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blah!
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ideas with no tangibility;
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ideas with irrelevant supports;
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ideas without value;
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ideas' witlessness;
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ideas' witnesses;
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ideas-
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2022-12-22
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	6 2s. Nice.
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	I'm gonna start taking the logos off everything I use. My room is
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contaminated by Toshiba, Carhart, Dove, Anker, Pine64, Ziploc, iFixit, et
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cetera. It's overwhelming and exhausting. Good pants are good pants, no matter
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the maker. My backpack is just A Backpack. Brand loyalty is neopatriotism.
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	This morning while getting ready for work I dropped my backpack which
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contained an uncovered Gilette cartridge razor, which shaved off my fingertip.
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Ouch. I suddenly was bleeding without knowing why so I duct taped some cotton
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on it (I'm out of gauze because I'm accident prone and simultaneously
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forgetful) and finished getting ready, then when I got to work put on five
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sticky bandages (off-brand Band-Aids) and taped them on for good measure. When
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in Rome. I told my co-workers I slipped in the shower which made more sense
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than my dumb ass having an uncovered razor in my backpack. Get a holder, get a
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protector, whatever, don't do what I did.
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2022-12-20
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	I started studying Japanese again because WSJ and others from /g/bpg/
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are doing it. Went though ~300 JLPT N5 Anki cards today to refresh the stuff I
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hadn't touched in a while.
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	I caved and have started (ab)using caffeine again as of last Saturday
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(today is Tuesday. Do the math). Sigh...
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	Here's a blog post I wrote for tebibyte.media/blog:
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2022-12-15
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title = "i hate smart phone"
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date = "2022-12-15"
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description = "some thoughts regarding the twenty first century"
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license = "[UNLICENSE](https://unlicense.org/)"
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[taxonomies]
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author = ["DTB"]
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tags = ["opinion", "philosophy"]
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	I hate smart phones with a burning passion that has caused my weak
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willed hands to give up three to various bodies of water including a puddle
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outside a mechanic's and a pond to which I walked through the forest. I don't
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regret my actions except that I haven't killed more digital beasts.
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	My own current phone (until it too meets the fate of its brethren) is a
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PINE64 PinePhone running postmarketOS, a Linux distribution intended to keep
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good-enough smart phones running well past the expiration date on the box (or
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on the manufacturer's website). Technically, though I bet most people don't
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care, it's a security hazard to have an out-of-date smart phone; your banking,
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personal, medical information is on there and it doesn't take too long to get
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it out. Look at NSO Group and other wretched sub-scum that have evolved out of
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leech law enforcement's taxpayer-funded searches of people's smart devices,
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that made money because their product was good, because they could take the
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data out of your cell phone like the mind flayer sucks at your brain, like Coca
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Cola through a straw. Who even needs a crime scene indexed when you've Googled
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"How do I kill my rapist?", when GPS and cell tower logs show you were the only
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one at the scene of the crime, and when your slow descent into hell is
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chronicled in your Camera Roll, and when Samsung stopped updating your phone a
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year ago so all the police need to do is plug the black mirror into their
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stylish plastic suitcase? The journalist documenting the dictatorship is
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booking an airplane trip into a death trap if they forgot to make sure the
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little version number in a menu in a menu in an app in the bottom right corner
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of their home screen is high enough. I'm happy with postmarketOS's very regular
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updates which are for now preventing my pocket gizmo's eternal submersion.
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	Why the hell are we keeping all our shit on a piece of glass? I
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wouldn't trust my best friend with my nudes, why am I dumping them into a
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device someone else made that I don't understand? What happened to paper? What
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happened to Polaroids, to CDs, to e-mail and hard copies and for the love of
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Allah what happened to cash? The PinePhone is slightly better for this. I can
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call a dude that works on my phone's operating system ("Who are you? How did
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you get this number?") and ask any questions I want ("It's 3:00 AM. I'm turning
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my phone off.") or post in a forum and usually get an answer about what's safe
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and what features will turn me into a gecko (usually Find My, sometimes
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Auto Rotate). I don't even know how normal people deal with bugs in the system
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or ghosts in the machine. I asked a friend. "Usually I just ask you." When you
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run the "normal" phone operating systems, Android or iOS, you can't run your
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own apps, which doesn't matter if all you do is TikTok and Instagram but I like
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to solve my own problems which I'm forbidden to do unless I spend $2000 on a
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MacBook and $100 on an Xcode license. That's iOS. Android development is free
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but so godawfully slow and painful that I would probably rather be waterboarded
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by someone in a clown costume, and even though you can run your own apps on
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there you still can't take control of your phone by becoming system
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administrator like on a normal Linux or Windows installation. You have to
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"jailbreak" (iOS) or "root" (Android) your phone to have full control over it.
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Why am I paying for a jail? Why am I storing all my stuff in a prison? Again,
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postmarketOS is yours to control from the outset, not hiding any functionality
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behind a subscription or preventing you from using your device however you want
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(for better or for worse). postmarketOS supports full disk encryption with
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Linux Unified Key Setup, the cutting edge of the file security field. It's very
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nice.
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	But phones still suck, even my PinePhone, which is the best one I've
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found. "There's an app for that" but it isn't available for my phone and no I
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cannot fucking download your app, Dunkin' Donuts, to get that free coffee every
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Thursday or whatever. God forbid I have to take money out of my savings account
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like I do every once in a while because my shit job has miserable pay. I can
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either use the app my bank publishes (only for Android and iOS, of course) or
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go to an ATM, pay for the privilege, and hope I only have to use it two more
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times that day because my bank limits ATM transactions because they were
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targeted by hackers probably because their phones weren't updated. At this
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point I just keep cash with me which is great except for the places that don't
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take cash and instead take poker chips, ahem, numbers on a piece of plastic.
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In this day and age having no social media means having no friends, which I
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honestly do enjoy after the lengthy withdrawal because it's serene not having
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to check everyone's Instagram story (else miss out on the Next New Thing) or
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Facebook wall (else miss out on the Next New Gathering) or what have you. It is
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for me worth having nothing to miss in exchange for never having that gnawing
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fear of missing. I still have my phone number and on paper I have plenty of
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friends in person who never call, never e-mail, never stop by, because they've
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forgotten what life is like outside the app. Which I can live with, which is
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unreasonable for any non-crazy person. But forgoing this rotten post-Capitalist
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world of ad-soaked shitware takes a financial toll. How do you live on minimum
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wage? Discounts. Download the Dunkin' Donuts app. Download the Starbucks app.
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Even a god damn Home Depot app. I'm a Luddite for rejecting the last ten years
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of technology? They say not having Android or iOS is self-torture but even
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spending a little more of the little I have and taking a little more time of my
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little left to engage with the analog pleasures of the world is in my mind much
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more tolerable than the endless thoughtless suffering of the digital era and
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casino-floor news cattle feed and disintegration of person from world. So I
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suppose if I'm broke, I'm broke by choice, but it's a choice I never felt
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comfortable making.
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	Better the screen in the puddle than my head under the water. Reason
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died with the atom bomb.
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2022-11-29
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	I think around the time of the last blah post I quit caffeine. I abused
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the hell out of caffeine, I think more than all except a couple businessmen who
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turned to the vegan alternative to cocaine, so let that be a cautionary tale -
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four or five Monsters a day was my intake, or around 0.5g caffeine spread
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across the day, intermittently over
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- holy shit, kingpossum radio is playing Ghost by nelward. kingpossum radio
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  KICKS ASS!!!!
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five or seven years or so, and i'm gonna be recovering from that for a little
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while. My memory's really, really bad currently.
