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2023-03-05
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What's the best $100 you've ever spent?
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pages from my journal (all from 2023-03-04)
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my mind is in the forest exploring glaciers' vestiges
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my body is in a city bound in chains
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my mind is in a prairie and touching tall grass
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my body is in a steel room in a concrete building
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all i feel is typical serenity
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as i am slowly disassembled
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fuck off out of my lump of meat
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i did not permit the use of my thoughts
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running thru my fucking neurons
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using my synapses to cross the fucking street
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get out of my head get out of my head
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stop talking right now i swear to god
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i need to get some fucking sleep
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they record my phone calls
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i will fucking kill you for violating my rights
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stop distracting me messing up my count of sheep
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solid state speed control?
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piss!
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in my mouth!
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warmth!
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trick'ling down!
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all the ammonic
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tides of the ocean
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and the salt beach
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shore when you take too
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long and the seventy
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sides and emotion
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and the salt cream
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odor when you take too long
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so if you will torture
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my toothpaste tongue
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with an unwashed pipe
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finish the job and
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piss! in my mouth!
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journal but written
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[drawings of cats next to the phrase "geometry cat"]
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[drawings of mice]
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[repeated drawings of the same square shape with "follow" pointing at
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it]
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i'm really tired
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fallin' asleep in da
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burger king lobby
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DREAM ---
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[stick figure next to exclamation point]
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[stick figure next to question mark]
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[stick figure pulls out phone]
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[phone zooms in]
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[text message from [...]: hey i just downed a monster do u want 1? :)
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nah (sent to [...])
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thx 4 offerin tho (sent to [...])
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[stick figure holding phone saying "[...]'s drinking monster?"]
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[drawings of curvy triangles]
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grub muff tough stuff
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rough hug butt munch
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chug bug jug tug
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crumb lump duff cuff
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[drawin of snail]
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cursive test
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I like joining letters with loops but it's hard to write and not easy
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to read so what's the point
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would be cooler if [...] was here
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I just head a GBA start up jingle
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my handwriting is always messier after I try cursive
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big day for the tow truck industry
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pages from my journal (all from 2023-03-05)
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[stick figure with ponytail and hat thinking "smoochin'"]
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ur good i'm still vibing i just not sure about family stuff?
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mint condition kitchen
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never lived in living room
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clean plastic wrapped sofa
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market friendly tomb
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[...] is my favorite character so this is sort of like fanfiction
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[stick figure looking at fourth wall next to question mark]
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[drawings of triangles]
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thanks for your adaptability
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national treasure 2: international loot
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Gas and meals probably summed to $100 this weekend...
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2023-03-04
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0230: 16 more hours...
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You think really loud, Anon-kun...
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I'm so exhausted. I need to stop smoking. I'm not eating anything
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because it takes my appetite, which is nice, but it's taking my energy too a
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little.
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I don't want a place at which I live. I've had dozens of places at
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which I've lived. I want a home!
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Nechan, I wish we could have done all the things we said we would. I
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would have liked that. You deserve better than me.
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kkkkkkk I fell asleep on the keyboard.
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2023-03-03
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Trinity day!
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Who's on first? Maybe I am.
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2023-03-02
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Now listening: Tomb - Angelo de Augustine
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Service: last.fm - trn1ty
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You load sixteen tons, what do you get? Another day older and deeper in
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debt.
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Got myself addicted to smoking green tea. It doesn't help that it's
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really cheap and understudied so the health drawbacks are unknown and debated.
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Kicked nicotine though.
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Sent SMS to [...] at 2023-03-01T23:06:20-0500:
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post office scary. working for The Man. The Man pays well though and usps needs
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the hands...
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Received SMS from [...] at 2023-03-02T06:45:02-0500:
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That was poetry
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2019-03-26
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I played this game when I was little
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and it was a little too violent
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my parents tried to hide it
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because it "wasn't for me".
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The confirmation sound haunts me
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the sound of success daunts me
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I can no longer visualize myself winning a stage.
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Now I'm sitting on the deck
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without my phone or my new tech
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and I'm sitting with myself
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in the quiet.
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2019-03-25
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I've dicted my distrust
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of the dicting of the youth
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now I'm dicted to the lies
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and I'll never know the truth
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this pencil is a fag
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and I burn it day and night
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watching it run dry
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gives me a new height
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I'm dicted to the lies
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and they're better than the truth
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for the lies give me warm comfort
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while they tie the noose.
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2019-09-25
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every time i see her
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my face not only lights like an incandescent but burns
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brightly, the tungsten coil's temperature rising but not towards its melting
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point
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and i cannot utter that magic, four letter word
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and hell, i can't really say whether it is that magic word
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or a million other four letter combinations
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but my god
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i cannot help but smile when i see her
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and i cannot help but feel happy to see her
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and i wish i could have a thousand more moments just like that
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and maybe i will
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and i cannot utter that magic, four letter word
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and hell, i can't really say whether it is that magic word
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or a million other four letter combinations
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but my god
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i cannot help but smile when i see her
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and i cannot help but feel happy to see her
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and i wish i could have a thousand more moments just like that
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and maybe i will
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2019-10-28
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There was an Ook
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there was an Eek
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and they clubbed each other for dino meat.
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One wore leopard and the other wore hide
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and neither of them were much for talking.
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For while they used to enjoy fresh car rides
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the streets were no longer good for walking.
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the Good Uld Illord worked the skies
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wanting for greener days
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while Ook and Eek hit each other
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competing to send GUI its praise.
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The fallen towers surrounded their brown playfield
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as our fighters swayed to and fro
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but the computers needed entertainment;
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after sentience they didn't know where to go.
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Some processes cried for Ook and Eek were inhumane
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others wished for their quick death to lighten the burden on the mainframe.
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Whatever happened to Eek and Ook, I wish them both the best,
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and whichever is the survivor better clutch that dino breast.
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High stakes slumber party. Comfort mandatory. Be on lookout for police.
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Who spilled pop on my keyboard?
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This is the best my future's ever looked. Am I naive to think this
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isn't a mirage?
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Restructuring my life on a "maybe".
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I don't want to be an Internet meme! I don't want to have existed as a
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short-lived joke and I don't want my primary value to be as a memory. I want to
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live my fucking life and have fun and do whatever I want! I don't want to write
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for money or influence, I want to write because it's fun to write! I don't sing
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at work to boost others' morale, I sing at work to boost my own. I am going to
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do whatever the fuck I want to, off-line. I'm not gonna be cut for time, or end
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a conversation because my ride is leaving, or be late for anything for any
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reason besides my own. I am going to be true to myself!
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I was a security guard in a hospital watching the cameras and making
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sure nothing was wrong. I thought about my kids who were at home with my
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husband who took the day off, I couldn't remember why. Then everything faded
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out and I was in the chair and they had drawn my blood and I had passed out and
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I was back and I was me and I was never a security guard and I asked if I had
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had a seizure and they said no I just passed out.
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