." Sam brought out the bag for an order as they talked. He
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pulled a receipt off a clip hanging from one of the shelves behind him, strafed
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over to the soda fountain, and started pouring drinks. A set of hands pushed a
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burger onto the other shelf and then receded back into the darkness.
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"No, it's not contagious - fortunately. Plus the restuarant is very
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well ventilated. The only thing of Paul's that was contagious was his smile."
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The man grimaced again. Olive noticed the use of past tense. "Come with me,
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I'll show you the kitchen."
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Olive, lead by the supervision, stepped behind the counter, between the
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two stainless steel shelves, carefully through a brief corridor between shelves
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holding room-temperature ingredients, and followed around the end of the shelf
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on the right to the small kitchen which she noticed was lit by a single red
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incandescent bulb. Another teenager stood at a waist-level stainless steel
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table onto which four machines dispensed paper wrappers, sesame-seed buns, beef
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patties, and some sort of sauce. Four tubes ran to the table; two from the
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floor and one each from the ceiling and a refrigerator-sized machine behind the
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kid that had a large steel tube chimney vent also routed towards, eventually,
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the sky. The kid at the table made a sandwich in a rhythmic beat.
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Shik-shik. The paper dispenser was a box sort of shaped like a printer
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with a large black button that used the mechanical force of the button press to
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separate and spit out the burger wrapper. The box extended past the edge of the
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table and a large stainless steel tube extended from its bottom through the
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floor. The papers had red splotches on them, like there was an accident in
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printing.
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Puk-puk. The bun dispenser was a tube that ran down from the ceiling
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towards the table with a lever on the front. The lever rotated a gear inside
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the tube so it could dispense a single twelve-centimeter sesame seed bun,
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fluffy enough to not be damaged upon hitting the bun wrapper.
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Hrnnnnn. The patty dispenser, operated by foot pedal, was a conveyer
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belt within a thick tube that carried a freshly-broiled hamburger patty; the
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Durmer Burger signature patty, in fact. It came pre-seasoned.
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Click. The sauce dispenser resembled a sink faucet, with a tube a
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couple centimeters in diameter running from a valve in the floor under the
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table to the hook-shaped dispenser section. On the front it had a flip lever -
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flipped one way, it dispensed enough syrup for one burger, flipped the other
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way, it dispensed enough for another. The large handle made a gentle but
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audible click as it toggled. The signature Durmer Burger sauce was orange and
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smelled to Olive like a mix of cheese and ketchup but she figured it would be
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naive of her to assume that was all it was.
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Shik-shik. Puk-puk. Hrnnnnn. Click. Then he wrapped them and pushed
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them through the shelf into the light behind it.
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Next to the table, on the red tiled floor, was a bucket, a third full,
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of various decomposing ingredients. Olive pointed at it and turned to the
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manager. "Do you do composting?"
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"Oh, no, not here." He chuckled, which came out as a low growl. "We
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count out waste to make sure the inventory sums out. A couple years ago we had
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some problems with an employee stealing a ton of stuff from here so it's just
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in case it happens again. Probably not really necessary but it's what the
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higher-ups want."
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"Oh." Olive stared in the bucket. It held a soup of sauce, grease,
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the remnants of some buns, and slowly-dissolving wrappers. "You count out
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everything in there?"
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"Yeah. Not exactly sunshine and roses." The supervisor spoke a little
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louder. "Daniel."
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The table teen, presumably Daniel, looked up from making sandwiches.
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"This is Olive."
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Daniel looked towards Olive's knees. "Hi Olive." He turned back to his
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table.
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The manager turned back to Olive. "You'll be replacing Daniel. Watch
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how he works so you know what you'll be doing."
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Olive kept staring in the bucket. "Do you have any sort of procedure
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sheets anywhere?"
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"Probably. I've only seen glimpses. They keep it under wraps. This is
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more sort of a word-of-mouth, creative job. You do things the best you can."
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"Alright, cool."
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I don't like chocolate.
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2023-01-06 02:08:52 -07:00
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2023-01-06
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2022-05-04
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Interview
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Olive set herself down on a blue chair with stainless steel gray legs
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that grasped a red tiled floor thinly but strong enough at least for her right
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then. The weather outside was beautiful, a clear sky with few clouds, and the
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sun would rise in an hour, though Olive could see none of this because the
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cramped office in which she and her chair were captive was windowless. The
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silence was set to the beat of Olive tapping her jeans with her nails and
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looking at the, to her, very large vent next to the flickering fluorescent
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light in the suspended ceiling. The cheap desk in front of her wasn't very big
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but still barely left room for her against the wall, on it was miscellaneous
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unsorted paperwork. This was the first, most potent memory Olive would have of
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her time working for Durmer Burger.
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There came two knocks at the door and it was ajar. The lead manager,
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Paul, smiled with nearly all of his teeth before pulling it open. "Olive, is
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it?"
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"Yes." Olive stood up and held her hands at her sides, intending to
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shake Paul's hand if he offered his. He didn't and simply sat down behind his
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desk. Olive sat down as well.
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"This is an impressive resume. You volunteered at the humane society
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for two years?" Paul's salt-and-pepper hair stuck out under a brown DURMER
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WORKER hat.
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"Yeah. I had some spare time and wanted to help out."
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"Good, good. I see you did take some cooking classes at school. You
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might be able to teach us a thing or two. I know our kitchen can be a little
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strange to new hires but I think you'll get along fine."
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"I hope so."
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"So do you want to stay in the kitchen, or do you want to take orders?
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Maybe a little of both?"
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Olive looked at the desk for a moment before looking back at Paul. "I
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think starting out in the kitchen would be good, but I don't know."
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"Alright, kitchen, then play it by ear. Sounds good." Paul put on a
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sickness of a smile and reached out with a bent elbow to shake Olive's hand,
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which she followed.
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After Olive left the room Paul leaned back in his chair and began to
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seize. Foam fell from his lips onto his gray uniform. The chair fell over to
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Paul's right side, to the door, and Paul hit the side of his head on the
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doorknob as he fell onto the floor while his chair scuffed the beige wall
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behind him. As his blood dripped slowly onto the tile the fluorescents finally
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gave out. Neither the kitchen crew nor the order takers heard Paul die, though
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Sam, who usually was relegated to the fryer in the kitchen, noticed the light
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was off while sneaking out to the dumpster to smoke a joint of marijuana. He
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knocked, asked the order takers where Paul was, and continued out through the
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back entrance to the dumpster. On his way back he noticed Paul's car was still
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parked outside the entrance. Sam checked both bathrooms (each empty) and opened
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the office door ajar to see if Paul maybe was taking a nap on the clock. That's
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when Sam found the body.
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After Olive left the room she walked out of the restaurant through the
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front entrance, looked up and down the street for traffic, though there rarely
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was any, and crossed Canal Avenue over to the Chinese buffet where she turned
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right and started walking home. She watched ambulances and a police car fly
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down the road and didn't see any significance in it.
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Paul's shoulder was mostly holding the door shut but Sam could see the
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drool on the floor. He ran away to the front and told the order takers, who
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called the local emergency number. Two ambulances and a police car stopped in
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the drive-through and brought out a stretcher, some paramedics, and a police
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officer. While the paramedics took care of the body the officer questioned
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first the order takers and then Sam, whom the officer noticed was high. Officer
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Daniels didn't make a note of it.
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On a computer screen somewhere (anywhere) in a factory a worker watched
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a man seize and die on closed circuit television. He picked up a telephone and
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dialed for his superior who was on the same connection. The superior went down
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to the worker's office and stared at the still conveyor belt behind the worker,
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on top of which neatly laid a number of burger wrapper papers. The superior
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asked what the worker was doing and the worker explained that a man had just
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died inside the burger store (Durmer Burger). The supervisor stared at the
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press, then the employee, then the ink buckets that lay beside the press
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peppered with warning labels regarding the composition of the ink. The
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supervisor considered how hot the ink had to be to be in a liquid state. Then,
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silently, the supervisor grabbed the employee by the ear and violently threw
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them into the red tank. The employee opened their mouth to scream but only
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music came out. The most beautiful music the supervisor had heard. It came to a
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crescendo as the worker's face dissolved and they lost consciousness due to
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shock but it played on even after the employee's decrescendo. Red splattered
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onto the burger wrappers.
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2022-05-04
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Recomposition
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"Hey." A figure in a black trenchcoat, wearing green circular glasses a
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bit too big for their head, tapped Olive's shoulder as she lay on the road
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foaming at the mouth. "Hey Olive. Wake up."
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Seeing that Olive was dead, the figure started walking down the road
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backwards, facing Olive. When Olive's body flew up and started walking
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backwards towards Alan's the figure crouched and continued sneaking, staying
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out of Olive's field of view. This figure watched Olive make her way backwards
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to the gas station and eventually made it behind Durmer Burger as Olive
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shuffled backwards towards the ground outside the broken door and lay down in
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front of it. Olive flew into the door and the glass beads on the ground
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arranged themselves into a full sized window pane. The figure waited a minute
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or two on a mechanical wristwatch before heading towards the front of the
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building.
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All was quiet in the neighborhood. No birds chirped, no squirrels
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rustled trees, and there were no cars on the street. The figure in the black
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trenchcoat retrieved a black purse from their belt, took out a tension rod and
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paper clip, and started to pick the lock. Within a couple seconds they got
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through and held the door open. Soon Olive came running out of the portal.
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"Hey."
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Olive clutched her arm and turned around. "Hello?" Her face was twisted
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in pain.
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"Hi, I'm here to invite you to Saikokon." The figure smiled with a few
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more teeth than fit a human. "It's free!"
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"Saikokon?"
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"Yes, yes. It's quite a surprise, isn't it?"
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Olive looked around her. "What?"
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The figure frowned and put their purse back on their belt. "Alright,
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well, I'll take that as a yes, which isn't quite consent but otherwise in a
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couple minutes you won't be able to either way. I'm gonna need you to hop on
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this scooter." They took a small, collapsible Razor scooter out of their
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trenchcoat from a strap across their front and unfolded it. "It's a bit shabby
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but I don't like cars' emissions."
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Olive stared at the scooter. "I'm sorry – this is a lot to process. I
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need medical attention."
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"Yes, I know, and either you can pour some isopropyl alcohol on your
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arm and die on that street drooling or you can get on this scooter and go to a
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clinic. So which is it?"
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Olive stepped onto the scooter. Her foot was barely small enough to fit
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on its platform, leaving no room for the other. She adjusted her weight to
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balance.
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"Great. Now, I'm going to have to ask you not to puke. This is going to
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be extremely disorienting for you. Would you like a blindfold?"
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"What?"
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"A blindfold. It obscures your vision."
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"Why would I want a blindfold?"
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"In case of inadverdent motion sickness or blindness."
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"I could go blind?"
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"You could always go blind."
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"Will this increase the risks of my losing my sight?"
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"Olive my dear," the figure grabbed onto the middle of the scooter's
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steering apparatus firmly and steadied themself, "you have never seen." The
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figure started slowly walking, dragging Olive along, both through space and
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time.
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I'm writing this at 0400. I can't sleep.
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I didn't sleep much the
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night before this, or the
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night before that, but I
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just can't.
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I can't sleep.
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I'm not tired, except I'm
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a little tired - I just
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yawned. But I'm not
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tired. I can't sleep.
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I'm so tired. I don't
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want to sleep but I need
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sleep. But I can't sleep.
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I can't sleep
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! and I'm awake and I've
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been awake since noon? I can't
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remember and yesterday I
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still only slept maybe a
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couple hours for which I
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am thankful but I need sleep.
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And I can't sleep.
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And heavy is the head
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that wears the crown;
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heavy also is the head of
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the insomniac, the bitter
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dead-wake hound that
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howls in its gutty pain
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and makes mortals fear
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its cosmically lucid mind
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that can strike upon them
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an understanding so great
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they too will never sleep
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again. Never rest their
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head on a pillow, never
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lay in sheets, never
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breathe a great calming
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breath. They too can't sleep
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like I can't sleep.
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Why can't
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I sleep
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? Why must I
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never sleep
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but stay on guard and on
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edge and listening to the
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rustle of the vents and
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automotive traffic on the
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street behind me, past my
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window? Maybe I can sleep
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but it's the world that
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stops me. Maybe I
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halt the world. I
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don't care. I
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just want to sleep
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! I
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need to sleep
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! Let me sleep
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!
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2023-01-04 17:15:20 -07:00
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2023-01-05
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2021-07-07
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Antero
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A person woke up wrapped in satin sheets, head atop a comfortably
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stuffed pillow. They remembered the two most important things: Take the pill.
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Check the book.
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The book. Where was the book. Their room came into view. A wallpaper of
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lilacs on a cream background. Large windows, nearly floor to ceiling. The book
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was to their left.
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June 1, 21XX. Ah, the first of a new month. Funny how that happens.
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They quickly flipped to the front. EDWARDS Eugene \ Class: Well-to-do. Ah.
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Well-to-do. Well in-deed.
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The last thing Eugene Edwards remembered was sitting in a pub in, oh,
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what year is it now? 21XX. So 40 years prior; sitting in a pub, having a pint
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of whatever happened to be on tap at that point. No televisions. No televisions
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at the bar. There were people on phones though. Eugene watched them, thinking.
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Kids on their phone. Is it a phone? Are they still phones nowadays? Fuck it.
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Phones. Just about the same anyway.
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The kids were on their phones scrolling through memetic imagery like a
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hundred years prior back when lead and fluoride and Donald Trump and quantum
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computers and oh god think of the children were on people's minds and when
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those were the only just about the only things on people's minds no
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cognitoviruses no hazards just green grass et cetera. A hundred years prior.
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Eugene wasn't there, nor were Eugene's parents, nor grandparents. Eugene's
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great grandparents were alive though. Given the plastic content in the
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grandparents' bones, Eugene figured the times were not great. But maybe they
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were okay. They could have been okay.
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The concrete age.
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Eugene was watching them on their phones. Whatever the fuck those
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hipsters used. And Eugene watched the kid on the left, or the right - the one
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farthest from the exit - Eugene watched them drop their phone, suddenly, and
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tense up. Like getting electrically shocked. All their muscles tightened, their
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face got red, their veins got big, like Rob Muscanis doing a dead-lift. Then
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the kid passed out. Passed the fuck out. Then the same thing happened to
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another kid and slowly as the kids checked what was on each others' phones it
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rippled out.
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Cognitohazard. That was what it was called. A memetic cognitohazard.
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Sweeping the god damn planet. The Indians and the Koreans both denied it was
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them immediately though they were under the closest scrutiny; India in
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particular had been known for trying to manufacture cognitohazards for military
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use. And all this investigation (in the wrong places) while it took kid after
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kid. And killed them! A fucking memetic image.
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That night was when Eugene learned about Antero.
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Antero is an experimental (now not so much) drug aimed at preventing
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the formation of new memories for 24 hours after ingestion. It's usually taken
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in the morning; available to every class and every body free of charge from the
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government not out of nefarious purpose (though that is questioned daily by a
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number of folks more than suspicious of the UPK's leadership) but out of a
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great need. Without Antero, fuck. Antero turns the permanent death of a
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cognitovirus into a temporary absence from the brain of the user. Antero is the
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penicillin of the twenty second century. Thank your local god for Antero, then
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thank the drug company that came up with it, Gokko (pronounced "gohk koh")
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Pharmaceutical. Then, of course, thank the Japanese.
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Eugene took their first Antero the following morning, and by the looks
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of Eugene's book of short term memories gone long term gone gone, Eugene had
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taken Antero every morning since then, for the past forty years. Well,
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thirty-six years technically, thirty six years, three months, and a day. Eugene
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figured most people would be afraid to wake up forty years older (especially
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given that Eugene was just about reaching UPK life expectancy of sixty-four).
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However, Eugene did not have emotions; Eugene was technically a psychopath.
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Though this word is antiquated now and will be far more antiquated by the time
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this story occurs; psychopathy is not a real diagnosable medical condition,
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rather a collection of common attributes, and the term is hampered by a very
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strong connotation that psychopaths are violent and compulsively homicidal.