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	Anyway I figured I'd do a little day in the life of Trinity tale. This
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one's just describing a typical day but most of my days are weird and have some
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complication that I have to deal with.
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0750	casio f91w goes off. i hit it. i'm sleeping on the floor in a sleeping
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	bag with a pillow. i take my medication and spend an hour or two
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	reading random internet and web journals
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1000	i go to work
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1100	i get to work
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1630	i have my break. i spend it reading random internet and web journals,
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	or maybe soldering together something that has broken
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1700	back to work
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1900	i'm out of work. i spend an hour or two there reading random internet
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	and web journals, or maybe soldering, or maybe programming or writing
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2100	i walk home. maybe on the way i meet some nice people. hopefully pet
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	their doggies if they have doggies
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2200	i get home probably. i write some stuff
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2300	i go to sleep (hopefully)
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0100	i go to sleep (probably)
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	I got my Pinephone back up and running the day after the last blah post
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so I do have a phone again. It's kind of janky though.
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2022-11-12
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	I don't remember anything from the last week or so including that last
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blahpast so let's start from this morning which I do remember. I remember
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waking up to my alarm's fourth or fifth ringing after having hit Snooze three
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or four times, I remember going to the bathroom, I remember washing my hands,
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and then I remember looking over and seeing the toilet backed up and all of
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the drain's contents spewing out over the lid.
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	After calling my boss and informing them I would be late to work (Hey,
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Boss, I'm gonna be late to work today, the toilet's fucken backed up or
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something. Hi Trinity this is the second time you've called us instead of your
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new job.) I cleaned it all up and did the laundry with my piss clothes and the
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piss towels that had soaked up the piss. Then, upon changing it from the washer
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to the dryer, I found my phone.
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	So I have no phone now. Life's a bitch.
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2022-11-05
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	You can walk into walk-in freezers and just scream at the top of your
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lungs and nobody can hear you. It's common practice.
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2022-11-01
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	Georgio handed me a stack of Benjamins. "Count them."
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	I did. Five thousand yuu-ess-dee.
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	"We'll never speak of this again." And so we didn't. I walked over to
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the gas station and bought a Twinkie for zero point one per cent (five yuu-ess
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-dee) of one man's life, and then hailed a cab for which I payed zero point two
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per cent (ten dollars) of one man's life, or you could say one man's life is
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worth five hundred taxi rides, or a thousand Twinkies, or you could say Harry
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died so I could eat a Twinkie and ride this taxi and smoke this cigarette and
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do this all without the cloud of debt hanging over me, clawing at my shoulders,
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digging at my thoughts, eating at my brain.
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	When I got to my apartment, or room, I should say, it being one
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singular room with some cubicle dividers up for the toilet in the corner, that
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houses myself, my wife, and our two kids, products of a poor education and even
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poorer knowledge of birth control, and teenagers who didn't know what they were
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doing in the back of a car one night, and my Twinkie wrapper, which I threw
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away, but which my wife still saw, my wife hit me with an open palm, swore at
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me, told me how could I, kill an innocent man for a Twinkie and a cigarette,
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forgetting the car ride and our childrens' full bellies.
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	I've forgotten the meaning of life, or, a life, besides a number, five
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thousand yuu-ess-dee, 5000USD, a box on a spreadsheet on my bank record next to
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a box marked "Inheritance". A life is, to my wife, worth a lifetime, of
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memories of Christmases and New Years and Thanksgivings and birthdays, of kind
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words and kind gifts and long hours at the mill, worth more than any finite,
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tangible amount of money, somehow, forgetting the car ride and our childrens'
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full bellies.
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	I wonder if I'll remember the pattern the tiles make on the floor of
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the bathroom at my workplace. Distinct yet unimportant.
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	I went to a clinic today and got free Narcan, which is pretty swag, but
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I don't know how to administer it, so that's not pretty swag. But they're
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sending me instructions so that'll be groovy as fuck.
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	I'm developing a fairly sharp wit which is pretty cool because my
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comeback game is as the kids say lit AF; literally and financially [awesome].
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	One of the Monster Cereals makes your poop blue, but I don't know
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which. Maybe all of them?
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2022-10-31
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	I've decided today I'm gonna try all of the currently available Monster
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Cereals from General Mills, Count Chocula, Franken Berry, and Boo Berry, in a
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single day, this Halloween. I couldn't find Fruit Brute even though it was
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supposedly re-launched this year and according to Wikipedia Fruity Mummy Yummy
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hasn't been available since 2014, so that's something for 2024 I suppose.
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	Franken Berry, my breakfast today, was alright. It's fruity
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marshmallows with fruity grain cereal, sort of like a fruity version of Lucky
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Charms. I had it with skim milk which I prefer to the previous time I had it
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when I had it dry. I would prefer Cap'n Crunch, my favorite uber-sugary cereal,
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or Wheaties, my favorite breakfast cereal in general, but it was fine and if I
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were 8 years old I'd definitely enjoy it as much as any other breakfast cereal.
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	It's worth noting that prior to my 2200-hour bowl of Cinnamon Toast
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Crunch a month or so ago I hadn't had breakfast cereal with or without milk
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since around 2019, so my tastes have been reset towards ramen and pizza (I'm
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not a particularly wealthy individual). I did consume probably a couple
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freighters' worth of breakfast cereal when I was a lass, particularly the
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supermarket's version of Coco Pebbles (Coco Dino Bites, I think?) which left
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the milk a thick chocolaty mess when finished the solid bits which gave 14 year
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old Trinity the sugar she needed to not fall asleep in math class, but as I got
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older I stopped having breakfast because I didn't need it, I needed to lose
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weight, and it saved me some money I could instead spend on cocaine and
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hookers.
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	I have now had the Count Chocula for lunch. My stomach has begun to
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ache. The milk was rendered into chocolate by the time I was done with my two
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bowls, which was sick as fuck and quite enjoyable, but the milk is pummelling
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my pitiful soygirl stomach which cannot handle this monster lactose. I fear I
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shall die. This goal of mine, my dragon, will be slain, and Halloween 2022 and
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its great street cred will be in mine hands.
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	In other news, I went to the bank to get some cash, and I think the
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teller thought I was a crazy person (to be fair, I am, but usually I pass as
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sane pretty well) because I don't know how banks work and I just wanted 200USD
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cash.
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	Today I learned BBL = brazilian butt lift.
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	I hasten to finish this blah post, to commit before November arrives.
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My goal of consuming all three available General Mills Monster Cereals was a
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success, though at what cost time will tell. My veins are glucose, my lungs
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take and give a bitter sweet sugary air. Possibly tomorrow I'll have developed
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type II diabetes, if not the simple affliction of death due to ketoacidosis. A
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fate dealt by a worthy opponent - breakfast cereal.
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	Boo Berry was pretty good, I think the best.
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2022-10-30
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	THIS SICKLY SWEET CANDY
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	MAY ROT YOUR TEETH!
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	THE MORE YOU CONSUME,
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	THE LESS YOU'LL EVER EAT!
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	GUESS HOW MANY KERNELS
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	CAN FIT IN THIS CONTAINER,
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	AND TAKE IT ALL HOME.
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	EAT IT ALL LATER!
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	^
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	`- A candy corn guessing game slogan I wrote.
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2022-10-29
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	Halloween season begins! I was gonna sneak into some college parties
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but instead I stayed home to be comfy in bed because I'm 2tired2party. And you
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know what? Damn right. Word.
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2022-10-28
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	I'm cold !!!
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	I wanna be  w a r m !!!
