2024-07-25

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+: the resignation letter i wrote
+
+2024-07-24
+
+To [...] and all others concerned -
+	this is my two week notice of resignation from my position of [...]
+at [...]. My last day will be August 7, 2024.
+	I appreciate the opportunities given to me as part of my work here;
+particularly training in duties not previously known to me such as [...]. I am
+taking a position at [...] as they are offering a set schedule with two
+consecutive days off, higher pay, air conditioning, and are closer to my place
+of residence. If I leave [...] I'll consider working at [...] again.
+	Thank you for your time and employment.
+	Deven Trinity Blake
+
+: the text message i sent
+
+2024-07-24
+
+[23:26] hey [...], this is my two week notice. nothin terribly wrong, just
+        found higher pay
+
+: pre acid poetry
+
+2024-??-??
+
+I wasn't speaking French
+I was speaking sailor
+when I said "pardon my French"
+I meant the Whaler
+of a cuss I uttered
+"microwave the bacon
+drop a nuke on the station"
+I also said "fuck"
+get the situation?
+
+I
+the birds sing in the air
+a fair harmony in treble clef
+there are people milling around me
+I'm beginning to think there's nothing left
+every conversation is the same
+man, isn't it good to be alive
+I used to feel that way, but it's plain
+to me they've been replaced by their eyes
+pupils split by a collapsed iris
+the back of their eyes gray clouds
+iris collapsed by a yet unknown virus
+I wear my Ray Bans year round
+
+II
+I've never seen someone who saw the same
+upon grass so green, under a sky so blue
+you'd think I wouldn't be the last to remain
+I've shut myself in so my pupil's not two
+inside my gray house so alone
+an atonement for the sin of still living
+I fear my sunglasses have cracked, the only ones I own
+because I've been seeing double even in my prison
+
+I
+there's an island, far away
+people visit on holiday
+cats litter the streets and the shopkeeps smile
+knowingly, refilling the feed every once in a while
+ting-ting bells chime when a favorite appears
+collared neck, very well-fed, and often of more years
+the other cats shake in the wake of those peers
+to whose opinion others listen and act upon what they hear
+
+II
+when long ago people called this island home
+there was a man with a degree who could not leave life alone
+
+I
+recreational tracheotomy
+how much will you lose. how fast will you bleed
+you stole my hubcaps and my keys
+let's see how quick I can amputate your knees
+(mods, kill this man)     in the forest at night
+(is that an AK?)          I hope the hunting's alright
+(do you have a bandaid?)  shoot to kill and kill to eat
+(hey, did you hear that?) take the chaf from the wheat
+
+II
+faux professional animosity
+is it worth the pay? steel and golden teeth?
+you stole away my deepest fears
+now I don't quite know if anything scares me
+(call my lawyer)        human complexes
+(he might have a gun)   simple solutions
+(call the police)       shoot to kill and kill to eat
+(it can't happen to me) eliminate our honesty
+
+you have problems with your self worth
+you make five dollars in a dress and fifty in a skirt
+but the money's not the issue
+it's all those prying eyes cutting into you
+cuz when the disco ball sends a beam of light through your skin
+and the whole crowd gasps when they see your skeleton
+and you look through the ceiling and know you've lost all hope
+it's all for capital
+
+television static's been in front of my eyes
+every single second of my secondary life
+I've been living so nonlinear babe I'm out my fucking mind
+when you killed me for a dollar
+did you haggle at the offer
+or just couldn't then be bothered
+to hold onto me any tighter
+when you were strangling me tighter
+did you want it to be over
+or did you relish and feel sober
+at the thought of causing torture
+
+fac(n){//low up
+	i = 1;
+	while(++i < n)
+		if(n/i == (int)(n/i))
+			return [n] + fac(n/i);