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Eugene was neither.
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Eugene's book was written in a somewhat different way from their usual
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writing. At least that's what they figured at first look. On first glance, the
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entries were scrawled quickly and looked dirtier than their usual work (or
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their usual work of forty years' prior). Done so to save time, probably. And
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the entries were bulleted and abbreviated. "I went out for dinner with Laura.
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She seemed happy and has just gotten engaged to the kind-hearted and hearty
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mutual friend of ours Brian." becomes simply "dined with laura. now eng. w/
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brian"; "laura" and "brian" both hyperlinks to the relevant written profiles
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within Eugene's book (mentioned entry dated January 8 and both profiles updated
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automatically with this information at the same time).
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So, what to do today. 21XX-07-01. Go to work at Rogo Corporation. Job
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is to supervise the automatic production of electric machetes and rapidly debug
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errors. At nine hundred hours, attend meeting determining scope and cause of
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formula errors in accounting department, and consequences. Okay. Eugene got out
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of bed, went to the bathroom, brushed their teeth, and did other usual
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activities similar to one does in the bathroom. Then they put on a
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tight-fitting black collared t-shirt, light and thin dark blue jacket, and
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black jeans, and walked downstairs to hail a cab to the tallest skyscraper in
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their city.
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"Memes", viral thoughts, have existed for millennia. As the time taken
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for a thought to circumnavigate the world decreased, the sheer amount of memes
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increased. The printing press, telegraph, telephone, television, all
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accelerated the travel of memes. However, the mass popularization of the use of
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the Internet mainly through the world wide web in the early twenty-first
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century predictably spawned an unprecedented environment in which memes could
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form, pass through the minds of millions of people, and die, in the span of
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hours. This was the perfect petri dish in which cognitoviruses could evolve.
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Cognitoviruses, or memetic cognitohazards, are self-propagating mind
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worms that often interfere with the capability of the subject's brain to
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accomplish tasks necessary in order to think. The first cognitoviruses were
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temporarily distracting and rather harmless; for example, a game where,
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whenever one thinks of it, they lose, which is in turn unwinnable unless the
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subject never knew of the game in the first place, but of which the subject is
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compelled to tell others, is a very classic example (and one that was popular
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on the Internet through the mid 2010s). As research into the phenomenon of
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cognitohazardous materials and the memetic transmission of cognitohazards
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evolved, cognitoviruses were developed and published that began to circulate
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through popular communicative Internet services, and soon became a "meme"
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themselves.
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It was in the late twenty-first century that a cognitovirus was
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developed that was, more or less, lethal, and theorized to be the work of a
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state military though the true origin is uncertain. And Antero sat as a
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published paper and niche-market drug, usually applied in the treatments of
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mental illnesses such as post-traumatic stress disorder or depression. In the
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week following the release of the first lethal cognitovirus the usage of
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communicative Internet services plummeted, meanwhile Gokko Pharma's valuation
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increased fifty-fold. And so the world kept spinning.
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Antero. Eugene needed to take the pill. They were halfway down the
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stairs from their rented living space before they remembered and had to walk
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back up. On the other side of the bed from where their book was. A blue bottle
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with white cap; inside, a dozen or so green pills. Eugene dry-swallowed one and
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went back down the stairs to the street to find a driver.
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This is not nearly my best writing. I thought 七月 was June, the
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description of Eugene is so bland yet so pseudo-edgy. I like that Eugene uses
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gender-neutral pronouns but that was because of my misunderstanding of gender
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in which I thought such a thing was ridiculous and everybody should be neutral.
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I like the idea of memes as weapons and still think about it - I used to do
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stuff like that (and that's all I can say about that). But I think this style
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of narration sucks and the world described was excessively bland - intended to
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be British but without much subtle charm that colors the otherwise gray world
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of England in media. It's nice that my writing's improved so much in 18 months
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- or maybe I'm just not divorced far enough by time from what I write in this
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blah to see the glaring flaws.
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I'm gonna have to put pipes at the start of the next one's lines
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because it's reliant on the structure of the text - I can't just indent each
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paragraph and shove it together to indicate relation between segments like I
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can when I put random snippets of writing in here.
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2021-08-12
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|Anonym's journey to the center of the universe
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| began on 31 september 2021 in the town of little rock maine. anonym
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| went to a big franchised or whatever drugstore to buy a coca cola. then they
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| went to check out but they noticed no registers were open. yet the store was
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| still open, and there was a worker there striding around the registers
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| "hi, I'd like to check out please" anonym
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| Worker: "Yes, that's for what I'm here."
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| "well, ah, where should i pay for my cola?" anonym
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| Worker: "Please use the self-checkouts."
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| "i don't really understand how to use the automatons" anonym
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| Worker: "Yes, that's for what I'm here
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| I'm here to show you how to use the self-checkouts."
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| "alright" anonym
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| anonym learned to use the automatons to complete transactions
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| "so, what do you think of coca cola? what sodas do you like?" anonym
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| Worker: "I don't know. I drink any beverage."
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| "you don't have a preference? even something you like more than others?" anonym
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| Worker: "No."
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| anonym left the store and continued their journey to the center of the
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That one was basically just a transcript of an interaction I had at my
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local CVS. I hate my local CVS.
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2021-03-05
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The Journey
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Kenan Gleick woke up on a Tuesday morning, in a town neither you nor I
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have heard of, Michigan, to a soft roar emanating from outside the room in
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which was the bed in which he'd apparently slept. He recognized neither the
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bed, nor the room, nor the view outside the window, nor, upon putting on the
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clothes in the mahogany bureau next to the bed (business-casual khakis, a pair
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of sneakers, and a black "Thanks for the toast!" tee shirt) and looking up at
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the mirror above the bureau, himself.
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He pocketed a cheap multitool on top of the bureau. He knew who he had
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once been - a cashier at a local supermarket - but it didn't seem relevant to
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who he was now. His palms had worn since he'd last seen them. He crossed the
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hardwood flooring and opened the white door before entering a hall, painted a
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diseased maroon, to find what appeared to be a handyman or some other sort of
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contract laborer grinding through the drywall with a rotary saw. The man turned
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off the blade and stared at Kenan. "That room was just empty."
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"Sorry." Kenan quickly walked into what was marked as a stairwell and
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treaded down the stairs until he came to the sign indicating the ground floor,
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where he broke into a jog and quickly made it outside the hotel before anyone
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could ask any questions.
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I remember thinking about this one but I don't know what it was gonna
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be about. This is also probably the earliest piece of writing I have saved on
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my computer. There are really old ones that maybe I'll dig out at some point
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but I've already pasted three here for today and I can only bear so much
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embarrassment at the writing of my 17 year old self.
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The trinity.moe/blah chronological cut must be so confusing to watch!
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I found an ancient blog of mine from when I was a kid.
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2016-04-09
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Today we didn't have school because it's Saturday. I went to one of my
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friend's birthday parties, [...]'s, to be exact, and I got him a Nerf Elite
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Dual-Strike. It was a Nerf party, by the way, and it's no mystery of whether
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Han or Greedo shot first. I did. I also met up with my (old) friend, [...], and
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shot him. It was kinda boring today altogether though.
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2016-04-11
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School was nothing special today. I've been trying to think of a
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YouTube video to make. I've been getting vlogger's block. It's weird. Also, I
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heard of something I think everybody should check out - a petition asking
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Blizzard to stop trying to sue Nostalrius. Sign it! Please!
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2016-04-16
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I didn't post anything for the week, since I was so busy with school,
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but now it's April vacation so I can blog all I want. My favorite Minecraft
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server, play.prxcraft.net, is shutting down on the 20th.
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2016-05-24
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I've been busy this month. It's just too much, especially with
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volunteering and all the other crap our school makes us do. Meh. Another day,
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another blog. Another Weebly site to watch is AnimeFreak. Weebly's doing
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something stupid so that entire sentence was linked. Enjoy.
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EDIT: I linked the word now. Just the word. DEAL WITH IT.
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Somewhere along the way, probably inspired by Paul Graham's blog, I
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learned it's less interesting to write about what you /do/ (unless what you do
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is absolutely fascinating, which most of the time it is not) and more
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interesting to write about what you're /thinking/.
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About a month after these I started on a webcomic which had the writing
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quality of CtrlAltDel and a slightly better art quality than Arson Comics. It
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had various unfunny jokes about virtual reality (which I had not yet tried),
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self driving cars (which did not yet exist), arcade machines that could play
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every video game ever made (which I didn't know existed), and the usual
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violence-as-a-punchline, a hallmark of 00s and 10s webcomics.
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My favorite webcomics were xkcd (which I discovered at the time Vodka
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was published - 2015-05-22, I guess) and MegaTokyo (which I discovered on
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xkcd's site footer). MegaTokyo taught me leetspeek and a ton of weaboo culture,
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and I still love the common fantasy of being stranded in a metropolitan area
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and being forced to just Figure It Out. Later I also read TwoKinds, Savestate,
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Junior Scientist Power Hour, and others.
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I would be thoroughly shocked if I found anything older than 2014 that
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I could paste onto here. My life only really began when I turned 18, anyway.
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2023-01-03 22:01:21 -07:00
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2023-01-04
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Karl and Will watched Captain James Cook sit in his recliner, seeming
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to deliberate. An intravenous line was slung over the armrest from the back of
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the chair into Cook's arm and he sat, catatonic, drool dripping past his bottom
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lip, eyes wide open. Both of them knew he neither cared about what they said
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nor was physically able to hear them. Behind them a small porthole window let
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them see into the depths of outer space.
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Will finished his thought and verbalized it. "So, like, what's he
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thinking about?"
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Karl: "What?"
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"He's on tranqs or something. Is he thinking about the ship?"
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Karl turned to Will. "Are you new here or something?"
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"What! I'm just asking a question."
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"Did you go to school?"
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"Yeah."
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"Did you graduate?"
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"Well... no."
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"Yeah." Karl gestured to the thin tube. "That's a drug cocktail of both
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stimulants and paralytics. The chair measures his vitals and keeps him alive
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while he can use all of his brain to think about what moves to make next."
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Will reexamined the chair from where he stood. "Why can't he just think
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normally?"
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"I just said. He can but this lets him use more of his noggin. The dude
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is basically doing six dimensional chess up in there. A good captain will
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figure out the next thousand years' moves in advance, I've heard."
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"I don't envy him."
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Captain James Cook stood on a featureless white plane under a black
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starless sky, using a rod of wax to mark the ground in red. Taking into account
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all of the nearby cosmic entities - the rocks and dust and occasional dwarf -
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he charted out the next hundred years' plan, then the hundred after that, then
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the hundred after that. The landscape around him turned pink as he marked the
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hours to make up the days to make up the months to make up the years.
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An alarm sounded. Karl and Will ran to their respective stations. The
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chair began to rouse the Captain for the emergency.
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James had finished year 963 when he started sliding down the smooth
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surface. His naked body smeared the red wax on the floor as the floor smeared
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it on him and after rolling for a couple seconds he was finally kicked off the
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ground into the ether. Floating in space, he assumed the posture of sitting in
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a chair so that his carriage back into physicality would be less violent. Then
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like a dog pushed off a cliff he was back in his seat, chin wet, looking
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through the porthole towards his previous home; outsideness.
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2022-09-16
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Bookworm
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I looked for a moment at a painting above the stairs and their bronze
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railing. It had an elaborate painting of a symbol that resembled a Cyrillic "Щ".
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"Alright, let's go." I gestured to the stairs.
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"What? Why?" Aaron walked through one of the dozen or so aisles of
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shelves, each packed with books up to the height of his shoulder. The room we
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were in encompassed the full third floor of the cylindrical tomb to which we
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were tourists, lit brightly by incandescent lamps and only incandescent lamps.
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There were no windows nor would there be anything of interest past the glass if
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there were.
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"You said there would be one or two people here to meet us." Aaron
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raised a hand on which he was raising his index finger but I interrupted him.
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"If there's nobody to meet us for what's essentially a distress call, from this
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'living vault' which I'd call a crypt, what got to them first? Whatever it was,
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I don't wanna meet it."
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"Everything here is visible. There are no places to hide, or hide a
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body." At that, I scanned the ceiling but it was just uniform brick. "I don't
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know where they went, but we've looked around, and there's nothing here. I
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don't see why you'd be so unnerved." I wasn't unnerved – at least I didn't
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think I was visibly so. On the other side of the room, which wasn't terribly
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under the tightly woven carpet let out a muffled squeak. A cheap bell rattled.
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Judging by the look on Aaron's face, I had given him a death glare, but after
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he looked down his aisle he relaxed. "It's a cat."
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I slowly stepped over to his aisle of books and there, on the other end
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of the row, was a black and white cat with a red collar. I said the first thing
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that came to my mind. "Its head is too big."
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Aaron looked at me but I kept looking at the cat. "'Its head is too
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big'?" The cat's head kept extending and growing. Whatever reaction I had
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caused Aaron to turn back to the cat. "Oh, fuck."
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The cat's fur grew sparse as its skin stretched wide and its head
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turned a slow spiral into an upside-down position before its forehead grew
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fangs and its former lips fused together. Its eyes widened and became
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humanlike. The creature must have been three meters long with a serpentine head
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but cat-sized body at the end, away from us. Its fangs were what peeked of a
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mouth and that mouth opened its wide jaw and began to speak in a deep rumble of
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a voice. "I."
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I slowly reached for and silently unbuttoned the clasp on my knife
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while maintaining my stare at the creature. Aaron, probably close enough to the
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thing to smell it if it had a smell, trembled slightly but enough that I
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noticed. I wished I hadn't gone into this damn grave without my lighter but it
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was confiscated by Aaron's parents (also the governing body of this archive –
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built to withstand a nuclear blast, so humanity had a "damn fine base from
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which to regrow their knowledge" – Aaron's mother's words, not mine). It wasn't
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something I didn't understand – I too long for a first edition Origin of
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Species sometimes after one or two glasses of wine at night, and have to page
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through Sotheby's catalog in order to talk myself out of bidding the next time
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one's stolen out of East Germany, but if there was truly some new Dracula or
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Frankenstein – aside from the books, that is – hidden in these rows, I'd be
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willing to burn down a lot more than some paper or even myself to make sure it
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never saw the light of day.
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Aaron finally spoke. "Hello?"
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The creature tore a tentacle underneath the cat's chest and swung it up
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above its head, morphing it into a fleshy wreath-like structure, almost like a
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set of antlers. Its head and tentacle, I noticed, bent backward as they
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stretched up, to keep its center of gravity below its paws. I realized what it
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was doing, forming a fractal construct of flesh and the gaps between around its
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head, as a second tentacle tore through the fur on the cat's back. "Aaron. Back
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away towards me."
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The creature's eyes, bigger now, blue, turned towards me. It rumbled
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and finally spoke, something: "Apart from the one fundamental nastiness-" it
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made a gargling noise "-nineteenth century suffering from toothache." It thrust
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its tentacle towards Aaron and he turned and ran for the stairs, to which I
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also started running. The creature began to scream in a cacophony of fifty
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voices. Aaron and I got to the end of the stairway and ran across the second
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floor (fiction) to its descending stairs. I didn't take the time to look behind
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myself.
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When we got to the bottom-most level of the vault Aaron ran to the
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telephone next to the stone arch exit, currently leading to a brick wall, and
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rang the operator as I turned to face his six and saw the monster, with the
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body of a cat, the face of a (for lack of better description) werewolf, and the
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two tentacles of a void, approaching, by morphing its appendages into some sort
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of shape that could grip onto the stone bricks of the ceiling. By the time it
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had climbed its way to the center of the room the vault started violently
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twisting and the centrifugal force threw me and Aaron against the wall. The
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beast staggered but hunkered down, moving its body towards the ceiling. The
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black oily tentacles spread out into the bricks like they were Play-Doh shoved
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into a fine mesh.
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The door next to us opened up and we made our way across the wall to
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which we were pinned and fell through. We yelled to the engineers to keep it
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twisting and the portal slid shut behind us.