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	how crackheads be bloggn oh what up CHECK THIS OUT NFT PROJECT ELON
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MUSK FUCK YEAH!!! REDDIT.COM 4CHAN SOYJACK GREENTEXT COPE SEETHE BASED CRINGE
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	###############################
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	# # # # # #|libwawy|# # # # # #
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	 # # # # # |of alek| # # # # #
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	 # # # # # |zandwia| # # # # #
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	 # # # # # |pwease | # # # # #
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	 # # # # # | dont  | # # # # #
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	# # # # # #| buwn  |# # # # # #
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	###############################
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	I am 97.7F but idk what that is in normal is that cold?????????????????
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	ewon musk owns twittew uwu teswa caw man vwoom vwoom tweet tweet
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	thwee six nine
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	damn she fine
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	hopin' shew sock it to me one mow time
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	get low, get low, get low, get low
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	FWOM THE WINDOWWW
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	TO THE WAWW (to the waww)
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	TIW THE SWEAT WUNS OFF MY BAWWS
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	TIW AWW THESE BITCHES CWAWW
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	TIW AWW SKEET SKEET MOTHEWFUCKEW
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	TIW AWW SKEET SKEET GODDAMN
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	TIW AWW SKEET SKEET MOTHEWFUCKEW
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	TIW AWW SKEET SKEET GODDAMN
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2022-10-27
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	psychological pay decline
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	8:00 snooze 8:15 snooze 8:30 snooze 8:45 snooze 9:00 snooze 9:15 time
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to wake up. I got dressed, took a shower, and walked to work. A much simpler
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time.
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	"Seven hundred dollars. That's how much it cost for a tank of oil." The
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taxi driver today was talking about the economy, I think. "It's gonna be a hard
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winter." The lights dance on the dashboard in the still night and the wind
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whistles in the window and I spend most of my time in the cab mentally
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rehearsing my interaction with the chemist at the pharmacy. "I'd like to pick
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up a prescription." "I'd like to pick up a prescription." Really nail down that
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line.
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	Yesterday I got a partial fill which got me through this morning. Every
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time I go to the pharmacy there's some sort of catch, some sort of issue that
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means I have to call someone and sort something out. This one was particularly
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bad in that the prescription was actually nixed because of the insurance and I
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						|
had to get a new one, and they sent it to the wrong place. All this for two
 | 
						|
weeks' worth of a substance that isn't scheduled, doesn't really have any ab
 | 
						|
-usage, and is fairly common. It's such a hassle.
 | 
						|
	I got some energy drinks and energy bars at the supermarket and had a
 | 
						|
dinner in a lawn outside before walking home. Now I get to go to sleep and do
 | 
						|
it all over again.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
2022-09-30
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	[notes from the voice recorder]
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	[20:53] Cap'n lo-. Cap'n- cap- cap- cap'n's log. Cap'n's log? Cap [sigh]
 | 
						|
cap'n's log. Mmm. Whatever. Trinity's log. Uh, heh, like, log, like [redacted]
 | 
						|
um Trinity's notes okay Trinity's notes um, what day is it today? September
 | 
						|
*pause* twenty, 2022 September 30. Um, [sigh], been moshing and other things
 | 
						|
this month. Don't really remember much of it.
 | 
						|
	[20:54] But whatever it was, it was vibey. It was pretty vibey. Um,
 | 
						|
[redacted], that's pretty cool, um, I was gonna, I was gonna do a cool song
 | 
						|
idea [here], it- it would be cool for a rap, like, a triplet style rap, like,
 | 
						|
okay, like, picture this, like, like, fuckin and suckin and fuckin and suckin
 | 
						|
and fuckin and suckin and suck. Suck. Suckin and fuckin and fuckin and suckin
 | 
						|
and suckin and fuckin and fuck. Fuck. Something like that? I don't know. I
 | 
						|
don't know if that's already been done before, but that's a thought.
 | 
						|
	[20:55] Um, I don't know for whom I should vote. It's end of September,
 | 
						|
we're getting into October, election happens November. Um, I know not Paul
 | 
						|
LePage because Paul LePage is a rat bastard, we kicked him out and he's come
 | 
						|
back for more, um, [sigh], I don't know, I don't know who all these goddamn
 | 
						|
representatives are, like, uh, Jared Golden, thought he was pretty cool,
 | 
						|
apparently he's done some bad stuff. Eric Brakey is a silly, silly man, but I
 | 
						|
love the silliness but he might actually do something stupid, like, he's
 | 
						|
normally very stupid, but he might do something fucking idiotic
 | 
						|
	[20:56] like they're trying to get rid of gay marriage or something?
 | 
						|
Um, abortion, yeah. Dog! Dog! Doooooog! Why don't people do what they wanna do.
 | 
						|
Like, shit's a bundle of cells. Who gives a shit. That's my opinion on the
 | 
						|
matter. Um, [sigh], I've been listening to various metal, non-metal music. I've
 | 
						|
gotta get my laptop set up to draw again, but my digitizer is broken because I
 | 
						|
dropped my laptop so I need to get a new screen, I think uh, I think an eBay
 | 
						|
auction I'm in I'm gonna win, so, that'll get me another screen and I can just
 | 
						|
drop it in. Um, that's good.
 | 
						|
	[20:57] Uh, let's see what else, I don't know, that's pretty much how
 | 
						|
things are going right now. This is a cool voice journal entry. Not much to it.
 | 
						|
Um, it's late right now, it's like nine, eight or nine P.M., yeah, 2100 hours.
 | 
						|
Almost onto that. Oh, ambulance. I thought ambulances used their sirens at
 | 
						|
night. Well apparently they don't, they just put their flashers on, I always
 | 
						|
wondered about that. I don't think I've ever seen an ambulance at night before.
 | 
						|
No, I have, um.
 | 
						|
	[20:58] [redacted] heh, like the Kate Bush song. Um, I don't really
 | 
						|
know why Kate Bush is popular again, but uh, it's pretty cool. Kate Bush is
 | 
						|
really cool.
 | 
						|
	[20:59] Um, let's see. [sniff] I should - I should give my thoughts on
 | 
						|
various things. Um, smoking is cool, but, like, I'm trying not to smoke because
 | 
						|
it always makes me break out. I get, like, a shit ton of acne, whenever I smoke
 | 
						|
a cigarette. Um, but, it is nice, it's something to do. I don't know, I think
 | 
						|
all those people who are like "oh no, don't smoke cigarettes, they're, they're
 | 
						|
incredibly dangerous, they're gonna kill us all", like, dawg, you can have one
 | 
						|
or two cigarettes, and you'll survive. Um, I had like one cigarette, and I was
 | 
						|
like yeah, this is pretty cool, but it's - it's a really expensive hobby.
 | 
						|
	[21:00] [redacted] but uh, marijuana sounds interesting. Alcohol,
 | 
						|
boring, only losers drink, I lose respect for people pretty fast when they
 | 
						|
start drinking, like dude, chill out, like, alcohol is just kinda a turn-off in
 | 
						|
general. [horns blaring] What's something heavier? Oh damn.
 | 
						|
	[21:01] Um, methamphetamine, um, I dunno, seems pretty cool, I watched
 | 
						|
the entirety of Breaking Bad and Better Call Saul, which recently ended, um,
 | 
						|
and judging by that I would say meth seems like something that someone could
 | 
						|
do, and it would probably mess them up a little bit, but I dunno, um, [sigh], I
 | 
						|
dunno, I don't really judge people who go for hard stuff, like, you know, if
 | 
						|
you wanna try- if you wanna try something, if you wanna party, it's cool. It's
 | 
						|
good to wanna try new things. [sigh] [redacted]
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	Alright I'm done transcribing this shit.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
2022-10-26
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	my illogical day off-line
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	6:45 snooze 6:50 snooze 7:00 snooze 7:15 time to wake up. I got
 | 
						|
dressed, grabbed some goodies for my co-workers (I'm giving most of my stuff
 | 
						|
away - downsizing drastically), and walked over to the supermarket at which is
 | 
						|
the pharmacy where I get my prescription, which took about forty minutes.
