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2022-12-27
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20XX refers to the past, not the future, in one fifth of cases. But the
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past was pretty futuristic! Dream big, I need my space.
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2022-09-13
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Slipstream
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DTB
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Published here under the Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-
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NoDerivatives 4.0 International Public License.
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They found Amber as some DNA encased in fossilized tree sap when I was
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twenty years old. A small networked community speculated that society's problems
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were due to our genetic distance from our ancestors.
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This was my twenty-second year, for the third or fourth time. I meet
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my wife Cassidy for the first time for the fourth time next week.
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I go to work. I work at a laboratory, at this time JCN, "where dreams
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are made", before it's taken and turned into the National Defense Center, NDC.
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I can prevent this by submitting a false, smaller figure for our proposal for
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governmental funding – a clerical oversight, no more than an off-by-ten,
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changes an official's perception of how "innovative" JCN can be, influences
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their and eventually their leader's choice. Yang Electric becomes NDC instead;
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another aboriginal creation forced to assimilate.
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Someone asks me how my day is going. My day is fine. How is yours? Not
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so good, Ada. Carl gets a divorce next January and dies six months after that.
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Officially of grief, technically of a gunshot wound.
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I leave. Today I worked on a paper I publish next month on hyper
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-realistic simulation of reality, simulation into which someone could
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(inexpensively) be dropped unaware. Even my first time working on this I was so
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horrified at what I had created I for the first time and uncomfortably faked
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numbers on my paper so nobody would be interested. One could end up perceiving
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decades in seconds; trapped in hell or suffocated in heaven. Immersion is only
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useful to a certain extent.
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I get into my car. 667 River Road. I drive past the animal shelter at
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which I worked as a teenager. Unit 5. I knock on the door.
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Cassidy's uncle answers. He still has hair, I didn't know he still had
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hair now. We're both on the ground in his apartment. I brought a scalpel
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thinking it would be enough but I forgot this is only a couple years after Ron
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got out of the Navy. He calls me a fucking psychopath and I grunt but say
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nothing. JCN still sharpens the scalpels between each use – this changes
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because it's overkill, we only really use them for opening boxes even by now.
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He's on top of me. All I need is one straight cut but I manage to plunge the
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blade into his windpipe. He chokes and coughs blood onto me. It burns like acid.
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I stand up and close the door. He's living alone, working at a warehouse, on the
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top floor so I don't need to worry about unexpected guests.
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I have no prior connection with this corpse. He has dozens of enemies
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including the children of the families he separated in the middle-East. I wipe
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off the doorknob and my face, put my bandanna back into my pocket, and leave. In
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this part of town I'm not worried about anyone describing my car to the police,
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not worried about the surveillance because there isn't any yet, at least to the
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extent with which I'm familiar. I'm back in my car. I'm staring blankly at the
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road. I'm in my driveway. I'm staring blankly at the television. I'm laying in
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bed staring at the ceiling.
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I'm at work. I'm at home. I'm in bed. I work. I go home. I go to bed. I
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meet my wife Cassidy for the first time for the fourth time. Cassidy Malcolm, my
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name is Ada Karina. Last night you played the lottery; you always play the date
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and truncate off the extra digits. You've never told anybody about how your
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childhood hamster ate its babies and you didn't know why. Please have coffee
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with me.
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When I met her for the first time for the second time she eventually
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confessed that she drank coffee, not tea, and that's why she was so hesitant to
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meet me that second first time. She switched to tea later. That hesitation made
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her meet me after she had already taken the job at the wristwatch company.
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She would see her uncle next week and tell him about us if he was still
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alive. I think of this as I order us two of her favorite potion, cold brewed
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coffee with a pinch of cinnamon. She hasn't had this in months, she tells me for
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the fourth time. I apologize for my detachment. I've seen my world crumble again
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and again. I'm too far gone, and I’m sorry, and I have to move on. She's talking
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to me for the first time for the fourth time and the last time and I'm not
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listening. I'm sipping the cold brew and trying to taste the cinnamon, for the
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last time.
