onward towards decency
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@ -4,19 +4,18 @@ set -ex
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<"$0" python3 -c '
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import os, sys
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class File:
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attributes = [ # last in order wins in conflict, list must have both
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"literally", "figuratively",
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"append", "replace",
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"verbatim", "stub"
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]
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content = ""
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substitutions = dict()
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attributes = []; content = ""; substitutions = dict()
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figurative = True; stub = True
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def addattribute(self, *args):
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for a in args: # sloppy but works
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if a == "stub": self.stub = True
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elif a == "verbatim": self.stub = False
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elif a == "figuratively": self.figurative = True
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elif a == "literally": self.figurative = False
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def __init__(self, **kwargs):
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for key in kwargs:
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if key == "attributes":
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self.attributes += kwargs[key]
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else:
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setattr(self, key, kwargs[key])
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if key == "attributes": self.addattribute(*kwargs[key])
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else: setattr(self, key, kwargs[key])
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files = {"./cleanup.sh": File(attributes=["verbatim"], content="#!/bin/sh\n")}
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for part in reversed(sys.stdin.read().split("\n\n\n")):
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name = "." + part.split("\n")[0]
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@ -31,10 +30,15 @@ for part in reversed(sys.stdin.read().split("\n\n\n")):
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for s in content[1:]:
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s = s.split("\t")
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if len(s) == 2: substitutions[s[0]] = s[1]
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mode = "replace"
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for i in range(len(attributes)):
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if attributes[i] in ["append", "replace"]:
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mode = attributes[i]
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attributes = list(set(attributes) ^ {"append", "replace"})
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content = part[len("\n".join(content))+2:]
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file = File(attributes = attributes, content = content,
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substitutions = substitutions)
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if file.attributes.index("append") > file.attributes.index("replace"):
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if mode == "append":
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if not(name in files):
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sys.stderr.write(sys.argv[0] + ": " + name + ": "
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+ "appending to nothing\n")
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@ -44,10 +48,8 @@ for part in reversed(sys.stdin.read().split("\n\n\n")):
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for name in files:
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if name == "./cleanup.sh":
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continue
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attributes = files[name].attributes
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if name == "./js/quotes.json": print(attributes)
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directory = "/".join(name.split("/")[:-1])
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if attributes.index("stub") > attributes.index("verbatim"):
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if files[name].stub:
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prefix = ""
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suffix = ""
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for d in directory.split("/"):
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@ -56,7 +58,7 @@ for name in files:
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if d + "/Suffix" in files.keys():
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suffix = files[d + "/Suffix"].content
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files[name].content = prefix + files[name].content + suffix
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if attributes.index("figuratively") > attributes.index("literally"):
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if files[name].figurative:
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content = files[name].content
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for s in files[name].substitutions:
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instances = []
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@ -80,7 +82,7 @@ for name in files:
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with open(name, "w") as fd: fd.write(files[name].content)
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if len(files["./cleanup.sh"].content.split("\n")) > 2:
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with open("./cleanup.sh", "w") as fd:
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fd.write(files["./cleanup.sh"].content)
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fd.write(files["./cleanup.sh"].content + "rm cleanup.sh\n")
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'
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test -f homepage.local \
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&& exec ./homepage.local \
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@ -2278,6 +2280,302 @@ fi
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exit 0
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/blah/2023-07-21.html
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: the usual situation in eurasia, from a distance
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say thanks to my wife for making this meal
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she toiled all day cooked this supper with zeal
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and we feast and we feast and we eat with the wars
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on tv movie screen pictring blood and al gore
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turn that goddamn thing off i can't hear jamie talk
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dad wait please we lost greece now they're storming iraq
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say thanks to the machines they are filling the screen
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fighting proxy wars over capital regimes
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no more deaths no more fights only systems tonight
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will be killed hard drives milled turned into bits and bytes
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there's a person onscreen they aren't real let them be
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shredded hair collarbone now the drones go take rome
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dad agrees history will be written by 3
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but now's not the time turn it off o k fine
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: Waiting for your return
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I found,
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and shot,
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your dog that sat at the door to your luxury condo
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waiting for your return.