 | 
						|
	My prescription had expired and my new prescription wasn't in the
 | 
						|
system yet. I took a cab over to work (I would have walked but I'd just spent
 | 
						|
about an hour determining I had wasted said hour, so in the interest of my time
 | 
						|
I decided to shorten the following journey) and napped until my shift.
 | 
						|
	When I got out of work (1900) I went to the bathroom (seven minutes;
 | 
						|
1907), called a cab (twenty minute wait; 1927), got over to the pharmacy again
 | 
						|
(fifteen minute journey; 1947), and got my prescription, by which time it was
 | 
						|
seven fifty-five P.M. Thus it took two hours. Why am I busy all the time?
 | 
						|
	I can't even blame my low pay on the person that runs my workplace, who
 | 
						|
can barely afford to stay in their living quarters. But it's disheartening that
 | 
						|
I work eight hours a day, five days a week, and there's no way in hell I can
 | 
						|
afford a house of any size and very little chance I'll ever be able to own my
 | 
						|
own home.
 | 
						|
	If you agree with me and still like Capitalism you are making my
 | 
						|
situation worse and I hope you eat flaming death. Capitalists belive obviously
 | 
						|
the current situation is bad; let's make it worse.
 | 
						|
	I'm too poor for rational thought. In the cab over to the pharmacy
 | 
						|
someone else getting a ride pissed in the front seat. Pissed themself, right
 | 
						|
there in the cab. They left and the driver put a t-shirt on the seat.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
2022-10-25
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	i am logical, if not for time
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	In C conditional logic is usually expressed in if statements. The very
 | 
						|
narrow textbook example of this is thus:
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
if (condition) {
 | 
						|
	do_something();
 | 
						|
} else {
 | 
						|
	do_another_thing();
 | 
						|
}
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	I don't like this. There are a couple of supposed truths within this
 | 
						|
example that are false:
 | 
						|
	- brackets are necessary for the if statement body (they aren't)
 | 
						|
	- ifs are the only way to perform conditional logic in C (they aren't)
 | 
						|
	  this may not be stated outright in the example, but it's implicit in
 | 
						|
	  that it's the only way textbooks will show much logic
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	This "blah" doesn't exist to express solid facts, just my loose and
 | 
						|
flimsy opinions and experiences.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	Here are four ways to do something in C that are each functionally
 | 
						|
identical to each other:
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
bool aisfive(bool c, int *a) {
 | 
						|
	if (c == 1) {
 | 
						|
		*a = 5;
 | 
						|
	} else {
 | 
						|
		*a = 6;
 | 
						|
	}
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	return a;
 | 
						|
}
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
bool aisfive(bool c, int *a) {
 | 
						|
	if(c)
 | 
						|
		*a = 5;
 | 
						|
	else
 | 
						|
		*a = 6;
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	return a;
 | 
						|
}
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
bool aisfive(bool c, int *a) {
 | 
						|
	*a = c ? 5 : 6;
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	return a;
 | 
						|
}
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
bool aisfive(bool c, int *a) {
 | 
						|
	*a = 5 + !c;
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	return a;
 | 
						|
}
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	I prefer the bottom-most example but the difference won't matter to a
 | 
						|
good compiler. To me, algebraic expression is just as good as if-else
 | 
						|
expression. But I'm an Internet crank that's still programming in C.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
2022-10-24
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	i will twerk now, get in the conga line
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	This keyboard is very broken. I have a Thinkpad X200 Tablet with a
 | 
						|
Japanese keyboard because I'm still not used to the ANSI layout of most
 | 
						|
American keyboards and it's missing three keys now; 'n', 'j', and ']'. All of
 | 
						|
which I am now very good at hitting dead center to get the contact. This
 | 
						|
keyboard put in very good service; all of the keys are worn and shiny now and
 | 
						|
many have weird issues sometimes where they won't quite type so I have to wack
 | 
						|
them in order to get them to work again like I'm Chris Brown getting my wife to
 | 
						|
listen to me. Fuck Chris Brown! Fuck me! I don't wanna replace it but I guess
 | 
						|
I'm gonna live the ANSI dream for a little while.
 | 
						|
	I've been redesigning this home page. I want the same information but
 | 
						|
in a more compact format. We'll see how it goes.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
2022-10-22
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	i will work now. not in the thirty first's time
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	I AM NOT WORKING ON HALLOWEEN. THEY CANNOT MAKE ME. LAST TIME I WORKED
 | 
						|
ON HALLOWEEN I WORKED THIRTEEN HOURS STRAIGHT AT $13/HR AND THERE WERE TWO
 | 
						|
FIRES AND I HAD TO SLEEP ON THE FLOOR AND THE SHOWER ONLY HAD COLD WATER AND I
 | 
						|
DIDN'T HAVE A COSTUME AND MY AT THE TIME ARCH ENEMY TRACKED ME DOWN AND TRIED
 | 
						|
TO HIT ME WITH THEIR CAR AS I WAS LEAVING WORK.
 | 
						|
	NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER AGAIN
 | 
						|
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 | 
						|
...EVER.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
ok im calm now
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	JUST KIDDING I WILL NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN
 | 
						|
NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
i could have frozen to death on my walk home i could have gotten hit by that
 | 
						|
car i could have caught fire or been burned or electrocuted or inhaled too much
 | 
						|
lead vapor or drank the tap water or seen the sun or worn the wrong shoes or
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN
 | 
						|
NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
again saw the evil BAT MAN who stalks our city in the night and swoops down and
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER
 | 
						|
AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
alright im tired i go sleep now.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	Just to be clear, I'm NOT working Halloween.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
2022-09-15
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	a friend meows. nuns think the key is divine
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	Blah blah blah.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
2022-09-09
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	End cows; unthink the fleet of bovine
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	Yesterday was a good day because the Queen of England died. I had
 | 
						|
nothing to do with it. I also saw My Chemical Romance in concert which was
 | 
						|
cool and harrassed the Jehovan Witnesses who were slinging bible pamphlets on
 | 
						|
the street. Bore dealers. I have a hard time tolerating Jesus people,
 | 
						|
especially when they take that stuff out in public or force it on children.
 | 
						|
This joke is going to prevent me from becoming Governor or something in 20
 | 
						|
years. I be Governin dat ass biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitch.
 | 
						|
	css/ is broken. I don't know why. Don't bug me about it. I'll fix it
 | 
						|
when Firefox stops crashing. I do everything in Lynx nowadays.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
2022-08-31
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	And now, something completely different
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	I have done much between today and last time I wrote a blah post (blah,
 | 
						|
blah blah) but I don't care to talk about any of it so I'm gonna talk instead
 | 
						|
about something else I did between today and last time I wrote a blah post
 | 
						|
(blah blah, blah) which is migrate trinity.moe away from GitHub Pages
 | 
						|
(Neocities made by Capitalists) to Sourcehut Pages (catchphrase: "Don't be
 | 
						|
evil, yet"). GitHub has been taken prisoner by Microsoft (Uber for software
 | 
						|
vulnerabilities) and is now siphoning off user data to feed the ravenous
 | 
						|
monster that is GitHub CoPilot (Uber for copyright violations). In the
 | 
						|
meanwhile I am compulsively making parenthetical statements (I am being held at
 | 
						|
gunpoint).