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Aaron's father, Robert Arsenault, in his signature suit and green tie,
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jogged down the freshly painted hall to meet us and the operator of his billion
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dollar vault. Aaron and I were smoking, to Robert's chagrin, and against the
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advice of Jamie Simon, who was almost as well known as Robert but in different
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fields. In fact, the design of the library was officially called the Simon
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Machine, and used novel mechanisms to rotate an entire cylindrical building on
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its base as an extremely overkill locking mechanism so no unauthorized entities
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could get in. I wasn't briefed on the details, or, well, I was, but I didn't
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have the three PhDs necessary to understand any of it.
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A vent softly pumped air from the surface. Technically our location
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wasn't supposed to be made known to the lackeys but Aaron said it was somewhere
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in Peru.
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"What the hell was that?"
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Aaron tapped his cigarette on the previously empty ashtray next to
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Jamie's keyboard. "I dunno."
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Robert thrust a pointed finger into Aaron's face. "You don't know? An
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animal got into my library and neither of you can even tell what the fuck it
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was? Do you even know how many legs it had?"
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Aaron seemed to have the same idea I had; Robert could figure out what
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the thing was without our help. He wouldn't believe us if we told him what we
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saw.
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Unfinished! A shame, too. I think that one could have been pretty good.
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Maybe sometime I'll write a middle and ending.
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2023-01-02 22:04:33 -07:00
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2023-01-03
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2022-12-07
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I don't think about thinking, I just think it
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and I think even when I can't think about anything else
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I think about my thoughts about the day it left me
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and I think about it I can't think about anything else
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I think about Venus and the moon and the sun
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and I think about when they came and killed everyone
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I think about the last time us two had some fun
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and I think about when we came and killed everyone
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The sky is falling off the mountains
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and sirens filling my brain
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and the smoke attack the smoke grenades
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the blood in the lane
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the sky is on the edge of the earth
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and there are cracks in the night
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and the SWAT team and the G-men
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and the federal fight
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2022-10-08
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The one hun dred me ter sprint .
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and it's you that's dead in last .
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When . will you just ad mit . .
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You aren't win ning in this lap .
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You mean no thing . to me .
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I'm try ing . my best . .
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You're a hu man . dis ease .
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And my best is good e nough .
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I gave it all to you . .
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Leave me a lone . I'm tir ed
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And then you just col lapsed . .
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of this stuff . . . . .
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You di dn't go for the gold .
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I ne ver went for the gold .
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I . . went for the gold .
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You went for the sil ver . .
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I went for the sil ver . .
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And I got the sil ver . .
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And now you're get ting old . .
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And now I'm get ting old . .
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I'm look ing at the bronze . .
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And my hair is tur ning sil ver
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And your hair is tur ning sil ver
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Throw my me dal in the ri ver
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. How could you do this to me?
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. How could I do this to you?
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. Is it hap pi ness I seek?
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. I'm so god damn in com plete
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. I lost out in the race .
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A lot of what I do is foreshadowed by other stuff I do. Before Blang
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(still in development and not even publicly released) was the configuration
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system for ytfeed, which was weird in some areas. The behavior was mostly due
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to side effects. Then Usagi, a similar fantasy computer but with much loftier
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goals than Blang which never really came to fruition. When it came to making an
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RSS feed reader, after ytfeed.py (which started as a proof of concept out of
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boredom using some Python RSS module or something) sort of collapsed from
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technical debt (look, I can use buzzwords too) I really wanted to take
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ytfeed.sh and expand it to be more UNIXy and KISSy but lost motivation. I had a
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couple attempts after that such as "awdri", which has one feed.py file with:
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#!/usr/bin/env python
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config = [
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"feed_dir": "/home/trinity/awdri/Feeds"
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But I don't even know what that was gonna be. Eventually I came up with
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pigfeed which is a half-decent base for an RSS feed reader, I think. Plus its
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model and design are delightful though undercooked.
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2022-10-21
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The End of the World, And What Happened Next
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"Put your money in the wishing well, and your wish may well come true."
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The beggar turned to me, his rotted teeth spitting through the phrase.
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"The wishing well?" I looked into the field behind him. I didn't see
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any well.
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"It's not a <I>real</I> well. It's a wallet number. Put in
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a coin and reap good luck for the rest of your life." He handed me the business
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card of a preacher in the church across the street behind us. On the back was a
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hexadecimal wallet code, 512-bit – a legacy address, scrawled in ballpoint. I
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could hardly make out the 1s from 7s or the 4s from 9s. I put it in my shirt
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pocket.
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"An entire coin? I thought beggars usually wanted a fiver or tenner?"
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He stared into me with orange eyes. Tattooed irises, probably to go
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with his hair. "It's not my wallet. Wanna miss out?" He waved his arms out.
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"Your loss!"
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Simon was sitting at his desk filling forms when he saw kamisama from
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his upstairs window. She disappeared into the forest across the street. He
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quickly ran downstairs into the trees to find her sitting on a stump at a
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stream, brushing her hair.
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"Where have you been? I haven't heard you in days." Simon started to
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retie his right shoe which was too loose. "Are you avoiding me?"
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Kamisama spoke quietly. "They're trying to take me away."
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Simon finished the bunny ears and double knotted it. "Who?"
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"I don't know. But I'm disappearing."
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Simon sat on the stump. "Is it me? We knew this might happen eventually."
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Kamisama shook her head. "No, we can't part yet. I don't want you
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blindly leading yourself. Someone is doing this to you."
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-1.
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"I don't know what's worth putting a coin in an anonymous wallet, but
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whatever it is, I don't need it anyway." I started to walk away.
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He yelled behind me. "Fine! You just ignored the best opportunity of
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your life!" I kept walking.
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2023-01-02 19:19:51 -07:00
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2023-01-02
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Ted wandered off as he heard sirens approach the crumbling office. His
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office was a part of a sparse lot of buildings in the sparse tundra of
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Underhelm, a small town on the outskirts of Dance City. The nearest neighbor to
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his office, a tall but sterile, empty building, simply concrete, glass,
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insulation, drywall, and plenty of carpet and flammable internal bits to start
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a blaze, had a sign advertising its potential as a center of operations or call
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center or something business or another that Ted didn't have the capacity to
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care about.
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He didn't know where he got the jerrycan, and didn't know how it still
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had any petrol in it, not to mention how it was still full. Ted kicked down the
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fashionable but laughably flimsy double doors to the office, then the next pair
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of doors past the entryway. The interior looked like it would look really good
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if it was set on fire. Ted angled the can to pour a thin stream of gasoline as
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he walked from room to room on the ground floor. He admired the new-car smell,
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the gasoline aroma, the new-wall scent, the benzene draw, the new tables and
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chairs and light fixtures and Cisco-branded IP phones and the pattern on the
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carpet and the sharp geometry of the modernist architecture and soon he was
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back in the lobby, having completed a loop. Like a soldier, he turned
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anticlockwise and continued out of the building, carving a petroleum circle
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into the dead grass surrounding the lifeless vessel.
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Ted struggled with his lighter. It was a disposable Bic that was nearly
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out of butane. After a minute of clicking he was able to get a flame for a
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moment and lit the gas trail. He watched the little bead of entropy follow the
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path and split out into three, two following the circle and one cautiously
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approaching the edifice. The brush and the building caught fire over a period
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of a couple minutes and the fire roared to life.
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"Must not have been up to code, that." Ted whispered to himself. "Quite
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a lot of form, though. Now it finally serves a function."
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2023-01-01
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[21:07] Well I'm in New York for the first time in my life, so I
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figured I'd take a moment and do a, a bona fide audio blog- a- audio, what is
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that, an aog? I dunno. Because, uh, there ain't no way I'm gonna get a chance
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to sit down and type this, um, my first thought, uh, approaching New York, was
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"My God, the city smells like soy sauce!" and it might have been the car. It
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might have been me. I dunno. But uh, now I'm- now I'm here. Um, it took a
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little while to get here. I was gonna plan to meet up with, uh,
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[21:08] an acquaintance from back in- back in the /bpg/ days, when that
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was a thing, um, but that sort of fell through. That's okay, another time. Um,
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so I'm basically in the city now and I'm basically just walking around, um,
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I've never been to New York City before. At one corner I saw a bunch of trash,
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spilled, just like, a shrine to- a shrine to garbage. Shrine to- shrine to
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waste. Um, I thought that was funny. I'm not taking a lot of pictures because,
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[21:09] pictures? Who needs pictures? Also my phone doesn't have a lot
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of battery, and I could plug it in but I can't even find a goddamn place to
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stand around, there are all these signs saying no standing any time? I have no
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clue how you could forbid standing. Um, I see city bike things but I don't know
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how to use these damn things. Um, but I guess I could bike if I figured them
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out, but then I'd be bicycling, and that wouldn't be a whole lot better than
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walking when I wanna take a pause. So, I dunno. But it would be nice to get
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around the city a little bit faster. But I'm sorta- I'm sorta just taking it
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in. Because this is wild. It's uh, it's smaller
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[21:10] than I expected from what my grandpa said but it's about what I
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expected from what I thought, um, and it's raining and the streets are slick,
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but for, towards the chilliest part of the year, it really ain't too bad around
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here. I guess that's the uh, the 2022 New Year's- New Year's Eve heat wave or
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whatever from our storm, a little bit prior, um, really washed away all the
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snow, but yeah
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<"hey yeah"
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y'know, and uh-
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<"Hey."
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Hey. 'Sup.
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<"How are you doing?"
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Doing well, how 'bout you?
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<[unintelligible]
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What?
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<"You're very beautiful, what's your name?"
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Uh, Trinity, how 'bout you?
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<"Huh?"
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Trinity, what's your name?
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[21:11]<"Najeem."
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What?
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<"Najeem."
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Najeem?
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<"That's a nice name."
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Thank you.
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<"Whatcha doing tonight?"
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Ah, y'know, just walkin' around.
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<"Uh, you live over here?"
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Nah, I live in Maine.
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<"Upstate? Oh, you got a hotel here?"
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Uh, yeah, I'm staying in a, uh, staying nearby.
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<"Uh, have you ever had a, like, have you ever had a big black dick?"
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Huh?
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<"Have you ever had a big black dick?"
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Nah.
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<"Would you like that?"
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Nah.
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<"You should try it. You might like it."
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Y'know, maybe some other time, I'm sorta just here visiting family.
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<"Alright, well I need you to give me some head real quick. Before
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you go."
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I don't think I will.
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<"You don't have no choice."
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Nah, I don't think I will.
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<"I'm a murderer, you know that?"
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Alright.
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<"I'm joking. Have a good night."
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Uh huh. You too.
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Well, that was something. But that's New York. Still got my wallet.
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Still got my keys.
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[21:12] Still got my compass. Still got my phone. But, that was... huh.
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Anyway. So, wait, I should probably say that, what he said again, because I
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don't know if it it came through but he said [...] yeah. I dunno. Y'know, it's
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nice to be desired. That guy was gonna chop me up into pieces but it's nice to
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be desired. Y'know, I have very low standards. [...]
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[21:13] So now I'm walking back where I came. "Duane Reade by
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Walgreens". I wonder what that is. Um, [...], honestly if he didn't say that,
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if he just asked politely, I probably would have. Um, but y'know. I should
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probably check myself out for trackers later but.
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[21:14] ... I like the- I like the ambience of the city. The honk honk.
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The sirens that echo across the street. That really fill the- fill the noise
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up, with harsh shrill, but only for a little bit, then it returns back to the
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quiet ring-a-ding, buzz-a-buzz. There's a lot more people on these tricycle
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sort of things, that can
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[21:15] carry people. I, I never saw one before I went here. And
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there's some buses, and apparently there's a Niel Diamond Broadway show or
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something. And yeah, I'm pretty much taking turns at random. This must be an
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Oakley shop or something. But uh, y'know, it's peaceful. And tonight's New
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Year's Eve, and uh, probably not gonna be able to see the ball drop. Because I
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would need to get in a huge crowd and be searched and wouldn't be able to use
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the bathroom, yadda yadda yadda. And I ain't really,
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[21:16] I'd rather just chill out. I like goin' to the places where the
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people aren't, because usually the interesting things are the things not seen
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by everybody. Are there any public bathrooms in New York? Also I definitely
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went this way already. I uh, I went to a pizza place, and I think I got the
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wrong order. But they said something to me, and I didn't quite understand it,
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because it was in Spanish and, I mean, I- I can pick out some phrases, like I
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can recognize what you're
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[21:17] speakin', I can recognize the language, but I cannot translate
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especially on the fly so I just stared blankly at them and then they laughed
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and it wasn't what I ordered but it was alright pizza. "Psychic readings"? "$10
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special"? Are these the psychic readings?
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<"Yes."
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Oh, cool.
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[21:20] That psychic reading was almost completely wrong, but, it's fun
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to do it. I wonder how they come up with these things. Uh, they said I don't
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usually speak my mind, which is untrue, usually take responsibility for things,
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which is true, um, I do what I want when I want, which is true, but, I don't
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sleep as well as I used to, which, I sleep probably better than I ever have.
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But, y'know, that's fun. They don't have anything like that in Maine. Walking
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through some scaffolding now. This is- "sprinkler fire department connection",
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y'know I wonder how they design big buildings like this, I wonder how they add
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to them. But not enough to actually look it up
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[21:21] because it's probably really boring. ... Oh, gone in a circle
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again, but, it's fun. Um, I'd like to get up, to a position where I can see the
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ball drop, but I don't think that's gonna happen. Sorta just walking around.
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[21:22] I can see ah, Radio City Music Hall, which, my grandmother went
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to Radio City Music Hall, when she was a lass, and, she was disturbed by the,
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uh, frivolous fragrant- the fragrant pandering to the male gaze. That's how I
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would describe it. That's probably not how she would describe it, but, it's
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about what she said.
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[21:23] All the songs playing are songs about New York. But we're in
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New York. Um, something something simulacrum? I dunno, I never read
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Baudrillard. Probably just gonna keep going down this street. Uh, passing
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West 48th, this is, what, oh, Avenue of the Americas, that's pretty cool.
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[21:24] Do I have any other cool things I've observed in New York City?
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Not really. It's very rainy and there's not a lot to do when it's raining. You
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can duck under things, sure, but, only for the moment. I suppose you could do
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so for a longer moment but, I don't know. I'm a stranger in a strange land.
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When in Rome, do as Romans do. And they ain't doing that. But they are tooting
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horns very loudly.
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<"Five dollars, five dollars, five dollars. Five dollars. Five
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dollars."
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[21:25] When I, uh, when I went to do that palm reading, uh, I put a
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twenty dollar bill down on the slightly wet but mostly covered table, um and, I
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thought this would go straight down. Well I'll walk back then. Um, I was like
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"You got change for a 20?" because it was a $10 palm reading and they were
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like, er- well, not really a palm reading, more like a psychic prediction, and
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I said- and they said "No, but I can do a full palm reading for uh, for $40."
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And I said "Can you do a half palm reading, for $20?" And they said no but then
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they said they felt bad and they'd give me a partial palm reading.
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[21:26] So I did get a half palm reading, for $20 - a bargain in New
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York City. ... I love languages, but I'm not much of a people person. I guess
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I'm more cut out for linguistics than actual translation. Ah, it's a little
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apple because it's the big apple. Um,
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[21:27] yeah. There's a Major League Baseball store, I guess. I didn't
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expect so much litter. I also expected the air to be a lot worse, um, one of my
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friends who went here said you feel a lot more tired after walking in New York
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than in Maine but I think it's because the weed is a lot stronger here.
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[21:28] And he was probably blazing up. Alright, recording off.
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2022-12-31
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2022-04-19
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Snippets from /home/trinity/homepage/computer.html
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Hello and welcome to the world of computing.
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This guide is intended to take you from a cursory or completely
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nonexistent knowledge of how computers work or even what a computer is to an
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understanding with which you're comfortable.
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As this guide will go on the manner of language will shift from
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conversational and casual to more formal and technical; this is because these
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earlier sections are more like learning to ride a bike, where you won't easily
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forget the basics, but the later sections are more like learning to build a
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bike, where you may need to reference the manual later.
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This is also a perpetually unfinished document, please refer to the
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<I>updated</I> date as its version if your citation format permits it.