+	return [];//prime
+}
+
+fac(n){//high down
+	i = n;
+	while (--i > 1)
+		if (n/i == (int)(n/i))
+			return [n] + fac(n);
+	return [];//prime
+}
+
+kill like you've never killed before this time
+penta plus penta die like it's no crime
+die like you've never died before this time
+yet another sacrifice
+have you ever given so much for so
+little a result so subtle, why you don't know
+have you ever seen so much hate in the
+arms of those you idolize
+
+I spent a year on an alien world
+so similar to my own
+I met fellow humans
+and leaened to call this place home
+it too had seasons
+red, green, orange leaves
+summer and winter
+as the weather changed, it changed me
+by the time I to go back left
+all the friends I'd left were dead
+and I keep running down dead ends
+you know, you can't go home again
+
+I
+CHORUS
+I said yes to a taste of Heaven
+and was fed from a tube of love
+I sank so far down into my skin
+oh, what a wonderful drug
+V1
+"do you have a death wish"
+I just came here for the scene
+posers digging into me
+like I don't get it
+programmer by the day
+push to mainline in the night
+milliliters marked in gray
+but we measure by the vibe
+
+II
+C
+I said yes to a taste of Heaven
+my "friends" say I've had enough
+I can't party 'til it gets under my skin
+God, what a powerful drug
+V2
+sometimes I feel
+like a grenade without my pin
+after the rave it's poisoning
+my blood and I kneel
+bowing down to the pain
+in my bed spending the day
+my toxic tongue and angered brain
+I think next time I'll refrain
+
+III
+BRIDGE
+oh, but I can't stop
+feel it eating me alive
+I wake and can't open my eyes
+because it burns so much, the light
+oh, but I won't stop
+veins have swelled out of my arms
+face's been shaped by all the harm
+I've slept through all my alarms
+CHORUS
+I said yes to a taste of Heaven
+and filled my cup with this horrible draught
+I can't stop thinking about getting my next fix
+then I'll party 'til I drop
+
+I
+when Louie died, he was 29
+cried as he put the barrel to his head
+for me to arrive and take down the two guys
+surrounding him in a farm shed
+when Paulie kicked the bucket
+and hung from his girl's locket
+I was at the market
+oblivious to his end
+
+II
+me and my skeleton crew
+the graves who I visit on holiday
+I miss my youthful skeleton crew
+and the lads I used to call
+my friends
+
+I
+taxi driver driving
+in a world driven mad
+by compulsive consumption
+A/B tested in a lab
+all these kids on their phones
+in the backseat of her cab
+they say you ain't done nothing
+if you ain't been called a red
+Susan's comrades did something
+they still worked to death
+Susan met a man
+in automotive automation
+
+II
+- self driving cards
+trying to replace public transit
+she hated his job
+and when she drove he couldn't stand it
+now, you might think such a relationship wouldn't last
+but why book a cab when you have the Uber app?
+
+: post acid poetry
+
+ma ni li lukin pona
+sina lukin pona
+ma ni li ike tawa sijelo mi
+sina li pona tawa lawa mi
+tenpo ali la mi pilin lape
+pali mi li yaki
+sijelo mi li pilin yaki
+tenpo ali la sina pona tawa mi
+mi pilin pona tawa sina
+sina pilin seme?
+
+2024-07-25
+
+now, we've all heard the story
+of the dueler, toodle-oo
+he'd draw his guns 'fore you could head "one"
+and man, he'd toodle you
+now, what they might not tell you is
+'twass a lass named toodle-dee
+who whipped out her pistol
+faster'n the toot of a whistle
+that brought him misery
+
+now, down at There Saloon where Hugh was the bartender,
+in waked Toodle-oo and Hugh said dude don't you dare do
+but toodle-oo wanted to toodle you-know-who straight back to sender
+
+
+/blah/2024-07-24.html
+
+: how to make firefox notifications stop taking half the screen
+
+# apt install mako-notifications
+$ mako
+
+Didn't work. What is mako?
+
+<https://github.com/emersion/mako>
+
+Okay, I have to put `exec mako` in my sway(5). Then relogin.
+
+It works.
+
+
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