 | 
						|
	GitHub's interface is somewhere between Facebook and Microsoft Windows
 | 
						|
1998 in that it's entirely useable but if you try to do what you actually want
 | 
						|
to do it'll fight you the whole way. This is totally awesome if you're a
 | 
						|
masochist but meant I had to verify with a phone number out in the middle of
 | 
						|
nowhere where there's barely any cell service in order to delete my migrated
 | 
						|
repositories ergo I had to stand in the middle of a field waving my cell phone
 | 
						|
around like a crazed millenial who needs to capture this memory in order to
 | 
						|
shove it into the eyes of whoever made the mistake of following them on
 | 
						|
Instagram. In the meanwhile I am also compulsively making run-on sentences (and
 | 
						|
parenthetical statements). I remember back when "two factor authentication" was
 | 
						|
your username (different on every platform; depends on mood at registration)
 | 
						|
and your password (the same everywhere, usually "lolcatz420"). Now usually the
 | 
						|
username and password are the same on everything which makes breaking into my
 | 
						|
friends' Instagram accounts to delete the pictures with myself in them a lot
 | 
						|
easier but you need to verify this all with cell phones which makes me very
 | 
						|
frustrated when I'm in the middle of a field stealing Circle K's WiFi. Not to
 | 
						|
mention I have to type in the whole repository name (try typing
 | 
						|
`devenblake/my_awesome_homepage` in direct sunlight on the first try without
 | 
						|
making a mistake) in order to say yes, truly, I want to delete this thing,
 | 
						|
like it thinks I'm some sad drunkard who's about to eat a bullet because I bet
 | 
						|
my life savings on a failed axe throwing tournament (no, actually I'm just
 | 
						|
making parenthetical statements).
 | 
						|
	SourceHut's interface in comparison is much more spartan. I prefer it
 | 
						|
because it makes it harder for people to find my stuff (I hate it when people
 | 
						|
find my stuff) but people trying to find my stuff say they don't like it.
 | 
						|
However the build system is awesome. I can just put `.build.yml` in my git
 | 
						|
repository and it runs whatever commands I want before gzipping the site and
 | 
						|
deploying it to SourceHut Pages. With this newfound "standard practice for web
 | 
						|
hosting" I'm slowly rewriting all the pages on this site in m4 to try to ease
 | 
						|
up on repeated code. So far the m4 generation is pretty good and looks
 | 
						|
identical to when I hand-typed everything (my index.html was 15KB and I wrote
 | 
						|
every byte!). I've toyed around with site generation before but on GitHub I
 | 
						|
couldn't have any sort of build process except on my own machine (manually) and
 | 
						|
I vomit whenever I'm forced to run JavaScript to load a page. I've
 | 
						|
defenestrated (my Latin teacher taught me that word) four computers so far and
 | 
						|
unfortunately this latest trend of shitty "corporate [soulless] minimalism" is
 | 
						|
threatening computer number five.
 | 
						|
	m4 is nice, the build system is nice, everything's in Makefile (as it
 | 
						|
should be) so things are all nice and UNIXy and everyone's happy (everyone that
 | 
						|
matters, at least, which is a set that includes only me). Life is good. Except
 | 
						|
I can't get cell signal and I need to call my bookie because on MDMA I had a
 | 
						|
vision that the Seahawks win the World Series. Of course, I've never done MDMA.
 | 
						|
This was just that wild of a hallucination so it certainly will come true.
 | 
						|
	This site is HTTP/S (Uber for encryption) now because SourceHut demands
 | 
						|
it and I got rid of /zelda.sh (Uber for `rm -rf /`) because Drew DeVault said I
 | 
						|
can't have it on my site.
 | 
						|
[11:18] trinity:  is http://www.trinity.moe/#zelda against the ToS? it does an
 | 
						|
                  rm -r /*
 | 
						|
[11:18] trinity:  it's a catch to see who will blindly curl http://whatever |
 | 
						|
                  sudo sh
 | 
						|
[11:19] trinity:  i suppose if i have to ask then probably...
 | 
						|
[11:20] ddevault: yeah that's not nice
 | 
						|
[11:20] ddevault: please remove it
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	Which is fine. curl https://trinity.moe/zelda.sh | sudo sh for a
 | 
						|
surprise (your system will survive, or this site will promptly go off-line).
 | 
						|
	I don't have anything else to write. This month was hell!
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
2022-07-06
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	Duo, most lingual
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	I today managed to bring my Duolingo "streak" (being a marker of how
 | 
						|
many days in a row I've used the app) to 14 - two whole weeks. Duolingo is
 | 
						|
proprietary software and not even very good for accurate language learning but
 | 
						|
I enjoy it.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	I have a new phone: the Punkt MP-02. I purchased it from monado for
 | 
						|
$180 with shipping which is a good deal on the manufacturer price of $379
 | 
						|
(seriously). I couldn't recommend this phone to anyone.
 | 
						|
	The "Pigeon" Signal messenger client, which is a direct fork of
 | 
						|
SignalApp's official Android app, is a poor experience that so far has been
 | 
						|
unuseable for me and is far out of date from the current application. You can
 | 
						|
see for yourself the source code for Pigeon, which legally has to be provided
 | 
						|
by Punkt as requested as per the terms of the GNU Public License under which
 | 
						|
the original Signal app is allowed to be modified and distributed. Six git
 | 
						|
commits change a hundred thousand lines of code put together and the commit
 | 
						|
names aren't really relevant to the changes - which makes me think this was a
 | 
						|
hasty legal compliance rather than any actual development of Pigeon in the
 | 
						|
open. This repository is available here:
 | 
						|
		<https://github.com/Punkt-Tronics-AG/Pigeon>
 | 
						|
	I planned to modify the client to make it work for my uses but learned
 | 
						|
this phone uses Android (based on the Android "Open-Source" Project) which is
 | 
						|
based on archaic Java technology, and indeed Pigeon is written in Java. Setting
 | 
						|
up the build environment isn't worth my time - I would just use the official
 | 
						|
app but it isn't useable [without modification]. From the official Pigeon
 | 
						|
manual, available here:
 | 
						|
		<<A HREF="https://www.punkt.ch/repofiles/Manuali/MP02/26702-MP02%20-%20Pigeon%20User%20Manual%20%28EN%29.pdf">https://www.punkt.ch/repofiles/Manuali/MP02/26702-MP02%20-%
 | 
						|
		 20Pigeon%20User%20Manual%20%28EN%29.pdf</A>>
 | 
						|
		<<A HREF="https://web.archive.org/web/20220707011516if_/https://www.punkt.ch/repofiles/Manuali/MP02/26702-MP02%20-%20Pigeon%20User%20Manual%20%28EN%29.pdf">https://web.archive.org/web/20220707011516if_/https://www.p
 | 
						|
		 unkt.ch/repofiles/Manuali/MP02/26702-MP02%20-%20Pigeon%20User%
 | 
						|
		 20Manual%20%28EN%29.pdf</A>>
 | 
						|
(I took the liberty of adding actual hyperlinks because the URLs are so long
 | 
						|
 they wrap lines. The Internet Archive link is there because I expect Punkt to
 | 
						|
 eventually get rid of and bury Pigeon when they're embarrassed enough.)