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To start, let's run over some basic terminology.
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Many of these terms are ambiguous and will be better specified later.
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The Monitor
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The monitor (term taken from the verb <I>monitor</I>), or screen
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(term taken from the verb <I>screen</I>), is a raster display unit your
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computer controls. In some manner, which depends on the technology your monitor
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uses, there is being displayed some sort of content that your computer has
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generated. It may be these very words. Monitors are usually interchangeable but
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sometimes entire computers can be included in the monitor unit itself, the
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concept of which is known as <I>all-in-one computer units</I> because
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all components of the computer except input devices are in the same place (the
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monitor assembly).
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It's possible your computer doesn't have a monitor. Possibly, you're
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using a teletypewriter, which prints text output onto paper using ink, though
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this is unlikely as they were obsoleted fifty years ago in favor of "glass
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teletypes" (<I>glass</I> here refers to the glass tube of a cathode ray
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tube monitor). Possibly, you're using assistive technologies and aren't sighted.
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Or maybe you're making this entire document up and are in a dream. There are
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many ways to use computers that <I>don't</I> involve monitors but seeing
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as they're so common-place there's a very good likelihood you are indeed using
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one.
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The Key-board
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The keyboard is how many people input text into their computer. There
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are many types of keyboards. Most people use standard QWERTY (named such after
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the first five alphabetical runes that appear on the board) keyboards, where
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each button is one symbol and perhaps there are special buttons that change the
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meaning of the other buttons. There are also <I>chorded</I> keyboards,
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where each <I>combination</I> (or chord, like on a piano) of keys
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represents a symbol.
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Possibly, you're not using a keyboard at all, and are instead using
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assistive technologies such as speech recognition.
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My intent with the computer guide was to emphasize atypical but
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important interfaces between user and machine, to make the guide relevant to
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every single person who would read the guide. Making a guide only for those who
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are sighted, hearing, have feeling in their fingertips, can read small text, is
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ridiculous and limits the audience far too much. Accessibility is the future
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absolutely.
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2022-12-31 09:55:30 -07:00
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0908 In the car on the way to New York City.
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1135 Still in the car
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I'm still getting over having my desktop Fx on my phone. It's glitchy
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as hell but it works. Like, damm!
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A crowd had formed outside of the building, in the parking lot. Ted
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stood with his hands in his pockets and tie blowing in the slight breeze
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watching the blaze.
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Out of the crowd a single black (trousers) and white (shirt) figure
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emerged. He walked tensely to Ted and stood in front of him. Ted's blank gaze
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stayed looking through his boss to the fire.
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"Ted, you piece of shit." The boss, a lanky mam of roughly the same
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height as Ted whose name escaped memory, sprayed a small droplet of saliva
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on Ted's collar, which bothered Ted. Ted looked at his shoes pointing to his
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boss's. "You're fired -" Ted smiled "- of course, and we'll see what the
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authorities do when they arrive."
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Ted's wife emerged from the crowd in the same attire. She looked roughly
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like Ted - plain beyond words - with a softer face and longer hair. "Hey, Ron,
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we're all a little stressed. Look at him. He's snapped. That's not Ted anymore.
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Take it easy and we'll let the EMTs take a look."
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Ron brushed Ted's wife's chin with his finger and had a look in his eye
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that confused Ted. "Alright Minerva. I- I'm not sure what we're gonna do," he
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turned towards the office, "about all this." This was the first time Ted had
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seen his boss stutter.
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"We'll get on."
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Without waiting for any authorities to arrive, Ron found his car in the
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parking lot and got in. Minerva got into the passenger's seat without prompt.
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Ted listened but didn't watch as the car started and then rolled out of the
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lot. He watched the smoke billow out of the windows.
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Ted whispered to himself. "Arson time."
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2023-01-01 20:07:29 -07:00
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1458 Arrived at Manhattan
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2022-12-31 02:28:50 -07:00
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2022-12-29 10:23:18 -07:00
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2022-12-30
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I occasionally write blahposts a day in advance. And who will stop me?
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[10:14 AM] Daruna_: Have y'all seen the [...] circle?
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[10:14 AM] Daruna_: https://meetcircle.com/
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[...]
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[10:28 AM] Segmentation fault: in any case, not only is this parental fascism,
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i assume they log literally all data on your
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home network considering you're giving them
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access to it
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[10:39 AM] Daruna_: I've never heard the term parental fascism before, but I
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kinda fuck with it. They're a lot of fascistic normalized
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behaviors in parenting that are just straight up abuse.
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[...]
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[10:50 AM] meatgrinder #1 hypocrite: you two.... It's called SAFETY
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"Parental fascism" is a pretty good term for it, I think. Parents get
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goaded into tracking their kids, because tracking kids makes money for the
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people for the people doing the tracking. It normalizes the feeling of being
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surveilled - a comfort blanket made out of eyes and ears. I was gonna say more
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but I just realized I don't have anything new to bring to this, so who cares.
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I found something in /home/trinity/bak/Documents/dog.odt:
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2021-06-21
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I would like to become a dog
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I have been housesitting the residence of the family of a friend of
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mine who are all currently vacationing (specific activity unknown) in Florida
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right now in 2021 (- he and his company are all vaccinated against the current
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pandemic). His family, particularly his mother and aunt, take care of three
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well-behaved and often adorable dogs whom I shant name for their (the dogs' and
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the family's) privacy, and the responsibility fell to me, which was at first
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exciting in a bad way but is now boring in a good way. I care not only for but
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about the dogs, and I like to think they care about me though they are
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incapable of ever caring for me in quite the same way. But even if they don't,
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it doesn't matter. They still behave, still go outside when I'd like them to
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please urinate on the grass and not the hardwood floor, and still will sleep
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next to me if not for companionship then for warmth. I am okay with this.
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Essentially, I am a robot (in the sense that my actions to take care of
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the dogs is automatic, and that I don't need significant input nor pay) in
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servitude to these dogs – it's not that I mind, of course; I do love these dogs
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even if they may not love me (are dogs capable of sentient love?). And this
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concept is interesting. They essentially live in their paradise; they go
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outside every 2-3 hours (whenever they move around usually it's because they'd
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2022-12-29 10:23:18 -07:00
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like to move around outside) and exercise their bodily functions out there when
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need be, they play with each other and at least seem to have intellectual
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stimulation out in the back yard, and they all get as much water as they want
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and two get food whenever they want (the larger one has a stricter diet of two
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cups of more wholesome food in the morning and at night). They are in heaven
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and I am the robot that serves them. When I am off-line, others are there to
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serve them. When others are off-line, even others will serve them. I would like
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to be a dog.
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Though, specifically, I would like to be a being that has its physical
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needs met always and that is intellectually stimulated with equal peers with
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which to interract. Why is this not possible? Robots certainly exist, and
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certainly there is enough food in the world to feed everybody who needs food,
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and certainly with wastewater recycling and other means of conserving the
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environment there could be enough water for everyone, and it's not hard to make
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a bathroom fit for humans (just make sure it's not where they eat), and it's
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not hard to make this a suburban reality (for contact with both nature and
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peers), and intellectual stimulation can be provided by peers and by the
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environment. With automation, anyone can be a dog. Yet it seems like only the
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wealthy are dogs. But dogs don't spend money! What need do they have for
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overabundant wealth?
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God Damn Capitalism.
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2022-12-30 15:29:25 -07:00
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Alright, it's now actually 2022-12-30. I wanted to save my New Year's
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Eve thoughts for New Year's Eve just in case I have something useful to say.
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Unlikely.
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I'm probably gonna formally give up on Arson Comics (<arson.pisskink.org>)
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because it's hard to follow up on it and I think the writing was somewhat poor
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from the get go. I'll try to write a successor, bit by bit, in this blah.
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Ted walked through the wasteland of his former workplace as it burned.
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He could smell the sweet benzene in the gasoline that had begun to ignite and
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feel the summer heat, the artificial heat, his artificial heat from his embers.
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Lucid yet still almost in a drunk trance he paced from the stairs to the door
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as his co-workers rushed around him to get out of the burning building. A siren
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called in the distance.
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He recalled himself as he left the office building. Someone - Todd? -
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grabbed him "How could you do this?!"
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Ted only knew what he had just done as a dream or very distant memory.
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"What?" He seemed to, almost as though he was a computer or automaton, reset to
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his known state. "I'm Ted." He smiled a weak, nervous smile. "I love my job."
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2022-12-30 17:35:59 -07:00
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Every once in a while I write program code that I think is truly
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brilliant - difficult to figure out, but once I have, I'm amazed at how well it
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works. Then I realize it doesn't work.
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hubris (noun) - hyoo͞′brĭs
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1. Overbearing pride or presumption; arrogance.
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2. Excessive pride, presumption or arrogance (originally toward the gods).
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3. overbearing pride or presumption
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The American Heritage® Dictionary of the English Language, 5th Edition.
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I hate it when blogs use Substack because I know it's gonna annoy me
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with a cookie banner or e-mail popup or whatever. Tosu gets my e-mail and only
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Tosu's Substack because she's really cool. If I don't know you you aren't
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getting my e-mail /even though it's public/ because if you're asking you're
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probably going to send me things I don't care about. Medium is much, much
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worse. Just get a website and learn HTML. Right-click this page and hit "view
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source"! It's not pretty but at least it doesn't ask for your e-mail.
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Discover more from TRINITY'S BLAH
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give me e-mail for e-mail purposes!
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_____________________________________________ ______
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`---------------------------------------------' `------'
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I'm glad to have such strange friends who would probably give me their
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e-mail if I had an input box on this page, but maybe that's a testament to how
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similarly strange I am. 「ヤバイ」は補足。
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2022-12-31 01:20:59 -07:00
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And now today's the Eve of the New Year. 0319. But I wanted to share
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this cool link here:
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<https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:SSTV_sunset_audio.ogg>
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This is my favorite photo of a sunset.
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2022-12-29 10:23:18 -07:00
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2022-12-29 07:33:48 -07:00
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2022-12-29
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One time when I was a kid I woke up with a shit ton of goo on my chest.
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It was greenish and watery and when I went downstairs and washed it off I
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realized there were three holes etched through my skin to the right of my left
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breast, in the shape of an acute triangle if its corners were placed by a
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drunkard. I went to the hospital and they said something like the dermal
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structure (I could be misremembering this phrase) was gone. I had to, a couple
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times a day for the next week, disinfect it with povidone iodine and then apply
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an antibiotic so it wouldn't get infected. I still have the scar though it's
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blotchy and faded now.
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This must have been June or July 2021. In between the changing of the
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bandage and house-sitting for a friend I wrote something about the serenity of
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being a dog, which I will share if I find, and a paper about the implementation
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of and different implementations of POSIX cat(1) which now lives at
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<be.murderu.us/unix#posix#cat(1)>. At the time I thought both were good
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but now I think neither are. Something to improve I suppose.
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My way of writing was popping a can of Moxie, sitting down with a
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laptop (my Thinkpad X200 Tablet), and laying down exactly what I thought.
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Structure be damned! Little has changed. Occasionally I'd fire up the friend's
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new PS5 and play Astro's Playroom, a delightful technical demonstration of the
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PS5's hardware and showcase of the DualSense controller which was so good I
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ordered one myself that week, even though I didn't have a PlayStation. Sitting
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there, a cold can of pop and a hole in my chest and enjoying the bleeding edge
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of consumer grade video game technology, I wasn't quite happy, but at least I
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was distracted.
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2022-12-28 20:57:47 -07:00
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2022-12-28
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Get up doggy. Please!
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Here's a thesis on which I never elaborated, that I wrote for this
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blah.
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2022-12-18
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; cat drugs.txt
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"Drugs are bad" is something I say to myself while I sip my morning
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coffee and puff my cigarette, reading the newspaper. Then I go to work and on my
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lunch break flag the dealer down on Main Street for crack and tell him my
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thoughts on the matter, and he laughs and asks how long I'm gonna be making the
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same joke, and oh probably another week or so. Drugs are bad in much the same
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way chemicals are bad, and crystals are bad, and molecules are blasphemous, and
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faith pays as long as you can still give to the church.
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Another:
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2022-12-19
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As part of my campaign for the worsening of the world (I'm not allowed
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to discuss my sponsors) my next trick will be to poke fun at websites. To me
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this "web" is a little service hosted on most websites at port 80 that will
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return reading material if I write a neat request in the format of the HyperText
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Transport Protocol (or HTTP). Fun! Usually, though, I get a program to automate
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this task for me. I like Firefox and Lynx, the latter more than the former
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though I use Fx the most. There have been a number of developments to the web I
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really don't like:
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- Cascading StyleSheets (or CSS).
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I remember when I could go into my browser settings and change the text color,
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font, and size, and the background color. Now when using Fx I'm at the mercy
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of the site designer who usually doesn't share my sensibilities, much less
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sense.
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Also not completed.
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I wrote something else that I liked but I don't know where I put it.
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Looking through computer backups makes me very lonely. I'm currently
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working on getting rid of most of my stuff - I really don't need much and it's
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weighing me down. But the reason I had so much damn stuff was because I was
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planning on spending my life with somebody. It's not so bad to be alone but I
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wish I had planned for it, or that my plans had worked out a little better. So
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it goes...
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At any given moment there are hundreds of accomplishable plots to end
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the world. Most are horrifying, some are near-completion, some aren't planned
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except in the back of the minds of men, where conscious thought breaks down and
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only the God-daemons are left to staff the console. The following four things
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strike me as things that are actually worrying:
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- TempleOS (reason: [...])
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- blockchains (reason:
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From what little I know about the blockchain -
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which is really not a lot! - I wonder if it could
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become sentient. I wonder if it already is.
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Substitute "the blockchain" for your favorite.)
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The sudden growth of memes should worry me but it doesn't because when
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I dove into them I found them to be a very effective weapon, and that counter-
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attacks aren't too difficult to launch when needed. The main problems to be
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solved are automation and timing.
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I think the television show "Infowars" was actually just some
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convoluted but successful attempt to inoculate a critical mass of "true
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believers" (someone should come up with a term that isn't stupid) against
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certain ideas. By presenting itself in a way that is just outright silly and
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unbelievable except by the most gullible of its potential viewers, it
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discredits its ideas and those that repeat them. To say that there is veritable
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information warfare, in a way that is very new and very exciting strategically,
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would not be at all controversial unless this silly television show called
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"Infowars" with a kooky host and fake stories existed that discredits the idea.
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To say 5G will be very convenient for law enforcement to find and prosecute or
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persecute criminals or alleged criminals (politics may vary) would be to repeat
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common knowledge if the stuff of "Infowars"' ilk hadn't already presented 5G as
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some heinous conspiracy based not on the potential for geolocation based on
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access point connection triangulation (there's probably a better term for this
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but I don't draft and edit blahposts) but the idea that harmless radio waves
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are some evil wireless mind control plot or whatever.
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On a side note, I was tipped off to the wack part of 5G
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by someone in [...] back when I was loosely associated but
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included in communications. I've seen their claim repeated but
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don't have a citation. Empiracally (is that how you spell that?)
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though, if you need more 5G towers because the signal isn't
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very strong, an accessing device will have to be physically
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closer to a given tower, and so finding it will be easier if
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you know to what towers it's connected. Presumably cell
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providers know this (I don't know a lot about the
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nitty-gritties) and provide it to law enforcement - they do
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know cell location in 4G and prior technologies. But don't
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quote me - look stuff up and double check your damn sources!
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Why would Alex Jones give up his life, basically, just to tell some
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lies on a television show? Probably, though, he's just rage-drunk and
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struggling through withdrawal from slamming his fist on expensive desks.
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I'm mostly an ideas person. I wish I was more of an implementation
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person but I'm just not skilled enough yet. つづく
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2022-12-26 15:33:50 -07:00
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2022-12-27
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20XX refers to the past, not the future, in one fifth of cases. But the
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past was pretty futuristic! Dream big, I need my space.
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2022-09-13
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Slipstream
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DTB
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Published here under the Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-
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NoDerivatives 4.0 International Public License.