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He was old
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wizened
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gray, thin hair on his back
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and I felt bad doing it
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but I wanted to see your face
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your reaction
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your black short hair shine in the setting sun
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as you had read my neat handwriting on college ruled paper
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"Turn around"
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pinned by one red tack to your dead dog's ear
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and as you turned you put your hand to your thigh
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where sat a holstered pistol
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far too late to lift your arm or pull the trigger
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before I put a nine millimeter round
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in your forehead
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heart
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and left kneecap (for good measure)
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and watched you collapse on your newly tarred driveway
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and watched your blood drip out your head and torso and leg
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and drip down onto the hot, black surface,
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and watched the blood make that interesting splatter.
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It's too bad
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that your dog had to die this way
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before he died I gave him a nice steak I picked up on the drive over
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a small steak, maybe a half-dollar's size
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but nice nevertheless and better than any food you'd ever given him
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and I took him to your living room and he and I sat on your couch and
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he sat his head on my lap
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and I shed a tear
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I always shed a tear
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for the souls I take (I only took one that day).
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I am sorry
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your dog had to die this way
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but it was a better death than could be had
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in that airless, sterile condo
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and one your dog was happy to receive
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pressing his head against my silencer.
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: Autumn
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The best thing my parents ever did for me was neglect to raise me,
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because if they raised me I'd surely be an even worse person.
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They seem to hate me, and I do too,
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but it's odd that they seem to be under the illusion that they did
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raise me. Because then wouldn't it be their fault
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that I turned out like this?
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: TempleOS
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hey davis terry a temple codin every day
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jesus christ on systemd
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fading through reality
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modern 64 bit fight
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commodore and kilobytes
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glowing hard and nothing more
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switch statements power in C
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user programmed commodore
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small town train fatality
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hey terry whyd you leave us so many mysteries
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we don't understand your code
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insane man or god, who knows?
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how could one guy ever make a
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self hosting OS ISO
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: In a sky without a sun
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there are a bunch of people falling from the sky
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including me
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and if you maneuver your arms a bit
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against the pressure of a forceless wind
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that is so powerful in the absence of a sun, or stars,
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or planet
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you can look up and see It
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it has a face but its face will make you vomit in the \
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air that is passing by you
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it's best not to think about it or try to comprehend it
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see tony over there
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no, to your left
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yeah, there
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and how his face is white as a sheet?
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illuminated, clearly visible in a \
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world without light
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he Understood it
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it has eyes but we don't know how something so big
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could have anything to see
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/
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it has a mouth but no teeth, or maybe teeth, maybe we \
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could see
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its teeth if so much blood wasn't falling out of it
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fortunately newton's laws still apply
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it's falling at the same rate we are
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you'll never have to touch it
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but there is no ground on which we can land, and be freed from this \
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life
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no way out
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but to Understand
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so what do we do
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sheila and i play tic tac toe, we can keep the squares in our head
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/
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i prefer to maneuver myself to face away from the thing in the sky
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because if i squint a little bit
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it looks like me
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/blah/2023-07-20.html
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2023-07-10
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[2:13 PM] [...]: Hey what happened you don't bk no more???
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[2:18 PM] trinity: what happened is u owe me $80 and i will never see u
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again after august 20 so i need that money pronto
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[2:18 PM] trinity: where can i meet u for it
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[2:18 PM] trinity: i walked out cuz i decided fuck it we ball
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[2:18 PM] [...]: Why?
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[2:19 PM] [...]: You leaving?
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[2:19 PM] [...]: Maine
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[2:19 PM] trinity: august 20 i'm moving on from maine
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[2:19 PM] [...]: Ah
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[2:19 PM] [...]: Noice
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[2:19 PM] [...]: Where you off too?
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[2:19 PM] [...]: Random or picked place?