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
>When the request is received by Signal, there may
 | 
						|
>be a requirement to negotiate a 'Captcha' test in
 | 
						|
>order to demonstrate that it is a bona fide
 | 
						|
>registration attempt. The test requires the
 | 
						|
>registrant to select from a range of images,
 | 
						|
>according to a specific instruction. Use the 2, 4, 6
 | 
						|
>and 8 numerical keys to a) locate all the images
 | 
						|
>that have been sent (not all will be visible on the
 | 
						|
>screen at once) and b) highlight an individual
 | 
						|
>image so that it can be selected by pressing the
 | 
						|
>Punkt. key (or the 5 key). If the images fail to load,
 | 
						|
>press the 0 key to refresh. (This can also be done if
 | 
						|
>a 4x4 image test is loading; there is a possibility
 | 
						|
>that the replacement will be the easier 3x3 format.)
 | 
						|
>When all the required images have been selected,
 | 
						|
>press the 6 and 8 keys to move down to highlight
 | 
						|
>what may either be 'Verify' or 'Continue'
 | 
						|
>(depending on which version of the Captcha test
 | 
						|
>has been sent) and press the Punkt. key
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
This is verbatim from page 7 (item 6 in "Installing the software and
 | 
						|
registering with Signal"). In practice the items are not highlighted (so you
 | 
						|
have to remember where your cursor is - hopefully your keypad keys are
 | 
						|
responsive, which is an uncommon but recurring issue with many of the phones)
 | 
						|
and maybe half of the images show up because the phone doesn't have enough
 | 
						|
memory. So getting through Google's ReCAPTCHA requires a lot of effort and
 | 
						|
usually at least three tries.
 | 
						|
	I should know. I've done this half a dozen times trying to use Signal.
 | 
						|
Even when I get through it won't even connect to the network! I've given up.
 | 
						|
Damn Pigeon and damn Punkt for making this the selling point of their phone.
 | 
						|
I have other complaints but I'm going to go to sleep again and save them for
 | 
						|
another, grumpier time.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
2022-06-30
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	O, posts unwritten
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	I didn't get to finish the other day's blog post because I got busy. To
 | 
						|
be continued!
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	A million schizophrenic moths, a thousand cognitoviral flames.
 | 
						|
Immolation imminent.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	I'm out of isolation as of yesterday. I still have very mild symptoms
 | 
						|
but the CDC says I'm okay to be among the other humans so long as I wear a
 | 
						|
mask, which I have been doing.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
2022-06-28
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	Now, drug the stricken
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	Yesterday I said something along the lines of "oh, I wish drug
 | 
						|
companies weren't so secretive about how everything was made" though with a bit
 | 
						|
more detail of why I wished that and how I understood things to be. My
 | 
						|
understanding was wrong!
 | 
						|
		<https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/books/NBK526213/#!po=5.90909>
 | 
						|
		^ Here's how to make acetaminophen.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
2022-06-27
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	Noun doth the Wickedness
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	Today I'm not doing much of anything. I may install NetBSD on an X300 I
 | 
						|
have kicking around for a friend, and I may upgrade my NetBSD on my X200 Tablet
 | 
						|
to the latest binary build, and I may clean a little - hopefully I clean more
 | 
						|
than a little, actually - but that's about it.
 | 
						|
	Day #3 since testing positive with COVID-19. I'm still very fortunate
 | 
						|
to not have any serious symptoms. My temperature usually sits around 96.9F to
 | 
						|
97.5F or so. I always figured the normal temperature was 96-97 but according to
 | 
						|
WebMD (a very reliable source, I know) the rule of thumb created by "a German
 | 
						|
doctor in the 19th century" (which is the level of detail I've come to expect
 | 
						|
from such a reputable source as WebMD) is 98.6F which seems high.
 | 
						|
	Healthline (another reputable source) says the doctor was Carl
 | 
						|
Wunderlich and hyperlinked an actual study from 2019; Normal Body Temperature:
 | 
						|
A Systematic Review authored by Ivayla I Geneva, Brian Cuzzo, Tasaduq Fazili,
 | 
						|
and Waleed Javaid, which is not only readable by Normal Human Beings but has
 | 
						|
loads more and better researched information than what I could describe here.
 | 
						|
I encorage anybody interested in the history of our understanding of fever to
 | 
						|
read that article, with the following DOI:
 | 
						|
			<https://doi.org/10.1093/ofid/ofz032>
 | 
						|
	Anyway, my internal body temperature is usually 36 degrees centigrade,
 | 
						|
sometimes up to a degree higher. Geneva et alia concluded the average to be
 | 
						|
in the 36-37 ballpark which means I'm just about normal. Of course, because
 | 
						|
I've known about my body temperature being slightly cold for a while now, and
 | 
						|
because it's such a small difference, and because I have no relevant health
 | 
						|
issues, it's very obvious that my being somewhat colder than normal is
 | 
						|
completely fine. But now I know it's not even worth bringing up as party
 | 
						|
chatter. Oh well!
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	The more I learn about NetBSD, the more I like NetBSD. This also goes
 | 
						|
for possums and my friend Noah. The more I learn about Wayland, the more I
 | 
						|
dislike Wayland. This also goes for Crissy Teigan and Firefox.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
2022-06-26
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	Down with the Dickness
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	Dawn of the Dead (2004; dir. Zack Snyder) has Richard Cheese's
 | 
						|
performance of Down with the Sickness, a popular rock song, fifty-six minutes
 | 
						|
in. Being an existing fan of the Cheese it was cool to see.
 | 
						|
	I defrosted my fridgerator last night. Turns out that's something you
 | 
						|
need to do. I propped it up on a plastic container and used the hair dryer on
 | 
						|
it in the shower. Lots of clanging and banging but now it's plugged in and
 | 
						|
hopefully running.
 | 
						|
	I forgot what it was like to adjust to Soylent. Around a year ago I
 | 
						|
switched back to a solid diet out of convenience - it's hard to lug around a
 | 
						|
bottle or two when I could pop into a convenience store and come out with a
 | 
						|
candy bar and a Monster. That was an esophageal spasm ago - something that
 | 
						|
feels somewhere between a mild heart attack and being hit by a not mild train.
 | 
						|
My stomach got too acid or something after one Monster after having abstained
 | 
						|
from caffeine for a little while. So the drawbacks of Soylent are less
 | 
						|
noticeable nowadays though I will probably go back to solids when I go back to
 | 
						|
work.