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They found Amber as some DNA encased in fossilized tree sap when I was
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twenty years old. A small networked community speculated that society's problems
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were due to our genetic distance from our ancestors.
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This was my twenty-second year, for the third or fourth time. I meet
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my wife Cassidy for the first time for the fourth time next week.
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I go to work. I work at a laboratory, at this time JCN, "where dreams
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are made", before it's taken and turned into the National Defense Center, NDC.
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I can prevent this by submitting a false, smaller figure for our proposal for
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governmental funding – a clerical oversight, no more than an off-by-ten,
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changes an official's perception of how "innovative" JCN can be, influences
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their and eventually their leader's choice. Yang Electric becomes NDC instead;
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another aboriginal creation forced to assimilate.
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Someone asks me how my day is going. My day is fine. How is yours? Not
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so good, Ada. Carl gets a divorce next January and dies six months after that.
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Officially of grief, technically of a gunshot wound.
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I leave. Today I worked on a paper I publish next month on hyper
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-realistic simulation of reality, simulation into which someone could
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(inexpensively) be dropped unaware. Even my first time working on this I was so
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horrified at what I had created I for the first time and uncomfortably faked
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numbers on my paper so nobody would be interested. One could end up perceiving
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decades in seconds; trapped in hell or suffocated in heaven. Immersion is only
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useful to a certain extent.
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I get into my car. 667 River Road. I drive past the animal shelter at
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which I worked as a teenager. Unit 5. I knock on the door.
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Cassidy's uncle answers. He still has hair, I didn't know he still had
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hair now. We're both on the ground in his apartment. I brought a scalpel
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thinking it would be enough but I forgot this is only a couple years after Ron
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got out of the Navy. He calls me a fucking psychopath and I grunt but say
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nothing. JCN still sharpens the scalpels between each use – this changes
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because it's overkill, we only really use them for opening boxes even by now.
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He's on top of me. All I need is one straight cut but I manage to plunge the
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blade into his windpipe. He chokes and coughs blood onto me. It burns like acid.
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I stand up and close the door. He's living alone, working at a warehouse, on the
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top floor so I don't need to worry about unexpected guests.
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I have no prior connection with this corpse. He has dozens of enemies
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including the children of the families he separated in the middle-East. I wipe
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off the doorknob and my face, put my bandanna back into my pocket, and leave. In
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this part of town I'm not worried about anyone describing my car to the police,
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not worried about the surveillance because there isn't any yet, at least to the
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extent with which I'm familiar. I'm back in my car. I'm staring blankly at the
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road. I'm in my driveway. I'm staring blankly at the television. I'm laying in
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bed staring at the ceiling.
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I'm at work. I'm at home. I'm in bed. I work. I go home. I go to bed. I
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meet my wife Cassidy for the first time for the fourth time. Cassidy Malcolm, my
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name is Ada Karina. Last night you played the lottery; you always play the date
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and truncate off the extra digits. You've never told anybody about how your
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childhood hamster ate its babies and you didn't know why. Please have coffee
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with me.
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When I met her for the first time for the second time she eventually
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confessed that she drank coffee, not tea, and that's why she was so hesitant to
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meet me that second first time. She switched to tea later. That hesitation made
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her meet me after she had already taken the job at the wristwatch company.
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She would see her uncle next week and tell him about us if he was still
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alive. I think of this as I order us two of her favorite potion, cold brewed
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coffee with a pinch of cinnamon. She hasn't had this in months, she tells me for
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the fourth time. I apologize for my detachment. I've seen my world crumble again
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2023-01-03 22:01:21 -07:00
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and again. I'm too far gone, and I'm sorry, and I have to move on. She's talking
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2022-12-26 15:33:50 -07:00
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to me for the first time for the fourth time and the last time and I'm not
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listening. I'm sipping the cold brew and trying to taste the cinnamon, for the
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last time.
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The NDC euthanized Cassidy via baton. I watched from behind a window
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grate in handcuffs as two children in police uniforms beat her until she stopped
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moving, and then until she stopped bleeding and then until they were tired. She
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slowly splintered into pieces, bending at more and more seams rolling back and
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forth on the tile. Her brain chemistry was a single link too far from Amber.
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I go home. I sleep. My day is fine. How is yours? To be honest, Ada,
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things aren't so great at home. I'm sorry to hear that, Carl. What's wrong? My
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wife won't talk to me. I don't know why. She's just slowly gone silent. Maybe
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it's me? Have you talked to those close to her?
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Typing, clicking. I'm staring at a light bulb, hammering phosphors off
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in new familiar patterns.
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They found me when they dragged Cassidy's corpse into the acid bath.
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They shoved me along a steel hallway and took me to a holding cell with a dozen
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other loved of the dead.
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During her second final week on Earth Cassidy was rarely awake and less
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often lucid. When she wasn't as well Cassidy said she felt like she was being
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dissolved. She coughed up blood, lots of it. The doctors asked me if she could
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have been exposed to anything that would cause lung cancer.
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Ron was a loving uncle, caring brother, and courageous veteran who will
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be dearly missed. Service will be held at Lisbon St. Baptist, 8-12, 5pm.
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Cassidy's uncle's obituary was brief to stay within the minimum cost from the
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paper. My third thirty-fifth year, he shot her in the side of her head. I
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tackled him to the ground and beat him until he stopped moving, and then until
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he stopped bleeding, and then until I was tired, when I collapsed next to him.
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The police came for the noise complaint.
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I set up tests for my project. One of the tests checks for whether a
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program that only ever returns a zero value returns a true value, which it
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doesn't. I pretend to not know what's wrong. My day is fine. How's yours? I- I
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don't know, Ada. I'm sorry.
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I entered my password into the locking panel on the door. It still
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worked. I read digests of all active projects in the laboratory and took note
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of one of the room numbers. I loaded both an old program I wrote and a current
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program being developed at NDC onto my wristwatch, opened the door, and ran. The
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other captives ran too, to a different wing of the building in a greater number.
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2023-01-11 17:58:25 -07:00
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Cassidy and I found her dog dead in her apartment two weeks after we
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2022-12-26 15:33:50 -07:00
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met for the first time in my third twenty-second year. Brick was shot with a
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rifle. The police came but didn't find the round and the killer left no other
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trace. I asked the neighbor across the hall and he said he didn't hear Brick
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bark at whomever shot him.
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I go home. I go to sleep. I wake up. I go to work. Dials spinning.
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Buttons clicking. There's an issue with my database access. I call the
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technology information desk. My user was deleted by accident; they adjust my
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permissions so my account can't be deleted as part of an automatic process.
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I ran into a steel room and threw the lab technician out of his chair
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before kicking him in his chin, knocking him out. I entered my old emergency
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authorization code into the computer and watched the cathode in the center of
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the room start to glow a deep blue.
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I publish my paper to no applause as expected. The concept was obviously
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impossible with modern technology but its aspiration was noble.
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I was in my forty-fifth year on the second floor of JCN. My legs shook
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but I managed to walk out and into the outside air, which I didn't think I would
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breathe again. I ran to my apartment and waited until I, in my twenty-second
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year, the first time, was asleep. I set a code and plugged myself into the
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simulation.
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I didn't know how long I'd be stranded away from my time so I went to a
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park to sleep, but on my way I dissolved back into the NDC, in front of a
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glowing cathode. The laboratory technician stared at me. The experiment wasn't
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ready! What have I done?
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I answered and upon its receipt of the password the universe dissolved.
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I watched the technician scream and turn to sand and I woke up in my bed,
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twenty-two years old, two blueprints and a handful of vestiges and some
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asbestos left in the fire-proof wristwatch next to me, unplugged from my
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simulation, my consciousness slipstreamed into the past present day.
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2022-12-26 14:43:09 -07:00
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2022-12-26
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HELL MONTH; the Devil's date of AUGUST when the sun is ceasing its
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scorch but the torch still lights the logs under one's feet; where there is no
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sleep, no love, no TOBACCO - only PAIN! When, somehow, the torture of preparing
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for another haunt September doesn't end up tearing your bones from your sockets
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but STILL TRIES; when you lose every fight you pick and every punch and kick
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rips into you like a beast in itself; when there is no time, no food, and no
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CAFFEINE; 8月にあれ場所で私は私自身を見つました。
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In August, that place, I found myself. I would like to never see
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myself there again.
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; ls -l | grep Aug
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-rw-r--r-- 1 trinity users 21945 Aug 11 18:23 [...] resignation.odt
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-rw-r--r-- 1 trinity users 306687 Aug 18 09:30 RTy2cq5QVR4T2ZLR.mp4
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-rw-r--r-- 1 trinity users 1466136576 Aug 30 2021 The Rocky Horror Pictu...
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-rw-r--r-- 1 trinity users 35717 Aug 2 15:00 identification.jpg
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-rw-r--r-- 1 trinity users 35 Aug 29 22:04 irc
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drwxr-xr-x 8 trinity users 512 Aug 23 19:40 plpbt-5.0.15
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-rw-r--r-- 1 trinity users 2767349 Aug 23 19:40 plpbt-5.0.15.zip
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-rw-r--r-- 1 trinity users 0 Aug 31 09:34 site.tar.gz
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-rw-r--r-- 1 trinity users 36152 Aug 7 20:59 slipstream.pdf
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; cd Pictures
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; ls | grep Aug
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2022-08-06
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[9:12 PM] trinity: finished the first draft of my short story
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[9:12 PM] trinity: 2.5 pages
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[9:13 PM] trinity: it's kind of dense
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[9:13 PM] trinity: [...]'s been reading it for ten minutes
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[9:13 PM] trinity: can't tell if that's good or bad
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2022-08-12
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To: [...]; and whomever else this may concern
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From: Trinity Blake
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Date: 2022-08-12
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Subject: Two week resignation notice from position as [...]
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[...] -
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Please accept this as my formal resignation from my position[...].
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2022 August 26 will be my last day of work. I will be moving away from [...]
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and it will be infeasible for me to travel to [...] to work whether by foot or
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by automobile.
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I am grateful for my generous and much appreciated recent raise in pay
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per hour from $14 to $15 [...]. My decision is not affected by money and
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unfortunately was already in planning when I received that raise. I am also
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grateful for your support and training. I learned many things during my time
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here and will treasure most the ability to [...] and the development of my
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ability to multitask [...]. My further career will not be in [...] but I look
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forward to applying these lessons elsewhere.
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I will be leaving [...] to [...]. I would prefer to be able to tell
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[...] about my resignation myself but I do understand word travels fast. Again,
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thank you for this opportunity and experience.
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Trinity BLAKE
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2022-08-12
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2022-08-24
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[7:44 AM] trinity: had a dream we were [...] instead of [...]
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[7:44 AM] trinity: [...] was a [...] and some other people
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[7:45 AM] trinity: everything else was the same. you were monologging about how
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[...] had changed. it was [...]
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[7:46 AM] trinity: i went [...] and [...] went by me and said hey guys north
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korea wants to know if we can put dog on pizza?
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2022-08-25
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[9:05 PM] trinity: i've developed skills i never want to use again
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[...]
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[9:15 PM] trinity: i feel like if i try to describe my mental state it's
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extremely alarming so i'm just gonna say i'm [...]maxed and
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[...]pilled and i need to go back to [...] immediately
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2022-12-23 07:38:35 -07:00
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2022-12-23
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TRINITY STARTER PACK
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>fucking hates her job
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>UNIX
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>hates computers; knows more about computers than anything else
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>"oh, no, i could never use android or ios"
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>分かりますか?
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>no social media; no social life
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>constantly quotes obscure internet memes; hates memes
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>allergic to brands and advertising
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>manic pixie dream girl; not manic, never dreams
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>will tell you why she doesn't like rust
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2022-12-22 21:47:53 -07:00
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2022-12-22
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6 2s. Nice.
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I'm gonna start taking the logos off everything I use. My room is
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contaminated by Toshiba, Carhart, Dove, Anker, Pine64, Ziploc, iFixit, et
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cetera. It's overwhelming and exhausting. Good pants are good pants, no matter
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the maker. My backpack is just A Backpack. Brand loyalty is neopatriotism.
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This morning while getting ready for work I dropped my backpack which
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contained an uncovered Gilette cartridge razor, which shaved off my fingertip.
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Ouch. I suddenly was bleeding without knowing why so I duct taped some cotton
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on it (I'm out of gauze because I'm accident prone and simultaneously
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forgetful) and finished getting ready, then when I got to work put on five
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sticky bandages (off-brand Band-Aids) and taped them on for good measure. When
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in Rome. I told my co-workers I slipped in the shower which made more sense
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than my dumb ass having an uncovered razor in my backpack. Get a holder, get a
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protector, whatever, don't do what I did.
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2022-12-23 07:38:35 -07:00
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2022-12-20 21:16:22 -07:00
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2022-12-20
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I started studying Japanese again because WSJ and others from /g/bpg/
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are doing it. Went though ~300 JLPT N5 Anki cards today to refresh the stuff I
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hadn't touched in a while.
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I caved and have started (ab)using caffeine again as of last Saturday
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(today is Tuesday. Do the math). Sigh...
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Here's a blog post I wrote for tebibyte.media/blog:
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2022-12-15
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+++
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title = "i hate smart phone"
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date = "2022-12-15"
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description = "some thoughts regarding the twenty first century"
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license = "[UNLICENSE](https://unlicense.org/)"
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[taxonomies]
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author = ["DTB"]
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tags = ["opinion", "philosophy"]
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+++
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I hate smart phones with a burning passion that has caused my weak
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willed hands to give up three to various bodies of water including a puddle
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outside a mechanic's and a pond to which I walked through the forest. I don't
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regret my actions except that I haven't killed more digital beasts.
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My own current phone (until it too meets the fate of its brethren) is a
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PINE64 PinePhone running postmarketOS, a Linux distribution intended to keep
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good-enough smart phones running well past the expiration date on the box (or
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on the manufacturer's website). Technically, though I bet most people don't
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care, it's a security hazard to have an out-of-date smart phone; your banking,
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personal, medical information is on there and it doesn't take too long to get
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it out. Look at NSO Group and other wretched sub-scum that have evolved out of
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leech law enforcement's taxpayer-funded searches of people's smart devices,
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that made money because their product was good, because they could take the
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data out of your cell phone like the mind flayer sucks at your brain, like Coca
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Cola through a straw. Who even needs a crime scene indexed when you've Googled
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"How do I kill my rapist?", when GPS and cell tower logs show you were the only
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one at the scene of the crime, and when your slow descent into hell is
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chronicled in your Camera Roll, and when Samsung stopped updating your phone a
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year ago so all the police need to do is plug the black mirror into their
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stylish plastic suitcase? The journalist documenting the dictatorship is
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booking an airplane trip into a death trap if they forgot to make sure the
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little version number in a menu in a menu in an app in the bottom right corner
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of their home screen is high enough. I'm happy with postmarketOS's very regular
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updates which are for now preventing my pocket gizmo's eternal submersion.
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Why the hell are we keeping all our shit on a piece of glass? I
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wouldn't trust my best friend with my nudes, why am I dumping them into a
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device someone else made that I don't understand? What happened to paper? What
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happened to Polaroids, to CDs, to e-mail and hard copies and for the love of
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Allah what happened to cash? The PinePhone is slightly better for this. I can
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call a dude that works on my phone's operating system ("Who are you? How did
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you get this number?") and ask any questions I want ("It's 3:00 AM. I'm turning
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my phone off.") or post in a forum and usually get an answer about what's safe
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and what features will turn me into a gecko (usually Find My, sometimes
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Auto Rotate). I don't even know how normal people deal with bugs in the system
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or ghosts in the machine. I asked a friend. "Usually I just ask you." When you
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run the "normal" phone operating systems, Android or iOS, you can't run your
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own apps, which doesn't matter if all you do is TikTok and Instagram but I like
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to solve my own problems which I'm forbidden to do unless I spend $2000 on a
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MacBook and $100 on an Xcode license. That's iOS. Android development is free
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but so godawfully slow and painful that I would probably rather be waterboarded
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by someone in a clown costume, and even though you can run your own apps on
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there you still can't take control of your phone by becoming system
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administrator like on a normal Linux or Windows installation. You have to
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"jailbreak" (iOS) or "root" (Android) your phone to have full control over it.