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[2:19 PM] trinity: colorado
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[2:20 PM] trinity: but if i find a cool town i'm just gonna live there
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instead
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[2:21 PM] trinity: btw if u know any quick work i need money
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[2:23 PM] trinity: within walking distance of blake st. i'm down as long
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as it's not me getting fucked
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[2:23 PM] [...]: Ah well I don't blame you honestly I wanna do similar
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things and just kinda go around every where and go
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where life takes me but I'll lyk about any work if I
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find any
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[2:24 PM] [...]: My plan is next year after my birthday I'm getting in
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my car and driving and not looking back for a awhile
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Sent SMS to ??? ([...]) at 2023-07-07T14:25:54-0400:
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this is trinity btw
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hey [...], i just walked out. [...]'s gonna need coverage for 11-6ish tomorrow.
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i think the way [...] talks to me isn't appropriate considering what i
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contributed in terms of labor. if you want i can work at lisbon st from now on,
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i can make it on time and for whatever shifts they want. i've been working at
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bk main st nearly a year and before that it had been another and i think my
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time there has now come to an end
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i didn't walk out out of anger but a realization that the things i want to be
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changed won't be and even if i made it through today tomorrow (a saturday on
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main st) would be as bad if not worse, and the same thing would happen week
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after week. i'm planning on moving to colorado and will be in late august or so
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with no plans as to what i'll be doing there when i arrive
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until then, i'm at lisbon st when you need me, if you need me. if not i'll
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start looking for different work tonight. i like burger king but i don't like
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being understaffed and micromanaged when i came in to a poor kitchen setup in
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the first place.
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i already texted [...] and told him if he's the night manager kim would
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appreciate it if he came in early. i'm not super sure if that was the right
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move but i know he can text whomever it may concern
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thanks
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2023-07-06
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[6:38 PM] trinity: [...]
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[6:38 PM] trinity: i wanna move to [...]
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[6:38 PM] trinity: Eventually. like end of year maybe
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[6:39 PM] trinity: first of all is that cool with u. cuz it's ur turf. i'm
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the crazy bitch u know on the internet who's slightly
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unstable and notoriously abrasive. if ur like what no
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what the fuck that is a fair reaction
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[6:40 PM] [...]: i would love it if you moved here
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[6:40 PM] [...]: we could smoke together
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[6:40 PM] [...]: legal weed :3
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[6:41 PM] trinity: i'm bored of maine. i like it but the people can be
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dangerous and the wild can be dangerous and although
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it's an honest place it can be a cruel place
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[6:41 PM] trinity: oh i missed u typing
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[6:42 PM] [...]: Colorado is nice
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[6:42 PM] [...]: but the big city is scary a little bit
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[6:42 PM] [...]: im just a country girl
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[6:44 PM] trinity: weed is legal here too. and i too am meh on cities. but
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i need to never be recognized again by anyone with
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which i went to high school and i know 4 good people in
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this state and the rest are somewhere between neutral
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and evil once ive gotten to know them
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[6:45 PM] trinity: i know u a little, i know [...] a little, i know how to
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sleep outside and live out of a backpack, and i know
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burger king kitchens like the back of my hand. so i'm
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fine wherever and [...] seems kinda fuckin swag
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[6:47 PM] trinity: that makes 2 decent people 0 known bad people and 1 big
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metropolitan area to explore
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[6:47 PM] trinity: could i receive mail where u guys are while i get a new
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id and then po box?
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[6:49 PM] trinity: if not thats fine ill figure it out
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[6:51 PM] [...]: yea thats fine
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[6:51 PM] [...]: awa
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[6:52 PM] [...]: we could put you up
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[6:52 PM] trinity: up?
