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+2022-12-07
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+I don't think about thinking, I just think it
+	and I think even when I can't think about anything else
+	I think about my thoughts about the day it left me
+	and I think about it I can't think about anything else
+I think about Venus and the moon and the sun
+	and I think about when they came and killed everyone
+	I think about the last time us two had some fun
+	and I think about when we came and killed everyone
+The sky is falling off the mountains
+	and sirens filling my brain
+	and the smoke attack the smoke grenades
+	the blood in the lane
+	the sky is on the edge of the earth
+	and there are cracks in the night
+	and the SWAT team and the G-men
+	and the federal fight
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+2022-10-08
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+The one hun dred me ter sprint .
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+and it's you that's dead in last .
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+When . will you just ad mit . .
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+You aren't win ning in this lap .
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+You mean no  thing .  to   me .
+I'm try  ing .     my best .  .
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+You're a  hu   man .    dis ease  .
+And    my best is  good e   nough .
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+I     gave it all  to you .   .
+Leave me   a  lone .  I'm tir ed
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+And then you   just col lapsed . .
+of  this stuff .    .   .      . .
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+You di dn't go   for the gold .
+I   ne ver  went for the gold .
+I   .  .    went for the gold .
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+You went for the sil ver . .
+I   went for the sil ver . .
+And I    got the sil ver . .
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+And now  you're get ting old    . .
+And now  I'm    get ting old    . .
+I'm look ing    at  the  bronze . .
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+And   my   hair is  tur ning sil ver
+And   your hair is  tur ning sil ver
+Throw my   me   dal in  the  ri  ver
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+. How could you do this to me?
+. How could I   do this to you?
+. Is  it    hap pi ness I  seek?
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+. Keep me      out  of   the  .  loop
+. I    thought I    made it   ea sy
+. All  this    time I've been so sad
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+. And at the end  of the day
+. And at the end  of the day
+. I'm so god damn in com plete
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+. I   lost out  in  the  race .
+. You lost out  in  the  race .
+. I   want what you guys have .
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+	A lot of what I do is foreshadowed by other stuff I do. Before Blang
+(still in development and not even publicly released) was the configuration
+system for ytfeed, which was weird in some areas. The behavior was mostly due
+to side effects. Then Usagi, a similar fantasy computer but with much loftier
+goals than Blang which never really came to fruition. When it came to making an
+RSS feed reader, after ytfeed.py (which started as a proof of concept out of
+boredom using some Python RSS module or something) sort of collapsed from
+technical debt (look, I can use buzzwords too) I really wanted to take
+ytfeed.sh and expand it to be more UNIXy and KISSy but lost motivation. I had a
+couple attempts after that such as "awdri", which has one feed.py file with:
+
+#!/usr/bin/env python
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+config = [
+        "feed_dir": "/home/trinity/awdri/Feeds"
+]
+
+	But I don't even know what that was gonna be. Eventually I came up with
+pigfeed which is a half-decent base for an RSS feed reader, I think. Plus its
+model and design are delightful though undercooked.
+
+2022-10-21
+
+The End of the World, And What Happened Next
+1.
+	"Put your money in the wishing well, and your wish may well come true."
+The beggar turned to me, his rotted teeth spitting through the phrase.
+	"The wishing well?" I looked into the field behind him. I didn't see
+any well.
+	"It's not a <I>real</I> well. It's a wallet number. Put in
+a coin and reap good luck for the rest of your life." He handed me the business
+card of a preacher in the church across the street behind us. On the back was a
+hexadecimal wallet code, 512-bit – a legacy address, scrawled in ballpoint. I
+could hardly make out the 1s from 7s or the 4s from 9s. I put it in my shirt
+pocket.
+	"An entire coin? I thought beggars usually wanted a fiver or tenner?"
+	He stared into me with orange eyes. Tattooed irises, probably to go
+with his hair. "It's not my wallet. Wanna miss out?" He waved his arms out.
+"Your loss!"
+2.
+	Simon was sitting at his desk filling forms when he saw kamisama from
+his upstairs window. She disappeared into the forest across the street. He
+quickly ran downstairs into the trees to find her sitting on a stump at a
+stream, brushing her hair.
+	"Where have you been? I haven't heard you in days." Simon started to
+retie his right shoe which was too loose. "Are you avoiding me?"
+	Kamisama spoke quietly. "They're trying to take me away."
+	Simon finished the bunny ears and double knotted it. "Who?"
+	"I don't know. But I'm disappearing."
+	Simon sat on the stump. "Is it me? We knew this might happen eventually."
+	Kamisama shook her head. "No, we can't part yet. I don't want you
+blindly leading yourself. Someone is doing this to you."
+-1.
+	"I don't know what's worth putting a coin in an anonymous wallet, but
+whatever it is, I don't need it anyway." I started to walk away.
+	He yelled behind me. "Fine! You just ignored the best opportunity of
+your life!" I kept walking.
+
+
 2023-01-02
 
 	Ted wandered off as he heard sirens approach the crumbling office. His