2022-11-01

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+2022-11-01
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+	Georgio handed me a stack of Benjamins. "Count them."
+	I did. Five thousand yuu-ess-dee.
+	"We'll never speak of this again." And so we didn't. I walked over to
+the gas station and bought a Twinkie for zero point one per cent (five yuu-ess
+-dee) of one man's life, and then hailed a cab for which I payed zero point two
+per cent (ten dollars) of one man's life, or you could say one man's life is
+worth five hundred taxi rides, or a thousand Twinkies, or you could say Harry
+died so I could eat a Twinkie and ride this taxi and smoke this cigarette and
+do this all without the cloud of debt hanging over me, clawing at my shoulders,
+digging at my thoughts, eating at my brain.
+	When I got to my apartment, or room, I should say, it being one
+singular room with some cubicle dividers up for the toilet in the corner, that
+houses myself, my wife, and our two kids, products of a poor education and even
+poorer knowledge of birth control, and teenagers who didn't know what they were
+doing in the back of a car one night, and my Twinkie wrapper, which I threw
+away, but which my wife still saw, my wife hit me with an open palm, swore at
+me, told me how could I, kill an innocent man for a Twinkie and a cigarette,
+forgetting the car ride and our childrens' full bellies.
+	I've forgotten the meaning of life, or, a life, besides a number, five
+thousand yuu-ess-dee, 5000USD, a box on a spreadsheet on my bank record next to
+a box marked "Inheritance". A life is, to my wife, worth a lifetime, of
+memories of Christmases and New Years and Thanksgivings and birthdays, of kind
+words and kind gifts and long hours at the mill, worth more than any finite,
+tangible amount of money, somehow, forgetting the car ride and our childrens'
+full bellies.
+
+	I wonder if I'll remember the pattern the tiles make on the floor of
+the bathroom at my workplace. Distinct yet unimportant.
+
+	I went to a clinic today and got free Narcan, which is pretty swag, but
+I don't know how to administer it, so that's not pretty swag. But they're
+sending me instructions so that'll be groovy as fuck.
+
+	I'm developing a fairly sharp wit which is pretty cool because my
+comeback game is as the kids say lit AF; literally and financially [awesome].
+
+	One of the Monster Cereals makes your poop blue, but I don't know
+which. Maybe all of them?
+
+
 2022-10-31
 
 	I've decided today I'm gonna try all of the currently available Monster