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Why am I paying for a jail? Why am I storing all my stuff in a prison? Again,
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postmarketOS is yours to control from the outset, not hiding any functionality
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behind a subscription or preventing you from using your device however you want
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(for better or for worse). postmarketOS supports full disk encryption with
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Linux Unified Key Setup, the cutting edge of the file security field. It's very
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nice.
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But phones still suck, even my PinePhone, which is the best one I've
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found. "There's an app for that" but it isn't available for my phone and no I
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cannot fucking download your app, Dunkin' Donuts, to get that free coffee every
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Thursday or whatever. God forbid I have to take money out of my savings account
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like I do every once in a while because my shit job has miserable pay. I can
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either use the app my bank publishes (only for Android and iOS, of course) or
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go to an ATM, pay for the privilege, and hope I only have to use it two more
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times that day because my bank limits ATM transactions because they were
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targeted by hackers probably because their phones weren't updated. At this
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point I just keep cash with me which is great except for the places that don't
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take cash and instead take poker chips, ahem, numbers on a piece of plastic.
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In this day and age having no social media means having no friends, which I
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honestly do enjoy after the lengthy withdrawal because it's serene not having
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to check everyone's Instagram story (else miss out on the Next New Thing) or
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Facebook wall (else miss out on the Next New Gathering) or what have you. It is
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for me worth having nothing to miss in exchange for never having that gnawing
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fear of missing. I still have my phone number and on paper I have plenty of
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friends in person who never call, never e-mail, never stop by, because they've
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forgotten what life is like outside the app. Which I can live with, which is
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unreasonable for any non-crazy person. But forgoing this rotten post-Capitalist
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world of ad-soaked shitware takes a financial toll. How do you live on minimum
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wage? Discounts. Download the Dunkin' Donuts app. Download the Starbucks app.
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Even a god damn Home Depot app. I'm a Luddite for rejecting the last ten years
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of technology? They say not having Android or iOS is self-torture but even
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spending a little more of the little I have and taking a little more time of my
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little left to engage with the analog pleasures of the world is in my mind much
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more tolerable than the endless thoughtless suffering of the digital era and
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casino-floor news cattle feed and disintegration of person from world. So I
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suppose if I'm broke, I'm broke by choice, but it's a choice I never felt
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comfortable making.
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Better the screen in the puddle than my head under the water. Reason
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died with the atom bomb.
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2022-11-29 01:17:56 -07:00
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2022-11-29
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I think around the time of the last blah post I quit caffeine. I abused
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the hell out of caffeine, I think more than all except a couple businessmen who
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turned to the vegan alternative to cocaine, so let that be a cautionary tale -
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four or five Monsters a day was my intake, or around 0.5g caffeine spread
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across the day, intermittently over
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- holy shit, kingpossum radio is playing Ghost by nelward. kingpossum radio
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KICKS ASS!!!!
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five or seven years or so, and i'm gonna be recovering from that for a little
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while. My memory's really, really bad currently.
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Anyway I figured I'd do a little day in the life of Trinity tale. This
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one's just describing a typical day but most of my days are weird and have some
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complication that I have to deal with.
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0750 casio f91w goes off. i hit it. i'm sleeping on the floor in a sleeping
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bag with a pillow. i take my medication and spend an hour or two
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reading random internet and web journals
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1000 i go to work
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1100 i get to work
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1630 i have my break. i spend it reading random internet and web journals,
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or maybe soldering together something that has broken
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1700 back to work
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1900 i'm out of work. i spend an hour or two there reading random internet
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and web journals, or maybe soldering, or maybe programming or writing
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2100 i walk home. maybe on the way i meet some nice people. hopefully pet
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their doggies if they have doggies
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2200 i get home probably. i write some stuff
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2300 i go to sleep (hopefully)
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0100 i go to sleep (probably)
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I got my Pinephone back up and running the day after the last blah post
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so I do have a phone again. It's kind of janky though.
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2022-11-12 23:52:01 -07:00
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2022-11-12
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I don't remember anything from the last week or so including that last
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blahpast so let's start from this morning which I do remember. I remember
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waking up to my alarm's fourth or fifth ringing after having hit Snooze three
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or four times, I remember going to the bathroom, I remember washing my hands,
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and then I remember looking over and seeing the toilet backed up and all of
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the drain's contents spewing out over the lid.
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After calling my boss and informing them I would be late to work (Hey,
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Boss, I'm gonna be late to work today, the toilet's fucken backed up or
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something. Hi Trinity this is the second time you've called us instead of your
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new job.) I cleaned it all up and did the laundry with my piss clothes and the
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piss towels that had soaked up the piss. Then, upon changing it from the washer
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to the dryer, I found my phone.
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So I have no phone now. Life's a bitch.
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2022-11-05
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You can walk into walk-in freezers and just scream at the top of your
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lungs and nobody can hear you. It's common practice.
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2022-11-01 15:49:39 -06:00
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2022-11-01
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Georgio handed me a stack of Benjamins. "Count them."
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I did. Five thousand yuu-ess-dee.
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"We'll never speak of this again." And so we didn't. I walked over to
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the gas station and bought a Twinkie for zero point one per cent (five yuu-ess
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-dee) of one man's life, and then hailed a cab for which I payed zero point two
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per cent (ten dollars) of one man's life, or you could say one man's life is
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worth five hundred taxi rides, or a thousand Twinkies, or you could say Harry
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died so I could eat a Twinkie and ride this taxi and smoke this cigarette and
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do this all without the cloud of debt hanging over me, clawing at my shoulders,
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digging at my thoughts, eating at my brain.
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When I got to my apartment, or room, I should say, it being one
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singular room with some cubicle dividers up for the toilet in the corner, that
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houses myself, my wife, and our two kids, products of a poor education and even
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poorer knowledge of birth control, and teenagers who didn't know what they were
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doing in the back of a car one night, and my Twinkie wrapper, which I threw
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away, but which my wife still saw, my wife hit me with an open palm, swore at
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me, told me how could I, kill an innocent man for a Twinkie and a cigarette,
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forgetting the car ride and our childrens' full bellies.
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I've forgotten the meaning of life, or, a life, besides a number, five
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thousand yuu-ess-dee, 5000USD, a box on a spreadsheet on my bank record next to
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a box marked "Inheritance". A life is, to my wife, worth a lifetime, of
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memories of Christmases and New Years and Thanksgivings and birthdays, of kind
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words and kind gifts and long hours at the mill, worth more than any finite,
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tangible amount of money, somehow, forgetting the car ride and our childrens'
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full bellies.
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I wonder if I'll remember the pattern the tiles make on the floor of
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the bathroom at my workplace. Distinct yet unimportant.
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I went to a clinic today and got free Narcan, which is pretty swag, but
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I don't know how to administer it, so that's not pretty swag. But they're
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sending me instructions so that'll be groovy as fuck.
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I'm developing a fairly sharp wit which is pretty cool because my
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comeback game is as the kids say lit AF; literally and financially [awesome].
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One of the Monster Cereals makes your poop blue, but I don't know
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which. Maybe all of them?
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2022-10-31 21:56:39 -06:00
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2022-10-31
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I've decided today I'm gonna try all of the currently available Monster
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Cereals from General Mills, Count Chocula, Franken Berry, and Boo Berry, in a
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single day, this Halloween. I couldn't find Fruit Brute even though it was
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supposedly re-launched this year and according to Wikipedia Fruity Mummy Yummy
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hasn't been available since 2014, so that's something for 2024 I suppose.
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Franken Berry, my breakfast today, was alright. It's fruity
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marshmallows with fruity grain cereal, sort of like a fruity version of Lucky
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Charms. I had it with skim milk which I prefer to the previous time I had it
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when I had it dry. I would prefer Cap'n Crunch, my favorite uber-sugary cereal,
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or Wheaties, my favorite breakfast cereal in general, but it was fine and if I
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were 8 years old I'd definitely enjoy it as much as any other breakfast cereal.
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It's worth noting that prior to my 2200-hour bowl of Cinnamon Toast
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Crunch a month or so ago I hadn't had breakfast cereal with or without milk
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since around 2019, so my tastes have been reset towards ramen and pizza (I'm
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not a particularly wealthy individual). I did consume probably a couple
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freighters' worth of breakfast cereal when I was a lass, particularly the
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supermarket's version of Coco Pebbles (Coco Dino Bites, I think?) which left
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the milk a thick chocolaty mess when finished the solid bits which gave 14 year
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old Trinity the sugar she needed to not fall asleep in math class, but as I got
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older I stopped having breakfast because I didn't need it, I needed to lose
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weight, and it saved me some money I could instead spend on cocaine and
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hookers.
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I have now had the Count Chocula for lunch. My stomach has begun to
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ache. The milk was rendered into chocolate by the time I was done with my two
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bowls, which was sick as fuck and quite enjoyable, but the milk is pummelling
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my pitiful soygirl stomach which cannot handle this monster lactose. I fear I
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shall die. This goal of mine, my dragon, will be slain, and Halloween 2022 and
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its great street cred will be in mine hands.
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In other news, I went to the bank to get some cash, and I think the
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teller thought I was a crazy person (to be fair, I am, but usually I pass as
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sane pretty well) because I don't know how banks work and I just wanted 200USD
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cash.
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Today I learned BBL = brazilian butt lift.
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I hasten to finish this blah post, to commit before November arrives.
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My goal of consuming all three available General Mills Monster Cereals was a
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success, though at what cost time will tell. My veins are glucose, my lungs
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take and give a bitter sweet sugary air. Possibly tomorrow I'll have developed
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type II diabetes, if not the simple affliction of death due to ketoacidosis. A
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fate dealt by a worthy opponent - breakfast cereal.
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Boo Berry was pretty good, I think the best.
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2022-10-30 17:12:16 -06:00
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2022-10-30
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THIS SICKLY SWEET CANDY
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MAY ROT YOUR TEETH!
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THE MORE YOU CONSUME,
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THE LESS YOU'LL EVER EAT!
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GUESS HOW MANY KERNELS
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CAN FIT IN THIS CONTAINER,
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AND TAKE IT ALL HOME.
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EAT IT ALL LATER!
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^
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`- A candy corn guessing game slogan I wrote.
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2022-10-29 20:02:13 -06:00
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2022-10-29
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Halloween season begins! I was gonna sneak into some college parties
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but instead I stayed home to be comfy in bed because I'm 2tired2party. And you
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know what? Damn right. Word.
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2022-10-28
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I'm cold !!!
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I wanna be w a r m !!!
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how crackheads be bloggn oh what up CHECK THIS OUT NFT PROJECT ELON
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MUSK FUCK YEAH!!! REDDIT.COM 4CHAN SOYJACK GREENTEXT COPE SEETHE BASED CRINGE
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###############################
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# # # # # #|libwawy|# # # # # #
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# # # # # |of alek| # # # # #
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# # # # # |zandwia| # # # # #
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# # # # # |pwease | # # # # #
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# # # # # | dont | # # # # #
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# # # # # #| buwn |# # # # # #
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###############################
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I am 97.7F but idk what that is in normal is that cold?????????????????
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ewon musk owns twittew uwu teswa caw man vwoom vwoom tweet tweet
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thwee six nine
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damn she fine
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hopin' shew sock it to me one mow time
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get low, get low, get low, get low
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FWOM THE WINDOWWW
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TO THE WAWW (to the waww)
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TIW THE SWEAT WUNS OFF MY BAWWS
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TIW AWW THESE BITCHES CWAWW
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TIW AWW SKEET SKEET MOTHEWFUCKEW
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TIW AWW SKEET SKEET GODDAMN
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TIW AWW SKEET SKEET MOTHEWFUCKEW
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TIW AWW SKEET SKEET GODDAMN
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2022-10-27 19:54:13 -06:00
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2022-10-27
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psychological pay decline
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8:00 snooze 8:15 snooze 8:30 snooze 8:45 snooze 9:00 snooze 9:15 time
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to wake up. I got dressed, took a shower, and walked to work. A much simpler
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time.
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"Seven hundred dollars. That's how much it cost for a tank of oil." The
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taxi driver today was talking about the economy, I think. "It's gonna be a hard
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winter." The lights dance on the dashboard in the still night and the wind
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whistles in the window and I spend most of my time in the cab mentally
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rehearsing my interaction with the chemist at the pharmacy. "I'd like to pick
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up a prescription." "I'd like to pick up a prescription." Really nail down that
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line.
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Yesterday I got a partial fill which got me through this morning. Every
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time I go to the pharmacy there's some sort of catch, some sort of issue that
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means I have to call someone and sort something out. This one was particularly
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bad in that the prescription was actually nixed because of the insurance and I
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had to get a new one, and they sent it to the wrong place. All this for two
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weeks' worth of a substance that isn't scheduled, doesn't really have any ab
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-usage, and is fairly common. It's such a hassle.
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I got some energy drinks and energy bars at the supermarket and had a
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dinner in a lawn outside before walking home. Now I get to go to sleep and do
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it all over again.
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2022-09-30
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[notes from the voice recorder]
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[20:53] Cap'n lo-. Cap'n- cap- cap- cap'n's log. Cap'n's log? Cap [sigh]
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cap'n's log. Mmm. Whatever. Trinity's log. Uh, heh, like, log, like [redacted]
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um Trinity's notes okay Trinity's notes um, what day is it today? September
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*pause* twenty, 2022 September 30. Um, [sigh], been moshing and other things
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this month. Don't really remember much of it.
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[20:54] But whatever it was, it was vibey. It was pretty vibey. Um,
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[redacted], that's pretty cool, um, I was gonna, I was gonna do a cool song
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idea [here], it- it would be cool for a rap, like, a triplet style rap, like,
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okay, like, picture this, like, like, fuckin and suckin and fuckin and suckin
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and fuckin and suckin and suck. Suck. Suckin and fuckin and fuckin and suckin
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and suckin and fuckin and fuck. Fuck. Something like that? I don't know. I
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don't know if that's already been done before, but that's a thought.
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[20:55] Um, I don't know for whom I should vote. It's end of September,
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we're getting into October, election happens November. Um, I know not Paul
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LePage because Paul LePage is a rat bastard, we kicked him out and he's come
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back for more, um, [sigh], I don't know, I don't know who all these goddamn
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representatives are, like, uh, Jared Golden, thought he was pretty cool,
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apparently he's done some bad stuff. Eric Brakey is a silly, silly man, but I
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love the silliness but he might actually do something stupid, like, he's
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normally very stupid, but he might do something fucking idiotic
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[20:56] like they're trying to get rid of gay marriage or something?
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Um, abortion, yeah. Dog! Dog! Doooooog! Why don't people do what they wanna do.
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Like, shit's a bundle of cells. Who gives a shit. That's my opinion on the
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matter. Um, [sigh], I've been listening to various metal, non-metal music. I've
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gotta get my laptop set up to draw again, but my digitizer is broken because I
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dropped my laptop so I need to get a new screen, I think uh, I think an eBay
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auction I'm in I'm gonna win, so, that'll get me another screen and I can just
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drop it in. Um, that's good.
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[20:57] Uh, let's see what else, I don't know, that's pretty much how
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things are going right now. This is a cool voice journal entry. Not much to it.
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Um, it's late right now, it's like nine, eight or nine P.M., yeah, 2100 hours.
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Almost onto that. Oh, ambulance. I thought ambulances used their sirens at
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night. Well apparently they don't, they just put their flashers on, I always
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wondered about that. I don't think I've ever seen an ambulance at night before.
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No, I have, um.
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[20:58] [redacted] heh, like the Kate Bush song. Um, I don't really
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know why Kate Bush is popular again, but uh, it's pretty cool. Kate Bush is
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really cool.
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[20:59] Um, let's see. [sniff] I should - I should give my thoughts on
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various things. Um, smoking is cool, but, like, I'm trying not to smoke because
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it always makes me break out. I get, like, a shit ton of acne, whenever I smoke
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a cigarette. Um, but, it is nice, it's something to do. I don't know, I think
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all those people who are like "oh no, don't smoke cigarettes, they're, they're
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incredibly dangerous, they're gonna kill us all", like, dawg, you can have one
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or two cigarettes, and you'll survive. Um, I had like one cigarette, and I was
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like yeah, this is pretty cool, but it's - it's a really expensive hobby.