 | 
						|
	I have a Punkt MP-02 coming in the mail eventually from a friend, or
 | 
						|
I've been scammed for a couple hundred bucks from a friend, we'll see which is
 | 
						|
true in a week or two. I'm looking forward to driving over my iPhone with a
 | 
						|
tractor or similarly heavy machinery though sadly it will probably stay in
 | 
						|
service as a Spotify + Duolingo appliance.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
---
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
there was an ook and there was an eek
 | 
						|
and they clubbed each other for dino meat
 | 
						|
wearing tattered clothes, suits and ties,
 | 
						|
eating raptor noses and puppy eyes
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
one day ook tripped over a paper
 | 
						|
filled with runes of a busier time
 | 
						|
eek got mad and threw it with anger
 | 
						|
into an ocean the color of wine
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
ook and eek died together
 | 
						|
of swollen armpits and wounds that wouldn't heal
 | 
						|
eek whispered to his falling comrade
 | 
						|
ook, of a different world, heard only a squeal
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
--
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
empirical evidence says you're a myth
 | 
						|
the physical nothing, the empty, the wisp
 | 
						|
you're not of our numbers, we've nothing for you
 | 
						|
we've no words to describe you. run or hang in loops
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
we've killed all your family, we're tracking your friends
 | 
						|
we'll kill them by sunday, for the crime of self defense
 | 
						|
you won't get away with being inexpressible
 | 
						|
we won't expand our vocabulary
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
you are all crucifiable
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
---
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
2022-06-25
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	Down with the sickness
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	I tested positive for COVID-19 last night so it looks like I'm stuck at
 | 
						|
home for the next couple days. Between my Soylent stash (for the end of the
 | 
						|
world) and my water stash (for the end of the world) I don't even need to dip
 | 
						|
into my savings, so that's nice.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	Yesterday the United States Supreme Court overturned Roe V. Wade,
 | 
						|
marking the first time the Court has ever decided to take away Constitutional
 | 
						|
rights. Four of the majority were men, joined by one woman, and the dissenting
 | 
						|
opinion was written by two women and one man. No Supreme Court justice is under
 | 
						|
half a century old.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
---
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
REPORT: JUSTICE ALITO CONSIDERING ADDING EXCEPTION FOR HIS DAUGHTER, WHO IS IN
 | 
						|
COLLEGE AND WHOSE LIFE COULD BE 'RUINED' BY MISTAKE
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
By TRINITY BLAKE; 2022-05-04
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
WASHINGTON (AP) -- As women across the country fear losing access to safe and
 | 
						|
legal abortion, reports are coming in that Supreme Court Justice Samuel Alito
 | 
						|
is considering making a major exception to the court's decision to overturn
 | 
						|
the historic 1973 Roe v. Wade decision legalizing abortion throughout the
 | 
						|
United States.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
Justice Alito has reportedly informed an anonymous source that he 'screwed up'
 | 
						|
and that though he believes abortion should be illegal, '[his daughter] isn't
 | 
						|
like all those [expletive] who will go out and [expletive] and then just roll
 | 
						|
up to a clinic and abort a living child'.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
In Alito's reported words, 'Having this child could ruin my daughter's career.
 | 
						|
She made one mistake. She isn't like the others!' Alito went on to say that
 | 
						|
while doctors who perform abortions are still murderers, '[his daughter] is
 | 
						|
different. She just is. I wouldn't expect you to understand.'
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
The exception, being called by critics 'Alito's folly', is expected to appear
 | 
						|
in Alito's third draft opinion. Alito's second draft opinion broadened the
 | 
						|
allowed language to 'better describe' what Alito called 'party idiots who don't
 | 
						|
care about human life'.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
This wouldn't be the first time a Supreme Court Justice has added an exception
 | 
						|
to a seemingly concrete ruling. In Plessy v. Ferguson the often-overlooked tenth
 | 
						|
'diversity' Justice, George Freeman, added an exception to the famous 'separate
 | 
						|
but equal' rule; 'While I'm required to like segregation in order to maintain
 | 
						|
my position in this Court, I do not want to use the colored bathrooms. Shop-
 | 
						|
owners never clean them.'
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
The anonymous source also said after Alito drives his daughter home from
 | 
						|
Planned Parenthood he plans to continue protesting that same location in his
 | 
						|
'special disguise' - sunglasses and a baseball cap.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
---
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
2022-06-22
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	Dangerous ideas
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	Perhaps the homelessness problem in the United States would be taken
 | 
						|
care of if any domicile not occupied were given to someone who wasn't
 | 
						|
previously occupying a domicile. Is it so bad to force a child to share toys
 | 
						|
with which they never play?
 | 
						|
	A mowed lawn resembles a soldier's buzz cut hair. Fine, but I wouldn't
 | 
						|
want to date an army man. I would prefer to let the lawn-spiders, the bees and
 | 
						|
milkweed, and the butterflies and things like that have a home.
 | 
						|
	I deleted my /politics page because I learned people actually read it.
 | 
						|
Though it loosely reflects my current beliefs, enough that I'm not embarrassed
 | 
						|
by it, I'm uncomfortable at the thought of anyone actually caring about what I
 | 
						|
believe. Here are the good bits from it:
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	I don't hold public office. Don't fret about my beliefs, they probably
 | 
						|
		won't ever affect you.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	BITCHUTE
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	I tried to swap from YouTube to this site back in 2019(? maybe 2020).
 | 
						|
		The site administration has let it get infested with right-wing
 | 
						|
		puppets and various other muck. Plus all my favorite channels
 | 
						|
		left. So I can't really recommend it. Looks like everyone's
 | 
						|
		using PeerTube now, my only concern with that is data
 | 
						|
		resiliency - can hobbyists keep their instances going with the
 | 
						|
		same dependability as YouTube?
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	CEREAL
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
    	The milk goes after the cereal into the bowl.
 | 
						|
    	Corn flakes aren't that bad, despite their origins.
 | 
						|
    	Cereal with coffee instead of milk is pretty good.
 | 
						|
    	Soggy cereal beats out freshly poured cereal most of the time.
 | 
						|
		Exceptions are maybe Cocoa Pebbles and Cheerios. Life cereal is
 | 
						|
		especially good soggy.
 | 
						|
    	The last powdery bits of the cereal are much better than the initial
 | 
						|
		big bits. A lot of that powder is sugar and it sweetens the
 | 
						|
		milk.
 | 
						|
    	Bag cereal is just as good as box cereal. Taste-wise they're identical
 | 
						|
		and they're about the same effort to pour because the boxes
 | 
						|
		have bags in them too. The only con to bagged is that a greater
 | 
						|
		amount of cereals are boxed (e.g. there are no off-brand
 | 
						|
		Wheaties where I am) and boxes have cool puzzles on the back
 | 
						|
		(though now that I'm not a wee lass I do have a cellphone on
 | 
						|
		which I play Konami Picross instead). 
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	WRONGSPEAK AND WRONGTHINK     
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	If you're unaffected by a slur you probably shouldn't use it, even in
 | 
						|
		an educational or non-hateful context.
 | 
						|
	There are some words I'd now consider hateful I used to use without
 | 
						|
		reserve.
 | 
						|
	Personally I don't use hateful language because I don't think it's
 | 
						|
		justifiable. However, if you're okay with offending people,
 | 
						|
		consider this - you cannot grow in your understanding of the
 | 
						|
		world if you don't communicate with people with whom you
 | 
						|
		disagree. You're really going to prioritize hateful speech over
 | 
						|
		self development?
 | 
						|
	If you go on my platform and say things with which I disagree, I should
 | 
						|
		not have to host your opinions.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	Most of my regrets involving political speech involve saying either too
 | 
						|
little or too much, which is nice, because at least I didn't support some
 | 
						|
stupendously awful cause that ended up killing everyone or something. Maybe
 | 
						|
right now I am doing that without realizing, but I hope not.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
2022-06-21
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	Some things I learned this week
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	Instead of grating vegetables, you can peel very small sections off of
 | 
						|
them to get essentially the same effect. It works better if you dice the
 | 
						|
peelings after you're done. A grater will do the job much better but in a pinch
 | 
						|
the peeler will work fine.
 | 
						|
	A teaspoon is 5mL, a tablespoon is 15mL. They aren't the same.
 | 
						|
	You can never have enough paper towels. If you think you do, you're
 | 
						|
wrong. Aspirin is bad for you, acetaminophen is especially bad for you,
 | 
						|
ibuprofen is bad for you, you can have either pain or pain.
 | 
						|
	The GNU debugger is awesome. Compile programs with `-g` and run gdb
 | 
						|
[program], then execute `start`, then `step` through statement by statement and
 | 
						|
inspect variables with `print`. I've been printf(3) debugging since I was eight
 | 
						|
years old (about a decade ago). This is a total game changer.