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The NDC euthanized Cassidy via baton. I watched from behind a window
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grate in handcuffs as two children in police uniforms beat her until she stopped
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moving, and then until she stopped bleeding and then until they were tired. She
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slowly splintered into pieces, bending at more and more seams rolling back and
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forth on the tile. Her brain chemistry was a single link too far from Amber.
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I go home. I sleep. My day is fine. How is yours? To be honest, Ada,
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things aren't so great at home. I'm sorry to hear that, Carl. What's wrong? My
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wife won't talk to me. I don't know why. She's just slowly gone silent. Maybe
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it's me? Have you talked to those close to her?
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Typing, clicking. I'm staring at a light bulb, hammering phosphors off
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in new familiar patterns.
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They found me when they dragged Cassidy's corpse into the acid bath.
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They shoved me along a steel hallway and took me to a holding cell with a dozen
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other loved of the dead.
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During her second final week on Earth Cassidy was rarely awake and less
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often lucid. When she wasn't as well Cassidy said she felt like she was being
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dissolved. She coughed up blood, lots of it. The doctors asked me if she could
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have been exposed to anything that would cause lung cancer.
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Ron was a loving uncle, caring brother, and courageous veteran who will
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be dearly missed. Service will be held at Lisbon St. Baptist, 8-12, 5pm.
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Cassidy's uncle's obituary was brief to stay within the minimum cost from the
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paper. My third thirty-fifth year, he shot her in the side of her head. I
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tackled him to the ground and beat him until he stopped moving, and then until
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he stopped bleeding, and then until I was tired, when I collapsed next to him.
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The police came for the noise complaint.
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I set up tests for my project. One of the tests checks for whether a
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program that only ever returns a zero value returns a true value, which it
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doesn't. I pretend to not know what's wrong. My day is fine. How's yours? I- I
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don't know, Ada. I'm sorry.
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I entered my password into the locking panel on the door. It still
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worked. I read digests of all active projects in the laboratory and took note
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of one of the room numbers. I loaded both an old program I wrote and a current
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program being developed at NDC onto my wristwatch, opened the door, and ran. The
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other captives ran too, to a different wing of the building in a greater number.
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Cassidy and I found her dog dead in her apartment two weeks afteer we
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met for the first time in my third twenty-second year. Brick was shot with a
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rifle. The police came but didn't find the round and the killer left no other
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trace. I asked the neighbor across the hall and he said he didn't hear Brick
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bark at whomever shot him.
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I go home. I go to sleep. I wake up. I go to work. Dials spinning.
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Buttons clicking. There's an issue with my database access. I call the
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technology information desk. My user was deleted by accident; they adjust my
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permissions so my account can't be deleted as part of an automatic process.
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I ran into a steel room and threw the lab technician out of his chair
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before kicking him in his chin, knocking him out. I entered my old emergency
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authorization code into the computer and watched the cathode in the center of
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the room start to glow a deep blue.
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I publish my paper to no applause as expected. The concept was obviously
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impossible with modern technology but its aspiration was noble.
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I was in my forty-fifth year on the second floor of JCN. My legs shook
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but I managed to walk out and into the outside air, which I didn't think I would
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breathe again. I ran to my apartment and waited until I, in my twenty-second
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year, the first time, was asleep. I set a code and plugged myself into the
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simulation.
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I didn't know how long I'd be stranded away from my time so I went to a
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park to sleep, but on my way I dissolved back into the NDC, in front of a
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glowing cathode. The laboratory technician stared at me. The experiment wasn't
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ready! What have I done?
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I answered and upon its receipt of the password the universe dissolved.
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I watched the technician scream and turn to sand and I woke up in my bed,
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twenty-two years old, two blueprints and a handful of vestiges and some
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asbestos left in the fire-proof wristwatch next to me, unplugged from my
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simulation, my consciousness slipstreamed into the past present day.
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HELL MONTH; the Devil's date of AUGUST when the sun is ceasing its
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HELL MONTH; the Devil's date of AUGUST when the sun is ceasing its
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