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[6:52 PM] [...]: like you could crash here
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[6:52 PM] [...]: lol
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[6:52 PM] trinity: nah i prefer to sleep in nature or abandoned areas
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[6:53 PM] [...]: based
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[6:53 PM] trinity: colorado will be difficult because snow. but i can
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figure it out
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[6:53 PM] [...]: it also feels about 10° colder than it is due to the air
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thinness
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[6:54 PM] trinity: damn
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[6:54 PM] [...]: it has gotten up to 34°C here and i still havent had to wear
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shorts
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[6:55 PM] trinity: i just need to be free. from stuff from being known and
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from existing on so much paper
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[6:55 PM] [...]: yea
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[6:55 PM] [...]: good luck
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[6:55 PM] [...]: i feel that
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[6:57 PM] trinity: i've been stagnant for the last nearly 2 years and i
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have barely any friends and recently a friend of mine
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turned out to be totally wacked out and now i have 2
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friends less than in january and i barely was friends
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with anyone in the first place
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[6:58 PM] trinity: which would be fine but bumfuck nowhere maine doesn't
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exactly have a strong people that exist demographic
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[7:01 PM] trinity: that's my rant ive been thinkin bout this at work
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[7:01 PM] [...]: yea
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[7:02 PM] [...]: ily
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[7:03 PM] trinity: i love you too
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[7:03 PM] [...]: you could definitely find friends here
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[7:03 PM] [...]: its a big city
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[7:03 PM] [...]: and people are really friendly
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[7:03 PM] [...]: its like it was in the midwest
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[7:03 PM] [...]: but bigger
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[7:04 PM] trinity: i mostly wanna know fewer bad people
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[7:04 PM] [...]: i get that
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[7:04 PM] [...]: its hard sometimes especially when you stumble into a
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friend group that has some people you feel are being
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wacky but you cant say anything really cause youre new
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[7:04 PM] [...]: at least that has happened to me
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[7:05 PM] trinity: lead in the water and drugs in the streets. everyone i
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know has been abused brutally and takes their rage out
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by abusing others. it's like a mosh pit of cruelty.
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even people i know that are intent on breaking their
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cycle still don't. maybe i'm one of them but maybe if
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i'm no longer surrounded by bad i'll be less bad
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[7:05 PM] trinity: not even good drugs just crack coke and opioids
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[7:07 PM] [...]: circumstances are important
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[7:07 PM] [...]: material conditions
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2019-10-10
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Bridge English
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Gatsby Journal #2 (Journal #3)
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I don’t know if I can relate to Gatsby. I’m sure I have an ego that I’m
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not aware of (but that everyone else is) - but I guess I’ll probably
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know if I was like him when I age out of this stage of my life. I used
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to make YouTube videos, a while ago, and for a couple weeks when I
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started out I was trying to play a character in front of the camera
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because I felt people would like me more. I don’t think there’s an easy
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way to say it, but, hell, nobody liked me anyway, and I decided that
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I’d be as genuine as possible - but for a time I guess there was a
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disconnect between how people saw me and who I was. It probably wasn’t
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a lot of people, though. My videos averaged fifty or so views. But it
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was enough to scare me straight. It’s dangerous to pretend to be
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someone who you aren’t, because you begin to lose sight of who you are.
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I don’t see myself as “destined” for something in my life, either. I’ll
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probably get a degree in Computer Science a couple years after I
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graduate high school but after that I have no plans. My opinion is that
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Lewiston, Maine, is a curse rather than a destiny. I know very few
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people who have left this city, even after planning to, and I know very
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many people who wish to leave every single day. Maybe by the nature of
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where I live (and I’d say you, too, but teaching is a respectable job
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and you don’t live in Lewiston anyway) I’m “destined” to get a minimum
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wage job and become a puppet for the bourgeoisie until I die. Maybe the
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only reason I feel this is cynicism; after you live in the same place
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for a majority of your life, you come to hate it, no matter where it
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is. But, hey, y’know, life keeps on tripping.
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This journal was kinda a downer and I don’t really have a good ending for it so
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here’s a picture of a dog to cheer you up. This is the companion of a
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guy I follow on Twitter, her name is Akina.
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[picture of Akina]
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oh also before you go all “wow people don’t like deven that’s crazy” dude it’s
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actually awesome i can do whatever i want and nobody cares, plus i
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actually know who my real friends are. life is poppin’. having four or
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five good friends really is way better than having twenty or so lame
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friends.
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You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say STAND WITH THE CHINESE PEOPLE
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