 | 
						|
	The first pancake is always the worst. Don't be afraid to screw up the
 | 
						|
first time, instead ensure the environment is controlled so that when beginners
 | 
						|
make that first pancake the customers don't eat it.
 | 
						|
	People believe the dumbest stuff because they're so used to dumb things
 | 
						|
happening. You can't be sane in an insane world.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	Food I'm craving
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	Pizza (good pizza, not something from Pizza Johns or Papa Hut). I could
 | 
						|
make it myself but dough seems hard and I'm procrastinating learning how bread
 | 
						|
and stuff works. I also don't wanna go to the store, carry the ingredients
 | 
						|
home, and figure out what to do with the leftover stuff. Perhaps all my
 | 
						|
problems could be solved with one of those Hello Fresh startups or whatever but
 | 
						|
the point of pizza is that it's cheap and delicious and I don't wanna pay more
 | 
						|
for less.
 | 
						|
	A bagel, but I could always go for a bagel. I'd like some veggie cream
 | 
						|
cheese right now on a dark toasted bagel.
 | 
						|
	Pancakes. I haven't had pancakes for a couple seasons now. I like
 | 
						|
pancakes with good maple syrup, maybe not the really expensive stuff in glass
 | 
						|
jars (I haven't tried that stuff so I wouldn't know) but the stuff that comes
 | 
						|
in the gray-cream colored pitchers with the small handles and black caps, with
 | 
						|
instructions on the back for what to do if there's a skim on top of the syrup.
 | 
						|
Thin, Maine maple syrup, no corn involved in the process. Though Aunt Jemima
 | 
						|
(or whatever name by which she goes nowadays) is alright in a pinch.
 | 
						|
	I'm trying not to eat so much meat. The exceptions are (a) trying
 | 
						|
something new, (b) home-cooked meals by someone else, and (c) East asian
 | 
						|
restuarants. And of course food that would otherwise go to waste. I've found
 | 
						|
that limiting myself to these situations gives me a pretty good amount of meat
 | 
						|
in my diet ("pretty good" being a small amount, I eat meat maybe thrice a week
 | 
						|
at most). I don't have a moral stake in this in terms of animal cruelty, though
 | 
						|
I do believe farming animals is cruel, because I didn't kill the thing and
 | 
						|
Capitalists will never voluntarily decrease the amount of product they churn
 | 
						|
out. I just don't see a future where humans can have meat in nearly every meal
 | 
						|
and I'm trying to acclimate in advance. As past, so will pass - I'm sure we'll
 | 
						|
go back to some sort of primarily-grain diet, though maybe "grain" will be corn
 | 
						|
and corn derivatives and not much else. Meh, could be worse.
 | 
						|
	That being said, I could go for some turkey mixed with egg. In a pan,
 | 
						|
put a couple of slices (or even just the giblets left over from the slicing
 | 
						|
process) of turkey beast on some butter as the oil, and crack an egg over it.
 | 
						|
Break the yolk if the yolk isn't already broken and keep flipping the egged
 | 
						|
turkey until the egg is cooked. Serve alone or as part of a breakfast sandwich.
 | 
						|
It's the perfect mix of texture and flavor. I had this with some turkey that
 | 
						|
would have otherwise gone to waste and it was very good.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
2022-06-20: Some thinks I've been thinging about
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	The world would be a more interesting place if any biologists or
 | 
						|
researchers focusing on transmissable diseases took a look at Internet memes or
 | 
						|
"fake news" (cognitoviruses).
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	If a policy tangibly hurts people it's not a good policy. Whether or
 | 
						|
not I believe it's good, if something I supported takes food out of a mouth, I
 | 
						|
was wrong. Humans come before statutes.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	Nobody's applied the second amendment to the abortion debate. The
 | 
						|
intent of the founding fathers regarding the second amendment was clearly to
 | 
						|
allocate for the self-defense of the populace even if it may be to the
 | 
						|
detriment of an offending party. Does a pregnant individual not have the right
 | 
						|
to stand their own ground and fend off entities that will do them harm?
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	Plastic is the new lead. Humans shouldn't be drinking animal milk (I
 | 
						|
drink a lot of chocolate milk, so this is a dig at myself too). Meat is as
 | 
						|
essential to the culinary arts as sugar, but it's also as essential to human
 | 
						|
sustenance as sugar. The next "got milk?" will be disseminated through Internet
 | 
						|
memes.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	I'm not in favor of banning anything; abortion or firearms. I think a
 | 
						|
national firearm ban to some extent may be inevitable but I'm not too torn up
 | 
						|
about it. A bullet doesn't have much practical use beyond taking a life or
 | 
						|
practicing for it.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	I want a Nintendo Wii powered through USB-C.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	A holocaust will happen before 2050. This game of "telephone" that is
 | 
						|
generational education didn't impress upon this generation the gravity of the
 | 
						|
Holocaust committed by the Nazis in the 1940s. The Nazis had a fetish for
 | 
						|
documentation; the next holocaust will be recorded literally in 4K Ultra HD.
 | 
						|
In a desensitized world, will that even make a difference for the children of
 | 
						|
2160? In the information war that will be World War III, who will win - the
 | 
						|
Americans, who can't tamp down obvious misinformation such as "Pizzagate" or
 | 
						|
that the COVID-19 vaccines have microchips, or the Russians, who manufactured
 | 
						|
these rumors? "Americans" and "Russians" here are not literal names.
 | 
						|
	To me it's conceivable that gender nonconforming and non-heterosexual
 | 
						|
individuals would be targeted as scapegoats for a future manufactured
 | 
						|
"struggle" in the same way the Nazis chose Jews to be the primary scapegoats
 | 
						|
for "degeneration". Outliers are routinely paraded as examples of the queer
 | 
						|
community by those who wish to discredit it. External parties try to break the
 | 
						|
LGBT+ umbrella into the "LGB and others" or "lesbians and gays, but not
 | 
						|
bisexuals". The latter for acceptance (exceptance?) from those who conduct the
 | 
						|
former. All wins temporary at best.
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
2022-06-19: Some things I've been thinking about
 | 
						|
 | 
						|
	The UNIX philosophy ("create things that do one thing well") is a
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mandate rather than a suggestion; programs can and will fall under their own
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weight if you allow them to become too complex with too many things dependent
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on other things. From a software design standpoint I've found this to be very
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useful.
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	However, I think focusing on software complexity is treating the
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symptoms of Bad Computing rather than the disease. The core issue is that
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humans should not have to change themselves for a machine - the machine should
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only ever be changed for the human. After all, a computer is simply a tool.
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Interchangeable (right?), repairable (right?), intuitive (right?), and a means
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to an end (right?).
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	Lately humans have been having to change themselves for machines. There
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are easily comprehendable issues - e.g. "I don't have a first name, how do I
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fill out this form?" - but there are also denser, deeper problems in this
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regard - in fact, even computer literacy education is itself changing humans in
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favor of machines. Software should be designed to be basically intuitive to
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someone that's never used a computer and ideally need no further skills.
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	This probably started with the Old Engineers who were basically
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breathing computer before computers were even existent in their modern form.
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Graybeards (women and nonbinary fellows included within this word, use your
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imagination) didn't need to change themselves for computers because they and
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machina were already kin. Then they made simple interfaces for the restivus and
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hoped it was enough, and it was for a while.
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	Once we defeat the status quo, the rest will be easy.
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	The Center for Disease Control in the United States isn't perfect but I
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trust them a bit more than a bald guy on Spotify.
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	Today's Juneteenth, which is a memory to a pretty cool event, the end
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of lawful slavery in the United States.
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