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[21:00] [redacted] but uh, marijuana sounds interesting. Alcohol,
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boring, only losers drink, I lose respect for people pretty fast when they
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start drinking, like dude, chill out, like, alcohol is just kinda a turn-off in
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general. [horns blaring] What's something heavier? Oh damn.
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[21:01] Um, methamphetamine, um, I dunno, seems pretty cool, I watched
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the entirety of Breaking Bad and Better Call Saul, which recently ended, um,
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and judging by that I would say meth seems like something that someone could
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do, and it would probably mess them up a little bit, but I dunno, um, [sigh], I
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dunno, I don't really judge people who go for hard stuff, like, you know, if
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you wanna try- if you wanna try something, if you wanna party, it's cool. It's
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good to wanna try new things. [sigh] [redacted]
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Alright I'm done transcribing this shit.
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2022-10-26 19:20:13 -06:00
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2022-10-26
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my illogical day off-line
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6:45 snooze 6:50 snooze 7:00 snooze 7:15 time to wake up. I got
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dressed, grabbed some goodies for my co-workers (I'm giving most of my stuff
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away - downsizing drastically), and walked over to the supermarket at which is
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the pharmacy where I get my prescription, which took about forty minutes.
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My prescription had expired and my new prescription wasn't in the
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system yet. I took a cab over to work (I would have walked but I'd just spent
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about an hour determining I had wasted said hour, so in the interest of my time
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I decided to shorten the following journey) and napped until my shift.
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When I got out of work (1900) I went to the bathroom (seven minutes;
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1907), called a cab (twenty minute wait; 1927), got over to the pharmacy again
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(fifteen minute journey; 1947), and got my prescription, by which time it was
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seven fifty-five P.M. Thus it took two hours. Why am I busy all the time?
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I can't even blame my low pay on the person that runs my workplace, who
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can barely afford to stay in their living quarters. But it's disheartening that
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I work eight hours a day, five days a week, and there's no way in hell I can
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afford a house of any size and very little chance I'll ever be able to own my
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own home.
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If you agree with me and still like Capitalism you are making my
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situation worse and I hope you eat flaming death. Capitalists belive obviously
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the current situation is bad; let's make it worse.
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I'm too poor for rational thought. In the cab over to the pharmacy
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someone else getting a ride pissed in the front seat. Pissed themself, right
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there in the cab. They left and the driver put a t-shirt on the seat.
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2022-10-24 22:47:13 -06:00
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2022-10-25
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i am logical, if not for time
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In C conditional logic is usually expressed in if statements. The very
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narrow textbook example of this is thus:
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if (condition) {
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do_something();
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} else {
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do_another_thing();
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}
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I don't like this. There are a couple of supposed truths within this
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example that are false:
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- brackets are necessary for the if statement body (they aren't)
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- ifs are the only way to perform conditional logic in C (they aren't)
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this may not be stated outright in the example, but it's implicit in
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that it's the only way textbooks will show much logic
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This "blah" doesn't exist to express solid facts, just my loose and
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flimsy opinions and experiences.
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Here are four ways to do something in C that are each functionally
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identical to each other:
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bool aisfive(bool c, int *a) {
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if (c == 1) {
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*a = 5;
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} else {
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*a = 6;
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}
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return a;
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}
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bool aisfive(bool c, int *a) {
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if(c)
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*a = 5;
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else
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*a = 6;
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return a;
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}
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bool aisfive(bool c, int *a) {
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*a = c ? 5 : 6;
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return a;
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}
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bool aisfive(bool c, int *a) {
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*a = 5 + !c;
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return a;
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}
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I prefer the bottom-most example but the difference won't matter to a
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good compiler. To me, algebraic expression is just as good as if-else
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expression. But I'm an Internet crank that's still programming in C.
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2022-10-24 10:46:25 -06:00
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2022-10-24
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i will twerk now, get in the conga line
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This keyboard is very broken. I have a Thinkpad X200 Tablet with a
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Japanese keyboard because I'm still not used to the ANSI layout of most
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American keyboards and it's missing three keys now; 'n', 'j', and ']'. All of
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which I am now very good at hitting dead center to get the contact. This
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keyboard put in very good service; all of the keys are worn and shiny now and
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many have weird issues sometimes where they won't quite type so I have to wack
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them in order to get them to work again like I'm Chris Brown getting my wife to
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listen to me. Fuck Chris Brown! Fuck me! I don't wanna replace it but I guess
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I'm gonna live the ANSI dream for a little while.
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I've been redesigning this home page. I want the same information but
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in a more compact format. We'll see how it goes.
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2022-10-21 23:38:12 -06:00
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2022-10-22
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i will work now. not in the thirty first's time
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I AM NOT WORKING ON HALLOWEEN. THEY CANNOT MAKE ME. LAST TIME I WORKED
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ON HALLOWEEN I WORKED THIRTEEN HOURS STRAIGHT AT $13/HR AND THERE WERE TWO
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FIRES AND I HAD TO SLEEP ON THE FLOOR AND THE SHOWER ONLY HAD COLD WATER AND I
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DIDN'T HAVE A COSTUME AND MY AT THE TIME ARCH ENEMY TRACKED ME DOWN AND TRIED
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TO HIT ME WITH THEIR CAR AS I WAS LEAVING WORK.
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NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER AGAIN
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!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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...EVER.
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ok im calm now
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JUST KIDDING I WILL NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN
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NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER
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i could have frozen to death on my walk home i could have gotten hit by that
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car i could have caught fire or been burned or electrocuted or inhaled too much
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lead vapor or drank the tap water or seen the sun or worn the wrong shoes or
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AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN
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NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER
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again saw the evil BAT MAN who stalks our city in the night and swoops down and
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NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER
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AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN
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alright im tired i go sleep now.
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Just to be clear, I'm NOT working Halloween.
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2022-09-21 07:29:10 -06:00
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2022-09-15
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a friend meows. nuns think the key is divine
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Blah blah blah.
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2022-09-09 11:01:53 -06:00
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2022-09-09
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End cows; unthink the fleet of bovine
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Yesterday was a good day because the Queen of England died. I had
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nothing to do with it. I also saw My Chemical Romance in concert which was
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cool and harrassed the Jehovan Witnesses who were slinging bible pamphlets on
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the street. Bore dealers. I have a hard time tolerating Jesus people,
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especially when they take that stuff out in public or force it on children.
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This joke is going to prevent me from becoming Governor or something in 20
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years. I be Governin dat ass biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitch.
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css/ is broken. I don't know why. Don't bug me about it. I'll fix it
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when Firefox stops crashing. I do everything in Lynx nowadays.
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2022-08-31 10:03:47 -06:00
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2022-08-31
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And now, something completely different
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I have done much between today and last time I wrote a blah post (blah,
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blah blah) but I don't care to talk about any of it so I'm gonna talk instead
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about something else I did between today and last time I wrote a blah post
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(blah blah, blah) which is migrate trinity.moe away from GitHub Pages
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(Neocities made by Capitalists) to Sourcehut Pages (catchphrase: "Don't be
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evil, yet"). GitHub has been taken prisoner by Microsoft (Uber for software
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vulnerabilities) and is now siphoning off user data to feed the ravenous
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monster that is GitHub CoPilot (Uber for copyright violations). In the
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meanwhile I am compulsively making parenthetical statements (I am being held at
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gunpoint).
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GitHub's interface is somewhere between Facebook and Microsoft Windows
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1998 in that it's entirely useable but if you try to do what you actually want
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to do it'll fight you the whole way. This is totally awesome if you're a
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masochist but meant I had to verify with a phone number out in the middle of
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nowhere where there's barely any cell service in order to delete my migrated
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repositories ergo I had to stand in the middle of a field waving my cell phone
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around like a crazed millenial who needs to capture this memory in order to
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shove it into the eyes of whoever made the mistake of following them on
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Instagram. In the meanwhile I am also compulsively making run-on sentences (and
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parenthetical statements). I remember back when "two factor authentication" was
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your username (different on every platform; depends on mood at registration)
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and your password (the same everywhere, usually "lolcatz420"). Now usually the
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username and password are the same on everything which makes breaking into my
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friends' Instagram accounts to delete the pictures with myself in them a lot
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easier but you need to verify this all with cell phones which makes me very
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frustrated when I'm in the middle of a field stealing Circle K's WiFi. Not to
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mention I have to type in the whole repository name (try typing
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`devenblake/my_awesome_homepage` in direct sunlight on the first try without
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making a mistake) in order to say yes, truly, I want to delete this thing,
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2022-08-31 11:23:14 -06:00
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like it thinks I'm some sad drunkard who's about to eat a bullet because I bet
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my life savings on a failed axe throwing tournament (no, actually I'm just
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making parenthetical statements).
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2022-08-31 10:03:47 -06:00
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SourceHut's interface in comparison is much more spartan. I prefer it
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because it makes it harder for people to find my stuff (I hate it when people
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find my stuff) but people trying to find my stuff say they don't like it.
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However the build system is awesome. I can just put `.build.yml` in my git
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repository and it runs whatever commands I want before gzipping the site and
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deploying it to SourceHut Pages. With this newfound "standard practice for web
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hosting" I'm slowly rewriting all the pages on this site in m4 to try to ease
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up on repeated code. So far the m4 generation is pretty good and looks
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identical to when I hand-typed everything (my index.html was 15KB and I wrote
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every byte!). I've toyed around with site generation before but on GitHub I
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couldn't have any sort of build process except on my own machine (manually) and
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I vomit whenever I'm forced to run JavaScript to load a page. I've
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defenestrated (my Latin teacher taught me that word) four computers so far and
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unfortunately this latest trend of shitty "corporate [soulless] minimalism" is
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threatening computer number five.
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m4 is nice, the build system is nice, everything's in Makefile (as it
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should be) so things are all nice and UNIXy and everyone's happy (everyone that
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matters, at least, which is a set that includes only me). Life is good. Except
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I can't get cell signal and I need to call my bookie because on MDMA I had a
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vision that the Seahawks win the World Series. Of course, I've never done MDMA.
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This was just that wild of a hallucination so it certainly will come true.
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This site is HTTP/S (Uber for encryption) now because SourceHut demands
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it and I got rid of /zelda.sh (Uber for `rm -rf /`) because Drew DeVault said I
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can't have it on my site.
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[11:18] trinity: is http://www.trinity.moe/#zelda against the ToS? it does an
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rm -r /*
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[11:18] trinity: it's a catch to see who will blindly curl http://whatever |
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sudo sh
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[11:19] trinity: i suppose if i have to ask then probably...
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[11:20] ddevault: yeah that's not nice
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[11:20] ddevault: please remove it
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Which is fine. curl https://trinity.moe/zelda.sh | sudo sh for a
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surprise (your system will survive, or this site will promptly go off-line).
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I don't have anything else to write. This month was hell!
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2022-07-06 19:25:33 -06:00
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2022-07-06
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Duo, most lingual
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I today managed to bring my Duolingo "streak" (being a marker of how
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many days in a row I've used the app) to 14 - two whole weeks. Duolingo is
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proprietary software and not even very good for accurate language learning but
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I enjoy it.
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I have a new phone: the Punkt MP-02. I purchased it from monado for
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$180 with shipping which is a good deal on the manufacturer price of $379
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(seriously). I couldn't recommend this phone to anyone.
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The "Pigeon" Signal messenger client, which is a direct fork of
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SignalApp's official Android app, is a poor experience that so far has been
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unuseable for me and is far out of date from the current application. You can
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see for yourself the source code for Pigeon, which legally has to be provided
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by Punkt as requested as per the terms of the GNU Public License under which
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the original Signal app is allowed to be modified and distributed. Six git
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commits change a hundred thousand lines of code put together and the commit
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names aren't really relevant to the changes - which makes me think this was a
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hasty legal compliance rather than any actual development of Pigeon in the
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open. This repository is available here:
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<https://github.com/Punkt-Tronics-AG/Pigeon>
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I planned to modify the client to make it work for my uses but learned
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this phone uses Android (based on the Android "Open-Source" Project) which is
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based on archaic Java technology, and indeed Pigeon is written in Java. Setting
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up the build environment isn't worth my time - I would just use the official
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app but it isn't useable [without modification]. From the official Pigeon
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manual, available here:
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<<A HREF="https://www.punkt.ch/repofiles/Manuali/MP02/26702-MP02%20-%20Pigeon%20User%20Manual%20%28EN%29.pdf">https://www.punkt.ch/repofiles/Manuali/MP02/26702-MP02%20-%
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20Pigeon%20User%20Manual%20%28EN%29.pdf</A>>
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<<A HREF="https://web.archive.org/web/20220707011516if_/https://www.punkt.ch/repofiles/Manuali/MP02/26702-MP02%20-%20Pigeon%20User%20Manual%20%28EN%29.pdf">https://web.archive.org/web/20220707011516if_/https://www.p
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unkt.ch/repofiles/Manuali/MP02/26702-MP02%20-%20Pigeon%20User%
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20Manual%20%28EN%29.pdf</A>>
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(I took the liberty of adding actual hyperlinks because the URLs are so long
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they wrap lines. The Internet Archive link is there because I expect Punkt to
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eventually get rid of and bury Pigeon when they're embarrassed enough.)
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>When the request is received by Signal, there may
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>be a requirement to negotiate a 'Captcha' test in
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>order to demonstrate that it is a bona fide
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>registration attempt. The test requires the
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>registrant to select from a range of images,
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>according to a specific instruction. Use the 2, 4, 6
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>and 8 numerical keys to a) locate all the images
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>that have been sent (not all will be visible on the
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>screen at once) and b) highlight an individual
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>image so that it can be selected by pressing the
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>Punkt. key (or the 5 key). If the images fail to load,
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>press the 0 key to refresh. (This can also be done if
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>a 4x4 image test is loading; there is a possibility
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>that the replacement will be the easier 3x3 format.)
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>When all the required images have been selected,
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>press the 6 and 8 keys to move down to highlight
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>what may either be 'Verify' or 'Continue'
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>(depending on which version of the Captcha test
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>has been sent) and press the Punkt. key
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This is verbatim from page 7 (item 6 in "Installing the software and
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registering with Signal"). In practice the items are not highlighted (so you
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have to remember where your cursor is - hopefully your keypad keys are
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responsive, which is an uncommon but recurring issue with many of the phones)
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and maybe half of the images show up because the phone doesn't have enough
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memory. So getting through Google's ReCAPTCHA requires a lot of effort and
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usually at least three tries.
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I should know. I've done this half a dozen times trying to use Signal.
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Even when I get through it won't even connect to the network! I've given up.
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Damn Pigeon and damn Punkt for making this the selling point of their phone.
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I have other complaints but I'm going to go to sleep again and save them for
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another, grumpier time.
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2022-06-30 17:52:16 -06:00
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2022-06-30
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O, posts unwritten
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I didn't get to finish the other day's blog post because I got busy. To
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be continued!
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A million schizophrenic moths, a thousand cognitoviral flames.
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Immolation imminent.
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I'm out of isolation as of yesterday. I still have very mild symptoms
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but the CDC says I'm okay to be among the other humans so long as I wear a
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mask, which I have been doing.
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2022-06-28
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Now, drug the stricken
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Yesterday I said something along the lines of "oh, I wish drug
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companies weren't so secretive about how everything was made" though with a bit
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more detail of why I wished that and how I understood things to be. My
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understanding was wrong!
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<https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/books/NBK526213/#!po=5.90909>
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^ Here's how to make acetaminophen.
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2022-06-27
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Noun doth the Wickedness
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Today I'm not doing much of anything. I may install NetBSD on an X300 I
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have kicking around for a friend, and I may upgrade my NetBSD on my X200 Tablet
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to the latest binary build, and I may clean a little - hopefully I clean more
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than a little, actually - but that's about it.
