2024-08-14

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+My blah has made my life worse. That's why I publish rare, clumped updates - I
+don't know if I still want people reading it. But I don't have a diary and my
+stuff outside git forges doesn't last, never lasts. Hard drives rust, SD cards
+shatter, eMMC chips fry. but there is redundancy on the Internet. And I want to
+remember what I've written. And I think some of it is worthy of others' diets.
+
+while it lasted
+the words warmed my heart
+and gave me something
+i didn't know i had
+while it lasted
+your bed comforted me
+i had never slept so well
+and i never did again
+while it lasted
+i saw a sky i'd never seen
+breathed air i'd never breathed
+heard songs that fascinated me
+while it lasted
+it meant everything to me
+in a hard year
+it was something soft
+when at last
+it meant to leave
+for a hard break
+its resolution was too soft
+and a while later, i forgave it
+
+how did trent reznor feel
+when johnny cash took
+his song Hurt
+and put more hurt
+the hurt only age could give
+and put it into the song
+performing it,
+in even reznor's opinion,
+better than reznor
+i would have burned
+red hot rage, and jealousy
+for every poem is a lover
+and the strummed chords
+a tighter matrimony
+than any could be given by a priest
+a song married to one
+that one married to a dozen others
+each one means the most
+to take it
+sacriledge.
+trent reznor is cooler than i am
+johnny cash was cooler
+than i'll ever be
+i understand why Not,
+and of course Not,
+and obviously Not,
+but if i was reznor
+i would have killed that motherfucker
+
+
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 There oughtta be more trash bins around on the street. I eat my 50 cent Cow
@@ -1096,6 +1156,31 @@ world a better place. "Gaia" is what the Buddhists call Kharma; the health of
 our planet, spiritually, physically. I gave the deer berth and let them go on
 about their evening. And they didn't bother me either.
 
+i wanna take someone
+tie them to a post
+in my basement
+in a position
+where they can only stand up
+so they slowly get
+more and more fatigued
+break them mentally
+then cut them loose
+and watch them
+stick
+around
+without external relationships
+without ambitious desire
+without resistance
+without worries
+without hope
+i wanna take someone
+i want to keep them
+alone
+but really i am
+alone
+-
+that being said,
+
 
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