2023-08-25

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+the voices in my head just gave me a pep talk
+i was wondering if my presence had done harm
+because my host just went away said they thought they felt pent up
+now i'm sitting here in the dark on my laptop
+
+i can't justify my presence if i've done harm
+can't justify existing if my presence won't let pain stop
+i worry about hurting everybody i love
+they say it's not my fault but would say the same if it was
+
+i'm not feeling great it's not my stomach it's my head i
+think it's the static state of my location i've been in i
+was wondering if i could get some space for a minute i
+am going out i'll be back or if not i will text you back bye
+
+i cleaned the room i'm staying in it's not my room it's its
+it's its near institution living space i've invaded and its
+floor is taken over by my shit from my backpack it is
+now in the corner so it's not so claustrophobic inducing
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+i should shit or get off the pot but i still won't turn the light on
+i would rather sit in darkness than walk over to the switch my
+laptop is light enough and i don't like disturbing the air
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