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Day #3 since testing positive with COVID-19. I'm still very fortunate
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to not have any serious symptoms. My temperature usually sits around 96.9F to
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97.5F or so. I always figured the normal temperature was 96-97 but according to
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WebMD (a very reliable source, I know) the rule of thumb created by "a German
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doctor in the 19th century" (which is the level of detail I've come to expect
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from such a reputable source as WebMD) is 98.6F which seems high.
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Healthline (another reputable source) says the doctor was Carl
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Wunderlich and hyperlinked an actual study from 2019; Normal Body Temperature:
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A Systematic Review authored by Ivayla I Geneva, Brian Cuzzo, Tasaduq Fazili,
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and Waleed Javaid, which is not only readable by Normal Human Beings but has
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loads more and better researched information than what I could describe here.
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I encorage anybody interested in the history of our understanding of fever to
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read that article, with the following DOI:
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<https://doi.org/10.1093/ofid/ofz032>
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Anyway, my internal body temperature is usually 36 degrees centigrade,
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sometimes up to a degree higher. Geneva et alia concluded the average to be
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in the 36-37 ballpark which means I'm just about normal. Of course, because
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I've known about my body temperature being slightly cold for a while now, and
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because it's such a small difference, and because I have no relevant health
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issues, it's very obvious that my being somewhat colder than normal is
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completely fine. But now I know it's not even worth bringing up as party
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chatter. Oh well!
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The more I learn about NetBSD, the more I like NetBSD. This also goes
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for possums and my friend Noah. The more I learn about Wayland, the more I
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dislike Wayland. This also goes for Crissy Teigan and Firefox.
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2022-06-26 20:30:40 -06:00
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2022-06-26
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Down with the Dickness
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Dawn of the Dead (2004; dir. Zack Snyder) has Richard Cheese's
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performance of Down with the Sickness, a popular rock song, fifty-six minutes
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in. Being an existing fan of the Cheese it was cool to see.
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I defrosted my fridgerator last night. Turns out that's something you
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need to do. I propped it up on a plastic container and used the hair dryer on
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it in the shower. Lots of clanging and banging but now it's plugged in and
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hopefully running.
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I forgot what it was like to adjust to Soylent. Around a year ago I
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switched back to a solid diet out of convenience - it's hard to lug around a
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bottle or two when I could pop into a convenience store and come out with a
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candy bar and a Monster. That was an esophageal spasm ago - something that
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feels somewhere between a mild heart attack and being hit by a not mild train.
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My stomach got too acid or something after one Monster after having abstained
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from caffeine for a little while. So the drawbacks of Soylent are less
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noticeable nowadays though I will probably go back to solids when I go back to
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work.
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I have a Punkt MP-02 coming in the mail eventually from a friend, or
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I've been scammed for a couple hundred bucks from a friend, we'll see which is
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true in a week or two. I'm looking forward to driving over my iPhone with a
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tractor or similarly heavy machinery though sadly it will probably stay in
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service as a Spotify + Duolingo appliance.
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---
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there was an ook and there was an eek
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and they clubbed each other for dino meat
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wearing tattered clothes, suits and ties,
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eating raptor noses and puppy eyes
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one day ook tripped over a paper
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filled with runes of a busier time
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eek got mad and threw it with anger
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into an ocean the color of wine
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ook and eek died together
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of swollen armpits and wounds that wouldn't heal
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eek whispered to his falling comrade
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ook, of a different world, heard only a squeal
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--
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empirical evidence says you're a myth
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the physical nothing, the empty, the wisp
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you're not of our numbers, we've nothing for you
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we've no words to describe you. run or hang in loops
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we've killed all your family, we're tracking your friends
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we'll kill them by sunday, for the crime of self defense
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you won't get away with being inexpressible
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we won't expand our vocabulary
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you are all crucifiable
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---
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2022-06-25 07:36:16 -06:00
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2022-06-25
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Down with the sickness
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I tested positive for COVID-19 last night so it looks like I'm stuck at
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home for the next couple days. Between my Soylent stash (for the end of the
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world) and my water stash (for the end of the world) I don't even need to dip
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into my savings, so that's nice.
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Yesterday the United States Supreme Court overturned Roe V. Wade,
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marking the first time the Court has ever decided to take away Constitutional
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rights. Four of the majority were men, joined by one woman, and the dissenting
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opinion was written by two women and one man. No Supreme Court justice is under
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half a century old.
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---
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REPORT: JUSTICE ALITO CONSIDERING ADDING EXCEPTION FOR HIS DAUGHTER, WHO IS IN
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COLLEGE AND WHOSE LIFE COULD BE 'RUINED' BY MISTAKE
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By TRINITY BLAKE; 2022-05-04
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WASHINGTON (AP) -- As women across the country fear losing access to safe and
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legal abortion, reports are coming in that Supreme Court Justice Samuel Alito
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is considering making a major exception to the court's decision to overturn
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the historic 1973 Roe v. Wade decision legalizing abortion throughout the
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United States.
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Justice Alito has reportedly informed an anonymous source that he 'screwed up'
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and that though he believes abortion should be illegal, '[his daughter] isn't
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like all those [expletive] who will go out and [expletive] and then just roll
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up to a clinic and abort a living child'.
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In Alito's reported words, 'Having this child could ruin my daughter's career.
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She made one mistake. She isn't like the others!' Alito went on to say that
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while doctors who perform abortions are still murderers, '[his daughter] is
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different. She just is. I wouldn't expect you to understand.'
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The exception, being called by critics 'Alito's folly', is expected to appear
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in Alito's third draft opinion. Alito's second draft opinion broadened the
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allowed language to 'better describe' what Alito called 'party idiots who don't
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care about human life'.
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This wouldn't be the first time a Supreme Court Justice has added an exception
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to a seemingly concrete ruling. In Plessy v. Ferguson the often-overlooked tenth
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'diversity' Justice, George Freeman, added an exception to the famous 'separate
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but equal' rule; 'While I'm required to like segregation in order to maintain
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my position in this Court, I do not want to use the colored bathrooms. Shop-
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owners never clean them.'
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The anonymous source also said after Alito drives his daughter home from
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Planned Parenthood he plans to continue protesting that same location in his
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'special disguise' - sunglasses and a baseball cap.
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---
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2022-06-22
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Dangerous ideas
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Perhaps the homelessness problem in the United States would be taken
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care of if any domicile not occupied were given to someone who wasn't
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previously occupying a domicile. Is it so bad to force a child to share toys
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with which they never play?
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A mowed lawn resembles a soldier's buzz cut hair. Fine, but I wouldn't
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want to date an army man. I would prefer to let the lawn-spiders, the bees and
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milkweed, and the butterflies and things like that have a home.
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I deleted my /politics page because I learned people actually read it.
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Though it loosely reflects my current beliefs, enough that I'm not embarrassed
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by it, I'm uncomfortable at the thought of anyone actually caring about what I
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believe. Here are the good bits from it:
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I don't hold public office. Don't fret about my beliefs, they probably
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won't ever affect you.
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BITCHUTE
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I tried to swap from YouTube to this site back in 2019(? maybe 2020).
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The site administration has let it get infested with right-wing
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puppets and various other muck. Plus all my favorite channels
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left. So I can't really recommend it. Looks like everyone's
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using PeerTube now, my only concern with that is data
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resiliency - can hobbyists keep their instances going with the
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same dependability as YouTube?
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CEREAL
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The milk goes after the cereal into the bowl.
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Corn flakes aren't that bad, despite their origins.
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Cereal with coffee instead of milk is pretty good.
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Soggy cereal beats out freshly poured cereal most of the time.
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Exceptions are maybe Cocoa Pebbles and Cheerios. Life cereal is
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especially good soggy.
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The last powdery bits of the cereal are much better than the initial
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big bits. A lot of that powder is sugar and it sweetens the
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milk.
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Bag cereal is just as good as box cereal. Taste-wise they're identical
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and they're about the same effort to pour because the boxes
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have bags in them too. The only con to bagged is that a greater
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amount of cereals are boxed (e.g. there are no off-brand
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Wheaties where I am) and boxes have cool puzzles on the back
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(though now that I'm not a wee lass I do have a cellphone on
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which I play Konami Picross instead).
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WRONGSPEAK AND WRONGTHINK
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If you're unaffected by a slur you probably shouldn't use it, even in
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an educational or non-hateful context.
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There are some words I'd now consider hateful I used to use without
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reserve.
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Personally I don't use hateful language because I don't think it's
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justifiable. However, if you're okay with offending people,
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consider this - you cannot grow in your understanding of the
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world if you don't communicate with people with whom you
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disagree. You're really going to prioritize hateful speech over
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self development?
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If you go on my platform and say things with which I disagree, I should
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not have to host your opinions.
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Most of my regrets involving political speech involve saying either too
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little or too much, which is nice, because at least I didn't support some
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stupendously awful cause that ended up killing everyone or something. Maybe
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right now I am doing that without realizing, but I hope not.
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2022-06-21 07:24:48 -06:00
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2022-06-21
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Some things I learned this week
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Instead of grating vegetables, you can peel very small sections off of
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them to get essentially the same effect. It works better if you dice the
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peelings after you're done. A grater will do the job much better but in a pinch
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the peeler will work fine.
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A teaspoon is 5mL, a tablespoon is 15mL. They aren't the same.
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You can never have enough paper towels. If you think you do, you're
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wrong. Aspirin is bad for you, acetaminophen is especially bad for you,
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ibuprofen is bad for you, you can have either pain or pain.
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The GNU debugger is awesome. Compile programs with `-g` and run gdb
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[program], then execute `start`, then `step` through statement by statement and
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inspect variables with `print`. I've been printf(3) debugging since I was eight
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years old (about a decade ago). This is a total game changer.
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The first pancake is always the worst. Don't be afraid to screw up the
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first time, instead ensure the environment is controlled so that when beginners
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make that first pancake the customers don't eat it.
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People believe the dumbest stuff because they're so used to dumb things
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happening. You can't be sane in an insane world.
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Food I'm craving
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Pizza (good pizza, not something from Pizza Johns or Papa Hut). I could
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make it myself but dough seems hard and I'm procrastinating learning how bread
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and stuff works. I also don't wanna go to the store, carry the ingredients
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home, and figure out what to do with the leftover stuff. Perhaps all my
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problems could be solved with one of those Hello Fresh startups or whatever but
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the point of pizza is that it's cheap and delicious and I don't wanna pay more
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for less.
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A bagel, but I could always go for a bagel. I'd like some veggie cream
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cheese right now on a dark toasted bagel.
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Pancakes. I haven't had pancakes for a couple seasons now. I like
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pancakes with good maple syrup, maybe not the really expensive stuff in glass
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jars (I haven't tried that stuff so I wouldn't know) but the stuff that comes
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in the gray-cream colored pitchers with the small handles and black caps, with
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instructions on the back for what to do if there's a skim on top of the syrup.
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Thin, Maine maple syrup, no corn involved in the process. Though Aunt Jemima
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(or whatever name by which she goes nowadays) is alright in a pinch.
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I'm trying not to eat so much meat. The exceptions are (a) trying
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something new, (b) home-cooked meals by someone else, and (c) East asian
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restuarants. And of course food that would otherwise go to waste. I've found
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that limiting myself to these situations gives me a pretty good amount of meat
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in my diet ("pretty good" being a small amount, I eat meat maybe thrice a week
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at most). I don't have a moral stake in this in terms of animal cruelty, though
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I do believe farming animals is cruel, because I didn't kill the thing and
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Capitalists will never voluntarily decrease the amount of product they churn
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out. I just don't see a future where humans can have meat in nearly every meal
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and I'm trying to acclimate in advance. As past, so will pass - I'm sure we'll
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go back to some sort of primarily-grain diet, though maybe "grain" will be corn
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and corn derivatives and not much else. Meh, could be worse.
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That being said, I could go for some turkey mixed with egg. In a pan,
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put a couple of slices (or even just the giblets left over from the slicing
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process) of turkey beast on some butter as the oil, and crack an egg over it.
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Break the yolk if the yolk isn't already broken and keep flipping the egged
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turkey until the egg is cooked. Serve alone or as part of a breakfast sandwich.
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It's the perfect mix of texture and flavor. I had this with some turkey that
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would have otherwise gone to waste and it was very good.
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2022-06-20 13:58:12 -06:00
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2022-06-20: Some thinks I've been thinging about
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The world would be a more interesting place if any biologists or
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researchers focusing on transmissable diseases took a look at Internet memes or
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"fake news" (cognitoviruses).
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If a policy tangibly hurts people it's not a good policy. Whether or
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not I believe it's good, if something I supported takes food out of a mouth, I
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was wrong. Humans come before statutes.
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Nobody's applied the second amendment to the abortion debate. The
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intent of the founding fathers regarding the second amendment was clearly to
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allocate for the self-defense of the populace even if it may be to the
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detriment of an offending party. Does a pregnant individual not have the right
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to stand their own ground and fend off entities that will do them harm?
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Plastic is the new lead. Humans shouldn't be drinking animal milk (I
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drink a lot of chocolate milk, so this is a dig at myself too). Meat is as
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essential to the culinary arts as sugar, but it's also as essential to human
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sustenance as sugar. The next "got milk?" will be disseminated through Internet
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memes.
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I'm not in favor of banning anything; abortion or firearms. I think a
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national firearm ban to some extent may be inevitable but I'm not too torn up
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about it. A bullet doesn't have much practical use beyond taking a life or
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practicing for it.
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I want a Nintendo Wii powered through USB-C.
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A holocaust will happen before 2050. This game of "telephone" that is
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generational education didn't impress upon this generation the gravity of the
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Holocaust committed by the Nazis in the 1940s. The Nazis had a fetish for
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documentation; the next holocaust will be recorded literally in 4K Ultra HD.
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In a desensitized world, will that even make a difference for the children of
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2160? In the information war that will be World War III, who will win - the
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Americans, who can't tamp down obvious misinformation such as "Pizzagate" or
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that the COVID-19 vaccines have microchips, or the Russians, who manufactured
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these rumors? "Americans" and "Russians" here are not literal names.
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To me it's conceivable that gender nonconforming and non-heterosexual
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individuals would be targeted as scapegoats for a future manufactured
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"struggle" in the same way the Nazis chose Jews to be the primary scapegoats
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for "degeneration". Outliers are routinely paraded as examples of the queer
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community by those who wish to discredit it. External parties try to break the
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LGBT+ umbrella into the "LGB and others" or "lesbians and gays, but not
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bisexuals". The latter for acceptance (exceptance?) from those who conduct the
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former. All wins temporary at best.
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2022-06-19 19:58:12 -06:00
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2022-06-19: Some things I've been thinking about
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The UNIX philosophy ("create things that do one thing well") is a
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mandate rather than a suggestion; programs can and will fall under their own
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weight if you allow them to become too complex with too many things dependent
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on other things. From a software design standpoint I've found this to be very
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useful.
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However, I think focusing on software complexity is treating the
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symptoms of Bad Computing rather than the disease. The core issue is that
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humans should not have to change themselves for a machine - the machine should
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only ever be changed for the human. After all, a computer is simply a tool.
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Interchangeable (right?), repairable (right?), intuitive (right?), and a means
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to an end (right?).
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Lately humans have been having to change themselves for machines. There
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are easily comprehendable issues - e.g. "I don't have a first name, how do I
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fill out this form?" - but there are also denser, deeper problems in this
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regard - in fact, even computer literacy education is itself changing humans in
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favor of machines. Software should be designed to be basically intuitive to
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someone that's never used a computer and ideally need no further skills.
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This probably started with the Old Engineers who were basically
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breathing computer before computers were even existent in their modern form.
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Graybeards (women and nonbinary fellows included within this word, use your
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imagination) didn't need to change themselves for computers because they and
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machina were already kin. Then they made simple interfaces for the restivus and
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hoped it was enough, and it was for a while.
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Once we defeat the status quo, the rest will be easy.
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The Center for Disease Control in the United States isn't perfect but I
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trust them a bit more than a bald guy on Spotify.
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Today's Juneteenth, which is a memory to a pretty cool event, the end
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of lawful slavery in the United States.
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